Today, a poor lady showed up at my door asking for

Today, a poor lady showed up at my door asking for a glass of water cause she was thirsty (she claimed that she is diabetic) but i refused to gave her water and shut the door later i heared noise outside, and when i opened the door i saw alot of people in the street around that lady who was dead in the street in the beginning i felt guilty, cause i didin't gave her water, but i convinced myself that her death has nothing to do with my behaviour she simply reached her (Expiration Date) why should i blame myself? I even went later to the bathroom, and masturbated :)