Confessions about 'Bu'

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=/ I don't know who I am anymore. I used to be so happy and carefree.. but I'm not I've changed but no one noticed. I act like I'm confident when I'm really not. I act like I'm happy, I put a fake smile on everyday. Why can't I just truly be happy? Why don't i f**** love myself? I don't get it. People say I'm pretty but I don't believe that. I'm so insecure of my under eye circles and I feel so awkward when people comment my body. Why do I feel this way? I think I'm Bi. I don't want to admit it though, I'm in denial. I've watched p* before and it got me h**** and I feel horrible.. almost as if I'm doing something wrong and I AM. My parents would kill me if they knew that I was bi, it's not in my culture to be bi. I'm supposed to be straight and get married to a guy that's the same race as me. I have a boyfriend, I think he knows that I'm Bi, but i'm not sure. I love him so much! How can I say that thought when I don't even love myself. I feel like everyone hates me. I don't know why.. I feel like I can't be myself around certain people. I feel like I have to act in a certain way so people can accept me for who I am. Why am i living this fake life? Why do I think that people don't like me? It's not like I did anything wrong.

=/ I don't know who I am anymore. I used to be so happy and carefree.. but I'm not I've changed but...

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That i have bitched and complained about everyone whom i have came across with in life at one time or another, but i am also sick and tired of being sick and tired of everyone putting me in the middle of things. I live with my parents and I am 38 years old i have had boyfriends use and abuse me mentally, physically, emotinally. I am a confined person. I dont like anyone in my business and i dont like people gossiping i have to listen to that from my mother, I dont feel bad for they poeple like my nephew who expects and wants poeple to feel sorry me give me give me i expect everyone to raise my daughter attitude. he expects everyone give me feel sorry for me attitude if my siblings or I did that crap we would get hit. I confess i am madly in love with this man and i feel bad cause we had a falling out since then i have contacted oracles, tarot cards, psychics, and even the board ouija and i feel bad about it. I go to school come home take care of the house and what ever my parents want me to do clean the kitchen, bathroon, take care of the cats, dogs, and bird at times my mother and father all they do is complain and complain and complain and expect to give people money my nephews and my niece, and friend of the family, but she pays back.But they dont help or even offer to even say ill do this for you and ill help out no they just expect something in return I want this man to reliaze that i am here for him and want him back in my life it sucks not be able to talk to someone and i really dont have many people to talk to because they have turned there back against me I have been accused of so much lying, stealing, cheating, and doing this and doing that when i even dont know about it I want peace, happiness, stability. and understanding so i confess and need help for not only for myself but also for everyone around me

That i have bitched and complained about everyone whom i have came across with in life at one time o...

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Help! should i do the project with him? In science i have to do a project with my crush at his home! i've been in year 8 (13 yrs old) for a while and like about every single boy and for some reason i disliked this one dude but now i like him really like him so me him and my friend are walking to our lockers (after school) and there was no one else there but us and me friend and my top button was undone and you could see down my top (plus it was really hot) so flirt and i smile then he tells me he can see me bra i blush and because were neighbours we say by to my friend whos going in a car and walk home together then he tells me to come round at 7pm tomorrow to do our project and i said i'll see... if i go i'll end up making out with him or worse, or get a F for not doing it?

Help! should i do the project with him? In science i have to do a project with my crush at his home...

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my mother has said i am not to blame for childhood, so stop abusing me niggary poops.

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its not ricks or russels or anyones place to comment on my feelings over werner's suicide or me being the victim of child sexual abuse, its just not your place to be involved in any thing about me at all! abusers!

its not ricks or russels or anyones place to comment on my feelings over werner's suicide or me bei...

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its not ken or jasons place to comment on werner or me or my life at all!

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Older Man & Gay Ever since about November 2011, I started to text a gay guy who is 3 years older than I. And now every time he texts me anything dirty, or calls me a cute name, I get this wet feeling down in my pants and I smile. I asked him out several times, and since he's gay, he said no each time. I tell everyone in school that he's my boyfriend. But I dont want to "break-up" with him at school because I really love him and I do wish he was mine. I feel like an idiot for liking him, but he says its okay for me to like him. Do you know what it is like to love someone so much and have them not love you back? How do I stop this? How can I get the thought of us dating out of my head? Please Help

Older Man & Gay Ever since about November 2011, I started to text a gay guy who is 3 years older th...

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to werner, never talk to me about werner and his suicide, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOVECbr-vsc

to werner, never talk to me about werner and his suicide, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOVECbr-vs...

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people pretending to be having nervous breakdowns while causing others nervous breakdowns- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1B2MJc6I5bg

people pretending to be having nervous breakdowns while causing others nervous breakdowns- https://...

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I hate that people ask for money and they don't pay you back even If it's just 1 cent. If you say you will pay back you pay back! And don't ever com saying " oh you Complaining about this amount of money " well your sorry butt didn't have that so I had to lend It to you. seri step up be responsible and pay your debts.

I hate that people ask for money and they don't pay you back even If it's just 1 cent. If you say yo...

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mary p family is back at it again pretending to be poor, she must have done the bankrupcy act court a dozen times ripping people off apart from other unlawful things she gets up to.

mary p family is back at it again pretending to be poor, she must have done the bankrupcy act court ...

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i can just either shut down or be a complete shithead when sick.

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she steals my pink leg razers on me.

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Crush with a guy at work At my work we have this two week placement where we work with people from different stores. The two weeks me and this guy were flirting like crazy, he added me on all social media etc. Now the two weeks are up I don't know if we will talk anymore, I really liked him and I've not connected with someone in such a long time. How do I casually get to see him or talk to him??????

Crush with a guy at work At my work we have this two week placement where we work with people from ...

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i dont bother to look pretty cuz no one liked me when i did. no job no date. so obviously no one in the world wants me to be enjoying life or married or having children or looking nice.

i dont bother to look pretty cuz no one liked me when i did. no job no date. so obviously no one in ...

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i could put in the effort to dress up more but often i don't bother anymore, because it didn't make people like me when i did, it didn't get me a job, or a date. so why bother just for vainity and just for myself like as if I should care how glamorous I could look, like I hate most of my shoes anyway, i avoid high heals often and mostly dress for the poverty people and bitches who judge. cuz if i dressed for me, it would look too good.

i could put in the effort to dress up more but often i don't bother anymore, because it didn't make ...

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i want to cry. i feel like a massive headache, neck ache dizzy and moody.

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I am sorry god.... I did all in my quest for love and search for job....i waned to be in corporates as HR since begin but nothin materialized...i feel i am a failure...my boyfriend left me att the verge of marrige....anoher man lured my and took advantage and my career is nowhere...lost my job tooo.....i feel like killing myself....i wana admit that i am a coward....i am a failure....please fogive me...

I am sorry god.... I did all in my quest for love and search for job....i waned to be in corporates...

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Stupid stupid stupid I feel like i'm losing my mind. i've never even met him. not spoken to him once. he could be a terrible person. he could be boring or rude or annoying or ignorant or bigoted -- but the funny thing is that i'm the one who's terrible. because i'm the one who's shallow enough to want him anyway. his eyes crinkle when he smiles. he's short. he takes bathroom mirror photos of himself. i think he must know how handsome he is. i want to tell him anyway. i want to tell him how beautiful his big brown eyes are. i want to tell him that he has a killer smile. i want to talk to him. i want him to know that his goofy band's stupid music saved my life. i want him to say perfect things to me, in such perfect words that i could only dream of putting together. i want to sing a song for him, though i'd never be able to choose which one. i want him. but more than that, i want to feel this way for someone in "real life". i want some affirmation that my ex didn't break me completely. because it's been a while and i still feel like i'm stuck picking up the pieces.

Stupid stupid stupid I feel like i'm losing my mind. i've never even met him. not spoken to him onc...

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male rich bitch dirty old fart doctor. male cunt!

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