Confessions about 'Bu'

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my older sister molested me for years and she is now out fucking with her man while I am all alone.

Abuse, Hate, Sex

Wife an adorable femdom am 30 years old married. My wife(referred monica in this post) is 25 years old, a gem of beauty. With tight cute b** and a curvy figure. Its been 1 year since we got married and each day monica has been wearing either mini skirts or bikinis in home whole day just to keep seducing and turn me on. She has very high s drive and needs s twice at least every day. But still she believed in more s enthusiasm and fantasies, which led her to trickily sign a chastity contract from my end. Brilliant trick that she used will be shared separately in another post because it itself is a long one. Beautiful s life of mine has now turned into a dreadful submissive one. According to the agreement our weekly s routine follows these orders: * I will be put in chastity from friday evening, after I return from work till sunday late night. * Though I liked s**, I hated oral but monica was desperate to have it always. But I always resisted going down on her no matter how much she seduced me. But this agreement has granted her to facesit me any time she wishes in the week,without even my consent, with me tied to bed if necessary. * All the utensil cleaning, washing clothes including her inner wear has to be done by me on Saturday every week. * Apart from these she has the flexibility to attach any add on kinky activities on the days I am in chastity. Weekend has become the most dreadful one in my life now. The routine that happens in weekends is as follows, I come how from office at 7pm on friday, monica will be all set with chastity device and seducing dress in hall. I enter , straightaway remove my pant and kneel before her with my d* dangling. She puts my d* in chastity, with an evil smile, locks it up and keeps the key around her neck. Next I go to bathroom, clean myself up , and enter the bedroom where she is ready with her kinky plans. Usually she starts of with facesitting me untill she reaches o***, which is nearly for 35-40 mins. But, the hard part is my d* can't get hard seeing her nude milky white body because of chastity device and I moan in pain when there is no more space for my d* to expand in the cage. All she responds now is ' u like that huh? F** s slave of mine'. After the facesitting session ends, the next is dinner session. I prepare dinner in my nudity and serve her. Later I have to eat in the same plate she ate, sitting near her feet. Once the dinner session ends she is all up again ready for the final facesitting session of friday. She enjoys more pleasure with my tounge having no choice but to lick her c* like ice cream and adds more to my misery for another 40 minutes. Now I am all turned on and beg her to release me from chastity and allow me m*****, but all the response she gives , hold my neck and push me out of the bedroom and lock the door. Me unable to sleep in this sexual anxiety some how pulls through the night. Saturday begins and this day is the worst and most dirty day I have to face in chastity. It begins with me serving her water to rinse her mouth in morning, and miserable part is, I have to rinse my mouth then with same water she splits out. Once she is done with toilet thing I have to flush and clean the toilet. Next comes the breakfast, she gets to have delicious breakfast today, but get ready to know what I am going to have today. I have to dip my food in the water that I used to clean her feat, she mashes my food more with her feet and splits saliva into it to indicate her dominance over me. This food routine follows both on Saturday and Sunday. What makes Saturday even more tough is drinks. I am not allowed to have any fluids but accept one. Yes, and that is her urine. Usually after facesitting me she drags me to bathroom and begins to pee in my mouth and I drink without spilling a drip out. Other routine for the day include couple of facesitting sessions untill she is pleasured. Just as I relax that dirty Saturday has come to halt, it gives rise to humiliation sunday. I can already see my ball turn into pale blue colour and tip of my d* is creating unbearable sexual sensation without masturbating even after getting turned on. Yes, its humiliation sunday. Sunday morning after usual facesit follows with a session called turn on session. In this session for one hour I am forcefully made to watch seducing chastity p* movies, which is so seducing that makes any one with d* to m******* in 2 minutes. But yes not the d* which is caged. This also includes, she preaching me that wife is like god whom all men should worship and men exist only to meet and satisfy sexual desire of their wives.Next session in humiliation session is pity session, where monica invites one of her girl friends to house and I am kept for exhibition. Monica hails about last 2 days of her achievement, and I am kept kneeling in front of these girs with my head down. Monica's girl friends also enjoy privilages like commanding me to lick their p**, split on my face, feet fetish me etc etc. All these sexual activities have made my d* burning to release c but can I ? This makes me fall down to Monica's feet, hold it to my head and plead her to release. In response she asks her friends what to do with loud laughter and they reply 'sure release this b next year' and again a loud laughter they share with mocking at me. All the sessions though tough to control my sexual feelings have been somehow manageable. But last session of the week , Sunday evening session brings me tears. Yes it is the cuckhold session. Monica invites some male escorts every Sunday evening and uses their huge c* for 1hr to meet the peak of her sexual needs. During this I am tied to a chair and made to watch them. But she doesn't make me suck another man's d*, because even after all these she has some minimal respect for me. All the humiliation she carried on me, she restricts it to herself and her close girl friend circle and never allow it to cross the limits, because of that tiny love she has towards her s slave husband. Though I get sad seeing her f*** by other man, I am still happy for her. The way she moans when this dude with huge d* penetrates her, is something that I could never give her inspite of any viagara. Seeing her enjoying the o* peak , the tears of sorrow turns into tears of happiness in me. But the misery doesn't end here, once the male escort leaves I am untied and I am facesit again, this time to suck of all the c that got into her v. This is the most horrendous session with she saying ' i get double pleasure but you none'. But good thing is once she reaches her second o now and all c is sucked out, I get the final release. Even after all the humiliation, just to meet her s drive, she cares for me. After the release she gives me good handjob with oil, which though barely lasts for 5 minutes because since couple to days all my c has accumulated to tip of d*** , waiting for release with a big blast.

Wife an adorable femdom am 30 years old married. My wife(referred monica in this post) is 25 years o...

Abuse

fuck of lambbutt!

Abuse, Hate

so I had wanted to do dental since I was 13 but I sat all the exams and did assignments but they always had a hitch with their computer system. I was very hurt over that college doing that to me. the mind games and abuse and my friend who was a dental assistant for a few years said "we never had to get 100% pass in everything, that is so mean of them" I could tell you more of the story and how mean they got and this cunning guy working there who ripped money off me and had lied to me and the company. the police officer made them give a full refund because of how they had abused me.

so I had wanted to do dental since I was 13 but I sat all the exams and did assignments but they alw...

Abuse

I'm just a POS. No getting around it I’m a Piece of Crap First of all, I am a member of a Non-Denominational church and I am a 39 year old woman with 3 grown sons and I was married to their dad for 10 years and remarried 5 years later to my current husband. We have been married for 9 years. Also, I have BIPOLAR! The rapid cycling Bipolar! I hate it! It is basically under control. To start off…I hate myself because I constantly do things and think things that are awful. I attend church and try to read my bible a lot. I pray and ask for strength to overcome my sinful ways. I volunteer with Hospice and I am the one that does all that “Christian” stuff. Everyone says that I am too high on God to ever be angry and people believe I am this wonderful Christian that God shines his light on because they don’t know what goes on in my head. I have no one, except God, to talk to about it because I am too ashamed to ever even tell a counselor or my pastor. I know that I would never tell them… ever. This is no excuse, but I know that it may have something to do with it. I was molested by my father from 7 to 16. I sent him to prison for his crime and I have forgiven him. I have forgiven him, but I still have some issues with s. I don’t have s with the lights on or have s during the day…ever. Even when I had a super nice body I never would and never will. I had s with a woman when I was 21 or so and my best friend and I kind of touched each other a few years back, but I was so sickened by it that I began to study the bible even more so and went to even more bible study classes to drive the thought out of my head. The problem is that I still have constant dreams/thoughts of me with a woman. I also, sometimes, dream/think about my husband with another man. My husband is nowhere near gay, so the thoughts and dreams are way off base. I also m*****, but I think that is mainly because my husband is not a good lover. He, even after 10 years, can’t give me an o* orally or otherwise. He is just not any good at it and I have tried to teach him, but he just does not do a good job. I have done a lot of pretending because I don’t want to hurt him. He was nearly 40 when we met and married and had only been with 3 women and he did not get to be with them that much. He is just a super shy man and when we first started dating he was so unsure of himself and I give him a lot of encouragement, but he only last for about 2 minutes. No matter what he can’t last for a very long time. He is too insecure to go to the doctor about it and I have asked him to a few times. Next… I am not normally a thief, but I stole from someone I love a couple of weeks ago and it is eating me alive. The bad thing is I have been constantly thinking of stealing money over the last couple of years. We make good money, so I don’t need to steal. I am not any good at budgeting, we get paid every two weeks, but we are almost always broke by the end of the first week. We live in a mobile home, but we are happy with our house and we are the kind of people that just like to go camping, hiking, biking, and all that kind of stuff. I love to paint and do crafts. We are modest people and neither of us has ever wanted to be attorneys or doctors or anything like that. We are just common and very quiet people and I love it that way. I don’t know what to do about my thoughts and, like I said, I can’t tell a counselor or my pastor. NO WAY! I am tired of having to ask Jesus for forgiveness every day for the same stuff that I promise him I’ll never do again. You know… I beg Jesus to forgive me and say that I will do better and that I will pray more (like I’m supposed to) and that I’ll never miss church anymore, that I’ll volunteer more, and all that stuff, but I always fail. I know… we can’t be perfect, but I just want to be good (Christian kind of good). I can’t let God down again. See, my brother does not believe in God (well, I think he does, but he does not want to bow down to anyone. He is very self-centered). My sister and her family of all grown girls won’t go to church either. They scowl when I bring up Jesus around them. They call me a Jesus freak! I LOVE it! So, I have taken that little insult and have made it my tag line in everything I do. I love being considered a Jesus freak. Anyway, if they all find out about me then they will say they were right. They can’t stand Christians because of those that have been in the media. When I found this site last night I was shocked because I was thinking of creating one just like it because of people like me that need to confess, but can’t do it to a person face to face. I don’t know if this will count as a confession since it is via internet or not. They say it will on this site, but I’m sure you guys have doubted it as well and know where I’m coming from. Thank you for listening and you can comment if you like, but please remember that one sin is equal to the other no matter what it is… God bless you and my God forgive us BT

I'm just a POS. No getting around it I’m a Piece of Crap First of all, I am a member of a Non-Denom...

Abuse

Tired Of Everything nut no matter what I do, how hard I work or how much effort and planning I put into things...I seem to be the poster child for "Snatching defeat from the jaws of victory". The ideas I come up with get used by others who end up being highly successful with them. I have a string of people who endlessly thank me for the ideas that made them into who they are- and who won't help me when I am down. Is it any surprise I have grown angry, bitter and cynical? I am tired of being tolerant. I am tired of being nice. I am tired of being understanding. Next person who crosses me will pay with their pain and suffering.

Tired Of Everything nut no matter what I do, how hard I work or how much effort and planning I put ...

Abuse

I'm scared ; like I am s0000000000 scared of what will happen in the next four months. My ex girlfriend, for whom I still feelings for is leaving for an exchange program abroad. We broke up more than two years ago and even though our relationship had been somewhat of an emotional roller coaster ride, in the last couple of months we are trying to find a more natural balance. At first it took time, a phone call, a text message, then we went out a couple of times and at the end we even slept together. We both had other relationships in these last few years, but for me being with her is so natural. We are not together or anything and every time we spend some time together, whether its just a stroll outside or sleeping together it leaves me thoughtful but even more convinced about my feelings. Now she is leaving and she will be gone for four months and I'm scared she will meet someone. I'm scared that I will just be left here, hanging and I'm scared that if the eventuality might take place, this time I will leave and never look back, since I cannot bare to go through it all one more time. I want to wait for her and I want her to wait for me. But should she find someone, I'm scared that I will have to dig up inside me the courage to turn my back on all that I knew, all that I loved and never look back, no matter the consequences.

I'm scared ; like I am s0000000000 scared of what will happen in the next four months. My ex girlfr...

Abuse

todays d day fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkkkkkkkk !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just cant handle this f****** anxiety anymore !! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

todays d day fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkkkkkkkk !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just cant handle this f****** an...

Abuse

My friend told me mrs smith let him fuck her after school. she is a white teacher and he is a black sophomore. He stayed after class today and told me to stop by. I hit the closet door and he opened it. She yelled close the door, but I was in by then. She told me I had to leave and sad nothin. He told her no, let him get some so he wont tell no body. My boy was hittin that pussy and she was moaning and shit. he bus a nut all in her and got off. he said get you some. I got in her to. I could hear the sound of the juice sound as I pumped her. She laid on her side coverign her face moaning. I bus my nut in her to. then my friend got back in her. he told me I had to leave he was gona fuck her hard and needed the room. I stood outside the door and he had mrs smith moaning when he made the growls sound and bust one last nut in her. I drove him home after school and he told me mers smith and mrs rodrigous both would fuck. Mrs smith fucked him only, now me. She told him I could not come back, just him. But he said i can get some when I want.

My friend told me mrs smith let him fuck her after school. she is a white teacher and he is a black ...

Abuse, Hate

now leave me alone I am in the middle of analaysis of sontas, for fuck sake.

Abuse, Hate

my beautiful beautiful prescious king louis antiques and furniture. how would you like me destroying your special things? you mongrel bastards. nigs behind it for sure. stop wrecking my french things or I will only go buy more and more and more of them.

my beautiful beautiful prescious king louis antiques and furniture. how would you like me destroying...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

my dad has had a melanoma removed and skin graft and ear remodeling so he ended up putting blood on my furniture. my sister and him always ruin everything good of mine and I am sick of it. as if a guaz like puppy pad for medical use will fit a pillow in it. I sometimes wonder where that stupid mans brains are? like any idiot would go get a plastic old bag or something and place it under the medical padding. and they were polite to him but rude to us. we don't own a car and no one drives here because we are all spastics on antidepressants - how he helped the world make us to be to make him feel a big man. so well done! but that don't mean its staying that way cunt world! you mongrel cunts! how I hate you mongrel cunts and this mongrel town and country. the hatered and the skank of this place is something I want to get away from. I hate australia. its the shit holes of shit holes !!! no one is allowed to be anything. its all suffering and shit and squaller and suppression. trust that stupid fucking asshole and my sister to ruin my furniture if they do it again I am going to up and hit them over the head with it.

my dad has had a melanoma removed and skin graft and ear remodeling so he ended up putting blood on ...

Abuse, Hate

Paradoxical delusions I keep moving people away from me, while all I really want is to become closer to them (a lie) . I'm so caught up in what I'm afraid of myself and people will think of me, and the secrets I keep that I block the good things. And later I want a second chance,I know I deserve it, after the way I treated them.

Paradoxical delusions I keep moving people away from me, while all I really want is to become closer...

Abuse, Hate

It's exhausting to be in a relationship with someone who is or thinks they are bi-polar. For all the bitching, whining and complaining about their own personal appearance, their on-going insecurity that YOU are having an affair (when that's THEIR typical behavior) and constant need to be reassured that you "still love them"....maybe it's hard to keep doing so. It's not about being fat, ugly or whatever- it's about the constant mental stress and fatigue dealing with these stupid questions. At least I haven't made the mistake of getting married to her yet. I bet when I finally leave she'll make up all sorts of lies about me to spread to my friends and relatives....

It's exhausting to be in a relationship with someone who is or thinks they are bi-polar. For all the...

Abuse

You know who you are You have this deep-seeded self-doubt that makes you question everything you and everyone around you does. You are your worst critic and that judgment tends to carry over to your friends and family, too. It's time for you to become more confident in who you are

You know who you are You have this deep-seeded self-doubt that makes you question everything you and...

Abuse

we are used to older sisters arguments and screaming fights with her father over every man she has been with and her partying at night clubs getting so drunk with her friends and during expo and her lack of wanting to be a mother. dad argues with any of us over males and jobs and any person we like anyway. I have had arguments with him over men. dad has no idea what is a quality man, like most men they have no idea what women want in a man or what they think is quality if nothing like what women see as quality. I am sick of yobos and shitbags anyway. at least dad and mum agree with me about the quest wronging me and ken abusing me. but my sister is a bitch by nature. she used to be a fun person but she was always a bully and dominating and likes everything her way. like a dozen of her friends following us everywhere and her partying getting drunk all the time and boyfriends in bedrooms and me being kicked out of bedrooms to cater for her since she was 16. people don't even know half of it.

we are used to older sisters arguments and screaming fights with her father over every man she has b...

Abuse, Hate

Confessions about 'Bu'

my older sister molested me for years and she is now out fucking with her man while I am all alone.

fuck of lambbutt!

todays d day fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkkkkkkkk !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just cant handle this f****** anxiety anymore !! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now leave me alone I am in the middle of analaysis of sontas, for fuck sake.

my beautiful beautiful prescious king louis antiques and furniture. how would you like me destroying your special things? you mongrel bastards. nigs behind it for sure. stop wrecking my french things or I will only go buy more and more and more of them.

You know who you are You have this deep-seeded self-doubt that makes you question everything you and everyone around you does. You are your worst critic and that judgment tends to carry over to your friends and family, too. It's time for you to become more confident in who you are

older sister always screaming and arguing with father over squeezer-sleazer!

rbf

Backyard watcher

fuck off feldman and sheen. fuck off!