Confessions about 'Bu'

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its very strange of you admin to try to pull this dirty little stunt after the bullying you have done to me. I am not in love with any rapist and whats more I am sick of k copying mysister, my mother now. wow that is a real turn up for the books to my therapist? you're a nutcase. ##### off, its too noble of you after the torture and abuse you caused really.

its very strange of you admin to try to pull this dirty little stunt after the bullying you have don...

Abuse

of course your suck a selfish rich dirty old man john laws you wouldn't know what it was like to give up your life to look after someone elses child. you wouldn't know what it was like suffering out this abuse. you bully spastic old dirty old man. so don't you DAM WELL START ON ME YOU SON OF A DIRTY UGLY SLUT!

of course your suck a selfish rich dirty old man john laws you wouldn't know what it was like to gi...

Abuse, Hate

I gave up university 4 times. 1st when I was bashed and when I was ill and due to money not affording books and the stress to my health. I got into a nursing degree and didn't take it up I knocked it back. I didn't feel I had enough intelligence to do science based courses, I didn't think I could cope with the stresses of the job. I gave up law because everytime I sat in policing or legal classes or court cases while studying it just upset me witth my own child abuse and rape traumas. I had no friends the whole time. study was lonely. life has been lonely. I gave a lot of courses in pathology in 2006 due to illnesss, I gave up a mediation and arbitation diploma when I got cancer. I gave up a few other courses. I tried to do dental 3 times and just couldn't financially afford it and medical bills and their bullshit at the colleges.

I gave up university 4 times. 1st when I was bashed and when I was ill and due to money not affordin...

Abuse, Hate

I decided to drop out of university because I was not getting anywhere I questioned if it was worth everything and not getting the rewards and respect I deserved. I was insulted by the rudeness of legal services and the law society and other legal companies I asked about doing volunteer work while at university and I gave up because I was often looking after my sisters child when she was sick.

I decided to drop out of university because I was not getting anywhere I questioned if it was worth ...

Abuse

when I was sick in 2005-2014 reminds me of childhood when I was 10 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fxEqIt-NUSY&t=161s

when I was sick in 2005-2014 reminds me of childhood when I was 10 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=...

Murder, Abuse

I don't know I think even adults struggle knowing where you fit in when your bullied and pushed around everywhere and don't have employment and good healthy relationships. I became more confused when I got to 35 not married not having kids or job and questioning why did I bother going to university, why can't I get ahead? worse than when I was a teen. if you're not working and not a mother by 35 in the awful country Australia I live you're a nobody that a lot of doctors won't treat properly and with respect and with dignity, you don't get the same access to legal rights or medical access as other people and special "mother" treatments and treated like you know anything. unless you have given birth here you know nothing and are good for nothing! a lot of single mothers and obvious disability people with server disability don't know their boundaries and limitations here they are not taught enough "sit down and mind your own business and shut up" it really makes you feel hurt, weird and like you must be extra stupid when deformed intellectually disabled people want to give you advice as if you have never had a thought of your own. I was at university I don't know about kelly if she did or didn't but did she ever stop to think I had tried that and already thought of that. I am clever enough to know I don't know it all. but intellectually disabled don't.

I don't know I think even adults struggle knowing where you fit in when your bullied and pushed arou...

Abuse, Hate

your supposed to be ashamed of yourself! that is what is expected of you! do you get that?

Abuse

I just asked a deadbeat customer if she was done throwing a temper tantrum, so we could discuss her paying her bill like the responsible adult she wrongly claims to be.

I just asked a deadbeat customer if she was done throwing a temper tantrum, so we could discuss her ...

Abuse, Hate, Sex

the poxy pathetic wannabe dirty scammer radio station at bayfm - to begin with john laws on there, look most people aren't gonna come out and say how they feel but their sick of seeing faggot asses like john laws who has to be a poofter! i mean he is so over blokey for words and as my sisters first husabnd would "a complete fucking idiot!" he is annoying, boring, dull, out of date and a studpid old fart. I am at least honest with what I say! and other people think it too and just humor the tard fucking retard he is. when your that old you should be pushing up cow pad daisies to say the least. old and ugly and senile and useless. there are a lot of better people around who could do better! and who actually need the work. so that is all I am going to say. its not like this guy has not had his day and milked it a bit too far after all these years. retirement would be fair dinkem aussie modesty mate! if you ever knew the meaning of the words.

the poxy pathetic wannabe dirty scammer radio station at bayfm - to begin with john laws on there, l...

Abuse, Hate

I have been considering finding a new female gyno somewhere else. someone I can trust. the last one who did surgery on me I didn't really feel trust towards her. I want to make a clean break so I see doctors my other doctors or ex doctors have never met and don't now. so I have privacy and my own sense of personhood.

I have been considering finding a new female gyno somewhere else. someone I can trust. the last one ...

Abuse, Hate

it insulted me the that priest said certain things to me that I thought was presumptuous to expect me to go without for their loser church that was wronged me and lots of girls.

it insulted me the that priest said certain things to me that I thought was presumptuous to expect m...

Abuse, Hate

if you jason is a nice person he isn't, he lies, he has abused fans and then wonders why people see him on drugs or drunk and they gossip about him to to me, so you learn to avoid idiots, right, he would throw water in fans faces one girl had a slurpie like drink and he squeezed it to spurt water over her face and women came up and slapped them. they were rude and crude. you soon learn to avoid shitheads who are fake and rude and I don't even believed his father died - he is probably someone like that patell freak that killed patients - these foreign doctors . I admit jason was often nice to me and I was nice to him but a lot of people told me he would say to some rather inward girls to fuck off, after he invited them for drinks. so I some of these thinks I didn't see first hand I felt fearful he would abuse me after hearing things like when michelle told me he was openly taking drugs and being stupid and pretending to rape some roady. its not what I think is nice. I don't care what others think of me but I just think some people are fakers and gamers.

if you jason is a nice person he isn't, he lies, he has abused fans and then wonders why people see ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

i am thinking about being a bitch to people who come up to me or anyone, i am sick of being everyones caring over considerate of others feelings friend. my therapists and a few counsellors told me to tell a lot of people to fuck off so I did. stop being so nice to people, be deliberately mean to more people make them hurt. it will make me feel better they said.

i am thinking about being a bitch to people who come up to me or anyone, i am sick of being everyone...

Abuse, Hate

we all want to teach lessons to everyone we met or work with or live with. lesson after lesson. people up the street, people you walk passed , teach them the oliva lesssons of life. lesssons lessons lessons. all confusing to me! spastic senile old slut con artist.

we all want to teach lessons to everyone we met or work with or live with. lesson after lesson. peop...

Abuse, Hate

I stopped going becuase I got sick with dysentry everytime I ate the food there or shook their hands and it kind of takes the enjoyment out of doing it. I was told not to bother doing volunteer at the dirty mater hospital in 2005 when I applied because of germs and viruses. but I just avoid the place anyway now because it makes me sick. I hate hospitals. they are full of evil nazi gas chamber doctors and nurses and the ambulance are the same. sorry to say it but that was my experience, very rude and disrespectful and the opposite of everything they advertise. they abuse a lot of patients, to them abusing victims of sexual abuse and sexual assault child trauma appears to be one of their hobbies and I find that disgusting and hope they all end up in a gas chamber themselves, its not their place to be judge jury and exicutioner to people when they don't even know the full story. how would it be if I went around teaching lessons to every person I walked past or near or spoke to? so who are these fools to do that, its a mental disorder so they shouln't be doing the job and should be locked away. and most of them are spastic. sorry but a lot of medical people are spastic. even with qualifications they act retarted a lot. I have seen some so called clever people do some abusive and really spastic things in my time. so what makes you think you should be respected more then the people you abuse? or how would it be if people abuse you, anyone that walks past you up and teaches you all these oliva newton-john lessons , the lesson after a lesson apon lessons and lesssons and bullying and lessons and punishement and more oliva lessons, lessons lessons lessons from a spastic liar fraudster con artist. and i am supposed to be impressed. no thankyou. she needs some harsh lessons dirty bullying bitch!

I stopped going becuase I got sick with dysentry everytime I ate the food there or shook their hands...

Abuse, Hate

your below me kelly your dwarf your a bitch, your spastic and your a bully nutter, what makes you honestly think you have a right to think your worth any man when you are so fat ugly and deformed? think about it! what a joke you are !

your below me kelly your dwarf your a bitch, your spastic and your a bully nutter, what makes you h...

Abuse, Hate

I am just sitting back laughing at others soap operas. I hope they fall on their asses for butting in when they don't know the full story and what a bitch melissa is and what a evil abusive family they are and how they abused me. certain dwaft retarted people and albino retards should mind their own dirty business that loos funny to me, their calamities and failed marriages their roots and dumps and short stop jokes they are. yes I am sitting back laughing at their freak faceshows, their freak ugliness! its good to know others have to suffer, I am glad kelly's place burnt that spastic little loser should have been burnt to death in it because she is a nutter, like margie like anita the albino spastic twisted deformed body and face dog. I laugh at them. I think they are a huge joke. margie didn't want to hear yet she forced all about her husband and kids and her mother and her violent words on me well margie the music teacher and her spastic old john need a kick in the head they are all spastic people. spastic spastic spastic abusive nutters. you can't know the hate I have for lesbian shirely dog and old ugly gossipy mole slut who should have been burnt at the stake for her ugly face and ugly ego. can anyone tell me what makes these stupid spastic people think they actually deserve an ego or life? when they are so below everyone else!

I am just sitting back laughing at others soap operas. I hope they fall on their asses for butting i...

Abuse, Hate

in 2006 -2012 I developed this vomitting disorder with every period each month, I had terrible dizziness, stiff neck, episodic projectile like vomitting that would last for a few hours and it would hit out of the blue, the rashes drove me nuts and I got sick of taking fucking bloody doxy all time, so I went off everything. I was even getting choking fits everytime I ate raw carrot and I have always had a choking phobia and swallowing phobia that would start up or eating in front of others I am grateful I don't have most of these things anymore. but all the MRI's on my brain and back and neck really proved nothing or at least that was the doctor's and brain/back surgeons story not sure if I buy it I just humour them and agree with them, cuz they don't want to hear anything else.

in 2006 -2012 I developed this vomitting disorder with every period each month, I had terrible dizzi...

Abuse, Hate

recently I had a lump come up in the vaginal libia area and my gp gave me some ointment but even now the lump has gone but its itchy and bleeds from toilet paper and sanitary napkins. I want to go back to my specialist in the city but its so expensive all the specialist i see, I need teeth fixed, xrays and bloods and then ent and psychologist and remedial massage and physio, all this adds up. I have to space out appointments to afford them. people don't understand that on a single disability pension i get very limited money. it was even worse when on unemployment and austudy was less again. I regret bothering ever going to university it was the biggest waste of govt money and my time. I should have gone overseas and partied and found a husband back when it was in to marry. I see the mistakes now that I made but I had no proper help from anyone.

recently I had a lump come up in the vaginal libia area and my gp gave me some ointment but even now...

Abuse, Hate

I suspect someone I know stirrs me while I am asleep. Nobody knows this just me. I go to sleep feeling normal, only a bit sleepy of course and weird dreams of needing emergency surgery at my old age. When getting closer to falling asleep I begin feeling afraid and some weird sensation in the middle of my back jerks .However wake up almost EVERYDAY feeling good... something dreams are not upsetting me and jerk happens in my sleep no big deal I go back off snooze. There is a possibility that maybe it is also an finanical worry needing money and social relations that upset me and I wake upset over life and no relationships or baby and doing that. I pray and ask God to protect me from this entity that is stopping love and fortunes coming freely my way because there is a massive abundance out there of it and we are not all looking for the same thing, but not always my faith is enough. I wish this evil thing stopped draining my heart and soul because I cry often alone , every night or when around other people and hide it, I go to the toilet to cry or to a room or away somewhere under a shade.

I suspect someone I know stirrs me while I am asleep. Nobody knows this just me. I go to sleep feeli...

Love, Abuse, Hate