I know I�m a smart girl; all my report cards come home bearing sparkling A�s. All the answers I ever needed could be found books. This time the answer I seek cannot be found in a book and it scares me. I always assumed I was straight�up until Yesterday I had an HIV test and while I was sitting there waiting for the results I damn near stopped breathing. I thought about how in one instance my life could change. I realized how much he wasn't worth it and how every time he hurt me physically.