should I just give up courses and things that are out of my comfort zone and where I belong in shit. let's face it. life is not suddenly get better and we live on fun street, right. i won't get a job from any thing I study. I won't find a man or friends. I won't make money. my books and my ideas are not liked. I am not liked. shouldnt I just stop wanting more and just stop trying to be better then the loser I am?