Confessions about 'Bu'

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when I was 7 years old she shoved a baby;s bottle brush down my throat for swearing and copying the paedophile who was always swearing and saying dirty things to me. my mother denies doing this, every so often her watch glass breaks and ends up in my food causing me pain, I am sick of my abusive family, my father often grits his teeth waving fists at me and appears to hate his two daughters who came out and told about his uncle who molested us and him. my brother is very abusive towards me and my sister is also very violent and abusive towards me. I have a breaking point and needs too. all my sister does is get married all the time and my brother seems to think he is MR BIG in a career which a huge pay cheque which my sister and I have never been allowed to have. I fear for my health and safety in the long term. I can't tell people that my father is a server alcoholic just like his mother was. my mother is very aggressive and has been violent to me and so can my dad be. they often pass off every complaint I have about neighbors or for some reason my mother was very protective of Dr L who was being quite rude to me, while he did help me with my illness he was also rude and untrusting of my description of symptoms, I have also experienced this with D W who every time I see him he charges a fortune to be told rubbish and how OLD I am, I told my therapist I was considering not going back to dr W if he because of his comments to me insulting me which are unwanted and unneeded and not right from a doctor with morals, once again while he is friendly enough there is a degree of flippant insults that offend and are un-needed. I see Dr t briefly once a month and I am grateful to him. I told my therapist who is much older then this other surgeon who keeps going on about how old I am that he must think old and want me to think old because my therapist is very opposite and even other doctors I have seen tell me not to think old being 40 is not old-old! and that surgeon is older then me? my therpist agreed and I said I might look for another speicalist surgeon who won't speak to me like that and he agreed. I am rarely taken seriously by police or doctors or government officers if I complain about abuse at the local Hospital or by paramedics and I am not an alcoholic or druggy and I think I would have to be one of their easier going and complying and obedient patients when they ask me to do things but I do not appreciate their verbal bullying and put downs. a lot of the time when people speak to me they are very abusive and I went through this as a child at the catholic school in Ipswich and other places and I have a breaking point too, and I was always a polite and easy going student with teachers always made a point of getting on well with people and I get sick of my feelings and my needs and my experiences being minimized or being accused of being a liar. one teacher was always calling me retarded at school and she was also doing this to my sister and other students on a regular basis. my brother's godparents one was a nazi in ww2 in Kassel Germany (they were rich medical doctors/pharmacy company in germany) and knew Hitler and they treated us kids like we were crap. it took a while for my parents to believe me about this. We were told he committed war crimes in Russia and dated a movie star in german who were nazi and a whole heap of lies that we were always low-minded and poor to them and I seen their kids ruin a lot of parties with their sexual dominance and controlling. all these nazis do it treat us like we are mentally retarded and they get people to bully us. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xxoabyEUJas I went through very similar things and so did my sister, doctors were making us wait for ages and making out we did not have illnesses, later my sister was found to have fibroids on her uterus and other issues and I was being ignored with middle ear and heart pain. I don't have anyone to talk to other then my doctors to help me, and I sometimes feel I am just not getting the support and help I really deserve or need. I don't expect people to believe me anymore because few people ever have.

when I was 7 years old she shoved a baby;s bottle brush down my throat for swearing and copying the...

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you caused all this prince william and diana. I am not jennifer aniston I can't afford all the added extra medical and financial back up to have a baby at 47. my health is always tilting and I have to take large dozes of a lot of suppliments to just stay afloat. I don't think you stupid mf's get the picture I kept trying to tell all you mf's I needed a husband back in 1993 that was when i was expecting to marry and have a baby. you took those rights away from me. and I am gonna hate you to your grave for what you have done you mongrel dirty cuntfaced asshole shitbag! one of my cardiologists was pregnant later in life and I could see she was struggling with her breathe doing heart examination on me, I wondered which one of us would die first in the room, I thought god I will have to call out and get someone to help her she was so heavily pregnant and I was so weak and sick and struggling to live. and I am sick of certain MF doctors minimilizing my issues and my pain and hurt and the neglect and abuse I have been through. I don't have to tolerate their flippancy and bullshit just because they are doctors- they are still losers and assholes and ugly and old themselves who keep making comments about how old I am when they are older! I don't want to be a dirty doctor. you stole my dreams away from me, you all have to pay! I did nothing wrong to anyone to deserve this abuse. my therapist has said I am not to blame for anything that pedo got me to do or what bunnypoeta got me to do or what joyce got me to do and what she failed to. joyce is the big problem who refused to help like a honest genuine counsellor would have. and I do not know how that thing lives with herself and her conscience for what she did to me and my sister and family. how does that thing life with herself taking her shit out on people when she should have taken her shit out on the people who abused her not me. I did nothing to that spastic retarted animal minded senile schiztophrenic geriatric dog with all of her multiple personality disorders. she should have taken her shit out on them not on her clients. who ever taught her therapy must have been a complete fucking idiot! or she was just a loose cannon with a very spastic head and no morals. joyce can stand up for one moral principle to save her ass. like I said the spastic whore could have got a star role in a court case in 1994 if the spastic dog had of shut her cuntmouth and listened up and took the appropriate moral action of stopping that dirty pedophile while he was alive. she has to live with what she has done!

you caused all this prince william and diana. I am not jennifer aniston I can't afford all the added...

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sally near caused me a heart attack and she caused me a bad ear infection so I don't feel I owe her a thing every day and every week her bullying was even being felt by my parents and her bad driving and drink driving and running red lights and if she shut her mouth and drove rather then her constant put downs- like Joyce, sally is a person of "do what I say don't do as I do!" and my doctor told me to tell her off so I did.

sally near caused me a heart attack and she caused me a bad ear infection so I don't feel I owe her ...

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I am sick of you watching everything I do and stalking me. get a life of your own. you're lazy and stupid!

I am sick of you watching everything I do and stalking me. get a life of your own. you're lazy and s...

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I am sick of being your fucking experiment get a life you asshole!

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I hate cousin louise she abused me so badly always stealing my limelight and she has never known when to give up being the bride and star attraction of the family, other times its been sue or brigette, either way I hate the abuse they did to me and my sister feels the same feeling about them as I do. its mentally effected us badly them always wrecking parties at our house and turning into a whore show about them. its mentally effected and bruised us deeply. the on going torture when we just want them to go away and never come back. some things can't fixed.

I hate cousin louise she abused me so badly always stealing my limelight and she has never known whe...

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I'm a recluse hiding away from where I don't fit in and not welcome.

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please drop dead. just go drop dead, william and ken and katy and rick and joyce and a current affair and those dirty comedy shows, just go drop dead. your families committed so many crimes against the world. so just please go drop dead! please!

please drop dead. just go drop dead, william and ken and katy and rick and joyce and a current affai...

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please drop dead. just go drop dead, william and ken and katy and rick and joyce and a current affair and those dirty comedy shows, just go drop dead. your families committed so many crimes against the world. so just please go drop dead! please!

please drop dead. just go drop dead, william and ken and katy and rick and joyce and a current affai...

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I made the mistake of listening to all these spastic uneducated dogs who rooted for a living saying shit to me like "you need to trust others more" but like always I trust the wrong people. one day I will get it right and trust the right people. but then if people had of trusted me and believed me when I was younger when I wanted to address the issues then my life would have been better. no one wanted to help in a logical way. what ever help they think they are giving its not working and its not help. it doesn't even make any sense. you have never helped anyone but yourself, I was bought up in the catholic tradition of always put yourself last and help everyone else first. that is why I believe the catholics wronged women like me. they taught us lies !

I made the mistake of listening to all these spastic uneducated dogs who rooted for a living saying ...

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but you don't understand what I can't do for myself is not available to me. I can't make someone I love, love me. I can't love someone I don't love. I don't know how people get others to love them. I have no perception of that concept because I have been celebate most of my life and I walk away quick once someone says they don't like me. I just don't go back. I don't understand their silly little pathetic games and can't related. you either do something or you don't, one or the other. I don't have time to muck around, I get very bored easily with indecisive stupid people. and there are so many stupid dumb people out in the world now. its only bitches who win. you literally have to be a bitch to win in this world my dad used to say that to other business people when he was in politics and they would say no, you don't, the truth is you have to be a bastard to win in politics and anything in this world. you have to be a psychopath. you can't have rationale and love at the same time. it just doesn't go together. the most successful people in romance are the biggest con artists and frauds and most are vomit ugly. what would have made a rut pig shit scum with crocked teeth seriously think I wanted to be with a loser like him? leigh morris is to blame for that and I wish I could murder her. she deserves to be publicly exicuted for that. why do spastic rut losers with no personality married and ugly bald fat short and retarted seriously think single virgins would want them. because they don't. the other young single attractive men don't get off their cunt holes to do a thing to meet the single women and they are the idiots.

but you don't understand what I can't do for myself is not available to me. I can't make someone I ...

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we are not welcome anywhere we go for the last 38 years for some reason. I blame william and the queen and diana and their STUNTS and SCAMMING.

we are not welcome anywhere we go for the last 38 years for some reason. I blame william and the que...

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democrazy!

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not taking a cruise ! we are a family who like our morbidity and we are a family who don't know how to be happy! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g9zWLDfysis

not taking a cruise ! we are a family who like our morbidity and we are a family who don't know how ...

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never under estimate the laziness of the police to end a case and jump to quickest route or root conclusions!

never under estimate the laziness of the police to end a case and jump to quickest route or root con...

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scotty mentalface crippled

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I know you are a lesbian by sexual pedophile joyce poorter. you can't help your satanic ways you pathetic poor thing everyone laughs at... you spastic dog of poop!

I know you are a lesbian by sexual pedophile joyce poorter. you can't help your satanic ways you pat...

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I know you are a lesbian sarina russo a lot of women know who have been abused by you retarded spastic face

I know you are a lesbian sarina russo a lot of women know who have been abused by you retarded spast...

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daer poppskin dr dog deepthi the best feeling in the whole world was turning up at wellington point family practice and the look of sheer guilt for her abuse on me, and all her privilege in a foreign land that poop skin face turned so shamed at what she had done to me for all those years! that felt so good to see guilt and shame all over the dirty oversexed poopskin scums face reaching a doctor's status when it comes from poop! I smiled for ages over that guilty shamed faced that couldn't even look at me, and the same with slut of shit doret price! gee that felt so good making a poop skin and slut of shit feel so guilty she couldn't even look at me for what she had wronged me with all her lies and cheating and sexual abortuary ! those spastic dogfaced women who really did believe they were ting tong courage and were so ugly and fat and spastic and don't even know they are.

daer poppskin dr dog deepthi the best feeling in the whole world was turning up at wellington poin...

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this is all the queens and diana and williams fault that has happened to me. its all their doing and all their fault.

this is all the queens and diana and williams fault that has happened to me. its all their doing and...

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