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I have no doubt joyce is probably been laughing her head off at how she abused me, thinking she is super clever and super funny and how dumb I am. I have no doubt she lays eggs in her underwear cackling like a witch with what she has done. she probably laughed, next door they had a drugged man giggling all the time and it sounded like they were crushing bones like skulls and things, and giving people electric shocks with a generator they had I would hear loud bangs.

I have no doubt joyce is probably been laughing her head off at how she abused me, thinking she is s...

i used to have confidence in medical people now I just see them as dumb people guessing and abusing people. as evil. I have always found it hard to trust people, trust doctors or ambulance or police or just most men and women. I have no real trust in people. I have never really trusted. only an idiot trusts!

i used to have confidence in medical people now I just see them as dumb people guessing and abusing ...

what if they kill people sleep walking or drugging them and drowning them in the dam? I am so freaked out all the time about satanic groups. I reckon some satanic gang things went on there around that dam when I was a teen and I was so dumb niave I didn't know. cuz one night mum seen someone in our yard and then all the pillows a knife had stabbed into them and we came back down stairs and the stuffing was all over the floor, and doors slamming that are closed and someone definately broke in to the house a few times at night. one all saints night I swear I had a ghost swamp witch in the hall. it freaks me out. I was so naive and shy and numb to their games.

what if they kill people sleep walking or drugging them and drowning them in the dam? I am so freake...

Pride, Abuse

my new neighbors across at the side are so weird. a guy came in with a electric saw and I reported them to the police to watch them from afar long before that cuz something told my my mum and me they are weird, like its mostly men who go there, you see them 1 time and its like some weird drug or euthansia house or drop in house for homeless or druggies and it was like the final straw after other neighbors were dancing pagan dance around bon fires and killing and attacking men and sex on trampolines and evil satani stuff. so I know there is a dam at the back of their house where a block of vacant land is were grape vine yards were and I know they have these fake sea hawkes in the trees that I reckon has cctv cams on them. I think these cunts have been watching me and I want to exercise and wish I had a exercise buddy, I would prefer a man as a night jogging or exercise buddy, I dont care what people think I just prefer a man but I would have a exercise female buddy if they are trustworthy. I just don't trust a lot of people. I am going to be super looking out on halloween cuz these people freak me out. they maybe super normal and I am over reacting but I had to report it all to a govt officer, because it sounded like my neighbors were attacking a man and other things I can't bring myself to think about. I freak out and need support and the paranormal shit has been freaky my mum does not believe in ghosts but I do.

my new neighbors across at the side are so weird. a guy came in with a electric saw and I reported t...

Pride, Abuse

I have to mentally prepare myself for having to have a blood test or medical procedure. I find medical situations rather overwhelming but I often cope better then I think. but I never apologise for needling to laydown or get up slowly from blood and surgical procedures. I just am delicate like that. always have been. my sister is like that too and my dad and mum and my grandmother and I am not the only one in the family that go through this.

I have to mentally prepare myself for having to have a blood test or medical procedure. I find medic...

I wanted a clean home, and orderly life and proud career and family life of my own. what did I get instead a heap of rubbish nothing of what I wanted or imagined as ideal. so how can I be content in this puddle of crap? when there is better to be had and done.

I wanted a clean home, and orderly life and proud career and family life of my own. what did I get i...

I am being forced to live out a heap of morning pages of a angery frustrated novelist from 30-25 years ago that had very little meaning to me. I am being forced to live out a prisoners existance for no crime.

I am being forced to live out a heap of morning pages of a angery frustrated novelist from 30-25 yea...

I got a 2nd hand car and found out it had been in an accident and people told me the engine would be dangerious and not to drive it til it was fixed, I couldn't afford to fix it because sarina russos never once helped me with a proper job so I didn't have the money to fix cars, people throw off but I gave up my licence after being talegated and road rage by young male hoons stalking me on the road and I was on antidepressants and by law you are not supposed to drive on these medications. can't people get that in their head, it would be a criminal offence to drive on my medications. so stop bullying me. you created this life sarina russo, its time for you to now be made to answer serious harm you willfully and deliberately did to so many of your clients like me. god is watching you you answer to him if you refuse to answer to powers above you and there are many above you you ought to answer to slut russo!

I got a 2nd hand car and found out it had been in an accident and people told me the engine would be...

I workout inside the house but can't lose weight, even with diets and I blame my medications, I blame a lot of people who seemed to want me fat and I wanted to be thin. you can't understand the pain unless your in it and know it first hand people deliberately ruining your career, relationships and education and health. it became past the point of tolerance and funny over 10 years ago and these people wonder why I hate them all. you only ruined all the enjoyment and expectancy of love and fun and success and being appreciated in my life.

I workout inside the house but can't lose weight, even with diets and I blame my medications, I blam...

I won't be seeing megan. I don't trust female therapists at all. just her name annoys me, not going. oh, gee I must have forgotten my appointment. oh well!

I won't be seeing megan. I don't trust female therapists at all. just her name annoys me, not going....

doret prick ordered "oh,a spirit is just telling me to tell you whatever it is to "just get over it"... I don't know what else they just say to me tell her to just get over it, ahh, just get over it then!" in a rather nasty tone. so I just go around telling everyone that when they get upset I copy my sister rose or anita "don't tell me any of your problems I don't want to know about anybody else but me and my man" or copy joyce or katy or doret "just get over it" I copy any abuse people do to me now.

doret prick ordered "oh,a spirit is just telling me to tell you whatever it is to "just get over it"...

this site is not the best place to be.

what offended me about lisa from bayside family christain church as a privelleged asian australian with a degree, estemed job in canberra for a few years, her rich husband in the ato and her excelling perfect mongrel kids and her big house and her big swimming pool and her big dozen cars had the hid to say to me, stop asking god for a husband. well fuck off bitch. I get on with my asian doctors and so on but I take that as a bloody insult for this privelleged woman from another country that got privelleges over other australians because of her ethic orgins, could make out that I was in some way less able to withstand pain of childbirth unlike her who had done it 5 times since the age of 20something. well excuse me, I didn't know you needed a degree on pain tolerance to give birth bitch. you insult me with you comments about how hard marriage is and it takes you away from god. what a load of crock shit. some people feel very close to god by being loved and having a baby more so a gift from god, and your saying oh that your marriage is hard, that does not mean my marriage will be hard if I ever marry. what right have you got to waltz into a place and tell people to sell most of their furniture and things? and oh but your not good enough to be a married "virtueous lady" all you white trash women can ever espire to be is common pigs, seemed to be her attitude. want some of my back pain and illnesses and want some of my fat? you mongrel slut! I need to throw some of my weight and physical pain around at people who abused me. see how you like it. so show us your degree on pain tolerance then lisa as if your the only one who can manage a birth. these days they do give medications for it dear!

what offended me about lisa from bayside family christain church as a privelleged asian australian w...

stop abusing me or else I am going to the police again over all of you gang abusing me. I am sick of the lot of you scum! stop abusing me with your hitler whore games and grow up ! one act for the stage and camera another jeckle and hyde act away from the rest of us. yeh I see it clearly russo and scowns. your really criminally insane crazy people abusing so many people.

stop abusing me or else I am going to the police again over all of you gang abusing me. I am sick of...

stop playing hitler whore sarina russo chaos witch, stop playing hitler margie and tony ugly scown chaos church meglomaniac spastics. your evil bastards you are. I hate you your so ugly!

stop playing hitler whore sarina russo chaos witch, stop playing hitler margie and tony ugly scown c...

I have 1/3 cup of oats for breakfast, avocado on toast and a cup a soup for lunch and a few garlic crackers w a cup of coffee, then dinner I had a small bit of skinless chicken breast in a moroccan spice and heaps of vegies- a meditteraining dish with cherry tomatos, onion, eggplant and zucchini with olive oil and orageno, then a dish of green peppers and parsnip and carrot, and sweet potato in garlic and sweets I had a strawberry marshmellow mouse with a few fresh strawberries! and apple juice. right and you would swear I eat like a pig and I can't seem to lose weight. I exercissed madly nearly every day and night last year til someone deliberately killed the blue crane it was a pretty wild bird and someone deliberately ran over it on my birthday and I was on the balcony exercising and I heard that poor bird suffer a painful death, the crying screatch of it upset me so much I have not gone out and exercised since as I seen it as a bad omen on my birthday. I am so angry at the person who killed that bird I could kill them. why did they have to kill that pretty bird?

I have 1/3 cup of oats for breakfast, avocado on toast and a cup a soup for lunch and a few garlic c...

I don't have any passions if life. people say you will find this or that? load of crap. church taught serving god, I just want to serve myself. I don't even have a passion in life everytime I do someone spoils it, so I give it up and find something else.

I don't have any passions if life. people say you will find this or that? load of crap. church taugh...

I don't want to know megan at all. finding new chat show host.

I hate pro-poofs exams!