Confessions about 'Bu'

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so my cousin kept sending me all this vulgar stuff all the time- "stop raping micheal" about her husband and she is a complete barbie doll mindless bitch mental disorder sorry to say it, but few people are as bitch and narcissistic personality disorder or something as this woman. mum said she had no right sending shit like that to me with all my abuse issues, my brother and his wife wrecked my car and a heap of things had me looking after their little child for nothing when I was also looking after mum after her breast cancer and trying to study and had no personal support over being raped and having a stroke myself, and I am sick of people not putting my feelings first more often. I count just as much as you dull aches that abuse me.

so my cousin kept sending me all this vulgar stuff all the time- "stop raping micheal" about her hus...

Abuse, Hate

go and drop dead john and karen and kids. I often hope you will all die in a explosion. and all my relatives be left to float in space in a concord to die there. I just want them all to die and I want to be protected from their abuse and mum and dad understand why.

go and drop dead john and karen and kids. I often hope you will all die in a explosion. and all my r...

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Grab your sweetheart and escape to C& CY^resorts a tranquil holiday experience of indulgance! Enjoy a stylish premium room, bottle of bubbly on arrival and scrumptious cooked breakfasts! PLUS discover your surroundings with a beach and boatramp lookout walk! Upgrade to extend your stay! ... they make it sound so easy- grab your sweetheart. what a joke. single still at 45 and can't find a love at all. sure would like to take up the offer if only I could find a sweetheart to indulge with

Grab your sweetheart and escape to C&** C**Y^resorts a tranquil holiday experience of indulgance! En...

Pride, Abuse

no guy is gonna want me I am too old for that now, and its bs that confidence is attractive. people put up slogans of all kinds but you can't live by one alone. I am not on fire for jesus! sorry but as I am getting older and more and more abused I am losing my faith in god. god is not enough for me. sorry but I am just as worthy as all the other women and I am more worthy for the abuse I have been through. I am more worthy then these whores, but that is not even gonna be enough, it never was enough and it never will be enough. its like these churches I always felt you had to prove your faith in catholic or any church. well I have had my own church at home for the last 35 years and you don't believe it go shove it! but I don't have much faith in god anymore.

no guy is gonna want me I am too old for that now, and its bs that confidence is attractive. people ...

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no guy is gonna want me I am too old for that now, and its bs that confidence is attractive. people put up slogans of all kinds but you can't live by one alone. I am not on fire for jesus! sorry but as I am getting older and more and more abused I am losing my faith in god. god is not enough for me. sorry but I am just as worthy as all the other women and I am more worthy for the abuse I have been through. I am more worthy then these whores, but that is not even gonna be enough, it never was enough and it never will be enough. its like these churches I always felt you had to prove your faith in catholic or any church. well I have had my own church at home for the last 35 years and you don't believe it go shove it! but I don't have much faith in god anymore.

no guy is gonna want me I am too old for that now, and its bs that confidence is attractive. people ...

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i have enough on my mind then to be thinking about them.

Abuse

all they say is "nothing matters" yeh well you don't matter! your never gonna matter in our world ever again.

all they say is "nothing matters" yeh well you don't matter! your never gonna matter in our world ev...

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I gave my old mini to a wreckers when I could have sold it for a few thousand, so don't say I don't give.

I gave my old mini to a wreckers when I could have sold it for a few thousand, so don't say I don't ...

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you don't matter, your dirty royal ass doesn't matter to me I hate all the abuse you did to me. you don't matter to me at all. I hope you all die in hell you created.

you don't matter, your dirty royal ass doesn't matter to me I hate all the abuse you did to me. you ...

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some days I used to think "well if I die today I die, so long as I feed my cats" after the car accident and different times I was sick with heart problems and they always paint things over at the cardiologist as "its all great so why aren't you smiling?" you can't attack and abuse people for decades and give them an anti-depressant to smile when the abuse is always there, no releif from her abuse and so on, I won't expect anyone to love or care for me ever again. I don't want abusive people around me which is why I left those abusive violent churches that talk spew violence in biblical form also. i just don't want to be around idiots playing games anymore. I accept I will never marry or have children. I have wondered if I will have a short life a lot even in my twenties that was on my mind a lot. I knew it was just me, no one was ever gonna care about this ugly dog loser young thin pretty old or fat clever or dumb, I was always ment to be unloved. some people have all the fun and luck while others dont. I hated everything david bowie and his dirties did to me, those choirs. the church idiots, the doctors and dull evil ambulance wankers not even people. my cats shit is better then them.

some days I used to think "well if I die today I die, so long as I feed my cats" after the car accid...

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revenge is bs. I never knew why louise was out to revenge me. I did nothing wrong to her. the girl was spoilt and selfish and nuts. her and bugsy were narcissistic freaks. if they stopped going through diaries and butting in where they are not welcome that would help a lot. all my relatives have no concept of boundaries, that is why I want nothing to do with them and mum and dad feel the same way, they don't want to know my brother and I don't want to know them. I don't want anything from any of my relatives. my family is the immediate family in the house that is it. we too old to change. we don't want to mix with any of them ever again. I just don't want to see cousins and people who left me behind. they are behind me for a reason.! they mean nothing to me or mum or dad. my parents have no feelings for my brother and his kids at all. I told aaron don't call me or talk to me again. and that is how it has to be. my older sister has been abusing me violently everytime she gets married or divorced and she takes everything anyone does out on me since the day I was born. I don't have to forgive or love. I don't love my older sister anymore and she has abused me, dad and mum too much. she takes everything out on us and my doctors support me on this.

revenge is bs. I never knew why louise was out to revenge me. I did nothing wrong to her. the girl w...

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bugsy was only ever helping himself he was a liar and abused me. I don't know how louise lives with herself for allowing that.

bugsy was only ever helping himself he was a liar and abused me. I don't know how louise lives with ...

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I can see how ken was helping himself and not me and only a dirty man would do what he did only dirty people allow that.

I can see how ken was helping himself and not me and only a dirty man would do what he did only dirt...

Abuse, Hate

today I felt offended. I went to buy and very beautiful orchid and the cashier was making out it was not healthy and I should have stuck with "I will take it anyway" she made it sound like it was a difficult task and its not at all to cut the old roots off, I think she just wanted it for herself or repot it and sell it at a dearer price, some orchids will droop depending on the breed and I am sure she diddled me, we put a ticket in the raffle and the lady said "well I hope you win the raffle then" we go to all these flower exhibitions taking photos and I love the smell and I could take photos a lot and interview the society people and how they judge it, it all seems so scientific and like "clever clever". then I thought of a childrens books activity and stories around flowers we have photographed. and thought it would be good to interview the winners plants and talk about their work in floral art and plant cultivation and prize judging! I talked to a guy today who was explaining to me how they cross pollenate to get her varieties and colors. that is my sort of interest not joyce and frngie bi/gay swingers clubs. I wouldn't want to be in sexual rubbish and I didn't put my name to anything I did with rick and katy or joyce or anita. cuz I just don't need the bs of it all. I am past all that. so anyway we did by a hanging orchid and moss and we bought another one a while back and I want to get more confidence growing them I would love a whole conversatory of them and nocturnal flowers that glow in the dark and radiate vibrant strings of delight, already we have a peach tree, frangipani will flower soon, 2 types of jasmin, camelias (I want to learn how to wax them), also azalahas and these japanese look yesterday,today, tomorrow and bromiliads and ciads agapathas and staghorns and clivia, bird of paradise and alamanda and flowering may and hibscus and geishas and roses delbards and david austins and herbs and lavander and this thing that has a sweet honey strong aroma at night so it does smell very frangrant during august, sept, october. but I did like this white orchid. so i was hurt. the fragrance of the big ones was lovely and I like the hanging ones a lot.

today I felt offended. I went to buy and very beautiful orchid and the cashier was making out it was...

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I don't like the advertising on the railways lately, its not nice and it has a mean arrogance to it. its spiteful really I notice this in a lot of adverts. like I can't stand laughing women and kids I just feel they are satanic and laughing at you. then there is the cheeky ones with kids poking tongues at those quick id photo labs in shops I find these offensive deeply as if the child is being vulgar to people and it literally makes me want to cry or do it back. like one day a child did that to me so I gave him the old elbow up fist "meaning up your ass with this fist" kind of thing and was his mother offended that I would up and do that to her rude child. I did it right infront of my mum as well and she said well, the little brat is all of 3 being nasty like all my life I have had kids and people being nasty to me, its rare for me to meet someone who is nice anymore because children have become so childish now. and it was a rare thing for me to be allowed to be childlike let alone childish. and I have feelings too. so when people at college in 2004 were calling me ugly and abusing me I told them off and didn't go back it was their unprofessional behavior that drove me away from them. my sister was saying all her friends and husbands said I was ugly. and I thought well know what people think your ugly. the way you treat people is ugly. your games are ugly. its like these royals and pop stars who are abusive. that is not nice, its just plain ugly. what ricky and william did to me was just plain evil ugly. its unforgiveable. like all my relatives. I don't have any cousins and relatives then ones at home here. I don't care for them because they didn't do the right thing by me. like the churches. they all wronged me. so now I can be like "oh mum she/he wronged me! she/he wronged me mum!" bla bla bla that little crapper went on with his lies so I do it back to people. royals don't want to like me even when i was nice well they can stuff off and pop stars. they are the worse liars. lucky I don't have to be around those sorts of people anymore. i wasn't put on this earth to be abused by rich spoilt royals with their abusive games!

I don't like the advertising on the railways lately, its not nice and it has a mean arrogance to it....

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I don't like liars and sexual preditory women who are like valentina, they are evil, dirty over sexed, beastial, vulgar, hypocrites and bed hop whoring does not make you some puritan later. I don't believe this woman is of good spirit and I believe her to be evil and deceptive and rude, arrogant, spiteful and nasty I never liked her. liars never change from being liars. a leapard never changes its spots.

I don't like liars and sexual preditory women who are like valentina, they are evil, dirty over sexe...

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I never liked liar valentita! she was a mental case with her "what bible character am I this week" freak mental case abuse games. I don't have time for a mental womans ego mania who bed hops around like a whore everywhere like her. you can tell she is a born liar. the woman has no morals at all. I never liked her from the minute I met her or a lot of very disturbed people at that crazy place that is not a church anyway, its a monolith to a warlock idiot paster. they are all nutters! they allow drugs to be sold on the premises and you can tell that guy is a crazy idiot. I don't think his heart is in religion for the right reasons and I found them very nasty and arrogant people to be honest. and I don't like fr warbruck either the guy came across very fake, nothing like the person I remember when I was a child, he came across arrogant, strange and uncaring, he must have wondered why I wanted to see him and I don't why I bothered anyway if I had know I was going to exploited and used like that. and I am disappointed in the catholic churches all round really, they have not honorred god correctly and how they treated a lot of abuse kids in poverty like us just because your white in australia doesn't mean you grew up with a toilet to shit in. heaps of people didn't have those things it was common place to take a dump or pee outside at night together and not even have toilet paper or a nappy or toothpaste or soap. people think "you white in australia you should never be down" its just not like that and we came from farms like subsistance poor farmers and low income working poor. welfare and disability. discrimination in another way turned backwards and upside down and anything to spell "life is against you winning at love work or friends!" and it was called church life! I woke up and seen the truth- its just bullying back-the-front with some fancy words and fancy robes and fancy buildings with vanity all over the walls and in the hearts of the people who run the churches even the catholics and who own them, catholics only want you to be in the church if you are rich they will chase you if you have money to be a nun or priest you buy your way in to the top like all other churches, they are all vanity buy your way in concepts, that is not god!

I never liked liar valentita! she was a mental case with her "what bible character am I this week" f...

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sick your team crap up ya ass! I am sick of this rubbish, gaming lifestyle you idiots want to live, I'm too serious and grown up for games! games are just abuse.

sick your team crap up ya ass! I am sick of this rubbish, gaming lifestyle you idiots want to live, ...

Abuse

I don't have a brother or sister !

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I ain't ya sister! I have no siblings!

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