I don't know what man to like because everywhere I go I get attacked or hounded and bullied by other women or other men to the point I was considering becoming a leso but its not really my scene I like men too much. I just want to get married and would marry most men but most of the men my age now remind me of the old pedophile who molested me so I feel sickened and turned off and because of weight gain I am not interested in sex much. sex is something I am only interested in when thin and I have money because I know men only really want rich thin women. the whole has been set up for me to fail. thanks ugly world for bullying me away from every men I really loved, wrecking every career dream and marriage with a baby or two dream. you wonder why I hate kate middleton and other slutty dogs like her. they don't even deserve their kids and marriages and careers that have come too easy. I just look at a female friend because most men I meet are crap. thanks joyce poorter for not listening and deliberately hurting me like this. just thanks for the abuse - why didnt you go abuse the therapist who harmed you and not take it out on a woman who needed a young man when I was young. now its all too late. I will probably die young now. I have no hope left in me to find love or employment. I always get told i have no skills how ugly i have always been. I was a ugly hated child. i was never allowed to feel like a pretty bride or mother with my own baby. you will pay for that one day all the haters are gonna pay for this! or someone will make your kids pay and their kids for abusing me.

I don't know what man to like because everywhere I go I get attacked or hounded and bullied by other women or other men to the point I was considering becoming a leso but its not really my scene I like men too much. I just want to get married and would marry most men but most of the men my age now remind me of the old pedophile who molested me so I feel sickened and turned off and because of weight gain I am not interested in sex much. sex is something I am only interested in when thin and I have money because I know men only really want rich thin women. the whole has been set up for me to fail. thanks ugly world for bullying me away from every men I really loved, wrecking every career dream and marriage with a baby or two dream. you wonder why I hate kate middleton and other slutty dogs like her. they don't even deserve their kids and marriages and careers that have come too easy. I just look at a female friend because most men I meet are crap. thanks joyce poorter for not listening and deliberately hurting me like this. just thanks for the abuse - why didnt you go abuse the therapist who harmed you and not take it out on a woman who needed a young man when I was young. now its all too late. I will probably die young now. I have no hope left in me to find love or employment. I always get told i have no skills how ugly i have always been. I was a ugly hated child. i was never allowed to feel like a pretty bride or mother with my own baby. you will pay for that one day all the haters are gonna pay for this! or someone will make your kids pay and their kids for abusing me.
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