Confessions about 'Hate'

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currently the austrlain govt attitude appears to be they just people or women like me to sit locked away in a room without friends or care and left to masturbate all our lives with any form of romantic love and meaningul emotional committement and its just not good enough to be treated like this and for a country or state to say that its ok for churches and colleges and doctors and everywhere I go to be bullied as some sexual slave to someone I don't want to be with. this was the exact same thing that these freaks did to me as a little child where I was a sexual captive to this dirty old pedophile for over 10 years from the age of 4 or 5 and its just not on! my parents are not tolerating the bullying and abuse from rsl and military and doctors, I tell my parents everything, even when we argue I tell them everything that people are doing to me or what they are saying. somedays I will rehash and repeat stories and things joyce and katy said to me over and over and over at my mother and father and other people trying to resolve it and I still can't in my head until I have the life I wanted back years ago I think I will continue rehashing and talking about it til its delt with and I am allowed some fight back and someone to listen to me and support my needs and my feelings in all this. because this is hate crime. that is what it is. its ritualised satanic occult on-going repetitive hate places I go so you learn not to trust. having a stalker watching every page i am on what online courses I do, where I shop or whatever is just an invasion of privacy and dirty ! its not helping me. its not making me feel love for people and infact its doing the exact oppposite where I am starting to hate and mistrust everyone and I could look at a man and not even feel love or a crush on him because I hear those things joyce and katy and rick and ken and the filipenos and my sister and so on, and other people said to me all over a new guys face now.

currently the austrlain govt attitude appears to be they just people or women like me to sit locked ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

AND DON'T PLAY DUMB WITH ME! YOU DAM WELL KNOW WHAT STERILIZING VACCINE I AM TALKING ABOUT! YOU ACT LIKE A DISOBEDIENT CHILD ON DRUGS AND I AM SICK OF YOUR SHIT!

AND DON'T PLAY DUMB WITH ME! YOU DAM WELL KNOW WHAT STERILIZING VACCINE I AM TALKING ABOUT! YOU ACT ...

Abuse, Hate

I wish it would stop smoking that awful strong old tobacco around me how disgusting

Hate

there is no man here to fix flies screens and things that have broken in this old decrepet old pisspot of a scummy house. it was shitbox the day we came let alone near 30 years down the track. and my sister and I are expected to live in squaller and hovel and like pigs for all our neighbors whore daughters. well no thankyou!

there is no man here to fix flies screens and things that have broken in this old decrepet old pissp...

Abuse, Hate

getting aggressively annoyed by telstra lines and phone and internet falling out all the time. its annoying and they will lose customers over this. it feels like bullying and tempering with peoples lives are they deliberating blocking calls coming through???? and why?

getting aggressively annoyed by telstra lines and phone and internet falling out all the time. its a...

Abuse, Hate

my sister and I don't have to be your spastics mengele twins experient joyce poorter!

Abuse, Hate

women being nazi sterilized by german and wang and indian doctors is disgusting act of abuse. there is no justiification for this inhuman soul destroying on going abuses and I owe nothing to anyone. I have no debts at all. I have no convictions. the only time the police have come to me is when I have made complaints about people bullying and assaulting me or not honoring their contracts with me after I have paid money. its only common courtesy and common morality to honor a business contract.

women being nazi sterilized by german and wang and indian doctors is disgusting act of abuse. there ...

Abuse, Hate

when I was 7 years old she shoved a baby;s bottle brush down my throat for swearing and copying the paedophile who was always swearing and saying dirty things to me. my mother denies doing this, every so often her watch glass breaks and ends up in my food causing me pain, I am sick of my abusive family, my father often grits his teeth waving fists at me and appears to hate his two daughters who came out and told about his uncle who molested us and him. my brother is very abusive towards me and my sister is also very violent and abusive towards me. I have a breaking point and needs too. all my sister does is get married all the time and my brother seems to think he is MR BIG in a career which a huge pay cheque which my sister and I have never been allowed to have. I fear for my health and safety in the long term. I can't tell people that my father is a server alcoholic just like his mother was. my mother is very aggressive and has been violent to me and so can my dad be. they often pass off every complaint I have about neighbors or for some reason my mother was very protective of Dr L who was being quite rude to me, while he did help me with my illness he was also rude and untrusting of my description of symptoms, I have also experienced this with D W who every time I see him he charges a fortune to be told rubbish and how OLD I am, I told my therapist I was considering not going back to dr W if he because of his comments to me insulting me which are unwanted and unneeded and not right from a doctor with morals, once again while he is friendly enough there is a degree of flippant insults that offend and are un-needed. I see Dr t briefly once a month and I am grateful to him. I told my therapist who is much older then this other surgeon who keeps going on about how old I am that he must think old and want me to think old because my therapist is very opposite and even other doctors I have seen tell me not to think old being 40 is not old-old! and that surgeon is older then me? my therpist agreed and I said I might look for another speicalist surgeon who won't speak to me like that and he agreed. I am rarely taken seriously by police or doctors or government officers if I complain about abuse at the local Hospital or by paramedics and I am not an alcoholic or druggy and I think I would have to be one of their easier going and complying and obedient patients when they ask me to do things but I do not appreciate their verbal bullying and put downs. a lot of the time when people speak to me they are very abusive and I went through this as a child at the catholic school in Ipswich and other places and I have a breaking point too, and I was always a polite and easy going student with teachers always made a point of getting on well with people and I get sick of my feelings and my needs and my experiences being minimized or being accused of being a liar. one teacher was always calling me retarded at school and she was also doing this to my sister and other students on a regular basis. my brother's godparents one was a nazi in ww2 in Kassel Germany (they were rich medical doctors/pharmacy company in germany) and knew Hitler and they treated us kids like we were crap. it took a while for my parents to believe me about this. We were told he committed war crimes in Russia and dated a movie star in german who were nazi and a whole heap of lies that we were always low-minded and poor to them and I seen their kids ruin a lot of parties with their sexual dominance and controlling. all these nazis do it treat us like we are mentally retarded and they get people to bully us. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xxoabyEUJas I went through very similar things and so did my sister, doctors were making us wait for ages and making out we did not have illnesses, later my sister was found to have fibroids on her uterus and other issues and I was being ignored with middle ear and heart pain. I don't have anyone to talk to other then my doctors to help me, and I sometimes feel I am just not getting the support and help I really deserve or need. I don't expect people to believe me anymore because few people ever have.

when I was 7 years old she shoved a baby;s bottle brush down my throat for swearing and copying the...

Abuse, Hate

you caused all this prince william and diana. I am not jennifer aniston I can't afford all the added extra medical and financial back up to have a baby at 47. my health is always tilting and I have to take large dozes of a lot of suppliments to just stay afloat. I don't think you stupid mf's get the picture I kept trying to tell all you mf's I needed a husband back in 1993 that was when i was expecting to marry and have a baby. you took those rights away from me. and I am gonna hate you to your grave for what you have done you mongrel dirty cuntfaced asshole shitbag! one of my cardiologists was pregnant later in life and I could see she was struggling with her breathe doing heart examination on me, I wondered which one of us would die first in the room, I thought god I will have to call out and get someone to help her she was so heavily pregnant and I was so weak and sick and struggling to live. and I am sick of certain MF doctors minimilizing my issues and my pain and hurt and the neglect and abuse I have been through. I don't have to tolerate their flippancy and bullshit just because they are doctors- they are still losers and assholes and ugly and old themselves who keep making comments about how old I am when they are older! I don't want to be a dirty doctor. you stole my dreams away from me, you all have to pay! I did nothing wrong to anyone to deserve this abuse. my therapist has said I am not to blame for anything that pedo got me to do or what bunnypoeta got me to do or what joyce got me to do and what she failed to. joyce is the big problem who refused to help like a honest genuine counsellor would have. and I do not know how that thing lives with herself and her conscience for what she did to me and my sister and family. how does that thing life with herself taking her shit out on people when she should have taken her shit out on the people who abused her not me. I did nothing to that spastic retarted animal minded senile schiztophrenic geriatric dog with all of her multiple personality disorders. she should have taken her shit out on them not on her clients. who ever taught her therapy must have been a complete fucking idiot! or she was just a loose cannon with a very spastic head and no morals. joyce can stand up for one moral principle to save her ass. like I said the spastic whore could have got a star role in a court case in 1994 if the spastic dog had of shut her cuntmouth and listened up and took the appropriate moral action of stopping that dirty pedophile while he was alive. she has to live with what she has done!

you caused all this prince william and diana. I am not jennifer aniston I can't afford all the added...

Abuse, Hate

sally near caused me a heart attack and she caused me a bad ear infection so I don't feel I owe her a thing every day and every week her bullying was even being felt by my parents and her bad driving and drink driving and running red lights and if she shut her mouth and drove rather then her constant put downs- like Joyce, sally is a person of "do what I say don't do as I do!" and my doctor told me to tell her off so I did.

sally near caused me a heart attack and she caused me a bad ear infection so I don't feel I owe her ...

Abuse, Hate

I am sick of you watching everything I do and stalking me. get a life of your own. you're lazy and stupid!

I am sick of you watching everything I do and stalking me. get a life of your own. you're lazy and s...

Abuse, Hate

I am sick of being your fucking experiment get a life you asshole!

Abuse, Hate

I need to go to a place where I will not be judged by what I wear or how I speak or how I want to work or live. this town and state judges people and discriminates and a lot of hate crime going on. I was hated just because a loser old fart grandfather who nearly died in the war and house burnt down won a spastic minuscule lotto win. fuck you cunts anyway. your so rich and bitch unlike me. you shut me I shut you out!

I need to go to a place where I will not be judged by what I wear or how I speak or how I want to wo...

Hate

the heat here is just literally taking all enjoyment and value of existance out of it. I hate the heat. you can't go out it's so hot and I burn, there is no fun. its hard to study in this heat inside or out. you don't want to exercise it is just not viable to sustain live here anymore for us. we hate it. we want to move somewhere where its like our winter most of the year and cooler to actually live and do stuff like socialize. you don't want to dress up or wear make up much it's so hot and its physically draining and not relaxing. I don't think I can stand another summer in this shithole hellhole town. I have never really had an enjoyable life here to begin with. we don't know the meaning of joy and carefree. I just hate the dump it is too hot to live and survive here. I just want out of this city of shit people, shit work, shit colleges, shit places, shit events, shit opportunities and shit climate. its a worse than a shithole.

the heat here is just literally taking all enjoyment and value of existance out of it. I hate the he...

Hate

its alright for you guys you have all you need. I don't even have a job or wife or kids or parents. and I am without power and the phone for the last 7 weeks as I cant afford to reconnect it after the last a heap of debts came in.

its alright for you guys you have all you need. I don't even have a job or wife or kids or parents. ...

Hate

I hate cousin louise she abused me so badly always stealing my limelight and she has never known when to give up being the bride and star attraction of the family, other times its been sue or brigette, either way I hate the abuse they did to me and my sister feels the same feeling about them as I do. its mentally effected us badly them always wrecking parties at our house and turning into a whore show about them. its mentally effected and bruised us deeply. the on going torture when we just want them to go away and never come back. some things can't fixed.

I hate cousin louise she abused me so badly always stealing my limelight and she has never known whe...

Abuse, Hate

I'm a recluse hiding away from where I don't fit in and not welcome.

Abuse, Hate

please drop dead. just go drop dead, william and ken and katy and rick and joyce and a current affair and those dirty comedy shows, just go drop dead. your families committed so many crimes against the world. so just please go drop dead! please!

please drop dead. just go drop dead, william and ken and katy and rick and joyce and a current affai...

Abuse, Hate

please drop dead. just go drop dead, william and ken and katy and rick and joyce and a current affair and those dirty comedy shows, just go drop dead. your families committed so many crimes against the world. so just please go drop dead! please!

please drop dead. just go drop dead, william and ken and katy and rick and joyce and a current affai...

Abuse, Hate

go drop dead don. you spastic lesbian. drop dead. just go drop dead! you wear womens clothing on tv shows. so just go drop dead. do yourself a big favor and drop dead! please.

go drop dead don. you spastic lesbian. drop dead. just go drop dead! you wear womens clothing on tv ...

Hate