Confessions about 'Bu'

Page 43 of 198

i just want to warn some people how deviant lawyers and professionals can be who are rich and successful. I went to a job interview naive fresh out of college law school and this guy comes out while police were dusting for finger prints and he said that morning he had sacked his legal partner assistant for fraud, and I was applying for a job there just as a receptionist and I felt bad straight away like this was not a good place to work. he was fat tall and bearded loud and overbearing and was dressed in a slopping huge jet black suit and was actually mastubating in front of me behind the desk while he interviewed me. I couldn't wait to get out and I did not even want the job after that and rang my mum at the bus stop and what was strange i noticed he had all these huge books on the German ss and third Reich and the guy just sickened me, that is not the way a lawyer should act. the worst thing was after that I stopped wearing pretty dresses. I had worn a pretty shift dress that I felt really confident and great in, it was my complete "go to dress" for a boast of confidence and after that I stopped wearing attractive things, then a neighbor grabbed my knee one day and came over and was groping at me and i didn't like it at all with his bear breath and he was hitting 70-80 and said he would leave his wife for someone like me, which to me was a insult. I lost frank out of his confusion and lack of genuine response and his flightiness cus he was going out with so many girls i was not keen to jump in and i was always having aid hiv tests as well so I didn't want to do anything without being careful. but don't think just cuz someone has been a lawyer or professional their some god and great person. they take many casualities down to get to success and are capable of child abuse, sexual harrasment etc, one guy was sexually harrasing me at another job and they were crazy people. rich as real estate people, the type that attract fakers and assholes. these rich sales guys who are old and boring, I just up and walked out and resigned and called him a old man old enough to be my grandfather to get the message across how rude he was sexually and verbal insults about my studying chemistry and physics and making fun as if I was stupid and small minded, professions are not any ball game!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they like to think everyone else is so dumb, I grew up believing i was dumb, I knew I was shy which was a huge set back and i had way too much pride to show embarrassment or cry in front of people and more fear then most kids. I had to put up with this old epileptic drunk urine saturated old man molesting me and pretend everything was happy happy happy and by god it was not at all. I was a angry child sometimes. I was never the cool kids but wanted to be. don't think any one in law or rich professions is gonna be mr nice cuz even doctors i worked for could be complete shitheads and highly promiscuous compared to my mild kinks.

i just want to warn some people how deviant lawyers and professionals can be who are rich and succes...

Pride, Abuse, Violence

mum and i have warned dad about bayflem games its carrot on a stick game, of we want you now after we insulted you. its like wake up and don't let them do you over again, mum said. I agree.

mum and i have warned dad about bayflem games its carrot on a stick game, of we want you now after w...

Abuse

i lay in bed all day every day unless i have to go out because everytime i try i get bashed down. i been like this for the last 25 years. women bash for sex. i fear being attacked by women over men, or men attacking me over men or women, i fear being used and don't trust people. i only trust myself.

i lay in bed all day every day unless i have to go out because everytime i try i get bashed down. i ...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

handby is a bastard! the guy is evil. he has wronged me. fuck off and stop abusing me dickhead. and same with ken and joyce, katy rick, bec and sue and my brother and his wife all been picking on me for over 25 or more years. you stop it or else. my doctors and my parents are getting hateful and angery at all of you. my father doesn't have to tolerate his daughter being abused by you. my mother said she didn't bring me into the world to be a nigar or chinks slave to help their cunt action and steal everything from me and I am far from selfish. stop abusing me. I want to know why I have not been allowed a job for years and years. never had a a full time job, never had a proper date and all these stupid old farts getting in my way! old bitches stealing young guys from me and old men trying to wreck my cunt when they should be at home minding their own business with their wives and not out stealing raping virgins. I want a catholic nuns order named after me! I am sick of this. yesterday I was asked to tell something about me no one knows. I am celebate I have been living like a nun and I am not a nun. I have been denied rights of a job and attention from men. I should have had everything I wanted by now. I think everyone is so selfish but me. stop abusing me. you been abusing me now for over 30 years when are you going to be stopped? because I will get someone to harm you. I will call police again. I will go to a lawyer again. stop stalking me. stop abusing me. stop following me everywhere I go spying and trying to ruining everything I do or want to do. stop it or I will get my doctor to call the police and talk to a judge over you all. your a gang of stalkers for the last 30-40 years dating back from 1970s and I am sick of your getting in my face and getting in my way and not learning to fuck off and get out already.

handby is a bastard! the guy is evil. he has wronged me. fuck off and stop abusing me dickhead. and ...

Abuse, Hate

my parents and doctors are angry that I have been left in poverty without any friends or man and I deserve to be treated better. Its not fair and I have asked several times for people to stop bullying and abusing me and I mean it. soon I will get my doctors and a lawyer to write a letter to rsl and churches who have abused me, and make them search down this bunnypoeta and leigh morris, and ken who made threats at me. leigh made threats at me i had to go to that stupid cocktail party that was not even a party at all. no one spoke no one was dancing no one ate but for a few trays of snacks, there was no music and party atmosphere going on up alcohol. you could have seen a better party at our dive house years ago then that party. when you say cocktail party one has expectations of music, entertainment, quality foods and mix of non-alcoholic and so on drinks and music and dancing and people forced to talk to one another all over the place, you expect a certain atmosphere and standard like proper entertainment like a soul or r&b singer and sociability with people and some proper fundraising at the event like raffles and games etc. there games were unreal abnormal. I was so poor I just wore a black dress pants and I knew I would cold so I had to wear a jumper and my doctor didn't want me to go to the party because of the medication and leigh threated me if I didn't go she would push me out of the quest. I didn't want to go. I was too unwell to go, and it was no fun anyway. it was the most boring dull party ever, my cats know how to party more then they do. one of my doctors has made a lot of comments about how bullied me and my sister have been. a handful of my doctors are very angry over it and so are my parents. at least rose has been married twice and had a child. I haven't even been married once and have no child and no career, no graduation I should have been entitled to all that if everyone else is. stop bullying me or you will get it cunthole DB HANDBY! I owe you nothing. infact you owe me. everyone owes me, not me owing them. I am trying to make good of a bad situation but you didn't need to make it worse assshole DB. fuck off cunt. you fuck off bastard. stop abusing me! Joyce threated me, ken threatened me, rick threathened me. I don't have to take you abusing me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!my doctors can't fight a case in law against you all you know, on my behave. any of my doctors or family or friends or co-workers, or therapists can fight you in a court on my behalf for the last 20 years or more of abuse. so stop abusing me.

my parents and doctors are angry that I have been left in poverty without any friends or man and I d...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

stop bullying me !

Abuse, Hate, Violence

its a good thing I love my cats they cost us over $2,500 in the last few weeks and I need a holiday or a wage or something. I wish they could pay for their keep. all I do is apply for stupid jobs and never get a look in the door and I am sick of it. even when I had cancer I applied for jobs. even on disability I applied for jobs living in hope life could get better. I think its a sure guarentee that I won't marry or have kids or work full time or graduate from university - university was a complete waste of time and engery. I had to do something its not like I had hot guys after me. no one ever put in a huge effort to show any heart or ask me out like they ment it. I am sick of being abused. people wonder why i am celibate most of my life, but I was a virgin til 29 and had no job that I wanted to have. I didn't have privilege. no one ever saw value or competency in me but sandy when I was young. no one asked me what subjects at school i was good at and aim for work in that. I was told to just get any job the lowest possible casual part time hotel room cleaner apart from selling programs at sporting events and pocket money jobs, that is all its ever been pocket money jobs. at least i did save some while doing hotel work but it was hard on my back, near bloody killed me doing that work from 6am til 3 or 4 pm some days. I was lucky if I got home after 4 even if i finished at 2pm cuz of trains, university I had to travel 2 hours there and 2 hours home every freaking day. what for? to be treated like this? I never asked for this sort of life. no one said to me "if your good at bookkeeping go do that or go try something in retail etc" it was like joyce was like, "do the lowest level work cuz that is all you are and can hope for cuz you are shit" that was the message i picked up from her all the time. you can't have a police man or a male model or a doctor or anything I have. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2EwViQxSJJQ joyce was standing in my front yard laughing putting me down, telling me how I am such a fool, I would never have a man like her. every woman did that to me but a few. joyce must know about me, what I do. since I am not your everything as a client and client loyalty, replacing you has been easier then I ever imagined.

its a good thing I love my cats they cost us over $2,500 in the last few weeks and I need a holiday ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

cat pissing all over the bed. expected to live like black fellas. no vet would put up with this so why should I?

cat pissing all over the bed. expected to live like black fellas. no vet would put up with this so w...

Abuse, Hate

expected to live like black fella with fleas in the bed, I bet the vet wouldn't put up with it.

Abuse, Hate

look at me ? who would want to go out with me at 46 with no children never been married and so fat and ugly? right. all my ear and health problems and you know what hurt me the most I couldn't even get to thank the nicer ambulance officers that took me to hospital in tears struggling to walk and it felt like I had a helment on my head from the histimines how the effected the membrane around the brain and all the sudifed, I can't believe GP's or doctor in australia would put me in hospital I begged them to but they wouldn't. I got sick of trying to medicate and monitor medications myself and too much sudifed is dangerous and anti-inflammatory. all I wanted was for someone to hold me so I could just cry. they had heart monitors on me every time I went to hospital. now I know why! one day I will tell someone the whole story and they will see how evil and unfair it is and how none of it made sense to a reasonable person. its taught me to never really trust anyone ever again. if joyce and rick and katy and ken wasn't enough abuse and lessons, doctors abusing me has and these neighbors abusing me. butting in on my childhood and illnesses and assaults I have suffered. when you hear the full story it will shock the hell out of anyone.

look at me ? who would want to go out with me at 46 with no children never been married and so fat a...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

no one here to rely on for help, I have to do it all. when you need to do a few urgent things in 1 day others here at this house are hopeless to step in and say "oh look mom your business I will take the pet to the vet for you while you go to the doctor or I will go post the letter for you, you go do the shopping" they can't even make a meal for themselves

no one here to rely on for help, I have to do it all. when you need to do a few urgent things in 1 d...

Abuse, Hate

look at them loving themselves and you think.. I know where you are at, that was the loneliness isolated time of my life and no one liked me for my good looks, so how do you think they really are. faking it too! the church told me (we turn to outward ungodly things and sex and lust and looks and body image and sex and money when we are indebt to god in ourselves indebt and redundant and escaping gods truths). and you know you don't want to fall down that hole again! been there and done that and everyone ends up a sucker there. wiser people back off. only maturity and experience can teach you when to say "enough already who gives a dam!"

look at them loving themselves and you think.. I know where you are at, that was the loneliness isol...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

once you turn 24 its all down hill from there. maybe its earlier now like 19 or 20 some much competition now. you get thrown on a sexual, job and life scrap heap. my parents went through it and so have I. its life's way of kicking you down. like australia post stealing my mail. soon I am ringing the obudsmen to complain. probably my shithouse cousin is behind that out of vendetta just because he abused me as a kid. you can blame joyce , spongybum user bunnypoopeta bunnpoeta the joke of all jokes, i never wanted others knowing my business. his and joyce and ken's and leigh's threats made me do eratic things out of anxeity and phobic fear of being bashed. that is another reason i won't come into relationships. it usually starts and ends with being bashed by some slut dog or deranged male. nope. won't come into it. I laugh at others in relationships cuz you have to ask yourself. "how did that ugly bitch get him or how did that ugly bastard get her" and usually its violence that got them there just like in jobs too. politics all based on violence and threats not popularity. wake up world you sure need to be educated by me to be enlighten!

once you turn 24 its all down hill from there. maybe its earlier now like 19 or 20 some much competi...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

sarina ugly nigaa myob ugly sarina nigga myob, bad nig myob ugly russonigga sarina sarina ugly nigaa myob bad ugly nig myob russosarina nigga myob, nigga sarina bad nig myob ugly russosarina nigaa myob sarina nigga myob, bad nig myob russonigga sarina sarina nigaa myob bad nig myob ugly russosarina nigga myob, nigga sarina bad nig myob russosarina nigaa ugly myob sarina nigga myob, bad nig myob russo ugly nigga sarina ugly sarina nigaa myob bad nig myob russoulgysarina nigga myob, nigga sarina bad nig myob russo ugly, myob sarina. 2004

sarina ugly nigaa myob ugly sarina nigga myob, bad nig myob ugly russonigga sarina sarina ugly nigaa...

Murder, Abuse, Hate, Violence

rick said you have to be working to be in a relationship and he is american so it has to be right! right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

rick said you have to be working to be in a relationship and he is american so it has to be right! r...

Abuse, Hate

i never put myself out there or flirt if i am thin or fat, but being overweight i didn't put myself out there at parties on the ship i could have because i see myself as disgustingly ugly. i met a really nice doctor on the ship and his partner from russia and they were so nice she was taller then me but blumpy but i see her as exotic with her culture and his culture from another part of the world I can't remember where, but he was perfect and to me i just see this ugly old fat unhappy sad, lonely, no hoper that every one hates and i hate my body deeply. i think most overweight lonely people with illness don't embrace this fat body love crap and fat acceptance stuff. most fat people are deeply unhappy, the only benefit to being fat is, people don't bother you for sex or annoy you when your thin they expect you to hand out sex and smiles and flirts everywhere when your fat they expect you to be unhappy and sad and depressed and quiet and that is my true character, i have been more depressed in my life then anything else even with money or without money. flirting is not my thing. i am very matter of fact and business like with men. i only ever tried flirting for about 1- 2 year zone when i was 3-32 because i was thin. but even as a teen and young woman i never flirted and prefered to study and be alone with my cats and i mean it was clear men didn't like me and all the useless unwanted ugly old men would bother me. now they pick up the fuck off sign i were on my forhead everywhere i go. i am not interested at all til i am the person i want to be then i will let love in. another guy in support group feels the same way, he said "if i have no job then i won't allow myself a relationship and i am the same", it makes people realise you are not gonna just take what comes or sell yourself up or down for just sex. i am not interested in him he is way too old for me. my attitude is no career and no thinness no flirting and no sex and i place a price of currancy on everything about me when it is how i want it then i might flirt, but without a job your a nothing even if thin or family money, or university you're a nothing without a big job. i never paid for any dates with any men. i never made others a slave to me i would say others tried to make me a slave to them and i won't be that. they can be there own slaves. the presumption that anyone expected anything of a loser like ken just shows what a idiot he is. I am fat and ugly as he was then when he raped me and there is no hot young virgin male around for me to rape? and no one especially me, i never asked a spastic old scum to help me, he took. I was thin and single and deserved better only other people couldn't see that. i could see i deserved better, it was other people forcing things i didn't want like fat dog bec and rick and katy and i told police i have every reason to believe ken ken rick and katy and bec and all that group, its likely he knew joyce and william and others. my guess is william got him to rape me as that is the evil sort of person william is. I don't ever want to see him again because i do believe he was the one who caused all this. there was always something evil about that family and still is. i am exactally how others wanted my life to be, i stay in bed all day every day unless i need to go to the doctor or out for something. i don't talk much to people. I avoid a lot of people and i am recluse and shy again just like i was when bill abused me and ron assaulted me, they made me feel ugly. only a ugly girl gets molested by ugly old men. only ugly girls get raped by ugly fat men. only ugly girls get illnesses and only ugly girls get ignored and jobless and have no friends. its like roy sings 'only the lonely, is ugly... only the ugly" !!! and this ugly old witch dog pig faced redhead is not flirting with anyone and is openly rude sometimes if i can get away with it to certain people. i have accepted my lot in life of misery lonlenss and ugliness. only ugly people get abused as kids, or they end up ugly for being abused as kids. that is just nature and life sorting each other out. like when animals dump their young that are deformed, well it will die anyone so the mother rejects it. you have to learn to thing self self self. what is in it for me, how can i benefit from everything. being ugly and abused by ugly is a sign of gods hate for you! that is all the therapy I ever knew.

i never put myself out there or flirt if i am thin or fat, but being overweight i didn't put myself ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

i know she comes on here.

Abuse, Hate

the depression of summer. it starts from october til about april. the heat makes me feel so depressed and sad and miserable. not sure how anyone is supposed to live in this heat. its uninhabitable as far as i am concern which is only reason why i hate this place australia, there are a heap more reasons. no one can aspire to rise above poverty and a nigar or overseas person or asian here. its so suppressing if you half way normal.

the depression of summer. it starts from october til about april. the heat makes me feel so depresse...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

where the crappers is life going here?

Abuse

SNIFF fart bark shit on the floor FUCK SHEEP AROUSAL fuck in public fountains acid trip TRAINING. I am a blond 30 something wife with a 30 something husband. I have recently taught my husband to become aroused by the scent of my farts. It is to the point where he becomes completely excited when I cut the cheese and often asks me to fart in his face when we are intimate. I tease him by eating refried beans and onion chili, pigs ears and mutton gut and a drop of the old eppycak molases in public fuck on demand in shopping centres and then farting and dancing on tables for sexual relief. He begs me not to because it turns him on too much it makes he spontaneousy stiff and throws out a dick and masturbate infront of anyone in public and he cannot stand up in public after I fart near him so I just laugh and keep our circus act going til we are farted out off into space. One of our hottest fantasies was where he wore a latex hood burning it and melting it into his forhead of his cock and face and I ate several bean burritos and farted inside of the latex hood while I burn my ass on the carpet shittting and bumskids on the new carpets in carpet shops mostly. All he could breathe where my farts burn hot with fire and we scorch any lovers out off the earth compared to us and our super erotic love making in fountains and bean pole rooting in public no one can bare our company infact. My farts were his oxygen and everyone's memory for years to come til we killed ourselves with a fart tactical response group stage stunt involving a hot air balloon, three monkeys and 20 gas tanks of my pre-mixed farts over a period of 6 months capped some how it set off a earth quake and we kill everyone with our magnificent love . no regrets. CAN YOU TELL I AM ALREADY SICK OF THIS DEGRADATION ONE SIDED DEND END RELATIONSHIP, cuuz its so full of shit.

SNIFF fart bark shit on the floor FUCK SHEEP AROUSAL fuck in public fountains acid trip TRAINING. I...

Murder, Abuse, Hate, Violence