Confessions about 'Bu'

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There are people in the world worse off than I am So what am I supposed to do? Ignore the pain and comfort myself by sayng oh well there are people worse off than I am. Yes there are people worse off than me but since I can't solve my own problems what can I do about it? Not a damn thing. I'm told to pray but when I do that nothing happens.

There are people in the world worse off than I am So what am I supposed to do? Ignore the pain and c...

Abuse

tell us about it, all you get here is some loser going on about incest sht that makes you want to puke over them. i mean if your gonna bitch or complain have a good one!

tell us about it, all you get here is some loser going on about incest sht that makes you want to pu...

Abuse, Hate

I know my girlfriend has lied to me on several occasions and I know that she cheated on me, I have circumstantial evidence and some of our ex friends told me some of the stuff. So when I asked her about it she only looked down and held her face in her hands and told me she didnt do anything wrong, that it was all lies, however I still dont belive her. I have tried several times to get her to tell me the truth, I gave up everything I had for her and then to be s*** on like this, heres the real stupid part, I love her and cant help it, not sure what to do, however all this has really robbed me of my self esteem and emotinal happiness, all I want is the truth and then we could move past it.

I know my girlfriend has lied to me on several occasions and I know that she cheated on me, I have c...

Lie, Abuse

Regret? I regret not leaving you after the first time you WRONGLY accused me of cheating. I regret not leaving you after the first time you called me a w****. I regret putting up with your verbal and emotional abuse. I do NOT regret sleeping with two of your best friends after we broke up.

Regret? I regret not leaving you after the first time you WRONGLY accused me of cheating. I regret ...

Adultery, Abuse, Hate, Violence, Marriage, Sex

well that sounds like entrapment to me if they are doing that. go talk to the police and your lawyer.

well that sounds like entrapment to me if they are doing that. go talk to the police and your lawye...

Abuse

do you think she or he would trying to steal my holidays for their wedding? i mean looks can be deceiving, all that glitters is not gold.

do you think she or he would trying to steal my holidays for their wedding? i mean looks can be dece...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

beware of high heels, beware of bewares!

Abuse, Hate

there is more then gold ther in them ther far hills !

Abuse, Hate

ignore him, HE IS TOO ABUSIVE. IGNORE HIM.

Abuse

can't you see sarcasm when its thrown at you rick? when I wrote things before we met. can't you see sarcasm in my words in my diary notes you found in my bag you stole? stupid yank!

can't you see sarcasm when its thrown at you rick? when I wrote things before we met. can't you see ...

Abuse, Hate

frank knows what he did to me was evil. I know it and he knows it, he never wrote that love letter to me. his sister or mother wrote it. because his actions were not congruent to the words of the letter. they were constantly contradictory. and that is evil. and i am glad i never waited around for him cuz i waited long enough after he got his job he just ignored me which i knew he would and i wanted better then him anyway. i wish i had of met him before rick and ken. ken, is not even included in the list of romantic involvements because as one therapist said "how can you call a man who assaulted you without your intention of wanting it and saying things like he wanted to tie you to the bed and rape you, and you said that made you question what he hell he was about and couldn't get away quick enough", i was left so confused bye frank and jordon and other men i really liked that i never even had sex with that i just stopped trying and looking cuz men stopped looking at me and treating me respectfully.

frank knows what he did to me was evil. I know it and he knows it, he never wrote that love letter t...

Love, Abuse, Hate

can you hear your bums fernandos?

Abuse, Hate

Sorry Sorry dez nuts; i hate a* s. i don't understand

Sorry Sorry dez nuts; i hate a*** s**. i don't understand

Murder, Abuse, Hate

Sensitive I am sensitive and emotionally weak. It's just time that I come to terms with it. I'm insecure, angry for almost no reason at all sometimes, I cry about the most stupid things. I don't know how people stand me at all.

Sensitive I am sensitive and emotionally weak. It's just time that I come to terms with it. I'm inse...

Abuse, Hate

this is my bombshell, I have been ripped off by travel and holiday clubs, last year it was CruiseMegastore this year it has been Platinum and Premiums, I was planning a holiday for my family to Melbourne we been there a few times my dad been there once for a radio conference but we thought it would be nice to see some of melbourne seeing my fathers parents came from victoria and my mums had family in Ballarat so we wanted to make a thing of it and go see the Apostles and the pengiun parade and a castle and see ballerat , we want to go see Flinders Rangers and Cobbrerpedy my mums ancestors were flinders and we wanted to see the underground hotels and I always without fail every year put in a entry to go win a stay at Craigs Royal Hotel in Ballerat for a high tea as well. Looks lovely. we wanted to go to the castle as well and stay there well, I had to cancel most of our trip and lost money. I blame platinum for it because they don't explain things clearly and I was in tears the manager of the hotel was so nice and said to me "love you got to be firmer with them and demand your rights" and I said they won't let me and the govt won't either, if I get stroppy they accuse you of all kinds of things and want to put you away in a padded mental cell, so now I have lost $800 plus over $4,000 in free flights so I am so upset I was crying and speachless I had to speak to a nun to calm myself now about how hurt and upset I was. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GoP1WfCmYFQ I mean here it is last year I booked my cruise and I booked one for next year with the help of my aunty as well cuz she is coming but last year my father had to sit in a painful train for 40 hrs and we were all in pain when we could have used the flights. we stayed in a dirt cheap backpackers (we met some lovely people there and it was ok but my parents and I on disability deserve some small luxuries now, in all our lives we have rarely had a holiday, and i could have got discounts in a hotel if they had told me earlier that the flights and deal had to be used up by a certain time. the first time I ever stayed in a hotel was when i was 28 in a motor inn that gave us a lovely breakfast as well. we never stayed in one resort as kids or teens, or in my twenties. I worked cleaning Mercure hotel rooms and work experience at the Heritage Hotel (Samford Plaza) while I was at university saving money. never afford to stay at the place however. my aunty is super rich she won the lotto we didn't. unbelievable! I am so hurt over this. Its going to take me a lot time to get over this. we were looking forward to the Philip Island trip and we have not travelled for relaxation or work even that much. in the last 30 years we took last year our first ever short 3 night cruise and I blame that sarina russo for all this. she is to blame. she knows she is to blame. that woman is going to be remembered like hitler and be facing the wrath of god for what she has done to unemployed victims.

this is my bombshell, I have been ripped off by travel and holiday clubs, last year it was CruiseMeg...

Pride, Abuse, Hate, Violence

if I complain about anything they go "are you having aunty maarie problems again are you?" I am not davids aunty maarie and I resent that comparison. I am my own person!

if I complain about anything they go "are you having aunty maarie problems again are you?" I am not ...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

Family, For better For worse My Family means the world to me. I'd probably do anything for them. When my parents decided to migrate to US, my family was very happy and excited. I was only 9 years old back then. My parents always had the mentality, that US is better than any other country. But when we got there, we were in constant need of money. My father who had a hard time keeping a job as a aircraft mechanic would also argue and beat my mother almost every night.My mother would lock us in a room ,and my brothers and I were left listening to her horrifying screams and crashing sounds through the thin cheap apartment walls, as he pounded his fist onto her flesh ....thump...thump...thump. I experienced much discrimination in school,.... or wherever, and my brothers also felt it too. The pressure also got to my oldest brother... so he liked to molest, and eventually rape,me whenever no ones around. It started shortly after we arrived in US, meaning I was still 9 years of age. I remember not understanding the situation. As I grew older, I constantly felt disgusted of my self. But I could never push him away...Who else feed me when my mother was to tired to even bother with me...Or my father who only sits on his obnoxious ass all day drinking and smoking his life away?? Who else would help me when I don't understand something? Who else would hug me and say it was all going to be alright? So to YOU...Oh reader, I confess that I always let my brother do as he wishes with me even today... No matter how disgusting I am...As he nonchalantly f** and c* in me like a dog in heat, careless of what I feel inside... , I will always smile and tell him I love him. One day, 12-year old me, confessed what was happening within my household, it was to much, I could not take it anymore.I was so young so delicate... My Middle School's Psychiatrist promised me that it was all going to be confidential, That she was only doing this to help me feel better. But I was wrong, the next day, the police came to my front door, looking for my father. I was away during this time, and so was my father. My brother told us that they would return tomorrow. Once my mother heard of the news, She sends my father away. My father, cursed me as he left my life for 4 years. Due to US's recessive state, eventually my family and I returned to our home country. And the funny thing is...My family and I still act the same... I'm now 20 years of age. Still acting like that delicate little girl that was only trying to reach for help. I can't believe that I confessed. So If you reach this far, I thank you from the very bottom of my heart.For I have asked for none-more but for someone to hear my story, to find relief. Thank you...

Family, For better For worse My Family means the world to me. I'd probably do anything for them. Wh...

Love, Abuse, Hate

i don't regret getting rid of the toxic sick people.

Pride, Abuse, Violence

my sisters first husband wanted their son aborted then when they broke up he refused to give her custody and he was like a dualist or something like a jekkel and hyde person and their whole family abused our family as well. we don't understand this. its made me untrusting of men and that all men will abuse me, which they have and after being raped and bullied by a few men its made me feel very untrusting of white men and black or asian men, professional men. I don't trust women or therapists much due to being abused. I don't have the same trust in doctors anymore and I don't really even have the same respect for people after all the abuses that have been done to me. this country refusing to allow me my rights to a husband or child or a job has insulted me and my parents. to be honest we want to leave australia and go somewhere where we will be respected and treated better. there just feels like there is no hope here in qld to have a normal enjoyable life. my family feel this way after just too much abuse we never asked for abuse. so this last incident with yet another travel holiday company ripping me off has been the most insulting thing yet. and I have had a lot of insults thrown at me and now I do give them back to people now. I have hate in me, my parents feel the exact same way as I do. we are sick of the disrespect and no hope for better future here.

my sisters first husband wanted their son aborted then when they broke up he refused to give her cus...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

my sister hates these milkfish her filipinos make up. all that cookie n gonzo and orlardo does is insult our white english european heritage , they said things like "we laugh at cathy's perfumes, she is fat and ugly," said "all asians know white people breathe stink and they don't take mouth or general hygiene seriously, all filipino's know white women will fuck easy , baggy clothing is the sign of mental illness in the filipino culture, filipinos look down on anyone admitting to being a victim of child abuse or rape or having depression or other mental illnesses, or taking medications of any kind" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ep0ee-rPbCg ! I mean when do the insults stop! they abuse my family all the time and want our money all the time and steal men and don't want to see me with a white husband just because I am white? ! They attack and threaten to attack physically our family. they shouldn't care if I want to be with a white doctor or lawyer or accountant or whatever, its non of their business. just because my sister is devoted to her filipino husband doesn't mean I have to be around them. I owe them nothing, they done nothing to help me. my argument is that passports today are seen as golden standard for id and then if that is the case why don't they issue everyone with one, cuz these foreigners come out here expect to be treated like royalty as soon as they hit the place and don't want to do their due diligence or pay their dues to the people that made this place. They have more rights with the passports id then we do, that shows you how rich they are if they can afford a passport and get here. we can't afford a passport and go there, but would we want to more to the point in their culture. they are all ripping us australians on. australians are so stupid letting too many of the blacks and asians in and now no middle class it is all just all rich or all poor no inbetween. this is where the govt went wrong! they don't like being told their wrong our govt. but they are. they are all spastic stupid old farts in australian govt. i would spit on them I swear they are so rude to white Australians who were born here. we are the ones being discriminated against. like in america they say "when you talk about anti-racist what you are really saying is anti-white and we won't stand for it"! my parents bought me up to respect all cultures and religions and so on but there comes a point when you see so many unemployed suffering white people with no homes or husbands and no jobs and no dates to go out, no friends. no one to care or love them. we don't have to suffer for asians ! its not our problem its their own countries problem to sort out and all they do is rip off the families out here for money and they try to enslave whites to their ways when they get here. already my parents have talks with their professional advisors to place actions against that orlardo etc trying to kill me and my cats and take the house from us. they won't stand for it dead or alive. these filipinos are trying to take the pride and love and health from our family and my parents hate them. my sister loves them but its her problem she has bashed so many of her husbands so we don't come into it. we don't want to know.

my sister hates these milkfish her filipinos make up. all that cookie n gonzo and orlardo does is in...

Pride, Abuse, Hate