Confessions about 'Bu'

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The man that molested me is getting out of prison…. When I was 12 I was molested by my adoptive father. He adopted me when I was 5 and had been a great dad up until that point. It was not just a one time thing it went on for months but I was too afraid to tell until I finally trusted someone enough to let it all out. He was a juvenile probation officer so it was a big deal, in the papers, news, etc. which you can imagine is hard for a kid. anyway he was sentenced to 10 years in prison and in july that 10 years will be up… and I really dont know how to feel. I have so many emotions I’m afraid for my safety, I’m upset because its rehashing a lot of old memories, and I’m a little happy because even though I shouldnt I still feel a little guilty like its my fault and I’m a little happy that he can live life again. WTF am I suppose to feel this way? And to top it off I really feel like I need some closure some admitence to what he did because still to this day some people in my family think I made the whole thing up and when the dna evidence is brought to their attention its, okay well if it did happen then you wanted it. WTF I was 11 & 12 years old what kind of 11 year old would want to have sex with their nearly 40 year old dad! But regardless of those idiots I still am at a loss of what to do. Do I hold this is forever never telling him what I need to say? Do I write him a letter and if I do am I ready to hear what he has to say? I just dont know =(

The man that molested me is getting out of prison…. When I was 12 I was molested by my adoptive fath...

Abuse, Hate, Sex

I loved drugs. Ecstasy in particular. It was colorful and stamped with different pictures. Apples, hearts, stars, peace signs, Mercedes, aliens, Supermans, Playboy bunnies, dollar signs… I was young when I did it and I was lucky to walk away from it. I’d go back to it if I wasn’t so scared of what might come out of my mouth. If I thought I had secrets before, wow. It makes it too easy to get comfortable. Comfortable is bad.

I loved drugs. Ecstasy in particular. It was colorful and stamped with different pictures. Apples, h...

Abuse, Hacking

i know ken wants me to be fat and feel ugly but what he wants is not relevant to me, I think it just shows how childish and a traitor and stool pigeon he is and game player who clearly had no recognition of understanding what my needs were which were nothing like his needs. another example the amount of people I meet who assume what I need is like them when I am nothing like them and have different needs. we are seperate people. heaps of people have tried that on me. of "oh but you should...blah blah" and I am thinking "well you go should off!"

i know ken wants me to be fat and feel ugly but what he wants is not relevant to me, I think it just...

Abuse, Hate

I don't have a cannibal family generational curse to repent about like you. I am not you pacific black magic woman! and you are nothing like the older nicer women from that culture I have met. you young ones are so agressive and abusive and bullying. the real joke is that you think white women think your hot! lol that is amusing!

I don't have a cannibal family generational curse to repent about like you. I am not you pacific bla...

Abuse, Hate

I want new friends and no more trashy user people in my life. so sick of scum low lives I put up with in the past. that part of me is over tolerating shit people full of shit who don't give much and who are not much!

I want new friends and no more trashy user people in my life. so sick of scum low lives I put up wit...

Abuse, Hate

The ragdoll cat threw up over my mothers jewellery thankfully it was not expensive things just junk cheapo stuff but its been sitting in the bathroom for weeks and i finally tried to clean one jewellery item today. I just can't do it all anymore. i stay in bed all day every day unless I go out. there is not a reason to get up when you been pushed down as many times as I have. we have no oven and no stove in the kitchen. the paint is falling off every ceiling and I am not breaking bones to do it all again. I did the last lot of painting and I am NOT dam well doing any. some other bastard will just have to pay for it to be fixed.

The ragdoll cat threw up over my mothers jewellery thankfully it was not expensive things just junk ...

Abuse, Hate

royals told me to leave them alone so I did. don't want to know them. others told me to not like them like churches and other people so I did what others wanted. my father and mother are very anti-royal. I was the only one in the family who was the diana fan with all the books and collectables and I don't even care for them much now after I found out what they thought of me being abused as a child. and mum said she can't get over me being abused and dad allowing that man in our house or leigh getting ken to rape me. we are a family that do not forgive says my sister rose!

royals told me to leave them alone so I did. don't want to know them. others told me to not like the...

Abuse, Hate

carpet needs vacuming and i am ill and bastard says ...! well go shove dude! no hope and no spark of value to you ever again noble man!

carpet needs vacuming and i am ill and bastard says ...! well go shove dude! no hope and no spark of...

Abuse, Hate

i have cursed all my objects so anyone takes them will be cursed for live to be doomed to my own pain and suffering. I now curse every person I meet with the same curse that they may suffer out what has been put on me by others.

i have cursed all my objects so anyone takes them will be cursed for live to be doomed to my own pai...

Abuse, Hate

i live in a pisspot and shit sticking haunted falling down old house.

Abuse, Hate

Almost 50 and scared I’ll end up alone I’m almost thirty 30 years now. Never had a real relationship and my parents are the closest thing I have to best friends. I am scared when they are gone I will be completely alone. Emotionally and physically.

Almost 50 and scared I’ll end up alone I’m almost thirty 30 years now. Never had a real relationship...

Abuse, Hate

stop stalking please! I don't to put up with your abuses! go away imp

Abuse, Hate

I watched a bullies house burn down and I didn’t call Many years ago a bullies house caught on fire and I didn’t tell my parents. We were the only neighbors living nearby. My parents eventually saw the fire and called the fire department but the house was completely engulfed in flame and burned to the ground before the got there. Several sheds were also destroyed. The fire was due to faulty wiring and oily rags and papers stored in the basement. Had the people who lived there had been decent I would have tried to help.

I watched a bullies house burn down and I didn’t call Many years ago a bullies house caught on fire ...

Abuse

I’m still afriad when i was little my mom and dad split up because my dad is a crack head. later on my mom got a boyfriend when i was 12, and he was a MONSTER. he would come in to my room and beat me senseless no matter if he was sober or drunk. And tell me my dad is dead, and mentally abuse me even locking me out of my house in 20 below weather in just a t-shirt and jeans. he never raised his hand to my older sister though, because i was the one that didn’t obey his every word. its been 5 to 6 years since he finally left, but i still have nightmares of him. but just one where i’m in bed and i wake up to him chocking me to death, and i wake up in complete fear crying. it was the worst 4 years of my life, and still haunts me today.

I’m still afriad when i was little my mom and dad split up because my dad is a crack head. later on ...

Abuse

maul and maul you're just another shit in the faul!

Abuse, Hate

WE ARE JUST TOO SMALL TO MAKE FUSS ABOUT IT. SMALL VAGAINAS SMALL FRENCH -IRISH- EURO BLOOD ROYALS!

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I HAVE MEDICAL, LEGAL AND OTHER MICRO TESTS TO PASS AND I AM REALLY STRESSED OUT AND I DON'T NEED HANGERS ON GETTING IN ON MY SWAG AND I'LL BE ALIGHT JACK IF EVERYONE GETS THE FUCK OFF MY STACK! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YR5ApYxkU-U

I HAVE MEDICAL, LEGAL AND OTHER MICRO TESTS TO PASS AND I AM REALLY STRESSED OUT AND I DON'T NEED HA...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

if you don't give me a job cunt i am going to kill you or pay someone to kill you. got it? I need a part time job cunt. being rejected in every way is painful. just because I don't like pedos and rapists and old farts getting in my way or sluts stealing men from me and pushing dirty old bastards at me, doesn't mean I am not worthy of more out of life fuckerface! sexually rejected. work skill rejected. socially rejected and have any real friends. 1 benefit on my side. we become who hang out with most. that might be the best revenge yet for being so rejected. it is a revenge! life is one big revenge!

if you don't give me a job cunt i am going to kill you or pay someone to kill you. got it? I need a ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

yeh you are a pimp you big black islander slut!

Abuse, Hate

stop stealing

Abuse, Hate, Violence