Confessions about 'Bu'

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An obviously poor/homeless guy asked me An obviously poor/homeless guy asked me for some money.. I said i'd give him a dollar from my car. When I got in my car I drove away. I didn't feel good about it, but I hate beggars. I shy away from people I fear. what I don't want to be I run away from like everyone else does.

An obviously poor/homeless guy asked me An obviously poor/homeless guy asked me for some money.. I s...

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Casino I think joe pesci was better in casino than he was in goodfellas. more range. goodfellas was great but he was just pure rage id in that, totally amazing (worthy of an oscar) but one note. you really feel the struggle of joe pesci getting too big for his head in casino, and watching his flop sweat glisten is amazing from the three principal actors (robert de niro AND sharon stone, they all destroyed the movie imo)

Casino I think joe pesci was better in casino than he was in goodfellas. more range. goodfellas was ...

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fuck off ken stop stalking me get lost go find a new hobby and leave my family alone. we want nothing to do with anyone. just want to be left alone by most people. I only allow a small amount of people in my world for short times now. that is all I have to give. I am a broken sad old woman who wants to be left alone. can't you all see you have gone too far and bullied too much. all of you leave us alone. go get fat and fuck off. we have nothing in common with anyone.

fuck off ken stop stalking me get lost go find a new hobby and leave my family alone. we want nothi...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

fuck off lesbian bullies. fuck off bullying me. I had enough of that from rose and katy fuck off! or I will call the police on you. fuck off.

fuck off lesbian bullies. fuck off bullying me. I had enough of that from rose and katy fuck off! or...

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fuck off dad, too old to count or mean anything bringing a pedo into our home to abuse us. what father does that.

fuck off dad, too old to count or mean anything bringing a pedo into our home to abuse us. what fath...

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Confused I was raised Catholic and went the holy roller route later in life, but have always wondered if the Bible and what I was taught was made up. That has never gone away and I am beginning to think that I am an atheist. Maybe one day I can put my guilt and fear aside and embrace that. its confusing abuse being catholic.

Confused I was raised Catholic and went the holy roller route later in life, but have always wondere...

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fuck off rapist murdering dirty royals fuck off and die fuck off and die! scum die!

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die in hell royals die in hell die in hell royals die in hell! hate hate hate die in hell!

Abuse, Hate, Violence

get on your ass! royal pog! fuck off!

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ya fuck off! H@LEHEAD

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ugly people like me have to make do with scum when you are not beautiful you have to make do with dirty old farts.

ugly people like me have to make do with scum when you are not beautiful you have to make do with di...

Abuse, Hate

for whatever it is worth even my uncle ron who bashed his wife and molested me and was annoying me sexually at my sisters wedding I cried when he died cuz I had known him for so long. I could see he was abused and I guess I felt like "oh well guess a ugly dog like me has to be grateful for a old fat violent bastard to notice god knows there are so many queens here in the men in this state not one of the queen poofter young men I went to university would notice me"??? confused????

for whatever it is worth even my uncle ron who bashed his wife and molested me and was annoying me s...

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I am not so forgiving of young children today I sometimes am glad I have no children but when I do have my own children If ever I won't allow them to be like the kids I see and the kids that I was around. I wouldn't even let them be like me, I used to self cut and genital cutting is a shameful secret as a teen to do to myself as well as other things I was attacked as a teen. but that is me. I just don't like most kids of today probably because I never got to have children myself its hard for me to get excited and happy for others. because i have missed out on so much love and attention and genuine love and friends it is hard for me to get excited about stuff so a male therapist told me. he said I shouldn't curse myself and cuss myself so much for what I did as a child and teenager. that its normal to block people out when you have been sexually abused for a long long time and no one is listening and no one cares you do the same back. you look at faces and just feel nothing!

I am not so forgiving of young children today I sometimes am glad I have no children but when I do h...

Abuse

I forgave kids who abuse me as a child long ago, being pushed and dunked in pools that made me afraid of water and when my friend drown and died. I accept my sister is not a nice person to me and same like my brother and his wife. I don't understand it but I just accept it and ignore them because mum said we have nothing in common at all with them or any of her family and my older cousins so I just accept it. there is some reason why my mother always wanted to keep me and her family apart. I accept it but she has to accept it now also! this is a world that people reap what they sow, so I was told. but I forgave the kids who abused me a long time ago. just put it behind me and accepted they were just kids too. yet people abuse me. I don't forgive that however. why should I and a few people at some churches said that "god is very angry about what happened to me" and "god has seen that you give to others and don't get much back in return, humans have not seen it but god has seen how used you have been and what a good spirit you have and god is going to deal with all your enemies and you don't even have to!"

I forgave kids who abuse me as a child long ago, being pushed and dunked in pools that made me afrai...

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I have spent a long time getting to know myself and if people don't like what I am I really don't care. I don't like football and I have different sports I enjoy the only good thing about some footballs is the crowd when they score a goal and atmosphere if it is a good undrunk crowd otherwise senseless sport. I have other interests and I know who I am, what I like and new explorations and what I don't like and what I won't tolerate. I think some kids deserve better parents. I feel upset that I want children of my own and others hate their kids but keep having them? don't make sense to me.

I have spent a long time getting to know myself and if people don't like what I am I really don't ca...

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I liked it better when I was thinner then my mother for the last 5 years she steals all my underpants and clothes and I can't find them.

I liked it better when I was thinner then my mother for the last 5 years she steals all my underpant...

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my older sister rosemary blinded me for a whole day when I was 3. she threw sawdust in my eyes and I was blinded. rosemary could do and still has done very abusive mean things to me. always hitting me and other things. her verbal attacks and mean looks. my sister is a bully in every sense of the word and she hit one husband over the head with a mop and she would often push me over as a child and pinch me and do mean things to me. I still recall her attacks on me when my mother was pregnant with our brother. she was not this nice person. not even when she was married. always the control freak bully ruining things for me. she never acted like a caring older sister. she could be funny sometimes but she has got worse mean as she has gotten older since being with "the filos" as dad calls them.

my older sister rosemary blinded me for a whole day when I was 3. she threw sawdust in my eyes and I...

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life is driving me crazy!!....... I QUIT! I QUIT! I QUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I Had my "friend" arrested About 3 years ago I went to a Halloween party with my best friend at the time who happened to be a lesbian. I am straight male in my late 20's who had no GF at the time. I realized that nothing would ever happen between us sexually/relationship wise, but in the back of my mind always longed for it. So we go to this party that is 45 minutes away from where we live. We ended up in town about 2 hours before the party even starts. So we sat in a Popeye's Chicken parking lot as she started drinking some whiskey and Coke. She brought like two pints for herself. So she was pretty buzzed before we even get there. So we wait for the party to start and we get over there and start having a good time. Needless to say, there was a lot of booze and weed smoking going on. About 2 hours later I'm chilling inside and the hostess of the party comes up to me and says "She's getting out of control and causing a scene". So I go outside and she's wanting to fight this girl because "the girl slapped her for no reason". This isn't the first time someone "has hit her for no reason". She get drunk and starts talking mad s* to people she doesn't even know, which turns out is exactly what happened here. It was like she turned into a f** 4 year old with behavioral problems. She kept trying to drive home (without me!) and we were able to get her keys away from her. This s* went on for like two hours and I was totally embarrassed by her behavior. I finally asked her if she wants to go home and that I would drive her back and she said yes. So we start driving back and about 3 blacks down the street she says "Pull over". I'm asked her why and she said that I can't drive her car. She tried telling me that "if I get pulled over, the cops would arrest me because her car has dealer plates and they would aromatically consider it a stolen car". I told her "if you got pulled over you're getting a DUI". I told her she was way to f**** drunk to drive home and she's going to kill herself, me, and any other people out on the road. She kept threatening me that she would never talk to me again and kept talking s*. I tried to to reason with her, but you really can't reason with drunks. I finally had enough and pulled over in the first town on our way home and told her if she wants to drive she can, but I'm not going with her. Without batting an eye, she f** drove away without me. Remember this is Halloween night, I have no winter jacket, I'm forty miles from home, and it's about 32 degrees outside. I stood there and couldn't believe she left me like that. Then my sadness turned to anger. Maybe it was more then a felling of betrayal, perhaps it was deep seeded anger over her not wanting me more then a friend and that she would rather be with a underage 15 year old girl( that's a whole another story). About 3 minutes pass after I cry my eyes out in frustration, I get on my phone and call the Illinois State Police to report a drunk driver. I then called my folks to come get me (which I have never had to do before) and I tell them the whole story. On the drive back home we saw a cruiser with someone pulled over and it was her. Not only did she get a DUI that night, she also got popped with possession of cannabis and paraphernalia and spent the rest of the night in jail. The next morning I get a text from her saying " F called the cops on me? F* you!". I didn't even write anything back. I've never talked to her since. I feel bad that I did it but they pushed me too far. so that is life when you go to freaky halloween man.

I Had my "friend" arrested About 3 years ago I went to a Halloween party with my best friend at the ...

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