Confessions about 'Abuse'

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I have a love hate relationship with university. I loved it and hated it. I was lonely, sad, depressed, shy, shut in or closed in as a person, bullied rappantly by teachers, admin staff and class groups, I didn't fit in, I had panic attacks the whole time which often I started skipping tutorials and just going to lectures, huge lecture halls then the panic attacks started there as well after a person attacked me one day while going to university I just was having a quiet little nervous breakdown and no one noticed, no one cared, I don't think I was ever missed, and then when I went to get help I met the wrong person completely who bullied me more, joyce. my sister was bullying me, my friends were, my mum and dad were, my brother was, all my outter distant relatives like aunts, uncles, cousins etc all hated me. I didn't have good friends network that was the worst part, there was no network that stuck by me through thick and thin, I stood by a lot of people in thick and thin and later regreted it. when I needed things no one was there for me.

I have a love hate relationship with university. I loved it and hated it. I was lonely, sad, depress...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

what has annoyed me the most is most of my sisters hangers on friends ended my friends and I wanted my own friends who cared about me and only me, not her, most of the men I went out with she chose for me I didn't like and she didn't like and they were her husband's male friends and I wanted to meet men and have my own male friends and female friends. all of them always end up abusing and hurting me and my sister loves that because that way she thinks she is the loved one if she has more filipeno friends. soon I am considering ringing joyce poorter up and abusing the shit out of her to stop her from her games I swear I will pay someone to kick her head in and kill her if she doesn't stop her crap. she should have more to do with her spastic dogfaced like then butt into my personal life ruining my life my health my career and my love life which is none of her dogfaced business. if I ever get married I won't never invite her whereas their would have been a time she would have been a choice as a brides maid or matron of honor like a few other people now I really don't know who I would have as all the female friends around me have abused me so much I just don't forgive them, even if they think I do forgive I don't, its only to cut them down later if I do. but I just wipe people and never really welcome them back now. I don't see the point of a friendship with anna and emma and none of the choirs, I sent a few emails to those bitches just to let them know how much they hurt and abused me. they are all crazy. I want nothing to do with ken and rick and russel and frank, they mean nothing to me what so ever. I have no need for those sort of men in my life at all.

what has annoyed me the most is most of my sisters hangers on friends ended my friends and I wanted ...

Abuse, Hate

I actually want to travel to find a man from overseas to marry cuz all of them here are a complete bloody useless waste of space deadpan wankers poofters, I am against gay marriage and I don't apologise for it, god didn't intent it and wait til wounded men want gay divorces and accuse men of rape and battery and forcing them into marriage etc. I am against gay marriage because it just makes it harder for women like me to find a husband. I mean you would swear I was the most vial woman in this town and I think I would be one of the more sexually moral and shy and modest women, I got up to a little silly things but I mean I really truely resent the way men have treated me here. I resent being ignored as a teen the way I was when young men SHOULD HAVE BEEN ASKING ME OUT BETTER MEN THAN WHAT WAS PUT ON DISPLAY FOR ME IN MY TEENS. i resent the way the churches have been towards me and a lot of people. I don't support gay marriage at all. I live at home because I have no husband, no man will get off his hole to know me, and the losers I have really liked who have don't put in enough effort, the losers I hated dragged me down to hell and it was hard to get rid of them to say "just fuck off" the better guys ignored me, I expected a man to buy me jewellery and take me out often. no man so far has lived up to my expectations, only a few have gone close and they seem to be ones that I never get sexual with, others I am glad I never got sexual with and one germ user nutcase ken I regret completely getting sexual with. while the men I like other people ruin it for me. I don't want to be around stupid people anymore. I know it might sound awful but I don't want to be around disability spastic abusive people anymore. I know even before I was in the car accident people seen me as spastic and more so after the car accident I was seen as a pathetic thing!

I actually want to travel to find a man from overseas to marry cuz all of them here are a complete b...

Pride, Abuse

I always thought I would marry a professional or academic teacher but it just seems that I am the one always ignored as if I am so low IQ since I was a child the "spastic" and "retard" labels were something I learnt to live with at school and just by how relatives treated me, the kids at school were mean and would just say the words but the relatives were more passive however the message came across loud what they thought of me. I think most of my life its been pretty one sided that I have always made the mistake of speaking well mostly of others, even down to joyce her daughter called her a slut and whore and I said "oh no you are not like that" but I was wrong, I learnt to laugh at most of the negative labels but there were and are still times it hurts and as I have got on more and life not in a situation I wanted, like I wanted to be married and with children back 20-15 years ago I feel "gee people really must see me as so spastic - like as if she could marry or expect this or that?" she must be a real spaz etc I am sure they think it about me more and more now, I don't understand why people are suck assholes to kind people like me. I just think I should more of a mean bitch to people but it does not come easy to me or my conscience to be nasty rude deliberately hurtful or vendictive or even provocative, I think I should have been I might have been respected more by other women and men. I think I was too shy, too easy going and too conforming for others abuses but I never knew that it was ok to be rude and mean and deliberately evil. I should have really stabbed the knife in to a lot of people and regret not doing it now. the worst part of having a too well exercised conscience !

I always thought I would marry a professional or academic teacher but it just seems that I am the on...

Abuse, Hate

isabelle was right you are a slut whore retard. even your own daughter thinks your a whore spastic dog joyce. smerky cunning clever clever joyce !!! taking down people but have you wondered where all your emenies go. the more information I get on you the better I really do feel about myself! I hope someone kills you and hangs you for the abuse you have done one day. your insane evil joyce poorter. dirty woman.

isabelle was right you are a slut whore retard. even your own daughter thinks your a whore spastic d...

Abuse, Hate

not feeling well so staying in bed reading all day. wow, I actually dressed up a bit to go out yesterday. not much confidence but just so want to lose weight I don't eat a lot so thinking about not eating at all.

not feeling well so staying in bed reading all day. wow, I actually dressed up a bit to go out yeste...

Abuse

i made a formal complaint about the sailing rubbish sent to me. I found it insulting.

Abuse

how can someone so spaz get such a huge oversized ego as that dumb bullying bombastic bitch kelly anyway? what ever happened to manners and politeness. her and margie were plotting with anita against me with people. she was setting me up to be abused and hurt I knew she was doing something evil.

how can someone so spaz get such a huge oversized ego as that dumb bullying bombastic bitch kelly an...

Abuse, Hate

welcome king kong kelly! ting tong whore! bitch bully fat mongrel sneaky kelly. all that "Im a cute little fat runt act is all a act and she bullies bullies bullies, controls controls controls, fighting women for married men when she already married and wants other married men and what men see in her retarted thick spaz goegly glasses I don't know that fat oversized tongue and that smerk on her face all her facebook pages she is a dirty little sneaky arsed troll dog! good for nothing bully. telling what I am allowed to say to my doctors and lawyers, know all about my tablets and expert in everything and nothing. too dumb to see she is so behind the 8ball no one but garry could love her, her hero garry she was trying to push on to me I didn't even want to know the tards.

welcome king kong kelly! ting tong whore! bitch bully fat mongrel sneaky kelly. all that "Im a cute ...

Abuse, Hate

no one can beat kelly ting tong hagabagdag spaczers! that bullying bombastic grunting pig fat controller telling everyone what to do, acting like she is so much more clever the everyone else when she is clearly slow in the brain and bullying amnoxious slutty dog guts!

no one can beat kelly ting tong hagabagdag spaczers! that bullying bombastic grunting pig fat contro...

Abuse, Hate

joyce is a stealer and cheat.

Abuse, Hate

she is stealing men from me joyce is trying to steal men and friends from me, and she has even tried to steal doctors and churches on me, she has no morals and will openly lie "I would never say that to you" yeh, right you evil slut. you caused so much trouble my doctor said I did the right thing reporting you fucking clients and fucking in clients heads to keep them coming back to get money is pretty fricken low act. while your fucking their boyfriends and husbands on the side joyce. making them think they are worthless and to blame for everything in their life, you twist words around but it still comes out the same "your to blame" with you. and I don't believe your principles are correct. leaving home did not help me I tried it and it did not work and I came back home just like my sister did, like a lot of kids do. you don't even have answers for your own spastic face life joyce whore tard little spastic woman joyce! tard whore!

she is stealing men from me joyce is trying to steal men and friends from me, and she has even tried...

Abuse, Hate

i never wanted to take my complaint about the gyno to anyone cuz I can't prove it its like trev working for him with all the gloves over the place after touching patients feet, but I hope fucking whore joyce is happy she caused all this fucking shit, ruining my fathers career and my career and education, she has left us living in poverty and squaller for over 2 decades now with out full time income coming in no one in the house able to hold down full time work and struggle of paying bills and everything. I hope she is happy for getting me raped and the lives she is ruined and hurt. I mean at the end of the day, study is hard to complete a degree and actually get income back from it. and she thinks she is so clever cutting down peoples educations but it wouldn't be any gravy train for her to do a level professional internship or medical degree or anything, all she cares about is her ass and her fucking money, I met the girl she had a huge fall out with over similar abuse she was doing to me. fucking men and fucking women and talking abusively and dirty games and guilt and the stockholm syndrome she was pulling on me, its like you only get a complement or reward system from her when you obey her and prove her theories to be correct and all the time she fucking in your head and you have to get out to save yourself.

i never wanted to take my complaint about the gyno to anyone cuz I can't prove it its like trev work...

Abuse, Hate

the police and my doctors have told me that little children touching and kissing other little children is not the same as pedophiles, if it were every 14-15 year old who has a girlfriend/boyfriend would be pedophiles, no court of law recognizes abused children accountable for things adult pedophiles saying sexual games they teach you is ok, its not the childs fault at all. its one thing if a kid literally attacks another childs genitals mutiating them and using iron hot rods or batteries up their bum and violent cutting and abuse, but seriously, a little child or 5 or 11 kissing, touching or dancing with another child, or calling them a boyfriend and sharing lunch with them at play group or school is not the same as a being a pedophile. a therapist has told me shirley and virgina in the support group were abusing me telling all this rubbish trying to make me feel guilty copying the things the pedo was doing to me with other kids as games. they said shirley and virgina had no right putting that guilt in my head and they were being abusive towards me.

the police and my doctors have told me that little children touching and kissing other little childr...

Abuse, Hate

fuck off scum!

Abuse

she/he takes on my angry emotions so it goes around and around. takes on all emotions of others around she/he so its like a company of multiple personality disorders here, a marriage of cluster b, diphead, shitbucket, vomit and dogfucking pds constant urine and faczes they sleep and dance in and eat it. sorry but its too much for me.

she/he takes on my angry emotions so it goes around and around. takes on all emotions of others arou...

Abuse

Confessions about 'Abuse'

not feeling well so staying in bed reading all day. wow, I actually dressed up a bit to go out yesterday. not much confidence but just so want to lose weight I don't eat a lot so thinking about not eating at all.

i made a formal complaint about the sailing rubbish sent to me. I found it insulting.

how can someone so spaz get such a huge oversized ego as that dumb bullying bombastic bitch kelly anyway? what ever happened to manners and politeness. her and margie were plotting with anita against me with people. she was setting me up to be abused and hurt I knew she was doing something evil.

no one can beat kelly ting tong hagabagdag spaczers! that bullying bombastic grunting pig fat controller telling everyone what to do, acting like she is so much more clever the everyone else when she is clearly slow in the brain and bullying amnoxious slutty dog guts!

joyce is a stealer and cheat.

fuck off scum!

of course I bought up the topic of dirty money then i guess its "Look out! " cop a punch!

look what you made me do!

bark like a dog fuck like dog everyday joyce, you know its your natural position and enjoyment joy spot

have the fucking bucket