I am depressed :-(

I wanted to say but grouphug didn't work. Sometimes when I eat food, I have the urge to make my self throw it up. I have a 25inch waist.. I got that from being picky with what I ate, doing these weird exercises and walking alot. Afew times I tried to make myself throw up when I ate too much and felt ridiculously sick.. I half did but like stopped myself and couldn't. Before christmas I didn't eat for 2 whole days basically, and it's the best feeling I have had in so long. I felt pure. I gave up after a while, my parents didn't notice while I was doing it. Now they say they do when I'm not.. I'm eating like a fucking pig. I feel so chubby when I eat that much. But exercise and good food is the way forward I guess, but it doesn't feel good being slim. I want to be skinny, like bony.. BONES ARE BEAUTIFUL to me. End of.

I wanted to say but grouphug didn't work. Sometimes when I eat food, I have the urge to make my sel...

All through elementary school and high All through elementary school and high school I've longed to be popular and well liked by my peers at school and church. At church the teens would talk and f*** around with each other and don't get me wrong, I had friends but I wasn't somebody that would be missed if I skipped a Sunday. At school it was the same story. As much as I tried to fit in with these people I was accepted but still felt out of place with them. When high school ended I had already stopped going to church and my church peers were the first ones I stopped giving a damn about. Then the ones I tried so hard to impress in school. F*** em all!!!

All through elementary school and high All through elementary school and high school I've longed to ...

Friends with Benefits That I am starting to develop feelings for this friend who I have a "Friends with benefits" relationship with. I have confessed my feelings for him but he does not feel the same way. Should I continue this relationship with him or just move on? He is currently unemployed and that could possibly be a reason why he is not looking for a serious relationship yet. It should be "friends with social and income benefits or constant welfare no work benefits - they are the real makers of the world"

Friends with Benefits That I am starting to develop feelings for this friend who I have a "Friends w...