Confessions about 'Abuse'

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wang said "don't worry about your illness, it will get better" being the expert on everything that he is- ?? - I said sure well I think I will find another doctor then, thankfully not all asians have your attitude. don't worry about having a clean house. don't worry about all the stuff like clothes and junk you buy piling up all around you so much you can't move in the house. I leave the house to avoid looking at the junk. all I need is a roof somewhere far away from the cold night air- oh wouldn't it be lovely! to have a nice clean house and a husband and someone to care about me, and give me a lot of me and love time! break even time, holiday time, over time pay packet, social time, I can't wait to meet so many people I am so sad and lonely, I want to meet so many people and shake their hand and I went to aged homes and held crying old mens hands and went away sad at night alone crying for them, and the disability people. fuck me life is a bucket of shit. when I am sick I can only really think of myself. my needs for once- my surviving cancer and desperate to have a baby- can men sense my desperateness to be free of a nutter like ken and find a husband and go on some cruises and holidays and meet fun new people. I want to meet lots of people and be liked. would that offend anyone? I want sex and love. I want a man to protect me and love me. I want a clean house and all my clothes and shoes and hats and bags and things in order, I want a big kitchen -I am sick of a pokey little peebox of a kitchen. I want a big garden and space to have fun outside without neighbors gwarking.

wang said "don't worry about your illness, it will get better" being the expert on everything that h...

Pride, Abuse, Sex

she is so forgetful all she wants to do is go shopping she leaves purses and food at checkouts and is so forgetful. she is 74 and its becoming beyond annoying. she sickens me her farts stick, the way she eats yogurt literally makes me sick. eating with her mouth open and doing things she never used to do you can tell the brain is going at times. and all the doctor wangle could say was "just keep shopping" like don't worry about the house or fixing it, don't worry about study and a career, don't worry about money and bills where will the money come from? don't worry about a clean house or a good holiday, just keep buying her silly $2 tshirts and rubbish. she could cut back a lot of spending and save for a holiday. I want her to cut back n buy all cheap healthy food and save for holiday and cleaning the house... someone get it through to her! why can't my parents get jobs at 70 anyway? other people have had to.

she is so forgetful all she wants to do is go shopping she leaves purses and food at checkouts and i...

Abuse, Hate

social engineering should be a crime really because its getting a group of people or victims to be placed on targets that might not be their own choosing.

social engineering should be a crime really because its getting a group of people or victims to be p...

Abuse, Hate

went to an exhibition yesterday that was so-so. i had a face peel and just want to lose weight and have massages.

went to an exhibition yesterday that was so-so. i had a face peel and just want to lose weight and h...

Abuse

i want to cry. someone please hug me and listen and take the time to care please.

Pride, Abuse

i love you M but we are worlds apart. i am blocked off from so many people and all i want is new opennings and friends and enjoying life. so that doesn't include the abusive people like kk and k.

i love you M but we are worlds apart. i am blocked off from so many people and all i want is new ope...

Pride, Abuse

why don't they try a chemical peel for other areas under local or general anesthetic?

Abuse

can you love someone and still want to harm them a little? cuz you are angry at their bad behavior? he could be nicer!

can you love someone and still want to harm them a little? cuz you are angry at their bad behavior? ...

Pride, Abuse

I am sleeping with a waterbottle tonight I am in so much pain and my eyes are still stingy from the chemicals.

I am sleeping with a waterbottle tonight I am in so much pain and my eyes are still stingy from the ...

Abuse

Here is my heart with all my love They both belong to you Year after year, I'll love you, dear No matter what we go through When your hair has turned to silver I will love you just the same I will only call you sweetheart That will always be your name Through a garden filled with roses Down the sunset trail we'll stray When your hair has turned to silver I will love you as today Always it seems I've built my dreams All bound around you, dear And I'll confess, my happiness Means having you always near Through a garden filled with roses Down the sunset trail we'll stray When your hair has turned to silver I will love you as today ohhh you bastard! well its different! someone might make a mix record of billbo someday.

Here is my heart with all my love They both belong to you Year after year, I'll love you, dear No ma...

Abuse

I love pushing the pets and people away from me, screaming at them making them feel uncomfortable like people have to me!

I love pushing the pets and people away from me, screaming at them making them feel uncomfortable li...

Abuse, Hate

I hope all catholics land on their ass! seeing you did that to me you get it back dirty skanky creepy ugly catholics. I hate catholics. dirty dirty catholics.

I hope all catholics land on their ass! seeing you did that to me you get it back dirty skanky creep...

Abuse, Hate

I hate the catholics. I hate the mater hospital and they have done nothing to help me enough. I hate them!

I hate the catholics. I hate the mater hospital and they have done nothing to help me enough. I hate...

Abuse, Hate

I was a hated little child at 3 years of age. the hate grew as I got older. people have always hated me, I take things personally and want revenge. I can hate back.

I was a hated little child at 3 years of age. the hate grew as I got older. people have always hated...

Abuse, Hate

as I am getting older I have less and less belief in god that it exists. Its all rubbish. look what you fucking spastic useless god has done to me! if god existed there wouldn't be hell on earth and your abusive catholic church of fridge people! full of crap. I hate you dirty skanky bastards.

as I am getting older I have less and less belief in god that it exists. Its all rubbish. look what ...

Abuse, Hate

i don't know how much longer I can suffer them out. this whole situation.

Abuse, Hate

I always need to go toilet when I get worried.

Abuse, Hate

well she said she was hurt by people questioning h paternity, well how do you think I felt people were doing it to me! I had to shut up and take it.

well she said she was hurt by people questioning h paternity, well how do you think I felt people we...

Abuse, Hate

I am pissed off. I was expecting to be liked at college and find a nice young man to date. I was expecting to get a job at university and married. I was expecting to be liked at the clubs, I was expecting to be liked at church. its all been the rosey show. and all her retarted friends at her wedding who didn't give a fuck about her at all or any of us. I wish I had told them all to get the fuck out of our lives earlier. not one fucking cunt thought of me. I wanted to attract better men and I was expecting better men to like me. I was expecting better career and education options. a house and family of my own. friends that cared about me. so where are the cunts?

I am pissed off. I was expecting to be liked at college and find a nice young man to date. I was exp...

Abuse, Hate

if kelly college had of given me my paralegal diploma I would have married frank but because they wouldn't give it to me and worked just as hard as frank I thought no! I will not marry you - you'll hold it against me one day and I was worried about aids etc from the rape and did not want to give him that and no one would help me, doctors would not help me enough.

if kelly college had of given me my paralegal diploma I would have married frank but because they wo...

Abuse, Hate