Confessions about 'Bu'

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I am goingto be a very very lonely old lady unlike my old bitch of a mother who has had a daughter to run after her while all she has ever done is tell me "no quality hot man is ever going to want a loser spastic dog like you" all the time. I think she is a selfish mental ill bitch who needs a kcik up her face with the self denial bullying she pushed on to me with her fucking catholic cunts cumsquat bitches, some they helped get married to single men others they didn't and none of us know their criteriea for who they helped and why they helped. no one from the church helped me find a proper husband or career. the church let down a lot of girls in my generation and this old witch bitch here with its finger up like a cock very very selfish woman expecting her daughter to give up her education and dreams of marriage and children and career and house of my own for this old tyrant slag that selfishly sleeps while I am stressed out all the time over if I will die and she used to say to me "I am glad I have made men think your a dyke"" what mother says that to their child? I have tried to get away from the old slag and everytime no one has believed me that she and my father have attacked me often. she was always telling me men would only rape me and dump on me and abuse me and treat me like I was her little dwarf size ! this spastic little woman that has abused me senseless. and I don't really want to her on any cruise I want to take a hot guy and I don't want to see ugly ken or anyone getting in my way or I will up and bash them I do weights and I have big chest to bash and intimidate see katy wouldnt take on bec because she was too fat and big she picked on me and she wouldn't want to now I crush her skull! these spastic selfish bullying self pitying mongrel cunt women and their cunt activity needing dick and cutting down others. katy should have been bashed back she should have been attacked back, ken should have been raped back by a bunch of gays, its not my fault his lazy wife can't satisfy his criminal sexual impulses and all the affairs he had before he met me the man is a loser spastic its as simple as that. bunnypoeta wanted to rape him with a stick up the ass! I hope he did.

I am goingto be a very very lonely old lady unlike my old bitch of a mother who has had a daughter t...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

my mother's father was in the order of the holy name and mum was in the order of the holy mary or some dam thing all these different factions in the catholic church but once those churches upset me I went straight to a priest who had been in rome and I was cranky over a lot of things but I just told him I was trying to deal with all my shit people had dumped on me. that is much the same at the convent and monastry, I don't feel I have to keep proving to them my faith but it ticks me off that they just have a rather blip like attitude. I was never sexually abused by preists or nuns my preditor was in the home and what I was taught to strive for which seemed to be self-denial of everything even life and joyce was was helping me or listening the whole time I paid her she never took a thing I said seriously enough. I can't believe I was reflecting that other then I never believed in my heart that any one cared about me or loved me much. I was picking up messges from people but peolple failed to help me at the right time as a teen when I needed the help. which has been my argument today and its just ticked me off that I always had to prove this faith or worthiness but could never find it for work or marriage or to have a baby and so many people just never understood the real me.

my mother's father was in the order of the holy name and mum was in the order of the holy mary or so...

Abuse

people have to understand that I did all that opus dei shit as a kid and young adult and at the age of 13 or 14 I even deliberately cut my clit to stop feeling horny from anger everytime that dirty foul pedo abused me and I hit myself over the head with a meat mallet when I kelly college would not give me my course , I mean I met business with this opus dei stuff as a kid and that was how we were bought up to think and I just don't believe in all the bullshit of it now. https://www.youtube.com/watch? v=1aO2LUAjiko that is why when that mongrel dog over at that dirty bayside family church started on me I told the nuns and a priest that they were trying to make me do things and were saying I had to do penance because penance to me ment self-mortification with physical pain and using things like needles and cilice barb wires to cut myself etc and living morbid without love and money and all kinds of things. I rejected sex for a long time and that was how I ended up raped because of joyce's abuse and other abuse and my doctor and the church have said I don't have to do penance and self-mortification. its a very offensive subject and I don't wish to talk about it to anyone. I just think all that shit is just out and out dangerous and mind-bending and occult like if used wrong. I am sick of smiling when I didn't want to for years and god has not graced me with much in return because I am sorry to say but there is no god as we understand it by church and the bible and there is no satan, there are no Jesus's and no hail mary's and no miracles and no saints on in the world. but there seems to be too many demons in the world now. and I just don't believe in any extreme churches anymore. so don't even try to bring up the topic.

people have to understand that I did all that opus dei shit as a kid and young adult and at the age ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

that goes for my brother and his wife, take your shit out on mum and dad and bill don't take it out on me. I am not to blame that you didn't stand up for yourself or admit the truth about what bill did to you and its got nothing to do with me what he made me do. take it out on the person who started it don't take it out on me. karen can take her shit out on her brother and family and stop taking her shit out on strangers like her inlaws who simply do not want to know her.

that goes for my brother and his wife, take your shit out on mum and dad and bill don't take it out ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

i told joyce to go and take her shit out on her family and her old therapists and stop taking it out on me I didn't cause her shit! she is a spastic body of poop and I want to see her on her ass and her old therapist and family all on their ass, because she said people wanted me on my ass. and I have been on my ass since i was kid, so don't you dam well start on me whoredog slut. go take your shit out on your old sluto therapist in victoria and stop abusing young women your jealous of and that goes for you to russo and kate ! take your shit out on the people who bullied you don't take it out on me. I told ken to do the same take your shit out on your wife and your past affairs before you met me and stop taking it out on me what they did to you to make you such a spastic idiot. I tell everyone that. don and maryp and steve go take your shit out on the people who abused you, take it out on your drunken mother alcholic bitch mother - mary stop bullying me since 1977 and the same with your mongrel kids. take your shit out on your parents for putting you last and not looking after you don't take it out on me. and I didn't kill that teenage boy so take it out on the kids who were there when he died not me.

i told joyce to go and take her shit out on her family and her old therapists and stop taking it out...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

joyce was taking out what some therapist did to her on me and yet she was saying I shouldn't transfer my hurt emotions to other people like rose does and I now realise that was my downfall I should have been doing that all the time, I got a lot of time to make up for being so holier then thou now! if joyce can do it and others so can I!

joyce was taking out what some therapist did to her on me and yet she was saying I shouldn't transf...

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you don't understand those things are not available to me. if I can't do everything I need for myself then its not available to me. I can't get myself pregnant by self-insemination so having a baby and relationship is not available to me. cuz I always knew from the time I was a child the buck had to stop with me! so if I couldn't do it for myself it was not allowed to me. that was the way my mother bought us up to think like that.

you don't understand those things are not available to me. if I can't do everything I need for mysel...

Abuse, Hate

I do awful things to anyone now like if I get blocked on a site I will up and block a dozen people from my facebook or email deliberately to show them how it feels. if I am spoken to rudely or told to go away I do it to others. if a doctor dumps me I go dump a few psychologists to show them how it feels to be dumped. anything people do to me now I just do back to others either randomly or as available or deliberantly. to transfer the feeling and intention and hurt over. I repeat over and over things people say to me to others. I copy my sister rose and other people like joyce or what ever character I want to be for the day. I never answer my mobile all these phone calls I never return for years to make others see how it feels to be ignored and blocked. do it to me and I find someone else to do it back to !

I do awful things to anyone now like if I get blocked on a site I will up and block a dozen people f...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

people are only going to hate you for your privilege and money and prestige - that was why I deliberately lived like a nun all through my teens and young adult life because I knew people in this town hated us for what we had or what they thought we had in winning lotto and the flower farms etc - and what you saw was all fake. I could tell without speaking or within a few minutes and I make up my mind and judge people a lot and once I suspect a shithead I never trust again. that is why I have dumped a lot of doctors and a lot of friends and a lot of men, I dumped relatives and business friends once they betrayed me and I never forgave, I was never ever a forgiving person deep down but I think the catholic nuns had too much of a learning on me because they taught us under the scope all the time of bullshit forgivenss and this rubbish and I made the mistake of feeling sorry for too many people who abused me when I should have punished and hated them with deep contempt and did back to them what they did to me. I didn't learn to mirror quickly enough now. I have been rude to people and said very sarcastic things sometimes when I can get away with it even in public openly! I have learnt to play these certain dirty pscyholigists females and certain doctors who dont live up to the standards I expect and they know what the world expects of them, they take the oath to do no harm, so it primary remains with them to be obediant to the word or god teachers them will get them as they have played me and yeh you learn to look with contempt and re-evaluated the scum around you.

people are only going to hate you for your privilege and money and prestige - that was why I deliber...

Abuse, Hate

people had contempt for me since the age of 2 and falsely labelling me as being privileged and I can look at everyone else who has not have enough harsh life experiences with contempt due to their privilege. what you give is what you get in return from the world.

people had contempt for me since the age of 2 and falsely labelling me as being privileged and I can...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

what you give is what you get back in return!

Pride, Abuse, Hate

its nothing personal but I don't like privilege either and all the people who stopped me from having a career and education and husband and children. all of you who have kids and marriages and all things I don't I see contempt for you and I have contempt for you. I don't like privilege either if I was abused for being falsely labelled for having the privilege I can do it back to everyone around me. I don't like people with money and status and kids showing off their kids and I can have hate too. just joyce and sarina russo and William and Diana and that bitch fat taxi whore had for me, I can hate privileged people like you too! because you have not earnt your rewards in life! not one of you!

its nothing personal but I don't like privilege either and all the people who stopped me from having...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I dumped mirander cuz she was a snot spoilt brat with no LIFE EXPERIENCE and doesn't know shit from china! spastic ugly dog.

I dumped mirander cuz she was a snot spoilt brat with no LIFE EXPERIENCE and doesn't know shit from ...

Abuse, Hate

and I don't trust bravefarts either and that johnson slut knowall pigfaced loser!

Pride, Abuse, Hate

and we are not going on any cruise I am too set in my ways and enjoy complaining and being myserable we are a family who don't know how to be happy or have fun or money or enjoyment or friends. we are a family that don't forgive like rose says!

and we are not going on any cruise I am too set in my ways and enjoy complaining and being myserable...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

wally and little alfie lang spiking my fathers drinks and he was found collapsed unconscious on the office floor and wally was raping women everywhere like a nuttcase criminal and no wonder my father would not allow us kids around them and these footballers used to have pub crawls and urinate out buses and dad and another office person said "you don't have children of your own to understand that its not safe for the ballboys to be around these pisspot pigs and scum" and they set a rule the kids were not allowed to travel with them for the kids safety. and one of my first jobs was working selling programs with other kids at sports clubs when I was 7, and ironing for a neighbor when I was 11 and all the unpaid baby sitting I did. you wonder why I hate people. my mother hates people. she hates men, she hates the media and she hates businesses. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qweU86KaNtk

wally and little alfie lang spiking my fathers drinks and he was found collapsed unconscious on the ...

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your baffling me sarina russo. your baffling me, your driving me nuts you spastic dog-gone whorehole!... and as soon as I went to max network I got a job and yet russos were making out I was too spastic. and just don;t mention ugly violent abusive pig fat phylis who expected people to get a train or bus 6 hrs to work and 6 hrs home and all her marfia freak bullying. number 1 never trust a woman who wears all black all the time like sarina and her workers.

your baffling me sarina russo. your baffling me, your driving me nuts you spastic dog-gone whorehole...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

how can I marry and have a baby without a job. rick said I had to work for a man to love me. so he has to be right. unemployed people dont deserve love or sex or tv or outtings or anything til they get off their lazy bum and get a job.

how can I marry and have a baby without a job. rick said I had to work for a man to love me. so he h...

Abuse, Hate

I don't like running people down but sarina russo does not deserve one happy good day on this earth. she is evil and demonic and a violent faced witch. she had nothing good to offer most unemployed people some of her workers even told me how evil she was to work for. a guy who worked at a tv station told me she was a complete mongrel bitch to work for and control freak. she would bully men and women she seen as competition in her whole marketting her image as this fake successful business leader and most of her money came from illegeal govt funds. how many australians wouldn't mind gaining millions and milions for free from the govt. she knows how to rip off the govt and she gets away with it because noone has the guts to stand up to this mental abusive woman who is jealous of seeing anyone successful and she does pick out the people she bullies and I have no idea what the reasons are. its not her place to punish others for what they might have done. if people wanted to punish and abuse her for all the evil hitler things she has done she would run like skase and bond did. this woman is evil there is no good drop of blood she is not human and she is crazed because as most foreginers think because they have dark skin or come from overseas they think they deserve more and better then the rest of us. how would you feel if you seen a man break down and threaten to send a bomb to a company for not employing him due to russos bullying. you know that its just not healthy. week in and week out this bullying to show 25 jobs you applyed for and constantly being told your stupid, you are spastic, you are lazy, you are ugly. you are not dressed good enough but companies you go to for jobs tell you look perfect, but there is like 400 applications for 1 job. there is no reason you missed out on the job other then the country is over populated by sleazy greasy foreigners who are walking over Australians. russos did this to a lot of people. I was sent to hardware jobs and truck driver and I am a woman without a licence due to medications and all this snotty young thin sluts who went straight from school to russos to work have no life experience and they were calling me spastic and lazy and uselesss and when I complained I was told I was one of the more honest job seekers. why was this crazy woman abusing me like this? it makes no sense other then she is a bitch.

I don't like running people down but sarina russo does not deserve one happy good day on this earth....

Pride, Abuse, Hate

and I did nothing to sarina russo for her to abuse me. just like I did nothing to dog faced dirty diana. that spastic whore that fucked everywhere stealing men like a prostitute. she was a bad woman. a evil spirit. she wronged me as a child.

and I did nothing to sarina russo for her to abuse me. just like I did nothing to dog faced dirty di...

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