I am ready to quit! I have 4 children and I am married. My husband and I are not in the best of shape as far as this relationship is concerned. We have been married for almost 10 yrs and frankly I am starting to get a little fed up with him. It seems as though this marriage has been all about him. Every decision every move all about him and then when things go wrong financially like they are now, he blames it on me not havig a job! I had a nice paying job before he got his second promotion and we moved. we were doing fine when he got the first promotion and then 3 months later he got another one, (without even considering my feels or thoughts as usual.) He makes a decision to move us again. I did not say anything I just made the most of it and now here we are again struggling financially. I do not want to move back home and live with my father in law like we were before all the moving took place and besides his family just don't like me because I won't let them run my household. So now we are back to the here and now and that is my marriage. I am tired of this emotional roller coaster that Iam being put on with him and when I try to talk to him about it he turns it around like Idone something wrong and says, "then leave that is what you want to do anyway." and I never said anything about leaving. He blames me for not getting along with his family and he always looks over what they do to me. I tell him that I prefer not to be around them too long because they do and say little sneaky things that he never sees. We are financially exhausted and this move has proved to be an utter flop! but I don't say anything because he frustrates me and with the possibility of any argument I might just pack up and go. I am at my wits end and I can't even cry anymore. My life is just not like I expected and I am stuck and can't fix it. I struggle to get out of bed every morning and if it were not for my kids I probably would have left him a long time ago....I love him but I can't handle all this pressure.....I am so bogged down with responsibility and trying to stay above water that I feel so isolated. No one understands me so I don't tell anyone how I feel I just stay to myself and try to find a focus....It is so hard sometimes I don't want to wake up from sleeping with my eyes wide open because I am afraid that change will come in an instant and I might miss it......I am so tired I want my life back before all of this.....Iwant everything to be back to normal for me.....I want to pick up my dreams and goals where I left them and begin again........I want so much ......I want ....I want.......but nobody cares.

I spied on my wifes family It started out as an accident, I had gone with my wife to visit her mom, I had taken two weeks holidays that I had to use up before losing them and had agreed to do some reno work on the mother in laws house. we got there and I went straight to work, The first day I had the old closet between the master bedroom and the bathroom tore out and had started measuring for the master bedroom closet expansion, The vent for the bathroom came up through the floor in the closet and into the wall of the bathroom, I had taken the elbow off to do some stuff and didn't think much about it. The next morning I told my wife, Her mom and her sister who had come to stay since we were they also that if they wanted to they had to shower that morning because I was going to have to shut the water off at some point and move some pipes, I honestly didn't plan it but while I was in the master bedroom my mother in law went in to shower and I was kneeling down measuring and saw her feet through the vent, I stopped and looked over and saw her lift one foot then the other and saw her drop her panties on the floor, I have never really thought about her in that way much although she is a good looking woman in her late 40's, I looked around then leaned down and peeked into the vent, She was leaning into the shower turning it on and still had her house coat on, I watched as she stood up, turned to face the mirror and dropped her housecoat. Surprisingly she has a really nice body, Average build, Probably C-cups with small, dark pink nipples and is in decent shape, I watched her lift her b** and let them drop, She turned and I could see that her s* is not shaved but trimmed a bit and looked pretty nice, Her bum is quite nice, Small and pretty firm looking, Next my wife went and showered, I have obviously seen her naked hundreds of times but it was kind of hot to watch her when she didn't know I was, Shortly after she got out her sister went in, I watched until she sat on the toilet then stopped watching until I heard the shower start up, That's not my thing, By the time I looked in she was in the shower but when I heard the shower shut off I looked in again, She is three years younger than my wife and built about the same but has bigger b, I would say probably a solid D-cup and VERY nice, Big, Round and firm, Areolea about an inch and a half across with fairly big pink nipples, Shaved bald s*** which is basically perfect and a small, firm bum. I drug it out as long as I could before finally being forced to put the vent back together but I watched her mom shower 9 times and her sister 3 times since she only stayed a week. Wonder what I can renovate next time I go to visit.

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Is wife cheating???? I've been with my wife for 5 years and for the good part of it I have been unhappy. I was about end it within the first year when she told me she was pregnant. We have a son who is my whole world. He is very close to me and I could not bare not seeing him everyday. I know if we split my wife would make it as difficult as possible to see him and cripple me financially. So those are the reasons I stay with her. She is very beautiful so gets a lot of attention from men. A few years ago she received a valentines card. That night I found her talking on facebook with numerous men trying to find out who had sent it. One was an ex who is was telling she still loved, another she was virtually asking to have an affair with. She played it all down and made out I was being paranoid. Since I have found calls to ex boyfriends, flirty messages to other guys, late nights with terrible excuses. The latest one though is she went to a BBQ one lunchtime and came back the next day. On her facebook was a picture of a guys penis and she had a graze on her forearm that looked like a friction burn to me. She always says I'm overreacting, am I? Today I found contraceptive pills in her dressing gown pocket, I've been sterilised for 3 years. Is it all in my mind or am I right in thinking shes playing away?

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I've Been Keeping a Secret For 44 Years I’ve been keeping for 44 years. Lately it’s been bothering me and this is my first step in letting this secret be known. I’m a 49 year old male and I’ve never told another living soul what I’m about to write. Today I also plan to tell my wife. When I was five years old (1966), I was in the hospital for a hernia operation. That first night in the hospital room I was given an injection which made me very weak and almost paralyzed. Later a man entered the room and raped me. This rape was violent enough that he ripped my a* and bloodied my nose when he forced my face into the bed. The memories of this are still crystal clear in my mind. After he raped me, he held me forcefully by the back of my neck and put his lips to my ear and told me that if I ever told anyone he would have to kill my mother and father. Then he asked me if I wanted them to die, of course I didn’t. He left me and sometime later, I regained enough strength to crawl far enough up on the bed to press a button to call a nurse. When the nurse didn’t come I kept pressing and pressing it until she did. When she eventually came into the room, from her reaction I could tell she was shocked by what she saw. She left and brought other nurses. My hands and pillow were covered in blood. One nurse kept asking “who did this to you?, who did this to you?”, but of course I didn’t know, I never even saw his face. They washed me and changed the sheets on the bed. They spent a lot of time washing me and examining my backside. Nothing was ever said to my parents. While I honestly didn’t understand what had happened to me at the time, I knew it was something bad, I followed the instructions of the rapist and I never told my parents. I think back and wonder why the nurses, as adults, didn’t tell my parents. Did they fear losing their jobs? Did they fear a lawsuit? I suppose I’ll never know. The surgery the next morning went as scheduled. The pain of the torn a* was far greater than that of the hernia operation and I couldn’t sit without a lot of pain for weeks afterward but I still never said a word. When I was well enough to play outdoors I can remember the physical pain as a result of the rape lasted far longer than that of the operation. As I got older I fully understood what happened to me that night. I still never told anyone because I was too embarrassed. No young male wants to tell people the time he was anally raped. Then when I became an adult I still never told anyone, I just never had a reason to talk about it and I suppose I didn't want to burden others with my misfortune. Sometimes, I still have nightmares of being held by the back of the neck by the rapist and I hear him telling me he would have to kill my parents if I tell anyone. Here it is 44 years later and I’m still reliving that night. Today, I took the afternoon off from work because it was a beautiful day and as I drove home from work, I found myself thinking about that night with tears streaming down my cheeks. I suddenly realized that 44 years later I’ve still been following the instructions of the rapist. Well it's time to stop, seconds from now when I press the confess button and post this story, I’m not following his instructions anymore.

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