Confessions about 'Bu'

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I can't bare spending money without my panic and heart going into overdrive and racing at every cash register I can't stand it. I been that way for years that I hate spending money at all.

I can't bare spending money without my panic and heart going into overdrive and racing at every cash...

Abuse, Hate

stop ripping me off kid!

Abuse, Hate

my sister has been a complete bitch here the last week since husband came from os. she won't speak to anyone in the family she doesn't want to know us saying we are not her family and her only family is her husband and his daughter and all she ever does is lie and abuse us day in and day out. she plays her son against us all time, like "I will get him to attack you all if you don't do this or that" and other stuff or "I won't let you see your grandson if you don't let me do this or that" for the last 20 years to parents and me. we are hurt by this abuse. her evil. then she said "filipinos have better houses then we do" yeh hon they ought to with all the cash flow you been sending them that you wouldn't help your own family out but expect her own family to go into debt to fund her and filipinos accounts while we are forced to live in squaller and her abuse. not fair mate. whole family so sick of the hurt and abuse and the devil voices she says the most evilest of things for the past 25 years that I couldn't even say to my enemy and if my brother thinks he has been insulted he should try her abuse we have copped for the last 25 years. he has no idea. she actually thinks she can suck up to him. but if he only knew the evil this she said about him and everyone. this "bugger everybody I will make all of you pay and suffer" for the past 25 years. all her lies. the lies. she wanted mum to lie again on a document to get money from the govt and mum said no, you always make out we are the assholes towards you. stop abusing us she said. your abusing me mum said. I am a 76 year old woman who raised her children stop abusing me. then I get my aunty on the phone crying to me about how her kids and grandkids abuse her. I need to be paid for this counseling and therapy. I might have done psychology and counseling with addiction and divorce etc but I am no expert, but why can't i be paid for this if joyce could be. they making everything too rigerous so people can't work with basic skills to earn money. I am sick of this abuse. it is abuse from everyone. i am sick of the disrespect.

my sister has been a complete bitch here the last week since husband came from os. she won't speak t...

Abuse, Hate

My first confession... So the last year has been very stressful. I got a new job and i loved it at firstvut now im not so sure...my boss is a total b** and to top it all off im not sure about anything anymore. How can you tell if your friends just dont like you anymore...i dont have anyone to talk to at all my friends would rather talk about them and their problems and when i talk about mine they just sit there. I love my family but i cant talk to them either...the things going on in my mind would scare them. I dont think about killing people, i just think why was i given this life to live. Why has my life been one giant f* up. Im 20 years old and never even been kissed. I cant talk to guys without freaking the f*** out. Im straight but yet i freak when a guy talks to me and i alway seem to attract the ones that are crerpy looking and that are 20 years older than i am. Im not a tiny girl im about 260 but at times i feel good with my body and other times i dont. Thid is my first time posting stuff like this on the internet and i just want to get everything out...

My first confession... So the last year has been very stressful. I got a new job and i loved it at f...

Lie, Abuse

Syrian refugees trying to come to the USA I don't know why refugees keep trying to get to the USA... I thought they were trying to ESCAPE senseless hate, persecution, and mass shootings of public areas.

Syrian refugees trying to come to the USA I don't know why refugees keep trying to get to the USA......

Abuse, Hate

everyone is sick of this incest sex, mom son sex and dog sex talk on here. just castrate all incestors (especially the adults doing it to kids but anyone really- gods had enough of it) and pedos (god hates pedos).

everyone is sick of this incest sex, mom son sex and dog sex talk on here. just castrate all incesto...

Abuse, Hate

Kidnapped I want to be kidnapped. I really want to be kidnapped. I live in C****** and I thought it would happen but I'm still in my house she and sound and I don't like it. I just have a thing for s* like that and I just don't know why. If anyone can help me let me know. My Kik is ghostlove231 please someonejust help me.

Kidnapped I want to be kidnapped. I really want to be kidnapped. I live in C******** and I thought i...

Abuse

now look whatcha wanna do is go get ya selfie self a nig slut whore dog who is a complete druggy alcoholic psycho maniac to marry. I am way to sensible and steady in myself for a man to settle down with me. I am way too sensible for children. look for a slutwhore dog who drinks heavy and gos nightclubbing all the time and smokes and is a selfish controlling nutcase. that is what men like. they don't like nice girls who study and stay in most nights.

now look whatcha wanna do is go get ya selfie self a nig slut whore dog who is a complete druggy alc...

Abuse, Hate

Believe Cher No matter how hard I try You keep pushing me aside And I can't break through There's no talking to you It's so sad that you're leaving It takes time to believe it But after all is said and done You're gonna be the lonely one Do you believe in life after love I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough Do you believe in life after love I can feel something inside me say I really don't think you're strong enough What am I supposed to do Sit around and wait for you Well I can't do that And there's no turning back I need time to move on I need a love to feel strong Cause I've got time to think it through And maybe I'm too good for you Do you believe in life after love I can feel something inside me say I really… Full lyrics on Google Play Music https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YuZZqGRrSzI

Believe Cher No matter how hard I try You keep pushing me aside And I can't break through There's no...

Pride, Love, Abuse, Hate

I wouldn't make a good mother, lets face it I am too sensible and reliable and modest.

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I am spending $250 a month on tutition fees, plus another $2000 on workshops and another $1,000 on other classes I have to attend and I have no idea where the money is coming from. I can't seem to get work so all I can do is study but its all out of my own pocket upfront no help from anywhere because of the system we are in and they wonder why I can't afford doctors bills!

I am spending $250 a month on tutition fees, plus another $2000 on workshops and another $1,000 on o...

Abuse, Hate

Incest, abortion. AM I doing the right thing? I'm pregnant with my son's baby - and yet I'm happy. Please, don't ridicule me or say anything harsh. I know I've made mistakes. I did things that I thought were smart but weren't. I can't un-ring the bell. I'm writing here for advice, and maybe to explain myself. I was foolish and got married at age 18 and had my son, Drew (not his real name) when I had just turned 19. I thought I was in love but I learned early on that my husband was cheating on me. Also, he could be abusive emotionally and even borderline physically. When I thought Drew was in danger, I left my husband, divorced him, and went on my own. My pride got in my way so I didn't go to my parents for help even when the alimony and child support checks failed to arrive. It was a struggle, but I completed my degree, got a job and took care of my baby son. In the early days he had a crib, but as he got older I could not afford a bed for him. So we shared a bed but there was nothing ever, ever sexual. We would both sleep in pajamas and when he was little he would sleep with his little stuffed dog. As he got older, we would talk, but it was always about things that we were doing, what time I had to be to work, or he had to be to Little League or soccer or how school was going. That sort of thing. I will say that as he got older we did become more casual about nudity and if one of us was in the shower while the other was brushing teeth or whatever, or maybe going to or from the bathroom from our rooms, we might see each other naked. I look back at this and wonder if I wasn't too tolerant, but again, he was dating girls - although at his age it rarely lasted long - and it seemed so normal and non-sexual. I would also sometimes see him - even in my bed - with an erection (and I accidentally went into his room a couple of times and caught him masturbating) but even when he was in my room with a b** the talk was not sexual and I just assumed it was the result of the normal hormones of a teenage boy. Things crossed the line when he was almost 17. We had a very bad patch. For his part, he was hurt by a girl he really liked - but I admit that I probably didn't take his hurt as seriously as I should have. The problem I was having was that I guy I had been seeing broke up with me and at about the same time I lost my job, we had some car trouble. It seemed like everything in my life was going wrong again. We were short of cash again and I was scared and tired. One night he heard me in the shower crying my eyes out. I just couldn't take it anymore. He heard me and got into the shower with me and held me. I should have stopped it right then and there, but for the first time in a long while I felt safe and it felt so good to be held by someone who loved me and we started to kiss. I should not have, I knew I should not have, but I gave in. I suddenly realized that I not only loved my son, but that I was in love with my son. He is mature for his age, but he was only 16 and that shows too. One minute he seems like a man, the next minute a boy, but I was so scared and so lonely and he was so loving and gentle and so we began a sexual relationship. When I found out I was pregnant I didn't tell him right away. I was terrified about how he would react, and I was terrified about how it would impact our relationship and how he would do in school. A million thoughts raced through my head but when I did jin up the courage to tell him I was totally surprised by his response. I thought he would freak out, but instead he was thrilled. He was so happy. He kept saying, "I'm gonna be a dad. Really!!!?? I'm gonna be a dad. Mom I love you so much!!!" I've never seen him smile so much and then he started to cry out of sheer happiness. I didn't know whether to be relieved or terrified. So we went along for a bit, but I kept worrying about how this would effect Drew. He was so happy, but I was worried that it would effect his plans for college and his future. I've been so lucky. I've done the Internet searches and I am so blessed. Drew's grades are good, he has friends. By all rights he should be so messed up but he isn't. He is just a happy kid in school who is thrilled that he is going to be a daddy. When he comes home he'll kiss me and then bend down to my belly and say, "Hi Junior," - he keeps calling the baby "Junior," though we just found out we are expecting a boy - "This is your daddy, and I love you with all my heart!!!" I actually don't believe in abortion, but knowing how much this baby could adversely effect my son's future I considered at one point having an abortion, but when I told him I was thinking about it we had several serious discussions and he was dead set against it. What finally totally stopped me was when, in a really heated argument, he said to me, "Mom, you don't get it. I'm going to be the dad I never got to have." I was stunned and realized I could not abort this baby. Besides, as time has worn on, I realize that I want this baby for all the right reasons. It's a precious little life no matter the circumstances of his birth. He is a beautiful gift that my son has given to me by sharing his naked body with me. It's not good circumstances, but I've come to think of it as beautiful and I want to have this baby to share something beautiful with my son. So we've decided a few things. 1) Fatherhood or no, my son will go to college, though we have not worked out yet if he is going to be dorm resident - because I want him to have the whole college experience - or as a commuter. When I insisted that he go to college, he said, of course, because he was going to provide a good living for his son. I was so proud of him. My son will graduate from high school in early June, turn 18 in late June and the baby is due in August, so I think we can make this work. 2) We've decided not tell my doctor who the father is. I just told my doctor that it was a man who I didn't want in my baby's life and I asked if Drew could be present at the birth. The doctor said that was unusual, but he thought it could be worked out. My son is thrilled but I'm a bit nervous that the doc might figure out that the baby's father is my 17 year old son. Should I be worried? 3) What I am worried about is that we are not getting some of the special testing that the baby needs. This worries me. I know there is a very real chance that the baby will have birth defects but I don't know how to get him tested beyond the normal prenatal tests. So far all my examinations seem to be showing everything normal, but I'm worried. Does anyone know how I might get the additional tests I need? Please help me. 4) I know I've made some serious mistakes, but I need to know what someone out there, someone who does not know me and can see things from the outside, thinks about how I've handled this. Did I do the right thing not having an abortion? The baby seems so important to my son - and he wants so much to be a dad. I know that, in many ways that is just a boy romanticizing the father he never had, but he is also mature for his age, he is keeping his grades up and has many friends, both guys and gals, I think it would hurt him so deeply to abort the pregnancy. Am I right? 5) Most of all, my son and I continue to have a sexual relationship and I plan, so long as he wants it to continue to have s with him. Partly, I won't lie, it is because I want it. I need to feel him and be close. I know this

Incest, abortion. AM I doing the right thing? I'm pregnant with my son's baby - and yet I'm happy. P...

Adultery, Pride, Murder, Abuse, Sex

When I was a teenager I would charge my friends five bucks to look at my drunk nude mother. I made over 200 bucks

When I was a teenager I would charge my friends five bucks to look at my drunk nude mother. I made o...

Adultery, Pride, Murder, Love, Abuse, Hate, Violence, Gay, Hacking, Stealing, Marriage, Blasphemy, Sex

I post nude pictures of female friends ex girlfriends family members and all of these nude pics are stolen by me to jerk off to and to humiliate them and show the world that they are sluts

I post nude pictures of female friends ex girlfriends family members and all of these nude pics are ...

Abuse, Hacking, Sex

When I was a teenager I would slip into moms bedroom when she was drunk and feel her up. I took pictures of her nude and erked off till I was raw looking at her. I stared sucking her nipples while fingering her and using her hand to jerk off with. Mom never woke up the times I did this to her

When I was a teenager I would slip into moms bedroom when she was drunk and feel her up. I took pict...

Abuse, Sex

i hate motorbikes. some loser dickhead rides one and its so annoying the noise is offensive. fuck off faggot.

i hate motorbikes. some loser dickhead rides one and its so annoying the noise is offensive. fuck of...

Abuse, Hate

in australia no one really likes the irish or certain cultures. they are very anti-most cultures from the way I have been treated and what I hear and see. and a lot of other countries are anti-multi cultural. people don't take pride in much here. well there is nothing much to take pride in in australia. lets face it.

in australia no one really likes the irish or certain cultures. they are very anti-most cultures fro...

Abuse, Hate

My nearing revenge It all started with Tony (friend/neighbour) making advances while Stuart (my husband) was at work. He kept making excuses for coming round and one-day he tried it on physically in the kitchen, fortunately my kids came home from school. I made sure from that day I wasn't home alone BUT every time I saw him acting normally with Stuart, with the usual banter which always goes on between them about me with Stuart telling him that I do flashing, full blow jobs even saying that I don't mind a* making me dead embarrassed but making Tony jealous saying about Stuart able to see me naked at any time with Stuart actually daring me to give him a flash after all Tony was a friend but I didn't rise to the dare. Later on when Tony left leaving us alone, after all this time I decided to tell Stuart about those happenings with Tony all that time ago. At first he was furious and was going to go round and belt him for what he had tried BUT after calming down he actually got turned on asking lots of questions eventually us making real passionate love. Then one night my "revenge" opportunity came real because my kids were out for the night and Tony's wife was away so he came round for a drink and as usual the banter went on. I made an excuse to go upstairs so I could put my plan into action. Changing into my yellow slightly see-through button up dress, with Basque, stockings, red see-through knickers underneath I shouted down for them to come upstairs BOTH of them were gobsmacked by what I was wearing and obviously we were in our bedroom. I had music playing, telling them to stand to one side and watch but they can't touch telling Tony he was now going to see what he always wanted. Unbuttoning my dress letting it fall from my shoulders revealing my Basque then sliding it further down until completely letting it go then sitting on the edge of the bed unfastening my stockings sliding them down, now reaching behind me unfastening my Basque holding it for a second before letting it go now revealing my bare t, my nipples were now starting to stick out which Stuart commented to Tony about that no doubt I was getting worked up myself but I was still in control of everything happening at this moment. I still had my slightly see-through knickers on. Making sure telling them to stay by the dressing table lying down pushing down on my waistband of my knickers telling Tony that he was about to see what he was hoping to use all that time ago. At this time I will admit I was getting dead excited myself and my heart was pounding and really I should of been prepared for what happened next because STUART said to Tony something like "H this is to much should we sample what is on offer" meaning me obviously "I never had a chance to even get up because both of them literally pinned me down with Stuart telling Tony to pull my knickers right off and to spread my legs. I didn't think that Stuart would act like this but I hadn't realised that I had got them so worked up. They were like s starved animals with Stuart telling Tony I wanted fingering and the rougher the better I liked it. Stuart very rarely acts like this but I started to feel actually humiliated because as well I could feel myself C**** shaking not in control of my body . By now both of them had their d out with Stuart TELLING me to give Tony one of my special blow jobs first before they will take it in turns to f* me I wasn't disappointed when I saw Tony's D* because it was a bit bigger than Stuart and also circumcised so now with it being rock hard I was made to suck him till he came having to swallow it while Stuart got me to the doggie position f** me. Between them they made me c a couple more times and each time they ridiculed me about how much I must be liking it. It was about 2 AM when they actually finished with Stuart saying to Tony that he must come round again soon if he wanted to NOT bothering what I thought although I will admit I secretly enjoyed it

My nearing revenge It all started with Tony (friend/neighbour) making advances while Stuart (my husb...

Abuse

yep I am a snob. people snubbed me so that's life. i did once say i would like to go to dublin university but who gives a fig no one cares about shitty irish genes and i don't like italians either, i don't like radio people. i don't like footballers. but i like ballet russian dancers and that sort of thing. its nothing personal its just that i understand the suffering of suppressed countries and abused people. being denied a real life and income and love and all the things i should and ought to have had by now. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qweU86KaNtk

yep I am a snob. people snubbed me so that's life. i did once say i would like to go to dublin unive...

Abuse, Hate

people don't understand why I would up and snob sally was put out when I snobbed new york for Paris/Provonce but sorry that is me. I would snob my england and wales and irish and scotish heritage too. my mum was invited to a family gathering of the O'connor or Brehon clans, they mean nothing to anyone which is why I want to go to russia and france have wanted to for a long long long time. I just prefer europe and its cultures. I would go to wales and ireland but I can't afford them all. but finland and sweeden look so nice and modern and fresh in those places like czech and dutch and bulgaria and debrovnik etc. they sound nice names. I would go to turkey and egypt for a holiday. if I won a holiday I would consider almost anything they offered but I have my fav spots.

people don't understand why I would up and snob sally was put out when I snobbed new york for Paris...

Abuse, Hate