Confessions about 'Bu'

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the other night I made a coffee salted caramel pudding with a chocolate and espresso glaze sauce over it and I never heard a complaint I was expecting to. he hates more then me and mum and yet we are the fat ones. we eat most lunches only 1 slice of bread or fruit salads or fish or baked beans with cayanne pepper and cheese or pumpkin seed breads occassionally. I have not even opened my mix master and I have a bread hook and I want to make some home made bread, mum is very good at that sort of thing and christmas puddings and I am ok at macaroons and florentines and cream swans and making chocolate but I love jellies and fruit a lot. we eat oats and chai and apples for breakfast but my dad has to have 2 breakfast sittings first with his mushrooms and egg and whatever left overs and then he eats what I leave because I only ever allow myself 1/3 of a cup of oats and apple for break fast and then I have a lot of water and oats expend. we love egg burgers and horseradish or just fresh raddish from the garden and mint from our garden. I do look forward to my camomile tea with cider vinegar and medicated honey and lime or lemon juice and all my vitamins, I made made up these drinks and I made my dad drink a seaweed green shake the other day with chocolate coconut water. it was bloody awful as most green powders are, this one has ancient sea minerals, artichoke and this and that with mint and apple flavour.

the other night I made a coffee salted caramel pudding with a chocolate and espresso glaze sauce ove...

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lauchy lacky lee lacking in all things - please stop stalking me at the house over the road. your a creep freak and police will nab you you little shitter! stop stalking me, your bad news to everyone. your not attractive to me, your a child! your not welcome in my street. move on bratt! your not clever and your dirty!

lauchy lacky lee lacking in all things - please stop stalking me at the house over the road. your a ...

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you are gay

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ken and certain bullies have also been deliberately stressing me and putting yellow and blue images around me to symbolize they want me to get cancer this has been happening a lot where yellow bomby cars turn up parked outside our house to go over to the drug house over the road. just like sarina russo deliberately having her show off parties on new years eve on my birthday when she could have them any time, as a deliberate attack on me , the bayside family christain church were doing this sort of thing as well so was nutrimetics and also that wendy with her fashion show and she wouldn't listen to me, but what would I know? right I was only doing a course in it so what the hell would I know about fashion and the timing of a show and economy. just like the blue crane being deliberately run over while I was exercising out side on my birthday was a clear satanic message that someone wanted to kill me if I continued exercising, worse still is this idiot rapist (who his wife needs to learn to stop being so lazy and stop stealing single men while they are both raping virgins and murdering people cuz they will get caught) he has some weirdo idea that he can induce a relationship where there is none and his copying my sister and if I wear navy or any colour he places that as a sign I am "reaching out" but I am not to him! and also him making out he is a gyno and vet and what next will the idiot come up with ? please chase mirarah carey not me. you want your singer chase her or some young belle of the ball royal but stop bullying and abusing me just because I don't appreciate your rape and drugging me and causing a stroke on me, like wake up to what you have done and learn boundaries and limitations please ken and anne you spastic criminal bonnie and clyde clutz fools, or is bob and cheryl ugly ? you never helped me, I told police your in on rapes together.

ken and certain bullies have also been deliberately stressing me and putting yellow and blue images ...

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Australia has had too many of these wealthy foreigners with dark skin making out there more important than everyone else. lisa from the church does not know suffering and being left behind, she has a degree, a husband, kids and cars and pool and worked in canberra for an asian she does not know suffering for since she has gained all these advantages. she puts me down and like I am less of a woman and she extra special before she has had 4 kids, I never asked her to have kids. she doesn't deserve all she has. I don't have a car or husband, or degree, or kids in bands and important winners of education awards and a husband working. I don't own a pool or house. I can't afford holidays and yet all she did the whole time was go on to me about how hard it was to be married and have a baby. I can't feel sorry for you if I tried.

Australia has had too many of these wealthy foreigners with dark skin making out there more importan...

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joyce poorter has never once said she is sorry never once admitted she abused me, infact she denies everything I claimed over and over to several different committees and counselling and psychology boards within australia and health complaints commission and health ombundsmen etc she has never once admitted her wrong or the level of physical and mental and emotional harm she caused me for over 20years and her ongoing abuse and attacks, she is a jealous old witch, she did not want me marrying and having children she did not want me graduating from university, much like sarina russo and the two of them must of had a real bitch giggle planning their attack on me with all their riches and fat and wrinkles and what they wanted was for me to be this old lonely loveless women with no money and no husband or kids for some reason they felt the need to take their abuses out on me, I did not make sarina a single ugly old hag, I didn't cause her problems, my family don't even know her and they don't want to know that hooked nosed witch either. she gets on her videos and tv shows making out she helps people she does not help. she is a born bitch and will die a born bitch from hell. the devil made her and the devil can have that ugly greek lebense marfia freak nut. those people do not know morals, all they care about is money and ego. russos caused me so much suffering. I did nothing to this witch. I don't know if she knew werner but that is not my problem I was not related to werner. if you want to attack a man who did war crimes and how that family abused me for years, don't take it out on me if he wronged you. my father doesn't want to know ugly sarina no one here likes her. she is a evil animal. she has no morals and taking money from the poor all the govt funding she has gotten for nothing and lies and fraud, I bet a lot of average australians wouldn't mind having her riches and there is nothing special about this old toad on bikes. or should I say is an old bike! she probably pays young men to ride her like a bike and she seems to have got together with joyce poorter to having me living this weird life I of isolation no friends no husband no income? and has it made her back asshole any happy? she is still a mongrel old cow who can't get out of her nappy she pays people to abuse women she is jealous of. I am not her only victim. and she does not deserve friends or fame or the money she has. she deserves to be deported back to where she came from her dirty country from hell and she should be forced out of australia for crimes against humanity on abusing disability and victims of crime and abusing people who were sexually abused as kids has to be the lowest act out. you really hit the bottom of the barrel there sarina and don! its super low, yeh they must have had a real little giggle get together on new years eve. she keeps wanting people to hate me how people hate her. and a lot of little people she abused do hate this russo woman. she can't pay off everyone she should be in jail. deport the bitch to Lebanon send her via a mislise bomb too so she exspodes everywhere . I say! I am insulted that she parties in brisbane on my birthday on new years eve has some glory statement to her ugly black cunt! and cunt face! it insults me!!!!!!!!!!!! this woman is a vile satanic thing. I have nothing nice to say about her and her corruption. she is a satanic evil demonic trouble maker who should be exicuted ! die russo dog die. because you have harmed a lot of people in your offices and your a fraud! a big big big fraud stealing money!

joyce poorter has never once said she is sorry never once admitted she abused me, infact she denies ...

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I am sick of being made to feel less of a person because I can't cope with qld tafe yet I passed most university subjects I did. I decided to drop out because of nervous breakdowns after assaults and all the child sexual abuse trauma memories and not one person stood by to support me, I did everything all alone like I do most times. no one has ever been there for me and why would it change, I have had small bits of employment here and there and can't hold down work or relationships of any kind and no one ever listens to my needs enough and I am sick of it. I need a better life. I was expecting a marriage and child just like my brother and sister and for some reason this dirty old town didn't want those things for me. they wanted me to be a sad lonely isolated shell of a person with nothing and no-one no income, no identity no friends no self respect - is this what this town is really about, its more then the tall poppies syndrome its a form of genocide. and I don't understand why the royals and media and medical people and famous people have been so abusive and rude and insulting when they are not much chop yourselves. I have no bedroom of my own, no kitchen oven or stove in our old house works, everyone has had cancer and illness and even when we had money we were bullied senseless and abused. my father and me are still very traumatised over what katy did to us and we don't understand at all. we don't understand why famous people abused us either like diana and other rich people. we just don't understand why we have been stopped from having good reliable full-time or part-time wages for the last 35 years why were blacklisted in work and socially for over 35 years, my parents and I don't understand why I have been not allowed to have a husband and children - yet everyone else in the faamily are so over indulged and spoilt like dirty over-sexed violent sexed animal relatives who ruined our lives on us. we don't understand how dad and myself why we were expect to give our best to be abused in return. it makes no sense. no of it makes any sense. we know one thing is for sure the royal family do not support or endorse any support or recognition of help to victims of child sexual abuse we know that ! all they do is bully you more. you will never see a royal back any child sexual abuse group ever and they are a very rude bunch of people, I don't know why diana was abusive towards me in 1978. she awlays needed someone to pick on and bully like most of these famous people who are selfish spoilt and psychotic insane people who murder, they kill for their kids they kill for work, they have dirtier secrets than you could imagine. we don't understand why we have been abused the way we have been. our hearts are damaged perminantly!

I am sick of being made to feel less of a person because I can't cope with qld tafe yet I passed mos...

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I have no nursing or medical degree knowledge and no teaching degree and no teaching skills or teaching experience, never taught and I have no debts to anyone, I rarely overspend because I live within a budget of poverty, I have no workforce skills I was told by Russo, I am good for no job! that is what I was told by them. rick said if you don't have work you can't have a husband or get married and he is american so he has to be right about everything!

I have no nursing or medical degree knowledge and no teaching degree and no teaching skills or teach...

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he constantly makes threats at me to harm me when I speak out against his abuse.

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I had met ricky martin when we were kids at my grandmothers farm and Iam sure it was him. I can't forgive ricky and william for what they did to me. ricky is a sicko bastard, nutcase who has no concept of womens feelings and needs and life experiences. I was shocked how joyce and diana and people who just ignored what was happening to me as a kid and teen but what william and ricky did really out did most and I don't like david oakes either. I don't want to see that satanic fool again either.

I had met ricky martin when we were kids at my grandmothers farm and Iam sure it was him. I can't fo...

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I believe kirks softdrinks and bugsy and joyce and my brother and cousins and his godparents and diana an william have been behind most of the abuse i have gone through, my father and mother have gone through, my sister has gone through. the general attitude has been because we are girls, the child sexual torture we went through doesn't weigh as important as a boy child being abused and my mother said this makes her sick, because she said what its saying is girls a born to be raped and molested and to shut up, my mother had to put up with dirty old men putting their hands up their legs in the qld public service just to get their pay each week. it caused the women of the telephone exchange to fear payday and the trauma of avoiding being molested and rape statements or proposals put at them during the 1950s-60s. and sexual assault just toget a pay cheque wouldnt be tolerated today!

I believe kirks softdrinks and bugsy and joyce and my brother and cousins and his godparents and d...

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one nurse at the local hosptial attacked me verbally about the population growth in the area as if it was my fault, I mean I haven't been given the priveledges that nurse has to have work or breed she was a maarried whore with kids, I have never been married and don't have kids. another nurse accused me of wanting to look in the triage examination room at other patients being examined which was rubbish why would I want to look at fat ugly old creepy hulkenstein sick fuckers when I hate hospitals anyway and I was more concerned about myself not others. then one nurse told me to get off the property and not come back and accused me of being rude and I didn't do anything wrong. this also happened at wello pt one misfit tried a stunt on me accusing me of being rude just because I asked when will the doctor see me because he was over an hour late. and told her I am not being rude to you I simply asked a polite question. she was trying a game on me to try to stir me up I could tell her gaming plan! and then one doctor at one of the hospitals said stupid things at me like look around and behind as you walk out the doors??? this was weird. another doctor got verbally attacking at me over medications that were causing problems and my mum was with me and she was just as insulted as I was - the ambulance told me to "get a new hobby" as if being sick and needing help was a choice? none of this made normal common sense its just hate crime and bullying and discrimination! doctors and medical staff who are "hate crime operants"... and it nothing justifies this and worse things that they were doing to me!

one nurse at the local hosptial attacked me verbally about the population growth in the area as if i...

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part of terrets sydrome is doing repeative things like telling the same stories over and over, or flinches and nervous twitches or uncontrolablly barking like a dog, I was doing that for a while and had to just stop going to family gatherings because I couldn't eat infront of them without shaking and getting nervous twitches and uncontrollable or just out of the blue barking like a dog or making rooster and car break noises because their are no words left in you to say because no one around you is making any sense when they should but noises of pain. some poeple uncontrolably swear a lot or have other deficeits, I feel I am lucky that some of my nervous twitches did stop after I seen a specialist years ago but I avoid situation where I think it will set off, like I will not talk about sex around circles, I avoid classes that set out in circles where everyone can look at you. I often have little cues I do to calm myself or let my mum know, I don't seem to have the same trouble with public speaking as I did for over 35 years of my life even when doing drama at school or reading I was trembling inside, but once I went through a few bad health problems I just became less and less afraid of public speaking and quite like it now so long if I am talking about something I know. my fears seem to be things like going for pap smears and blood tests or needles (if I do it myself I can control the pain better) and hospitals still, I admit I am terrified of going on a cruise and flying is ok but it sometimes is a bit fearful for me. I have never liked water and I still can't put my head under water or even wet my ears without fear of ear infection trauma, I seem to think every woman is out to steal any man I like from me due to katey abusing me. I have no real sexual confidence in myself and I became sexually shut down from all the pedo abuse done on me as a child. I find sexual situations difficult but want a romantic love in my life and I feel that if I did have that and a child it would ease my anger and frustration and pains a lot, to just have a kitchen of my own and a real true friend. I don't trust a lot of therapist and doctors anymore. and I fear hospital still and I find it hard even looking at the building and that fear of death I went through and questioning well when is the big bang gonna happen in my brain or heart? no one ever liked me much because i was always so ugly! and unworthy unlike everyone else around me.

part of terrets sydrome is doing repeative things like telling the same stories over and over, or fl...

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currently the austrlain govt attitude appears to be they just people or women like me to sit locked away in a room without friends or care and left to masturbate all our lives with any form of romantic love and meaningul emotional committement and its just not good enough to be treated like this and for a country or state to say that its ok for churches and colleges and doctors and everywhere I go to be bullied as some sexual slave to someone I don't want to be with. this was the exact same thing that these freaks did to me as a little child where I was a sexual captive to this dirty old pedophile for over 10 years from the age of 4 or 5 and its just not on! my parents are not tolerating the bullying and abuse from rsl and military and doctors, I tell my parents everything, even when we argue I tell them everything that people are doing to me or what they are saying. somedays I will rehash and repeat stories and things joyce and katy said to me over and over and over at my mother and father and other people trying to resolve it and I still can't in my head until I have the life I wanted back years ago I think I will continue rehashing and talking about it til its delt with and I am allowed some fight back and someone to listen to me and support my needs and my feelings in all this. because this is hate crime. that is what it is. its ritualised satanic occult on-going repetitive hate places I go so you learn not to trust. having a stalker watching every page i am on what online courses I do, where I shop or whatever is just an invasion of privacy and dirty ! its not helping me. its not making me feel love for people and infact its doing the exact oppposite where I am starting to hate and mistrust everyone and I could look at a man and not even feel love or a crush on him because I hear those things joyce and katy and rick and ken and the filipenos and my sister and so on, and other people said to me all over a new guys face now.

currently the austrlain govt attitude appears to be they just people or women like me to sit locked ...

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AND DON'T PLAY DUMB WITH ME! YOU DAM WELL KNOW WHAT STERILIZING VACCINE I AM TALKING ABOUT! YOU ACT LIKE A DISOBEDIENT CHILD ON DRUGS AND I AM SICK OF YOUR SHIT!

AND DON'T PLAY DUMB WITH ME! YOU DAM WELL KNOW WHAT STERILIZING VACCINE I AM TALKING ABOUT! YOU ACT ...

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there is no man here to fix flies screens and things that have broken in this old decrepet old pisspot of a scummy house. it was shitbox the day we came let alone near 30 years down the track. and my sister and I are expected to live in squaller and hovel and like pigs for all our neighbors whore daughters. well no thankyou!

there is no man here to fix flies screens and things that have broken in this old decrepet old pissp...

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getting aggressively annoyed by telstra lines and phone and internet falling out all the time. its annoying and they will lose customers over this. it feels like bullying and tempering with peoples lives are they deliberating blocking calls coming through???? and why?

getting aggressively annoyed by telstra lines and phone and internet falling out all the time. its a...

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the bully thy abuse themanipulate they they like having people fighting over their affections rather then standing up for one moral and william, diana and most of the royals and these doctors do lie and cheat. they have power and they know how to miss use it and get away with their bullying just like those nazi german mongrels, joyce and my cousins and my godparents who never wanted to know me. these people do lie, they do cheat, they do scam and they do steal other people's limelight all the time because they have narcissistic machiavellian jeckle and hyde personality disorders

the bully thy abuse themanipulate they they like having people fighting over their affections rather...

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my sister and I don't have to be your spastics mengele twins experient joyce poorter!

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women being nazi sterilized by german and wang and indian doctors is disgusting act of abuse. there is no justiification for this inhuman soul destroying on going abuses and I owe nothing to anyone. I have no debts at all. I have no convictions. the only time the police have come to me is when I have made complaints about people bullying and assaulting me or not honoring their contracts with me after I have paid money. its only common courtesy and common morality to honor a business contract.

women being nazi sterilized by german and wang and indian doctors is disgusting act of abuse. there ...

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