Confessions about 'Bu'

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i felt guilty for surviving death, and i push most people away these days, its only a selected few i welcome in. no men but i am not gay. its just "what the fuck is the fucking point when you're as old as i am, never felt loved ever and its a bit too late now, who cares! loves a load of bullshit, it won't save you ".

i felt guilty for surviving death, and i push most people away these days, its only a selected few i...

Abuse, Hate

I have been sad last few days its anniversary of sabi's death, I don't expect people to understand,cuz I just don't give a flying fuck who I offend these days since she went. I have so much bitterness in me and false friendliness and false politeness there are days I have to force it politeness out and its painful but its better the days when I can be blantantly rude, hard and cruel and harsh and mean to heaps of people. it somehow makes me feel better! just over a cat. and fuck the world on their spastic fucking xmas eve holedown hellfire shows. I hope heaps of people die in hell anyway. who cares! I just write my songs and that is a different side to me no one sees.

I have been sad last few days its anniversary of sabi's death, I don't expect people to understand,c...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I need a some more sleep and money. been up most of the night hugging my laptop.

Abuse

she is so useless, wants to stay up til all hours when years ago it was hitting bed at 8pm now its like midnight and i have to wait and she plods around, I am supposed to make beds and clean for it and do dinner and she has no order of her infitary of linen or food or frozen goods, or anything. she is a disgrace. everything is that dam computer her face shoved it all the time or tv without a care how any other bitcher feels or what they are a needin from her. you failed the test. clean your house lazy woman.

she is so useless, wants to stay up til all hours when years ago it was hitting bed at 8pm now its l...

Abuse, Hate

i accused my husband of cheating and i was wrong For months my husband has had a Los Angeles number on his phone and when it calls he disappears for a few hours at a time. He claimed it was his boss' number an he was from LA. So I followed and documented. I was wrong! He was telling the truth! I followed him to a house and a woman answered and he went in. I knocked a few minutes later and the woman let me in when I identified myself. I saw the office to the left and saw my husband and his boss having a meeting with photos. Apparently he is doing loss prevention and identifying thieves at his work place then meeting his boss and security officer after hours with his findings. Boy am I embarrassed! putting style over comfort when last week I had the most amazing sex I've ever had in my life. I had it with someone ive been in love with since I was 12. He fingers me good and eats me out like no other. Ive never expierenced such pleasure .... unfortunately found out he's taken Men are jerks , now he doesnt want a relationship i have to get over you so i will its just that I am obsessed with winning a richly endowled hunky blowhorn man not pumpkins and screwdrivers and yukidy slaps and sweat grots in tech and trades and uniforms that are old seeing all the best ones are taken. anyway we're broke apart now I left and he left and we left the town going separate ways. I was shopping online today for a pair of Sanuk's, I've been told they are the MOST comfortable shoes ever. The two pairs I found to buy didn't have the arch that is the key to their comfort. I am going to buy them. Style over comfort.

i accused my husband of cheating and i was wrong For months my husband has had a Los Angeles number...

Adultery, Pride, Abuse, Marriage

laws of attraction don't work. I bought dozens of party and cake tins and cups and pretty little spoons and party stuff and it still didn't attract anyone to party with me. I bought and sold all kinds of things to attract love and money and friends; i gave and never found love at my door or anywhere. laws of attraction is a complete load of shit.

laws of attraction don't work. I bought dozens of party and cake tins and cups and pretty little spo...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

stop calling our house noel.

Abuse

violent mothers, violent kids at babyshows attacking a woman is not fair or morally right to do to an abused woman. my mother can vouch for the carryings on of dirty fat slob violent mothers and their marauding violent abusive kids against my kindness and decency at the shows and immoral celebs gate crashes trying to rape kids and abuse my time and efforts.

violent mothers, violent kids at babyshows attacking a woman is not fair or morally right to do to a...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

pooopface kids from babyshows are complete user bloodsucking vampires and scum of the earth little mongrel bastards. I wish they would all rot in hell. mongrel spoilt selfish little brats. kids of today syndrome little bastards abused me and children who don't know their place in this world. grandma was right children should be seen and NOT heard. but these kids have no boundaries at all and were running a riot of muck thilthy dirty mongrel unclean little bastards the whole lot of them.

pooopface kids from babyshows are complete user bloodsucking vampires and scum of the earth little m...

Abuse, Hate

DIVORCED PEOPLE ARE COMPLETE DRAINBOWS. LIKE PISS OFF YOUR COMPLETE DRAINBOW!

Abuse, Hate

some of the little mongrels at those baby shows walked over me their mothers walked over me, everyone there at those senile baby shows walked over me how i hate the Cnts and barstards. they will rot in hell for their wrongs. and some of them are models and in acting now and have kids themselves so far up themselves. little bloody mongrels. no one but the babies mothers were allowed to be the real stars of the show, like the saying goes now "ARE YOU MOMMED UP OR MOMMED OUT ENOUGH YET TO GROW UP YET?" YOU SPECIAL SPECIAL MOMS OF SHIT AND PISS AND WHORING. ALL THOSE FAT SLOB VOMIT MOTHERS AT THOSE RSL BABIES SHOWS MADE ME SICK. ALL OF THEM WERE MURDERERS.

some of the little mongrels at those baby shows walked over me their mothers walked over me, everyon...

Abuse, Hate

i sound uncaring don't i? but rose drained me and her parents out with her husbands, kid and divorce and even as a child and teen she was a drain out. rose knows how to drain peoples souls out. i seen her follow mum around from room to room yelling and tantrums even at the age of 30 or more causing fights with dad for hours everynight with her nightclubbing and drinking livestyle all the time expecting me to do her make up and hair everytime she went out for free and dumbly I did it as just practice cuz I liked practicing putting make on trying new styles and colors on her from my books each month. but she drains the engery from you and you get no thanks. never let other your kids kids be used as weapon never let the divorced crazymakers use their kid as a weapon, if i see them i see them i am not rude but i told her ages ago she was not going to use her kids as a weapon with me and i was told that in support group too, you get no thanks later for looking after other peoples kids day in and day out. no thanks what so ever for free childcare and free babysitting and flat out even wanting to fucking talk to you. all those mongrel little bastards from baby shows i helped there sticking fat ugly old mothers and there mongrel dirty kids in baby shows and baby baskets and the little bastards walked all over me uses. complete skanky users. little bastards and their bastard parents.

i sound uncaring don't i? but rose drained me and her parents out with her husbands, kid and divorce...

Abuse, Hate

Beauty is the beast I can't stop looking at pictures of this dude with the most gorgeous, soulful baby brown eyes I've ever seen. It's like looking into eternity and being swallowed by some beautiful fucking void. The dude himself is fucking gorgeous, too. What's even worse is the dude is infamous on the internet for being a horrible person. He's actually in prison now. I'm tempted to write him and tell him my thoughts, but I keep telling myself that would be a terrible idea. The shit icing on the shit cake is that I'm married. Happily so. I am not about to wreck my marriage by getting involved with this jailbird, but I feel so bad about looking at pictures of him and wanting to reach out. He and his eyes are gorgeous. His mind is Golgotha. This might not be cheating to some, but it feels like it to me.

Beauty is the beast I can't stop looking at pictures of this dude with the most gorgeous, soulful ba...

Abuse, Hate, Violence