Confessions about 'Hate'

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muma a woman in her 70s she doesn't get impressed by men like jason or too many men actually. she yells at them like I do and disiplines them worse then you could imagine.

muma a woman in her 70s she doesn't get impressed by men like jason or too many men actually. she ye...

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I am not going to see taxiride I woke up those guys were sick of seeing us so I stopped going in 2003, they can't relate to our struggles and they don't live in the real world. they are rich, I don't want to be accused of being in some whores way. after how michelle and doret and anna-maria and other women hurt me, I don't think I could bother having female friends because men always come between me and my female friends and I always miss out and I am sick of it. I got sick of the bullying and these big rich women and other people literally pushing us over to see the band. even joyce felt they should want her over me. so that says something. you learn your place in this world, just don't look around, just look down at the ground, space out etc, stare off into the distance and deliberately ignore sales people and charities. people wonder why I do that a lot but its safer. sometimes I deliberately get a vague confused look on my face like the character doogle like yesterday when this mother was expecting me to smile over her scretching 2 year old, sorry but not impressed by other peopes mongrel sprogs misbehaving and showing off! mum used to just sit there and jason waved at her and she just ignored him but she is like that we all or most men, she hates men, she has always told me no man would want me, and they are all cons and frauds and after just one thing and dumb ya, or they are just trying to take a lean on ya. its true that is really all men do. there is no such thing as a honest good man. most of them are murderers! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ngbEpZ0tTjI

I am not going to see taxiride I woke up those guys were sick of seeing us so I stopped going in 200...

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All I've ever wanted is not to be. Being here is like a pain that never ends. A constant reminder that that one time you tried, you failed, and now you're too scared to fail again because of the pain you had the first time. You don't see the point in your life, nor do you want to. You don't care that we are all here because we're here. You just want to go. That's all you've wanted. That's all I've wanted. You have no friends. The only one you've got is your ex who you're still friends with and occasionally have sex with. It feels like, when together, nothing ever happened and you never broke up, but you remember. You remember you're actually, really alone. No one actually cares about you. Not your ex, not your family. You don't even really have family either because you don't fit it. You feel like it'll never end. Like there will never be something worth living for. You currently just live because you're too chicken to try again and fail. It is your natural instinct to live, after all.

All I've ever wanted is not to be. Being here is like a pain that never ends. A constant reminder th...

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in a choke hold and spit in my face because he clogged the toilet and I yelled at him! I wish that I could tell every women that he ever contacts that he is a pussy ass bitch with a bad temper. I really wanted to call the police on him but I know my parents would be incredibly angry at me. Always in control and just got assaulted and feel worse that my own brother destroyed all trust. Any other person would have been shot.

in a choke hold and spit in my face because he clogged the toilet and I yelled at him! I wish that I...

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LOOK MY PARENTS DON'T WANT TO GO TO ANYTHING WITH YOU, THEY NEVER LIKED YOU.

Abuse, Hate

this old guy of 70 at my community centre keeps overing his dockers his name is chuck-da, that is his nickname and if you seen him you would know why, he is old and wants to chase young women he has a wife and kids but things he is something big but he is a small man and not wanted by women. most girls tell him to go home to his wife and he has a stupid mouth. that is just how I can put it, a stupid mouth.

this old guy of 70 at my community centre keeps overing his dockers his name is chuck-da, that is hi...

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all she can do is keep getting married all the time so selfish

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nobodies cares enough for the hurting people anymore.

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ouch, aching leg

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I piss on your soul!

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I would like to know who this bunnypoeta person is. they forced me to what they call "fight" and it was abusive to me, they made threats of assault at me. this person deserves to die for settting me up to put things up on the internet to defend my situation of being raped and abused as a child and they wronged me. this bunnypoeta has wronged me badly. they made no sense and I did what I did out of fear and duress and police said I am not to blame and therefore I didn't break the law, because bunnypoeta was forcing me to things I didn't want to do. they are a nutter and should be killed. they were not helping me they were abusing me. I want them dead for trying to kill me. he threated to kill me if I did or didn't do what he wanted. I want him to pay for it.

I would like to know who this bunnypoeta person is. they forced me to what they call "fight" and it ...

Abuse, Hate

stop bullying me just because I don't believe in your poofter jesus blood and guts rubbish. you know who you are and what you did. stop or I will dob on you and see you punished. I have a right to my beliefs and if I don't believe in jesus as gods son then that doesn't make me bad. jesus was a profet not the son of god. god is all !

stop bullying me just because I don't believe in your poofter jesus blood and guts rubbish. you know...

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i had to teach my disabled spastic loser of a pathetic cat to walk again because taking pity on things is what I do, as you do and as your taught to do as a child to pity everything around you. and talk morbidly about others with distain and flippant sheer contempt all due to loser jesus who suffered like a spastic pathetic loser on a cross for millions of other losers who have to do the same, which is why I refuse to wear the cross because I will not be subject to a male symbol firstly nor to a loser suffering glorified in the suffering. I have contempt for that concept completely or the idiologies but I sure enjoy seeing christains suffer on their crosses however. all the little bastards rolling up and suffering for their faith in a loser god and loser man that was a idiot. yeh religion is a fools joke really. god is a loser , jesus was the biggest joke on the world out. jesus must have been a spastic.

i had to teach my disabled spastic loser of a pathetic cat to walk again because taking pity on thin...

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my little disabled cat was always doomed from the first day I met her. she was so small and sick and she developed a degenerative bone disorder and she had to learn to walk again and had spine surgery that cost us around $9000 or more dollars I loved her from the moment I seen her she was so small and I think her mother was a wild persian cat that was dumped or something and she was about 4 weeks old I pity her mother so much. I pity her sibblings as well and wonder what happened to them. if they had the same disorders and were wild or killed. I guess everything is wild and shot dead and killed , I myself would prefer to be shot dead on the road then in any hospital for sure. anwyay we are a pitiful spasitc hopeless lot with phobias and paranoina and I have all kinds of health and emotional problems I am not even allowed to talk about incase I offend the violent. yeh, its great living like this and I would love to see more of the world forced to live like this poverty hovel squallor shopping addiction no romance no friends and no job life. I think it would do the world a lot of good to experience this and more suffering that I have. looking forward to seeing the next terrorism attack so long as I am not in it.

my little disabled cat was always doomed from the first day I met her. she was so small and sick and...

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I have a spastic retarted disabled persian cat who is very small and afraid of everything from the day I picked her up she was found all alone less then 6weeks old so I took her to look after her and on all accounts she is a pathic scrurrying creature that I pity and realise people must see me a lot like her, she looks at me in a pitful excited way when I bring our pitiful amount of poverty groceries into our old poverty pitiful dump of a house that is falling down everywhere with draws broken and missing in the kitchen and I feed the spastic animal and often feel so sad I could kill her and myself but for some stupid reason I don't and pretend things will get better but I know they never will and there is no hope for any of us with my illnesses and constant fear of doom and death its hard to face life and you make do with less then everyone else because you were an abused child that looked to be abused at 4 like smug smart margaret from bayside family church told me like the slut pig she is!

I have a spastic retarted disabled persian cat who is very small and afraid of everything from the d...

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I really despise Erik. He lies all the time. About anything & everything. You just can't believe what comes out of his mouth cause he could be lying. Good old Prolificman is only good at lying. It's time he tosses those stupid lizard skin boots- he's never going to be a rock star. I doubt Taylor made ever existed except in his damaged little brain. ET has no real musical talent. As for being thumper7ndahalf- only in his dreams. What a LIAR he is! I HATE driving in Sunnyvale now- knowing he's there makes me sick.

I really despise Erik. He lies all the time. About anything & everything. You just can't believe wha...

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industry business side of things, and getting the finance to fund paying the book companies and their strict guidelines, I sent off 2 book concepts one was called "Pembroke the fairy possum and the sugar plum trail" and another was an activity book called "Love Love Love, then 10 other things" where children make a mobile with affirmations on it and write in the book. but companies like penguin's subsidiary called xlibris Publishing really liked the work, as did a few other companies like Dark Horse and hayhouse and a few others, they basically want you do pay about $800 per month to do a course step by step publishing and some basic and small number of illustrations and promotions and promise if you pay about $4000-$8000 they can guarantee you promotional postures and for the book to always have a copy on the shelves and distributed, but to me this is really a form of Vanity publishing where you pay and they will publish almost anything even if its garbage. so far no professional or student illustrators have been interesting in doing the drawings for me and I suggested halfing the income amount for good work, I made it clear I wanted the Pembroke possum story to look similar to "Guess how much I love you" with a small plush toy and the possibility of a series and also. I showed a few friends for their opinion and most were positive but I really don't like showing professional illustrators or friends the work as I feel they could steal it on me and seek the rewards for themselves because I have had a few people do this to me stealing story concept ideas on me and its very upsetting when they do this. because I was sexually abused as a child people literally do not want to work with me and put me down saying I am "an undesireable" and they don't want to be associated to that sort of person which was very hurtful from one illistrator and also when I approached the qld wildlife protection association for funding or promotional support they wanted money from me and were exploiting me when the aim is to help save an indangered species as well as make a story which is based on real life experience, then when I showed 2 ladies Emma Lee and Sally Griffin from Nutrimetics they were trying to take over and come up with their possum stories to out do me and their illistrator friend did not want to help me at all and I felt very betrayed because someone else did this to me with a version of "the "philosopher and his magic stone" I had started writing as a childs story after a dream about a toad and I found this toad meaning in a dream book and just thouhgt it was a great inspiration for a story. people often have stolen my basic outlines of stories I wrote a book on magic sword and fairies with powers with a character called Jeopardy and someone stole that, another story called "Not me!" and its really hard to trust, people say show your friends get their opinion and they cheat you, its not funny. I get inspiration from videos or dreams or phrases or pictures and art or personal stories hand down in the family and I have been working on a few and one with my mum for the last 20 years we did some drawings and we leave it and come back to it but we feel a bit stupid because we are novices but my mum has been with writers groups and some work locally published and I have at university and did some literature studies at university but I don't have confidence in myself anymore" my mum and I would love to put together a qld flower photo book and I did consider using photos rather then drawing or just doing basic child drawings rather then some Beatrix potter magnificence" it is the money holding people back, because my dad was asked to write a storybook for the birkdale school reunion and the cost was just too much for the committee. I honestly assumed that the publishing companies print the books at their own expense and they get a cut as well as author and artist once its promoted I didn't know you have to pay them to publish your work. what is upsetting is went you see gross books with rubbish like "why snot is green" for kids and yet I have made some lovely children's stories with some bible verse and morals to the tale and its just ignored because I don't have the money upfront or even monthly to give these rich publishing companies. and all the publishing firms are extreme hard sell with pushy controlling and rude american /Filipinos you can't understand well, they can't understand why I am on a disability pension and can't afford to give them $2,000 a month for 16 months , (penguin is a Filipino company) and I would prefer the money to stay within Australia or with a good firm. I felt ripped off a number of times over childrens stories I was working on and there are some I will never show anyone. I don't write shit like other idiots do. what annoys me the most is a lot of people don't take you seriously enough as well they just think your a kiddy doing play writing but it is a process and most people usually want to exploit you and steal from you and make out they can do better. you get afraid to ask if you can borrow ideas you are inspired by. like just a picture or that they will attack you for copyright over a freaking name of a character you choose and your friends are usally out to knock you down and destroy your dreams that is true. they will call you dumb for bothering, and I get angry because my doctor want s me to the drawing s and I just do not have confidence in my art abilities anymore compared to when I was a teen I could sit down and draw for fun now its a bother. even with computer drawing or free hand with old style which I like more but I was not a grand achiever so why would things change now anyway. even if I had a kids story half fucking sellable people won't buy the bloody thing and I won't look to do this sort of shit again. ever again. I gave them about 4 or more stories and threw them in the bin after because it might as well be someone else work because mind is never good enough anyway and why would it be?

industry business side of things, and getting the finance to fund paying the book companies and the...

Abuse, Hate

I am 15 and all I do is look after my old parents and go to school and I can't concentrate on my work sometimes or on my own thoughts because of hurt from the past and upset that people try to take a lean of my intelligence at school and they promote so much propagander about all they do and not much helps with a future and visualizing change or actualizing change. I think my pride is hurt over marks or performance standards I expect of myself all the time. and I am sick of people feeling the need to copy me.

I am 15 and all I do is look after my old parents and go to school and I can't concentrate on my wor...

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other nutters I met were at the choirs, shitbag scum scammer fraud people who were idiots and just losers the churches all idiots. scammers , charlotons and schemes and plotters and gamers. that margaret and lisa and those dirty islanders were evil bastards. creepy weirdo things going on about god calling him big daddy dirty vile talk makes me sick. disgusting people. they literally turn you off church and make you sick. I seen dirty des the other day and ran away from her, she is so spooky like katy with her stupid looks and stupid retard unhealthy cooking she calls tasty. it makes you want to vomit.

other nutters I met were at the choirs, shitbag scum scammer fraud people who were idiots and just l...

Abuse, Hate

rick was getting women to stalk me and he wrecked 2 of my rsl fundraising shows and that is typical of this loser. why any woman would want a creepy dead beat druggy loser like him I have no idea. but genuinely I sincerly felt that rick and katy deserved each other really.

rick was getting women to stalk me and he wrecked 2 of my rsl fundraising shows and that is typical ...

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