Confessions about 'Abuse'

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just because I wear red, or green or navy or black or silver, or purple or gold or gypsy or business, or dresses or pants or stripes or light blue, or orange or pink or white does not mean a thing about you ken. it does not mean I like you or want to know you and I am not chasing you. lets just recall I rang police when you were stalking my neighborhood and stalking me around shops. I called police when I seen you stalking that young school girl at high school and you were in a white van and she didnt want to know you just like I don't want to know you. my family and I are never gonna want to know you! WE WILL BASH AND KICK AND ATTACK YOU.

just because I wear red, or green or navy or black or silver, or purple or gold or gypsy or business...

Abuse, Hate

I've always known I'm gay and a top. Ten years ago I was 15, and my neighbor asked me to watch her 10 year old son Terry after school as she worked to 8 pm each night. He had blond hair which seem long for a boy, a slight build and was fem looking. We got along well and we used their pool every day, I played football and was very build up. It was easy getting to Terry, I would sometimes swim naked and could see him watch me. Also I was blessed with a 8 inch cock. He didn't swim well and I would have him hold me as we when in the deep end. He would get scared and hold me tight, then one day in the deep water I kissed him. He was confused so I kissed him again and again then he responded holding the kisses. I took him out of the pool and we went inside, he was shivering. I lead him to the bathroom and turned on a hot shower, stripped him and myself so we showered together. I slowly soaped him up. Lingering and rubbing his ass and little cock. Terry started breathing hard. And his tiny dick was hard, the more I rub his asshole the weaker his legs became. By instinct he lead forward and looked back at me. Then I slipped my middle finger in his ass. He gasped as I worked it in and out. Soon he was pushing back to meet my finger. After a few minutes he wimpered softly and he had an orgasm the first of his life. Terry looked at me and I kissed him, then sat him down on the shower bench. I stood in front of him and began jerking off. My cock was so hard, he stared at it. As I got close to cummings, I took his hands and made him hold it, guiding him to jerk me I was so turned on that I came. It hit Terry on the chest and face he was stunned but kept jerking. Finally, I took his head and guided it to my cock, Lick it I said. he held back but I moved forward and his lips touch the head, and slipped into his mouth. Again by instinct he reached as sucked it. I pulled out, and kissed him, and said I love you Terry. Do you love me ? He was shaking and quietly said Yes I love you so much. That started it. Soon it was summer and I was watching him all day. It did not take long to get him hooked on anal masterbating. By the middle of July he was sucking my cock and swallowing. And finally in August I began fucking his ass. By age 12 he was a complete bottom wanting anal all the time. I'm 25 now and Terry is now 20. He lives with me as my bottom bitch. He is kept naked all the time and i lock a butt plug in his ass so he can be ready all the time for my cock. His life now revolves around my cock and cum and bring my personal bitch and cum dump. I give him what he desires and what he deserves. Cum and abuse during sex. And so you know I really do love him, I hold him tight at night and spend hours kissing him.

I've always known I'm gay and a top. Ten years ago I was 15, and my neighbor asked me to watch her 1...

Abuse, Gay, Sex

I'll be your receptionist. I love screeming at people on the phone its a complete joy to abuse people over the phone and scream at the to fuck off fuck off fuck off and hang up.

I'll be your receptionist. I love screeming at people on the phone its a complete joy to abuse peopl...

Abuse, Hate

I hate spastic shirley little girly of 6 years old with her six year old mind and bullshit. retarted old slut bullying hag.

I hate spastic shirley little girly of 6 years old with her six year old mind and bullshit. retarted...

Abuse, Hate

as if this hopeless case like me could win the lotto or get a husband or job, those things to happen to other people but I am not allowed them. everyone else is allowed friends and husbands and jobs and cars and houses and holidays and weddings and kids but me. why am I alone in this abuse? why don't you have the abuse for a change!

as if this hopeless case like me could win the lotto or get a husband or job, those things to happen...

Abuse, Hate

can you see all the signs you put up are not for me mellow yellow sallow. fuck off and fuck a 20 year old chick and get gone user! I don't love you and never will, never could and never will. your only good for bashing and you will be attacked and murdered by my whole family if you come near me ken. fuck off loser!

can you see all the signs you put up are not for me mellow yellow sallow. fuck off and fuck a 20 yea...

Abuse, Hate

Starting at 4 years old, when ever my mother would go out for any length of time my father would bring me up to his office in our house attic. Dad owned his company and worked from home almost every day. My daughter/dad love started over the Christmas holidays of that year. Mom was at work and dad was home, I was sitting on his lap. Then he kissed me on the lips but it was different. He kept kissing me getting me to open my mouth a little more each time. Soon my little tongue was in his mouth. I really liked kissing dad, I soon felt his had under my dress gently rubbing me between my legs. It felt strange but good. Five minutes later he slip my panties off, we stopped kissing and it was very quiet. Dad licked his pinkie finger and slowly started moving it up and down along my pussy. I didn't know what he was doing but it felt good. He kept licking his pinkie when it go dry and then rubbed some more. This went on for 15 minutes, I was watching him do this, and I was breathing harder I felt very hot and very warm down there. By instinct a leaned back so his pinkie would enter me as he moved his hand. Dad realized what I was doing and would party insert it in me. Within a few minutes I was breathing very hard and fast. I closed my eyes,and held dad's arm , and suddenly i felt dazy yell Dad! Everything got dark. I came to a minute later, my pussy felt so good. At 4 my father had brought me to orgasm. He said your such a good girl, I hope you liked it. I said yes, I was scared but I want it again. We repeated it several times a day for the rest of the vacation. On the third day dad I were both naked after mom left for work. He taught me to masterbate myself and him. I liked seeing how big his dick got and see him cum. So that how it started, i was still not in school so we had time to play sometimes into the night as mom often worked late. When she traveled on business which was alot, I slept in dad bed think I want to be his wife. As time went on we did more things oral started at 7 anal at 10. One day mom came home and told Dad she was leaving us, and wanted a divorce as she was in love with someone else. She said I should stay with Dad as she was moving to New York. I was not really mad with Mom, she was only around 4 or 5 days a month and never had time for me. With mom gone, I told Dad I was his wife now. He smiled and said you have been for years my sweet heart. At 14 he took my virginity and now 25 years later we relocated and are still together and lover. We have 2 children, and live like we are married. I stayed with him as an adult of my own free will. The sex is still fantastic, we fuck for an hour at a time. And we still play the masterbating game with me sitting on his lap. That makes me cum so hard.

Starting at 4 years old, when ever my mother would go out for any length of time my father would bri...

Adultery, Love, Abuse, Marriage, Sex

For 25 years I was my father's sex toy. From age 7 he used me sexually. Making me give him head. He took my virginity when I was 9, he demand sex several times a day. When my periods started my ass was fucked. He forced me do every disgusting sex act you can think of. Using my pussy, mouth and ass for what ever got him off. He passed me around to other men, made me fuck dogs and made me do porn to earn money turn me in to a BDSM slave. The worst part is he trained my body to always cum while doing these fucking things. It got to the point that no matter how he used me I began having squirting orgasms. One time in a mall I was 15 and looked at another boy, he pulled me aside and slapped hard several times and I came soaking my mini skirt. He never let me wear panties so my skirt was completely wet, then he made me walk to parking lot . I was so humiliated stand there waiting for the elevator I came again as he had trained me to be a bottom how craved humiliation. Last winter he died, and I was free. But at 33 I'm completely fuck up. I never went to high school or had friends. And have no family. I've tried sex with a dozen men since he died, but I can't cum or get wet. The bastard has made it impossible to cum without him. I hate him for making me this way. But I hate myself even more for wanting his touch again, for wanting to be abused by him for being a worthless slave in love with her master. Why did you have to die Daddy, I miss you so much.

For 25 years I was my father's sex toy. From age 7 he used me sexually. Making me give him head. He ...

Love, Lie, Abuse, Hate, Violence, Sex

10 years ago when I was a 12 year old boy, I spent the summer at camp. My parents were very religious and never told me about sex. I also never had seen them touch or kiss each other. I was small for my age and very feminine looking, and at camp my hair was now almost to my shoulders. I was having a lot of trouble and being bullied by my bunk mates, so I was moved to Tom's camp counselor's cabin at the end of the lake which was out of sight of the camp for a while. We were away from everyone, and he was very nice to me. But on the third night he said let's go swimming. We went to the lake and he stripped naked, his body was so strong. I was in a bathing suit but soon I was cold so we came out and laid on the dock. I could see his great naked body in the dim light. I was shivering a bit from the cold water but also from wanting to touch him. He looked at me and said your cold, let me hold you. Then he pulled to him. I was like a little doll in his strong arms. He stroked my head and I felt his cock getting hard. Then he pulled my bathing suit off and we were naked. Your so beautiful he said, I was confused but felt so safe with him. He got up then carried back to our cabin. The rapped my arms around his neck and placed my head on his shoulder, like a girl would. He laid me on his bed, I looked at him, and he knelt down and touched my belly. Again he said your are so beautiful, and his mouth went to my small cock. My body reacted on instinct, my back arched pushing cock upwards, he sucked for a while and I was hard. Then his mouth moved to my ass. He licked around my hole then he inserted his tongue, and fucked my virgin ass. Back an forth he went I was squirming in pleasure after an hour, I suddenly felt light headed and my cock felt like it would explode, it then blacked out as I had my first orgasm. I came to Tom was in bed with me holding me What happened? I asked confused by everything. You came and I swallowed your cum. It tasted so good. I said didn't understand. Tom then explained when a man cock get hard and it is played with for a while it shoots our cum. If it happen when it in a girl she can make a baby. I was quiet for a while. I asked but your a man, why did you put it in your mouth. He looked at me and kissed me. I liked it and kissed back. He then said, sometimes I like being with a man, and you are so beautiful, I just wanted to do that to you. I looked at him, and said am I beautiful like a girl? He said yes. I pulled him to me, kissing him. For the first time in my life, I felt normal, being touch that way. And wanting to touch him too. I pulled back, I was so scared, I was crying, but said I want to be a girl for you please reach me. His cock was long and hard. He said relax and do what I tell you. He guided my head to his cock and had me luck it, soon I it was in my mouth. He had fantastic control but after 15 minutes he said I'm going to cum. He pulled out of my mouth and I saw him cum on his belly. I was amazed, as I had never seen cum or a cock Cummings. He then strikede my long hair, now lick my dick so you know how cum tastes. I hesitate, but he guided my mouth to his still hard dick. I closed my eyes and lick, and found I liked it. It seemed so natural to have cum in my mouth. I licked all, then he said now off my stomach, with I did. We then held each other and fell asleep. The rest of the summer was wonderful. No one bothered me, and every night I learned more about love making. I late July, Tom started dressing me in girls clothes at night, I again felt so natural to be a girl. Finally o In early August on a rainy night, Tom took my anal virginity. It hurt, but I soon wanted it constantly. We became reckless and addicted to each othet, and would sneak off during the and have anal sex in the woods. A week before camp ended I was crying as soon I would be away from Tom. He kissed me and said he had a surprise, he was hired as a teacher in my school and we could still be together. I hugged and kissed him and we made love all night. I loved being his girlfriend. Ten years later we are still together, no one ever discovered us. I moved in with him after I graduated high school. At that time I started living full time as a girl. I started hormone treatment and now have wonderful natural and sex boobs. Tom and I got married. My family disowned me. But we live each other so much. I not sure if I will have the transexual surgery or not. I want to be a total woman for Tom, but he said I already was. Deep down I know I was always a girl. Tom was my shini Knight that rescued me for life as a boy. Pk

10 years ago when I was a 12 year old boy, I spent the summer at camp. My parents were very religio...

Love, Abuse, Gay, Marriage, Sex

I hate people who have abused me. I hate my neighbors and hope the suffer in hell someday soon for what they have done to me.

I hate people who have abused me. I hate my neighbors and hope the suffer in hell someday soon for w...

Abuse, Hate

should I ring and threaten to murder or bomb someone to give me a job? would that work?

Abuse

sick of this itchy pain. I blame yana for causing me this, oh yeh like I found out that kersheed was behind some niggra abuses on me and had to yell at her - she was doing a cover for jason and depti and were plotting an abuse on me. shame on u'ole! demons be gone! I stand up for myself, all I ever was was nice to you til you attacked me and took things too far after 2002. yeh you know who you are you mental idiot.

sick of this itchy pain. I blame yana for causing me this, oh yeh like I found out that kersheed was...

Abuse, Blasphemy

the rapist ken is a likely suspect as a stalker. but then so is relatives like my brother or sister in law, cousins, neighbors, politicians who attacked some women and they know it could ruin his political career but we all know lammingtons are weird. something does not add up and I seen a link with his office, the women club and also sallys dental clinic she is a receptionist and nutrajerks products and saraleones and emma = link equals ruthless calculating stupid violent abusive people !

the rapist ken is a likely suspect as a stalker. but then so is relatives like my brother or sister ...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

I was not interested in the games those choirs and shirley anita kelly and margie were playing. I don't have time or interest in stupid senile peoples dumb disgusting deviant games. you are gonna get caught with your pants down and caught out for stalking and abuse. I know your are a bad person shirley and maybe that doctor is also. no doubt he may try to use his so called loose charm on women after the fact, after his abuse and games but he has a lot to prove to me that he is worthy of my time before I go gaga over him. I am not completely convinced that all is so nice there in those choirs and medical practice and games of abuse are going on. only time will show evidence if any. causation and link are rather explicit and too co-incidential to be just a radom mistake of shirley and anita, kelly and margie and something did not add up at all. all these people were up to no good and had altera motives and it looks like they were helping someone to abuse me and steal my clothing and things and these so called pretty men you have to watch them, some attractive men are out and out murdering killers and have no scruples at all. how do I know if davo or macb or someone code named phil/ricky was not a very dangerious handsome killer? I have to consider this before I trust as something did not add up. shirley made a mistake being in that choir when I joined something told me there was some game being plotted when john said "the year before 2 girls were competing in the choir and we are glad they have gone" and I knew then it had to be a similar plot or pattern of events. this person repeats their pattern of abuse in those choirs.

I was not interested in the games those choirs and shirley anita kelly and margie were playing. I do...

Pride, Murder, Abuse, Hate

tonight I have the first time in years just spent the evening on myself- doing my skin with masks and scrubs and self facial massager and now I am just going to have a green tea, chili and carrot soup and just try and relax. the first time in ages I just dedicated the evening to me rather then study or other crap.

tonight I have the first time in years just spent the evening on myself- doing my skin with masks an...

Pride, Abuse

I don't like kelly being abusive towards me. kelly is a evil person and all that pretend cutie act is a lie. she has a husband called garry and yet women have called her a slut because she flirts and she bullies and plays the passive agressive and she is looked for any excuse to attack me after anita would not help me. anita only wants choir listening to her complaints she doesnt want to be anyones real friend unless you can get her something she wants. I said to kelly- I just can't take anymore of the abuse going on in the choirs with people throwing books and then I find shirley the bitch there who told me to go away from the doctors surgery when I was sick and needed help and then anita was hiding and playing games I just don't need to be part of those silly games. I don't have time for that bullshit!. I knew anita and shirley wanted to get rid of me and I knew margie did not like me, she didn't care but she wanted me to listen all her issues with all her ex husbands and she has kids, had great careers and you I don't need those sort of people as friends. I thought kelly was more genuine but it turns out that she was out to undercut me I think I can't prove it but I just don't need to be part of their games and lies and circus acts. I don't have the time for their bullshit. I felt I was steering the choir in the right direction I seen it could go- I wanted to see the choir get ahead in social events at boutique wine resturants and events, and I specificly chose family orintated companies for sponsorship. I targeted media outlets that were suitable and not over the top for them. I choose medium scale businesses and family products and not rubbish. seriously kelly was just a bully in the end, she should be greatful to have garry and stop getting involved in my personal life and I didn't like her trying to shove garry at me and putting the phone on to loud speaker. I thought kelly was better then that. I guess I made a mistake I thought she would be someone who could be a friend but I never seem to have female friends for long, like I thought emma was better and she said a few things that upset me- maybe I took it too personally about smelly bums and a florist friend she felt was using her cuz I did floristry assist short course so I thought she ment me. then I seen her kids and they looked like bowie and I just don't want anything to do with that guy. he didn't give me a job when I needed it and destroyed things and he has to be stopped from trying harm me. I don't envy emma or any the women I have met in the last 2-3 years put it that way!

I don't like kelly being abusive towards me. kelly is a evil person and all that pretend cutie act i...

Pride, Abuse

I can assure you I am nothing like russo and lawyers, I am nothing like mel or sally. I can't help it if I wont tolerate drink driving and speeding and her bullying. I am just not a woman who tolerates that behavior from men or women. I never send nude photos of myself so if someone has any they have got them by peeping tom in windows that is illegal. I can't help it if I have a low tolerance for non-sense and lack of care for others. I can't help it if I don't like recklessness and I guess I am a rather conservative person. my pets matter and my plants and I wanted a family just because sarina can't deal with that and is jealous of me wanting more out of life and all her abuse on so many victims doesn't justify her to me. I don't like recklessness and people who are bouncy insulting. sally bullies people too much that is what my therapist said about her.

I can assure you I am nothing like russo and lawyers, I am nothing like mel or sally. I can't help i...

Abuse

I think people have made too much out of diaries and writing out dreams. good heaven I could have written or been a soap opera by now.

I think people have made too much out of diaries and writing out dreams. good heaven I could have wr...

Abuse

I want melissa to stop abusing me. I just don't like women like her, they are trouble, so many babies and men and career advantages and its a bit like russo, you get sick of seeing them put on their fake acts like as if they could be genuine women ever! really!

I want melissa to stop abusing me. I just don't like women like her, they are trouble, so many babie...

Abuse

I get annoyed by guys who make out- they are interested in me and yet they put in absolutely minimal effort. and then go "oh I am thinking about giving up on you" and I am like "I couldn't actually tell you were interested!" wow, hello like show you care by actually doing nice things like calling my home or turn up and ask me out to dinner, send flowers, be a secret admirer who comes across better then the rexona BO guy. I sometimes think I must be seen like him? I am not sure. but what is the point of makingout you care when you have not called to my house to see me and actually asked to speak to me or sent me flowers or asked me out! seriously guys its not mind science! I don't like fakes. yeh, I am at time complaining and you would too if went through the crap I have. you could show more genuine care to get your message across! this what I don't understand about legal and medical professionals and other difficult people like busy guys in business etc. you have to put in some effort to get a woman to actually feel and know you like them. for god sake. can't you work it out?

I get annoyed by guys who make out- they are interested in me and yet they put in absolutely minimal...

Pride, Abuse