Confessions about 'Bu'

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all my parents do is "hate" on people a lot. my dad says "I would like to get c--ky and squeeze and squeeze and squeeze and squeeze her throat" for years he said this in raging drunken arguments, I just giggle to myself or to my mother, or mumbles to himself about "hating people" and its always "bugger this one, or bugger that one" and "auuggghha I caaaan't" get do this or that. or if something breaks he up and throws it, when the fly screen door handle broke he up and threw it and said "arrggggah bugger the bloody thing", my mother is not much different. she over acts on all kinds of things, comes the dotty little obese dwarf with her dwarf mind and her dwarfted life and attitudes and dwarfed image as her relatives have of her. then there is my sister who tells a heap of shit to people all the time about her marriages and life and will attack over just asking her out or offering her a birthday gift you get attacked, so I have given up buying a thing for her. she refuses all xmas and birthday gifts for the last 7 or more years and has quite a stash of clothing and perfumes and stuff herself that she buys herself, I buy myself my things cuz no one else would so I buy for myself too. and I won't give my things away to anyone and we don't have love thy neighbor values and my sister is the first to say that about everyone. she refuses to forgive people who have wronged us and doesn't want to talk to neighbors and people and I don't want to either or does my mother. dad is about the only that barely tolerates them but he doesn't like them and thinks they are scanky. of course I tell him all the time the stuff I hear and see and them on drugs over their and I like painting bad views about others so I can feel so much better and say "TUT-TUT", what ever turns you on, drugs turn them on, "tut-tut ing turns me on" I just ignore a lot of people now. its the only way to be. my mother and me and dad do our own thing and my sister does her own thing.

all my parents do is "hate" on people a lot. my dad says "I would like to get c--ky and squeeze and ...

Abuse

they have been abusing me again. ear bums.

Abuse, Hate

i let my relatives use my computer but I get it to study on. i have no idea of entertainment anymore. no need for it. i know i am being used but what can i do?

i let my relatives use my computer but I get it to study on. i have no idea of entertainment anymore...

Abuse

i don't want to be anyones friend because of the black gay drug special people. i don't want to be a friend to anyone cuz friends are bad news. friends are not what they used to be. no point having them. I have pets and I been hurt too many times now. I just have pretend friends now. everything is about self care self care self care in therapy today. I just get my treatments and pay for what I can afford and go. cuz I know anyone I get close to will wrong me. friends are expensive to have, time wasters, they are all about them, they won't help you when you need it. they want you to help them be great and then all therapy today says "well this is a world we have to walk over each other and moe everyone down in our path to get what we want and we move on then and ask them to forgive us and if they don't we set god bothers after them with threats of hell and then if that doesn't work we send the devil himself to punish them for not forgiving us" so my advice is do it back to every bitch you ever met you wronged you. when you get the chance attack everyone who has ever wronged you in anyway at work, school, family, friends - believe me friends are the first to harm you. clever people have less friends. when your friendless you learn to be independant and you can leave when you want. you don't have to go drinking when you don't want to, you can go spend your money on yourself or pets. you don't have to worry about your friend being prettier then you or stealing your man! cuz they will. its the nature of the beast in women to want to be superior in everything now with friends and lovers and partners. when you have no friends be careful cuz professional people like medical doctors and business women you visit will likely attack you and want your syncronistity and want to steal your life progress and future good things from you. so keep a look out men do this too. they are money hungry demonic monsters after money and your money, your time, your man and your everything. who needs a friend when you can get to know yourself better have quality time with yourself. whose the winner I ask you? being friendless!!!! you save money and time and heartbreak. cuz no woman will be a true female friend to you, this bbf and you put a man in it the scenario and guess what, she will be working on him and want to steal him from you. she will want your job and church and all the people you know and take you down cuz she is jealous of you. men do this too. just a warning from someone who has experienced it all. from mad murdering famous people as a kid to mad police and mad amublance abusive medical people. everyone is out to moe you down so beware. that is the way of the world a female therapist told me at lifeline. so don't complain to them. you can't win. just don't have friends. have invisible pretend friends and pets as friends. they won't let you down, but your real friend she will, so will your man, have an invisible pretend lover/husband/wife s/he will never let you down. that is the way of the world, its all virtual mind warping now.

i don't want to be anyones friend because of the black gay drug special people. i don't want to be a...

Pride, Abuse, Hate, Violence

I don't know how you can say that but I was molested and to be honest I hope heaps of women are and take it and shut up like we were told to and end up with no job and no kids no independence. no one wants to talk about this topic at all. no one. I would advice any one to not talk about. never bring it up. and to just forget it ever happened. you will pay as a victim. you will not win rights speaking out against people who abused me they attack from the grave even. so be warned that has been my experiences. might will always win over the little woman that most women are unless you black or gay or a druggy you don't have rights.

I don't know how you can say that but I was molested and to be honest I hope heaps of women are and ...

Abuse, Violence

When I was 19 I met a girl at a school for adults she was my age bisexual amazing body and at the time she was really into me. Well one day her and her friend invite me over to her house for dinner. When I got there they started rubbing on my dick. I was in shock that both of them started it like I was being raped. So it started getting late, her parents told them to send me home so I walk out the front door and jump in her window. When I got in we started a 3sum(I couldn't stop thanking god).

When I was 19 I met a girl at a school for adults she was my age bisexual amazing body and at the ti...

Abuse

When I was 19 I met a girl at a school for adults she was my age bisexual amazing body and at the time she was really into me. Well one day her and her friend invite me over to her house for dinner. When I got there they started rubbing on my dick. I was in shock that both of them started it like I was being raped. So it started getting late, her parents told them to send me home so I walk out the front door and jump in her window. When I got in we started a 3sum(I couldn't stop thanking god).

When I was 19 I met a girl at a school for adults she was my age bisexual amazing body and at the ti...

Abuse

she is too quiet, beware of that quiet one they harm people.

Abuse, Hate, Violence

i was worried people would think i was too old for frank bc women have always threatened and bullied me calling me a old granny at the age of 25 when these women were over 40 and then they were calling me a tranny granny at the age of 40 when they were 60 stealing men from me again. enough is enough. a friend from support group said to me "no one has the right to tell you your too old to be loved" when I said that this is what women have said that I don't have a right to be loved cuz I am too old for the past 25-28 years. she said if I get a younger man on a cruise/os holiday tour its no one elses business and they should butt out of your love life, tell them you have every right to be loved as much as them, but these bitches always win. I just walk away defeated cuz you know when your not liked by anyone and that is how it was at the cleveland rsl they abused me everytime i went there so i stopped going to do raffles and fundraising at all after the death threats and after being raped and having the stroke. but one thing I know god is going to punish all those people who abused me. god has them named and planned and he watches them and he is gonna trial them for everything.

i was worried people would think i was too old for frank bc women have always threatened and bullied...

Abuse

my mum says men are bloody useless, she said dad was like is still like having another child to raise but with adhd and their both got a form of autism. it runs in both families without a doubt. I have seen it for years and I even told a therapist I felt I had some of it. my dyslexia and panic disorders and can't settle anywhere in a job, can make or keep relationships, and most of that is when I was young I was very forgiving but I am not now. something can't be forgiven and that is that. I only care about forgiving myself and that is all that I concern myself on that topic. its up to others to live with themselves and to forgive themselves its not up to me to forgive people who have harmed and wronged me. god will sort them out.

my mum says men are bloody useless, she said dad was like is still like having another child to rais...

Abuse, Hate

after what jordan did to me, its made me see how bitchy and abusive men are the games they play that was like the last blow earlier this year and I didn't like him that much cuz I learnt worse from the games of richard in 1999. I have few feelings left. he tried to kill me that american faggot.

after what jordan did to me, its made me see how bitchy and abusive men are the games they play that...

Abuse, Hate

when I get what I want like heaps of money and love then you can get forgiven until then forget it. and even if I do get what I wants I won't forgive much. and I don't forget.

when I get what I want like heaps of money and love then you can get forgiven until then forget it. ...

Abuse, Hate

Perhaps will look such many has discovered only then my one to speak Chinese unexpectedly I to confess me to make very many wrong things to have very hides the truth from my wife these matters to bring now for me very was in debt we to fall in love tomorrow perhaps for a month I to be able obviously because perhaps the economical pressure collapsed only leaves behind two sad people to be able to choose at that time facing dreary life me goes to host's bosom to let all change into the wind to diverge this th I to say goodbye in light of this equally

Perhaps will look such many has discovered only then my one to speak Chinese unexpectedly I to confe...

Love, Abuse, Violence

mum said "you should have said to joyce, yeh I will leave home but you do know that means I won't be able to afford you sorry loser ass anymore with rent and food and bills and moving so goodbye whore house witchbitch. mum said she had no moral principles either to me as her client and putting my feelings and needs first when I was paying her and she should have known your character and personality but she was always bitching and putting me down to others and then only around at events I invited her to she would go on with crap about "oh I am so protective of c" she would say to my mum and my mum knew she was a liar. joyce is a terrible evil liar. I seen rose move out with some real spastic nasty asshole people including her husband and she would always come home and they were abusing her because of her depression and calling her mental and crazy or dead, people did that to me too, and even calling me a alcoholic when I rarely ever drank. never took drugs and I find it insulting. rick was always saying I was a alcoholic and druggy and he didn't even know me and what friend does that?"

mum said "you should have said to joyce, yeh I will leave home but you do know that means I won't be...

Abuse, Hate

we are sick of people throwing eggs and mud at the house and wanting to burn signs on the fence for all the wrongs john did.

we are sick of people throwing eggs and mud at the house and wanting to burn signs on the fence for ...

Abuse, Hate

all karon and john knew how to do was make fun of others and talk about headjobs and liking pussy and shit from her ass at family bbq's which insulted the rest of us in 1999. and how "poverty" they were but they heaps of money to run a car and her brother was doing drugs and drunk all the time and with some old hag and they thought it was cool to be seen snorting drugs infront of a bus load of kids and we thought all this was abusive and it was upsetting us. then she went mental and abusive towards me and my family and after that we wanted nothing to do with her. she said she didn't like our old cat smelly house and dad hugging her and I found her mother to be the most rudest bitch out. she made comments about my weight that were to upset me refering to me being a fat slob at my brothers wedding and how I had lost weight and I knew she didn't like me and wanted to see me abused and raped and fat. I picked that up about them. so after that mum and dad told them to keep their money and stay away from us.

all karon and john knew how to do was make fun of others and talk about headjobs and liking pussy an...

Abuse, Hate

karon looks like a female version of Jimmy Savile its so creepy never showed any religiousness in her when she was around us and was evil , if she is at church grounds its her gaming and ego not because she has morals she is a liar tramp whore because she has no religion or belief in god when I met her and was proud to be anti-religion and we were stupid for being christian she said. fake christains my brother and his whore if they were at any church it would be a hells church they were so evil and abusive to us. karon and john are not mentally normal, we all noticed it years ago how evil they were and their shop lifting and breaking my car and attacking people with eggs driving around in cars and then people were throughing eggs at our house because of what they did.

karon looks like a female version of Jimmy Savile its so creepy never showed any religiousness in ...

Abuse, Hate

dad said the nuns who ran the job employment were as rude as patties pigs to him in 2000 and it was reported by others as well from the carmelites how rude they were to unemployed people.

dad said the nuns who ran the job employment were as rude as patties pigs to him in 2000 and it was ...

Abuse, Hate

junkie hall jerrycan & funnels or funeral Murdoch murduck what ever, pair of complete fucking stupid spastic old bags anyway. I got this dog living next door to me I hate my dad doesn't even like her i don't know why the stupid bitch waves to him. he doesn't even like her. i hate them. I enjoy hating people. its something at least I can do well.

junkie hall jerrycan & funnels or funeral Murdoch murduck what ever, pair of complete fucking stupid...

Abuse, Hate

we don't bother wrapping xmas or other gifts anymore cuz its a waste of paper and the trees in the environment. we just throw them in a shopping bag or a christmas pillow case or material bag and recycle them. we used to recycle xmas paper but then the poor animals now. like its too upsetting for words. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LYyEEJ5hTTE that is why I won't make my story into a paper book now. bugger the bastards and filipino book companies. bugger the bastards.

we don't bother wrapping xmas or other gifts anymore cuz its a waste of paper and the trees in the e...

Abuse, Hate