we have all had cancer and surgery and illnesses here and there is no wage coming in this house other then pensions and no fit man to clean things while they next door have 2 wages coming in have cars and she roots around like whore with other men, like a jezabell whore without any consideration for any single women here. my sisters husband is in the filipenas having surgery for piles and stomach boils and he was forced to look after his sick father and all this family have abused him, my sister and him deserve their time together after all they have been through he is a filipena good man my sister tells me, with a daughter and I have begged the govt to allow him here my sister to be with him, he has graduated and worked on a bike and looking after his sick father and as a political minder in filipenas and she said he is the love her life and she will not let him go for anything. he is a black man and its her choice. I need a husband myself but I don't want a black man, I want a white husband, I always thought I would marry an academic or professional and he would be my prince charming, might not be everyones idea of that but he will be my idea of that. I wanted a career and children and house of my own and better health, I always looked after my health and its only because no one would give my mother or father a job we have been poor I can't afford a car and pretty hair to attract a man, I also have been black listed for a long time, I used to wonder why I went to so many legal and hospital jobs and knocked back, so did my father he wondered why he was knocked back from work. it has dinted his pride and mine also. just like not finding a husband has mentally effected me and I am sick of being told that because I am ill with a back injury and overweight or what men won't want me, or that i am not good enough for a white man or professional man. I study a lot. I could have graduated from 1 degree I decided not to if I couldn't complete law due to being bashed so much and illness I didnt want to graduate and look beaten down by everything but joyce wanted me to have nothing. she said that so much. I don't know why she could not bare to see me with a handsome young man the way david gave my sister a beautiful wedding and child when she was young. I had the same right as everyone to have that as well. I want a church wedding and its mentally effected me deeply. the scars are deep and pain probably cant be completely repaired that joyce and russo created! I should have had the right to have an advocate on my side like everyone else in the family who was helped to marry.

we have all had cancer and surgery and illnesses here and there is no wage coming in this house other then pensions and no fit man to clean things while they next door have 2 wages coming in have cars and she roots around like whore with other men, like a jezabell whore without any consideration for any single women here. my sisters husband is in the filipenas having surgery for piles and stomach boils and he was forced to look after his sick father and all this family have abused him, my sister and him deserve their time together after all they have been through he is a filipena good man my sister tells me, with a daughter and I have begged the govt to allow him here my sister to be with him, he has graduated and worked on a bike and looking after his sick father and as a political minder in filipenas and she said he is the love her life and she will not let him go for anything. he is a black man and its her choice. I need a husband myself but I don't want a black man, I want a white husband, I always thought I would marry an academic or professional and he would be my prince charming, might not be everyones idea of that but he will be my idea of that. I wanted a career and children and house of my own and better health, I always looked after my health and its only because no one would give my mother or father a job we have been poor I can't afford a car and pretty hair to attract a man, I also have been black listed for a long time, I used to wonder why I went to so many legal and hospital jobs and knocked back, so did my father he wondered why he was knocked back from work. it has dinted his pride and mine also. just like not finding a husband has mentally effected me and I am sick of being told that because I am ill with a back injury and overweight or what men won't want me, or that i am not good enough for a white man or professional man. I study a lot. I could have graduated from 1 degree I decided not to if I couldn't complete law due to being bashed so much and illness I didnt want to graduate and look beaten down by everything but joyce wanted me to have nothing. she said that so much. I don't know why she could not bare to see me with a handsome young man the way david gave my sister a beautiful wedding and child when she was young. I had the same right as everyone to have that as well. I want a church wedding and its mentally effected me deeply. the scars are deep and pain probably cant be completely repaired that joyce and russo created! I should have had the right to have an advocate on my side like everyone else in the family who was helped to marry.
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