I am depressed :-(

so I guess people are wondering why I would chose a unknown model male over a prince of pris but I feel like I have known this model all my life. he is everything, everything a woman could want. its like the young police officer I met. when you meet someone that tall and big and strong and good looking with nice hair who acts like human rather then a drunken stupid druggy swamp rat you get the idea. I spend my new years in having massages and body scrubs and feet massage and tasting interesting foods and teas. I know class when I see it and as soon as I seen this male model it was like "you are exactly the sort of man that has just felt like I have known you all my life, I can feel you somewhere in my life since ever, and just had to say it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WaJNytF0gNk ; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t3VDSzmbbJc; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pCilhJ8MQiM

so I guess people are wondering why I would chose a unknown model male over a prince of pris but I f...

i am always right do not question me! I am so sure of myself I know I am always right ! do not bother questioning if I have decided its because I have picked up the cues and I know the attackers are tv media people pedophile rings with J&J and lux group and coca-cola cocaine pedos and if I want to tell tracy con job off for bullying me for her abusive games i will. if I want to tell her idiots on her show who are all con artist, actors playing a part as some game I will. I have already made it clear what i think of hetty that so called expert and where is her qualifications for her expert status???? I think she earnt them whoring! if you don't like what i have to say about priss princes and druggies too bad cuz I tell it like it is and tell the truth. and queen bitch can go shove her abuse and so can mellor and macbeth because I don't have to tolerate your bs and dirty games. you bullying dirty senile drug swilling alcoholic idiots.

i am always right do not question me! I am so sure of myself I know I am always right ! do not bothe...

well I didn't party for new year even as it is my birthday because of a selfish stalker I have no friends to share my love and time with because of this selfish coward stalker who is like some jack the ripper who is so coward can't even show his face to people and man up! anyway, I exercised instead as I like to do my workouts and just did mild tummy crunches and back arches and posture moves and went to bed at 10.30pm I don't drink alcohol and even quit sugar but had some cordial and some nice dessert but this morning woke in pain, so this happens every few months and which is why I was careful with the dumbells weights workouts in the last week but maybe I over did it more then I think. but I had to call the home doctor and most of this is from 2 car accident injuries and I was born with a slight curve of th spine which seems to run in my dads family. last new year I felt and injured old injuries and that has mad it hard because my back surgeon told me not to over do the exercising too much. but I find I enjoy exercise like it makes me feel like a real person in the heat working out to point of sweating it out makes me feel great to music. but the pain now is terrible. I am waiting to hear back from my surgeon and other doctor and get some stronger pain killers as I want to avoid the local hospital. it hurts to stand, walk, sit down get up or go to sit and laying down even hurts, I should be used to this pain. pain is all I have known while others have money and love and friends that care I am treated like a idiot when I have more going for me then most people do.

well I didn't party for new year even as it is my birthday because of a selfish stalker I have no fr...