Confessions about 'Bu'

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i can never forgive you joyce for saying those things to me after that womans body was murdered in a hotel I was working in, i mean where was your common sense? that is not helpful advice for someone upset over that sort of thing. really terrible stuff I can't forgive.

i can never forgive you joyce for saying those things to me after that womans body was murdered in a...

Abuse

you are a spastic little woman joyce only the devil made a spastic dog like you. you are spastic. spastic!!! get it spastic and ugly and dogfaced. retarted and a bitch. I could easily bash your face in for you dog. you don't ever want to come near me again your spastic "charlatan" include "shyster", "quack",fraudster" !

you are a spastic little woman joyce only the devil made a spastic dog like you. you are spastic. sp...

Abuse, Hate

go die katyR fuck off and die whore spastic. go die whore you murdering shitbag loser. druggy freako sex manic nutcase. "you need to get into my head do you?" well go buy a xray you spastic turdwonder!

go die katyR fuck off and die whore spastic. go die whore you murdering shitbag loser. druggy freako...

Murder, Abuse, Hate

if my cat loved me he would take his tablets to ease my stress and worry. end of story. that is what i told him and yelled at him last night and how naughty he is not taking his tablets.

if my cat loved me he would take his tablets to ease my stress and worry. end of story. that is what...

Abuse, Hate

i am so tired. i am sick of being sick and tired by life and disappointments and no love or work. sometimes i wonder why i keep going and i surprise myself i survive most nights and wake up.

i am so tired. i am sick of being sick and tired by life and disappointments and no love or work. so...

Abuse, Hate

i used to love my cats and i hate them now. i can't look after them with their sicknesses and my illness anymore. I have grown to hate their laziness and won't earn a wage to keep themselves and expect me to do all the work and spending and worrying and one refuses to take his medications. he has been warned if he doesn't he will end up a ugly hated cat full of skin diseases and die on the street if he does pull his weight and take his tablets. afterall he could think of me and consider my feelings and pocket in the whole thing for god sake! I love them but i hate everything and them because I can't give love when I never got enough love myself. that is how i feel about life now. you are a nothing unless you work and earn money or your scum. homeless people are scum, that is how the real people of this world think and I have to take off the caring heart and put on the mean girl mode to survive. I am just surviving i don't have the luxuary of love and things and no bastard has bought me a diamond fucking ring the sons of sluts. i hope all men die in hell. i wish i had of told leigh what i was thinking really that night. "what all these ugly old bastards?" it was just politeness and social graces that made me say something socially acceptable otherwise i would have said "I have seen more night life in a old peoples home you spastic whore bitch!"

i used to love my cats and i hate them now. i can't look after them with their sicknesses and my ill...

Abuse, Hate

i am sick of groups like aa alannon, asca all expect money to go to support group and where does the money go? it might not seem a lot by you pay out $5 for attending the meeting for room hire. raffle tickets and I can't afford their xmas dinner and parties and raffles, I can't even afford to have lunch with them and I don't like eating with people and like at the churches they over do this hugging non-sense. I do not want to be hugged by any or every man and woman. I don't mind an occasional hug but they want to kiss you on the cheek and its just a bother when I had a rash it hurt everytime someone wanted to hug me and i was like "look its not contagious but I don't want to be touched right now cuz it hurts" . i don't want old men hugging me either. i find it hard to go to aa etc for all the bible bashing shit they through at you. but strangely enough I enjoy doing readings and I occasionally talk about my own problems. I wish i could work in story narration or something. everything i want to do people tell me i can't do and i am sick of it. I should start doing that back to everyone i meet. see how they like it. i was told in pharmacy i don't have personality to do law and what a shame to hide away a lovely personality and friendliness like you with law and then i was told in other jobs - oh you won't be able to do that. its always the same. fuck i am sick of that. how about i go around putting everyone down around me telling them all what they can't do and see how they like it for 30 or 40 years. i pick at others faults now because for the last 45 years people picked on me so i do it to everyone now. even strangers.

i am sick of groups like aa alannon, asca all expect money to go to support group and where does the...

Abuse, Hate

i would be a nanny but i don't want to be bullied around. i want a nice family who will not abuse me, its like in an office or anywhere i want someone who won't abuse me.

i would be a nanny but i don't want to be bullied around. i want a nice family who will not abuse me...

Abuse, Hate

we can't do anything as a normal family due to my sisters mental illness, I am not allowed to talk to her or buy xmas or birthday gifts for her, she wouldn't go on the whitsundays cruise with us when she was invited and she is a general bitch my doctor didn't want her around me. we don't want her filipino man coming here. I have already told groups how cookie has been trying to filipinize us australian family to her bullying bombastic male chauv games and how they expect money all the time. my sister has to have her son shoved up our bum. she constantly has used her son as a weapon from her first marriage no marriage could make that mongrel thing happy. we don't want him here. they are an abusive family.

we can't do anything as a normal family due to my sisters mental illness, I am not allowed to talk t...

Pride, Abuse

aa 37 days but will i make it through xmas when I hate aa so much.

Pride, Murder, Abuse, Stealing

My real estate agent isn't particularly attractive but I would dong her

Abuse

aa is full of bullshit. I hate the old ones there. and they are insulting too. they don't know it but they are. I have open my mind but there is a time to say, no. and only go when you need it.

aa is full of bullshit. I hate the old ones there. and they are insulting too. they don't know it bu...

Abuse

When I found this site I thought it would have real bunch of liars and jokers confessions on it. y dosen't anybody put up anything funny on here?? it just look like a bunch of real people for once with real issues and they have weirdos around them, that is how it looks to me anyway.

When I found this site I thought it would have real bunch of liars and jokers confessions on it. y ...

Pride, Abuse

chris is a pain in the ass herself. no wonder her daughter doesnt get on with her if she helps others over her own.

chris is a pain in the ass herself. no wonder her daughter doesnt get on with her if she helps other...

Abuse, Hate

on dementia. spotting it in a loved one is painful. I have noticed in my father he is doing strange things like he spends hours a day at the table writing letters that are like bibles to long lost friends he looks up on electrol rolls and then he photocopies letters and thinks everyone wants to know him as if he is a celebrity everywhere we go. he waves at the bus driver who was waving at someone else and every time he goes to the doctor he has to stop in a chat to the people at the dentist and I am worried someone will complain about him doing these things as they are not normal to think everyone wants to know him. he smiles at people and gawks at women and and has his mouth open all the time and one eye closed to look at people which looks strange. all behavior his uncle used to do and he also eats with food dribbling down his face at home and out sometimes, shoving and gutsing into food like he can’t be filled and hungry all the time. he must listen to the funeral and death notices every day on the radio which is extremely depressing to my mother and me, he seems to think he has to “tell people his side of the story” what ever story it is ???? in the jobs he lost or was hurt at as if no one else in our family or in the world has been through work place bullying or sexual harassment (because some of us have been through rape and worse then he could imagine) and he constantly believes and says that I am writing naughty letters to people and a like my sister and I am my mother are children constantly checking up on us and over pedantic over how the washing up should be and answering phones and mail and yet he drinks a bottle of scotch a night (500ml) and sometimes has beer or wine with it. and he is moody, argumentative, accuses others of picking on him when we try to help me when he fell out of the train, yet he picks on all of us and can’t see it. he honestly expects me to pay for his holidays on cruises and says he won’t be able to pay me back later which worries me as he is becoming so vindictive and miserly and I fear what a dangerous crazed woman would do with his money and leave my sister and i bullied and abused by them and penniless. he has been out of work most of the 1990s and some of the 1980s and never completes education and thinks he is some academic and goes up to people introducing himself just because he has spoken over the phone and takes over friendships from my mother or me and copies things like he had to give my cat some several patte treats in one sitting to copy what I do with my cat and something is just not right in the brain and mannerisms and the ideas he has that he is some celebrity and wants to be respected as if we are living in 1700’s with some land Barron and we’re slave daughters to him. He honestly seems to think he is back in 1700s living some land barons life to order milk maids round homestead of some Mississippi old ramble bum dumpster colonialism home, what he doesn’t get is most women wouldn’t put up with his piggish mess and slop cleaning up after him and they are so rich they think he is a joke, we go to a scenic train trip and he though he was giving money to them to keep the business running and all it was was a slot machine for a souvenir non – monetary coin and he put on this big show of helping save the business giving a few chow as he says, and he used to make out his business was something over the top and he has about 7 huge cupboards full of junk newspaper clippings and hovel and won’t allow me to use any furniture for my room he uses them all for his paper filing of rubbish. Its not normal. my mother can see its not normal and we don’t know how to talk to his doctor. I go to Al annon which for non-drinking family members with an alcoholic in the family and all he does is act like we have made him this sad case man. he allowed his daughters to be molested by a man in his family and its caused serious problems and my mother and I have had enough of the jealousy, bitching and games and his almost defiant adhd child like behavior of a spoilt momma’s boy who needs to be a man and accept he is not 45 or 25 he is now 70 or more and young women don’t want some smelly weird man harassing him at the dentist workplace and before long someone is going to complain about the letters he is photocopying and it does not make sense. on the cruise i paid for recently he accused us of “bombarding him from all sides and bashing into his continuously” when all that I could see and hear was doing that was the whales protecting their young around the ship. its like he takes on things of others around him and worst is he will come up to the cats and put his bum to their face and fart in their face and things it is funny. we are just lost at how to handle this. can you help or suggest somewhere that could help? his GP is next to useless who he calls the broomstick) and all she says is “when are you expecting to him about his weight rather then checking up on him and my mother and I have felt for some time now he has been going around bad mouthing me and my mother and sister, when he has for years gritted his teeth and waved fists at us and even attacked me and warned me not to complain about a gynaecologist who was abusing me and didn’t take proper protective covers and I could have court HPV from this doctors weird acts and his weird staff. is this normal or like the behavior of someone unwell? or is it me, mum and others who are weird? even his former boss noticed it and his cousin that he is easily flustered and lost and dopey like with this constant open gaping mouth and one eye open looking at people and peering at women is off putting and weird. we meet a lot of women going through this at al annon, and children of drinkers who end up carers or just can’t hack it any longer and feel bad that they are not perfect for the alcoholic dementia patient. everyone has even commented how his sister is like this a female version of him and a cross of her husband mixed in and how a bunch of controllers and selfish people they are. people have even noticed it in my cousin and her obsession for school re-unions. not normal and this reference to this old poillion weirdo. his been trying to kill his daughters off with his son, that is what he has been doing, and my mother and sister and I dont like it and are a wake up to it.

on dementia. spotting it in a loved one is painful. I have noticed in my father he is doing strange ...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

see i believe in witchcraft and ghosts and the afterlife but my parents don't however my mum did say she thought she seen a ghost of a old lady once in a cottage that was over 100 years old we lived in as kids. so I do believe and I don't talk about this a lot with people cuz the obvious reasons. you put it down to over active imaginations and being tired or ill. but you know can't help believe it when i experience things.

see i believe in witchcraft and ghosts and the afterlife but my parents don't however my mum did say...

Abuse, Violence

DEAR FRATER, several times I have heard knocking on walls and I have clapped my hands and told the spirits to leave if they are bad. this has gone on before here and I don't like it but this time I slap my hands and tell it to leave if it is a bad spirit god won't have it hear unless it is a good spirit. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4F9DxYhqmKwhttps: ; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qa2hpn_sTv8

DEAR FRATER, several times I have heard knocking on walls and I have clapped my hands and told the s...

Pride, Abuse, Violence

my freakin spooky weekend vacation. the beach view was heaven and I paid through the nose for it. just about broke my ass for it as usual living like a begger to give to others. so I paid for the holiday for me and my parents. we went on a wine tasting day outing that was bloody awful. by the first wine place I had had enough of tasting shit as I am not a drinker anyway. so we land at this joint called wiccabutts falls (just for the sake of this black ass page of shit). they had some weirdo halloween event scary scarecrow competition on around all the homestead and winery vineyards around the shitshow joint. so that night was worry about how my kidneys and liver and spleen would cope with an approx half a glass of blonk shit and the food I had to force down like as a kid for some toffee snot whore relatives wedding that was fine dining but crrap. yeh, you know what i mean. passted the bullshit stage by now and the promo garb and hard sell. so had to take a heap of liver cleanse pills and soak in the spa and heated pool and over night had a dream of a screaming woman or child or cat falling from the hotel as we were up 11 or 17 floors or so. we thought we seen MIGALOO white whale from our hotel balcony through the camera lens. so good a view. all the whales were out in the morning and afternoon. went to a cemetery some relatives were in and that freaked me out. found a grave with cement caved in - true sign of a vampire. several army plans and helicopters were patrolling around so worried the Koreans had planned to bomb us the fuckers. Asian fucking fuckers. they are the only fuckers fucking these days. then over night we hear on the news a kid fell from a hotel from the place the cemetery we went to was in same suburb - super freaked out by now. we nt to some pitiful farm thing that was not worth the money and a bloody serious poisonous snake freaked me out - a little too close for comfort as well as the few pythons for my liking- and then my dad falls out the train - obviously pushed by the witch at wiccabutts falls windery, however he was sober. shitty weekender ! what freaky things will happen at the next shitshow break?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7X3LC0lSf-8

my freakin spooky weekend vacation. the beach view was heaven and I paid through the nose for it. ...

Pride, Abuse, Violence

my night of spooks i got the spooks last night in my dreams, I was opening my eyes and I thought I could see and feel shadow man figure in my bedroom and this must of happened about 3 or 4 times and it was a struggle to keep my eyes open I was so tired from medication. later on I woke up and my computer screen was black but it was not off so I turned it off. still I woke up later and felt the ghosty shadow person there but decided to lay on my back to get a better view of it. fell asleep again. then later I woke up and my bedside lamp was on. I have no idea how it got on if I turned it on during my sleep I have no memory of it. but when I woke in a panic realising it was on I started to question did I see someone really or not, could they have turned a lamp on, could a ghost turn it on? I turned it off and layed down again and i got off to sleep. but what a strange night. it felt like something some strange presence had been in the room running out when ever I woke up, it was menacing and wicked. it was playing games. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8njYpyAkMp8&t=118s an evil omen is being encouraged by dark bad forces. a counsellor was saying things to me that my great grandfather used to say to the man who m****ted half my family including me. I didn't like it and it has been feeling like a evil spirit and evil omen around me. I am nothing like that predator in my personality and I don't abuse children and I don't put my hands in children's pants all day long like he did to me and must have done to my family. and sure he had some good points to him but no one else in the family was like him and we feel someone is doing witchcraft on us and its been going on for some time now in the name of nick, and others deceased. how can I protect myself and my family from this evil omen and bad wicca, we can't get any more broken then this, we have none no wrong ourselves and just want it to go away. we just want the good things to happen to us. has anyone else experienced this sort of thing were demonic words and voices are coming through others and remind you of the abuser and trying to accuse you of what they did to you when you you never did those things and never would do those things? does anyone know how I can help from a light-worker to stop the dark abusive forces hurting my family? so only goodness and light and the good things come in? I don't know about black magic I am a christian, but I can sense a evil spirit talking through the living and doing things that are bad. how low can a frenemy get to do this? opposites all the time rotating the fraud on fraud, how much playing with your head can a demonic sicko go, reversing anti turn complete 180 and flip. you sure show your low to the world abusing people with witcraft. how much more can they mess with our heads di? and lilbetbeaater? you can't fool me. you can fool others but you can't fool me. stop abusing me queen bitch!

my night of spooks i got the spooks last night in my dreams, I was opening my eyes and I thought I c...

Pride, Abuse, Violence

i will expose you. i think of all the times i have been wronged and i could kill a lot of people everyday.

i will expose you. i think of all the times i have been wronged and i could kill a lot of people eve...

Abuse, Hate