Confessions about 'Bu'

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Jeg måtte hente noe ut av min bum for deg som en julegave

Abuse, Hate

fuck off rupet murdauch spastic bastard. you are a killer a murder. go die.

Murder, Abuse, Hate

stop abusing me david I don't want to know you. no one here likes you.

Murder, Abuse, Hate

on ya ass joyce on ya ass joyce on ya ass joyce on ya ass joyce on ya ass joyce on ya ass joyceon ya ass joyce on ya ass joyce on ya ass joyceon ya ass joyce on ya ass joyce on ya ass joyceon ya ass joyce on ya ass joyce on ya ass joyce!!! get out of my life dirty animal. get out devil get get get or i will call police on you and report you again and again and again and again.

on ya ass joyce on ya ass joyce on ya ass joyce on ya ass joyce on ya ass joyce on ya ass joyceon ya...

Abuse, Violence

i want you on your ass@! get out of my life!

Murder, Abuse

stop stalking me noel stop calling on the phone. stop following me online. you are not welcome. go away. no one here wants to know you.

stop stalking me noel stop calling on the phone. stop following me online. you are not welcome. go a...

Abuse, Hate

The man who date raped me did much the same thing. I was not attracted to him at all. at a party the boss said "do you think any of the guys here are nice, and she said "oh he is looking at you what do you think of him?" and I said "oh he seems ok, sort of not bad" and smiled and deep down I was too embarrassed to be rude and public protocol in a party you say "oh yeh, he seems ok sort off person not bad looking I guess" but that doesn't mean "I want to go out with him and I want f* him!" and I was drunk by now and just tried to be polite rather then say "well they are really old and ugly actually" and the fact is there is BIG DIFFERENCE IN COMMUNICATION AND UNDERSTANDING THERE. the next thing i know is he is drinking his fav scotch expensive and looking back he must have thought he was going to score that night like a fool pig in mud, and then the Boss spoke up when I was leaving and he offered to drive me home or some of the sailors, next thing I thought he was going to drive but no he gets his silly mate to drive and him in the backseat and I was drunk so he gets in ready to rape me in the car backseat and he went to far because i didn't want to be kissing him and it felt bad and awful but that happened, but no way would i have got in the car if i had known that was there plan if i had been sober, I wanted to get home safe and not with that s* going on as i had never done that before. because I didn't want to go out with him or know him and didn't want him f**** me or raping me when he suggested we meet up to walk around the city. then he asks me upstairs to his rooms for a drink and look and I thought he was going to introduce me to some of the single guys on the ship but no! he gives me a heavy drink and went for me like a cheap ali- grater and raped me and that was my first s experience and i was being told by people this was all normal way of life and i was so ugly i didn't deserve better anyway then parcels in the mail come of dead threats and i wondered if it was from him. we chatted on line and he was like i like you but i am married but i want to get you out of your shell and help you and you need to be having s more and around guys and i will build up your confidence with s and do you feel better now? and no I didn't then he wanted me to get on a plan. saying I am helping you get out to see the world and learn independence. so 6 mths later i goes and do what he wants and hated being near him and couldn't wait to get away. and he was first thin say when see me "I want to tie you to the bed and rape you" not a gentlemanly thing to say. but i was so dumb and fooled at the time I thought this was all normal. he said he would never leave his wife and I said well, I don't want you that way anyway and when i seen him last he goes "I will check out a guy you like next time so he is right for you" or some s* and I am thinking "excuse me but I don't need you to check out any man for me" and I don't like or love you and I am after another guy someone way better who can give me what I really need. not your s*." he has stalked me but I don't love him. I just want him to leave me alone to find some better guy and give me what I really need. It sounds like he was pursuing you and messing with your head. its like a relationship of abuse where the wife goes back and is raped and abused or the girlfriend is not aware of what is happening around her and is lead to believe that any abuse or games in a relationship is ok and it is not. don't feel bad. you did nothing wrong but fall for trusting him again. a man can confuse women like this to stay in an abusive relationship and that its all normal and its not til you get older and get professional advice when you can see that he was abusing you and messing with your state of mind. when you see professionals and see how the world is not like that your eyes wake up that you have been had and used and you deserve better. I know I do deserve better then this bullshit. 2018 the year the scum bag rapist leaves gets out of my life so someone better can come into my life. cuz my parents are never going tolerate this shit ever again and they said they will go the bastard for this. he is not welcome in our lives. some people will try to fool you that shit is ok but it isn't. abuse is abuse. violence is violence.

The man who date raped me did much the same thing. I was not attracted to him at all. at a party the...

Abuse, Violence, Sex

I ask her out for a lunch or dinner and she puts on a act for ages, and has to invite her own set of kids. it is always i can't go anywhere without a kid or mother or guy or 10 friends of her own to feel equal to just family. its over done.

I ask her out for a lunch or dinner and she puts on a act for ages, and has to invite her own set of...

Abuse

no!

Abuse

rose-mary blinded me for half a day throwing sawdust in my eyes and it took a good hour of my father having to wash my eyes out under a water outdoor tap and I was crying and I was I could hardly see for another day til it came good. that bloody bitch blinded me in more ways then one, that bloody thing! if people only knew the violence and attacks and sexual assaults she did to me, the dirty games and evil evil evil things she has said to me since I was a child. if you only knew. you can't begin to imagine its got worse as she has got older. she even let a underage neighbor get fucked by a guy I liked who was my age and then said "you're just jealous cuz you can't fuck and no one wants you and my allen and everyone says you are so ugly" but she got a underage girl sexually morbid just to stop me having any man at all. she tried that game one too many if people only knew what she is like. sometimes I think she must want me to lust after her cuz she doesn't want me with any man, unless they are weirdy and creeps that I don't like. mum and dad are awake up to her. I said she is has been doing this to me all my life. and my therapist knows what she is like.

rose-mary blinded me for half a day throwing sawdust in my eyes and it took a good hour of my father...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

i actually hate santa, my parents would never allow me to go see santa and have a sit on santas knee with a photo. I don't know why but they never liked that sort of thing and always told me those sorts of people were bad people. I would run from clowns and the easter bunny even out of fear of them due to my parents words and untrust they spoke of those sorts of people. I wonder if parents do that to harm their kids,the ice-cream van they wouldn't lets go and we never went to carols as kids. my parents were real fear mongers.

i actually hate santa, my parents would never allow me to go see santa and have a sit on santas kne...

Abuse, Hate

I've never met my father and from what my mum told me he was really mean. I am normally a nice girl, I'm shy and a bit anti social (though it was worse when I was younger) in the sense that I prefer hanging out by myself and staying at home than going outside or being with anyone else. But sometimes I feel like being mean. I do restrain it because I know I'll get in trouble and considering my reputation at school if I lose my friends then I'll suffer (when we have to work in pairs), it's already at a point that they only choose me if none of their other friends are there (It's my fault, I only talk to them that much in class anyway) so if I do something mean to them they'll all start ignoring me. I think I got that mean streak from my father because even before I knew about him I felt like this. Every time one of my friends has a secret, I wanna know, which is natural but when I do I just feel like telling everyone or a specific person if it's a crush or similar. I did this once before where my friend told me she liked a guy and I told this girl in Maths and the guy also sat on our table so he heard it. He thought it was a joke and after that he knew she wasn't joking. My friend found out but forgave me and said if I ever do it again she hate me. A part of me was happy she gave me another chance because I already ruined it for her by the guy knowing (and it not being a joke like he thought) and I felt sick at having those thoughts. I used to do it a lot in primary school and I loved it because even though I got told off I was never seriously reprimanded by my mum. I hate it now because I can't get away with any of that, those were my thoughts at the start of secondary school. Believe me, it's not something that I proud of. It's like those shows where there's the angel and the devil. When I get like this I take pleasure in seeing the people close to me suffer, my friends. Never my family. It's wrong and I know I should do therapy or something but my mum would never take me seriously as I didn't grow up influenced by my father and I don't want to lose this part of me. I like it. And that's what scares me the most.

I've never met my father and from what my mum told me he was really mean. I am normally a nice girl,...

Abuse, Hate

I am now in the process of removing some unacceptable company from my social sphere as I don't want them stealing my hobbies and rights and personality again. so dear old aunty and a lot of people are going ! I keep them at a deliberate distance for a reason! they can think they are spying but they can't win now with me. afterall , for what they are. and I am not them.

I am now in the process of removing some unacceptable company from my social sphere as I don't want ...

Abuse

Type in youtube "I have no friends" its really interesting, or "why I left university or college" or "I resigned from my job" so many people give up and are happier for it because you will just be expected to work fast and long and die young in work. once you turn 25 or 30 no one wants you for work or relationships. and if you say your getting none (ie as in s or work) people just won't like you and will pass you up. when was the last time someone asked a celibate chick waiting or mr right to go on a date with them without any stress to it or expecting s? see the girls who give up s are more likely to value the s over the ones that just keep getting married all the time and have s with heaps of men. people think crying in s means real love it doesn't, that is just how worthless that person feels and just having s for sad rape and sicko stuff is a waste of time too and most people are unemotional or only emotional when their feelings have been hurt but that don't equal true love. real love is not always painful, just like all rapes don't just happen in underground car parks at night or being pushed into bushes in the dark paths at night. rape is real for most women. why worry about love when you can have a pretend friend and everything is about self care in therapy today.Its best to focus on you. I did a law degree another way and never told anyone and the direction will come when your mind opens to new things. don't focus on the bad of others rotting at you. that is there s* and garbage not yours. no matter what you got to make the next 20 or more years of life about you and enjoy it and not about the people who hurt you continue to hurt you. I would get off the internet for a while. don't post anything on sites for a while, get rid of all your fb accounts etc so people can't get into your space and time and then come back slowly like on annon sites now and then. use the net for entertainment and education and fun not for revenge other then via the legal authorities and if they can't help you then move and start new somewhere else and a holiday alone sometimes just going a nice place can help you get lost to find the other better you inside of you. that's what I did. I have family but as for men sworn off them. men are rubbish today cuz the women are rubbish as well. if you have morals you are gonna stand out like a sore thumb and probably be more alone than not. intelligent people have fewer friends and relationships. love is temporary but like as the song says "diamonds are forever, so too is herpes" so love aint worth all the illnesses like mono, and everything else to hiv and worry and if you do get lucky and find someone do it on holiday and don't tell anyone. no one. not even your closest family or parents.Law degrees are a dime a dozen now, and 75% of university graduates will never work and a lot drop out because of stress and money and relationships and jobs etc. you will find putting millions into education or on a loan is not worth it anymore. the people who have the jobs are not letting anyone get ahead and they won't give them up. so why bother be a drop out and enjoy life there is more to life then working and career and degrees and relationships.

Type in youtube "I have no friends" its really interesting, or "why I left university or college" or...

Pride, Abuse

its unlikely that I can ever be able to have epiduals with birth because of the vein narrowing disorder I have and from all injuries to my brain neurology from the mastoid infections and car accident and I have done enough study to understand this, do you understand??? do you? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UkffBv4sh4U so when they talk of sinuses there are more then just nasal, hello stupids. its like having a shower turned on with hormonal issues to do with the potassium/ sodium cell pump and my heart problems from all the broken heart pain and doctors have failed to ease any pain I endure.

its unlikely that I can ever be able to have epiduals with birth because of the vein narrowing disor...

Pride, Abuse, Hate, Violence

rose might be the rose with many thorns that make people bleed but I am the blossom that failed to bloom and I blame all the people my father helped get to politics like bob gibbs and braithwaite and bill hayden who was supposed to be the next prime minister not bob hawke and other heaps of qlds political faggots as grandma would have called them, gave nothing back to my father and me, I have been so busy studying , and do I look like some fool who watches a stupid football match not likely! and well may that murduck murder smerk ! they absued me they know wht they did. god will get them! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jTvN9hDZezI&list=RDGMEMQ1dJ7wXfLlqCjwV0xfSNbAVMjTvN9hDZezI

rose might be the rose with many thorns that make people bleed but I am the blossom that failed to b...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

to the post- I adore women who have their kids young I don't know why,I just find that to be so sexy:)my mother usually refers to those types of women as women whose horse is greater then the rider, ie, their sexual impulses control them rather then their intellect. so my mother always taught me to have a strong rider mind and also that it was breaking the catholic faith to have children out of wedlock and that was a sin to do that. my mother always taught me that you only ever give yourself to a man once really, meaning as in virginity was a blessed thing to give and that multiple marriages was a sign of mental illness and personal instability and after I was raped while still a virgin, this upset my whole family badly cuzing my father so much anger he turned to alcohol and won't speak to people and my mother was horrified that such a social group would allow it to happen. because it caused me internal injuries and depression and neglect from other men I wanted and prefered the company of and my parents did not approve of the man who raped me and neither did I and we still stand by our values strong. one day the legal and medical people and those who wronged me god is going to punish them just like the people who caused my illnesses at other times just bc we live in a bad world does not mean we should lower ourselves to it but the wicked of the world are winning. its a wicked world we live in now. where the wicked and reptilian minds (that is the small old part of the brain that just rages and impulsive on sexual rampages and has no self order and control and quick to anger and flight or fight cuz they don't learn higher thinking skills) are working over time then the people with more mental faculties. nothing more sexy about young women fucking and having children some men find older women having children a more sensual mature erotic candor. young girls/ children today think they are adults with adult privileges at the age of the pre-teen movement of -711 and 12 are the shakers of the world, and that is a shame, majority of age was once a prized thing like virginity and also marriage and virtue which few people care to consider as attractive enhancements of womanhood now. it will ruin the world. the powers allowing will be to blame not me! thank the lord.

to the post- I adore women who have their kids young I don't know why,I just find that to be so sex...

Pride, Love, Abuse, Violence

i am a whole person as i am whatever good comes along is the icing but people from my past are not the cake! my love life is moving on to the not just the future but I love life now. being healthy is the most important thing. cuz having kids is not a guarantee of being loved in old age. I think I gave the men around this town plenty of chances and now I want to move on! i am not waiting around for things or men or friends. I have no control over finding the right man. I can only do certain things and so far the men I have met here have been awful. all the men I have met have been low grade and when I was at my best I met all the shit around. I knew the image of who I wanted to be but then I accepted others didn't share that or want that for me. and that doesn't mean I have to be around the losers and stupid men others have tried to through on me. I really do want to move from australia anyway and find someone with better values then most australians and someone who has diverse values that are not like all these old men who I find annoying or too young like unlucky llee/locked up lee where he belongs cuz I need someone better then him or old boring theodro, etc.

i am a whole person as i am whatever good comes along is the icing but people from my past are not t...

Pride, Love, Abuse

this hindi woman keeps pushing her values on me saying women have babies at 50 but that is not all women, and they have to be healthy. just because other people do things doesn't mean I have to do things their way. I have my own way of doing things and my own wants and desires and needs that don't include her and others butting in where they are not wanted. I go to her for business not family planning advice. I don't have a husband or partner and I can't see one coming along and I aint waiting around either in hope for one. I wanted children when I was 25 not at 45 and certainly not at bloody 50! how dare you even come your hole power game and nigar act with me? cuz I don't want to know about your life and how you feel I only want to know about how I feel. we are not the same. I am not you. and I have different needs. different value systems.

this hindi woman keeps pushing her values on me saying women have babies at 50 but that is not all w...

Abuse

like police said to me, "if it looks or sounds too good to be true then it probably is" about money, and life and men and everything you can apply this to. I am past needing happy ever afters now and babies. as much as it would be nice to think it could happen logic tells me it can't and won't. and I am sick of people expecting me to believe their lies and bullshit!

like police said to me, "if it looks or sounds too good to be true then it probably is" about money,...

Abuse, Hate