Confessions about 'Hate'

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I’m a barber. A good one. I’ve been doing the job for a while. But I hate doing ******* chavvy skin fades. The blokes who ask for them are fussy and obsessed with their image, even though they go out looking like a complete twat. They need a pair of underpants to go with the haircut to compliment the nob-head look. I need to find something more purposeful in life.

I’m a barber. A good one. I’ve been doing the job for a while. But I hate doing ******* chavvy skin ...

Hate

Drug War at 18. I’m married to a heroin addict. I don’t have addiction problems but like drugs since I was a teen. He’s trying to stay clean and I support him by not doing drugs. But this weekend he was visiting his mother and I spent the whole weekend going through a gram of heroin. No one knows and no one would suspect since I’m a seemingly normal in most ways.

Drug War at 18. I’m married to a heroin addict. I don’t have addiction problems but like drugs sinc...

Hate

I want new friends and no more trashy user people in my life. so sick of scum low lives I put up with in the past. that part of me is over tolerating shit people full of shit who don't give much and who are not much!

I want new friends and no more trashy user people in my life. so sick of scum low lives I put up wit...

Abuse, Hate

The ragdoll cat threw up over my mothers jewellery thankfully it was not expensive things just junk cheapo stuff but its been sitting in the bathroom for weeks and i finally tried to clean one jewellery item today. I just can't do it all anymore. i stay in bed all day every day unless I go out. there is not a reason to get up when you been pushed down as many times as I have. we have no oven and no stove in the kitchen. the paint is falling off every ceiling and I am not breaking bones to do it all again. I did the last lot of painting and I am NOT dam well doing any. some other bastard will just have to pay for it to be fixed.

The ragdoll cat threw up over my mothers jewellery thankfully it was not expensive things just junk ...

Abuse, Hate

i near gassed myself to death many a time cleaning sugarsoap and bleach over the bathroom moulded ceiling and I am NOT BLOODYWELL DOING IT AGAIN. I CAN'T HANDLE IT ANYMORE WITH MY INJURIES! STOP EXPECTING ME TO YOU OLD RSL SLUTTY BASTARDS !

i near gassed myself to death many a time cleaning sugarsoap and bleach over the bathroom moulded ce...

Hate

I don't want to be everyone's friend and be nice anymore. I don't want to and that is just it. I am not the same person. and don't steal, it looks disgusting!

I don't want to be everyone's friend and be nice anymore. I don't want to and that is just it. I am ...

Hate

royals told me to leave them alone so I did. don't want to know them. others told me to not like them like churches and other people so I did what others wanted. my father and mother are very anti-royal. I was the only one in the family who was the diana fan with all the books and collectables and I don't even care for them much now after I found out what they thought of me being abused as a child. and mum said she can't get over me being abused and dad allowing that man in our house or leigh getting ken to rape me. we are a family that do not forgive says my sister rose!

royals told me to leave them alone so I did. don't want to know them. others told me to not like the...

Abuse, Hate

do you understand I am not interested in you ken or any old royals? do you understand that. ken was a middle aged man in 2000 he must be so old now. like he attacked me and he is in my past like a lot of people who couldn't treat me right. so their out! end of story. I am number 1. I am all that matters to me!

do you understand I am not interested in you ken or any old royals? do you understand that. ken was ...

Hate

my right arm muscle is so sore, it feels like I have had a flu needle or something but its been sore as can be for over 2 weeks now and no needle? I don't know how it will be with a flu shot then?

my right arm muscle is so sore, it feels like I have had a flu needle or something but its been sore...

Hate

I can't stand over noble people, over modest over humble people. their a FAKEout!

Hate

carpet needs vacuming and i am ill and bastard says ...! well go shove dude! no hope and no spark of value to you ever again noble man!

carpet needs vacuming and i am ill and bastard says ...! well go shove dude! no hope and no spark of...

Abuse, Hate

My Boyfriend Has Let Himself Go and Writing Strange Letters to Someone About our Child. My boyfriend and I have been together for 16 years now. When I met him, he had a very unique sense of style – dyed hair, piercings, tattoos, etc. We were 18 at the time and it didn’t at all bother me. As we’ve grown older and his goals in life have changed, his style has mellowed out – he took out the nose ring, hair back to his natural color, etc. and I thought I was happy but and he is the big but! behind. To me it showed that we were both maturing and refining our interests but he lives in a hairy world of his own talking on his phone and classes he uploads all day long to his feeds so called teaching. We moved in together years ago and ever since then I’ve noticed that he is not taking care of himself. He’s gaining weight like crazy and his sense of style seems to have regressed deliberately . I get it if it’s just smelly unwashed comfy clothes or PJs, but to me there’s something odd about a 25-27 year old man (who won't tell me his birthday and real age just around about? why?) not batting an eye at leaving the house in a South Park or Hey Arnold! t-shirt. I feel like at times he has the fashion sense of a middle schooler. But the biggest issue for me: he REFUSES to cut his hair. He hasn’t gotten a haircut in well over two years. His hair is longer than mine and almost reaches mid-back. It is disgusting. No style to it even. He just grows it and grows it. No trims, nothing. It is extremely unattractive to me. we have fizzed out as a relationship goes but for our child. It’s also gotten to the point where my parents have mentioned it. My grandparents are visiting and my dad gently asked if I thought I could get Jerry to cut his hair and look presentable for our visit with them. Even our child gets teased at school over how he looks. My parents are a little older than most parents of people my age and they believe that, since we’re not yet offically married, my boyfriend should still care about impressing my family and the direction he plans for us and also with a child. Proving that he is someone they’d want and support spending the rest of his life with our daughter, deep down they protest this relationship. Honestly, I don’t think that is too much to ask. I feel that I always present myself in a respectful but casual and not richie way but socially acceptable in front of his family and I think that my family deserves the same respect, and our relationship needs a lot more work if would survive. That was how I felt last week til I found this email. Now I am devastated and I think we are done. But beyond that, I just wish that he’d have more respect for our child. I truly believe that you should dress/present and behave caringly towards your child and now he is repelling us in a way that represents what do you want to do in life? question, not for what you’re currently about to hear this. Anyway, I know that the major answer is going to be: talk to him about it and just go. So, just to be clear, I have talked to him about this extensively. I’ve even told him that I find it hard to feel attracted to him with his grossly unkept oily long scraggy hair. Every time, he calls me shallow and turns the conversation around saying he doesn’t know if he wants to be with someone who cares so much about appearances, but then pushes our child away with excuses and name calling. I’m at my wits end right now. I have specific goals that I’m working towards to build the life I envision myself living. I try to present myself in a at least somewhat adult way while he does not. Having my old boyfriend turn up in contrast at my own work presentations to the sales team has changed so much, so drastically has become a big issue. And clearly he doesn’t care what I think or how his family feel. And apparently it’s the most detestable thing in the world to at all care about physical appearances at all and to be touched by germs and calling us label names that are equal to slimeflsh. Whenever I bring these things up to him he, very defensively, tells me how he’s better than me because he wouldn’t care what I looked like at all, he gets moody on weed and drink piss weak gin and rum with coridal from a bagpipe over his love anything and there is no me in the picture, etc when that habit starts. I have lost any love for him and I’m still very affectionate and loving when he is sober but he is not at all. It’s the physical part of the lack of our mutual attraction that I just can’t help now and his behavior. And I am thinking more and more about seeing my former workmate that turned up out of nowhere just at the right time to be a shoulder I can lean on. We are bonding closer each day at work and finally I have found someone who listens to my real issues and cares for a change and acts mature. I don't understand why my partner is turning the story around as if I am the strange one with attitude issues. It’s becoming harder and harder to remain attracted to him, and he simply doesn’t care. He has a female student online friend he sends emails to and this is an extract- I don't want to be near my own daughter, This week, my daughter caught an infectious disease. It's not serious, but it is contagious (though it is uncommon for adults to get it). As a result I don't want to touch her or any of them in the house. But have you tried parenting a 18-year-old without touching her cuz she is so creepy grunge and mothering her and child is hard with well why would i want sex with someone so childish? It's impossible. She doesn't understand what I'm saying when I scream your dirty and "GET YOUR PLAGUE-RIDDEN "shitty shitty bug-bug" HANDS AWAY FROM ME!" Worse, because she's feeling under the so mud-piddled, she wants move love and affection more than normal and so needy. Which has meant a lot of touching and I am so paranoid I can't bare to be near germs and people right now. I haven't died yet from bored rel8tionshit sydrome, but I'll keep you updated as this place is the worst with them around. In the long term, I maintain that parenting will kill me as I parent a spouse as well as a child so they are both shatting kids , by forced exposure? yuk not on anymore, reduce emotional imput and my anxiety is off the wall on weed and piss and sharkshak for you. But, until then, it's going to be a stressful time pLez help me darling." now who the fuck writes this shit when he is so unfit and slothful himself? who is this person and should I leave? and I can't even cry to pity ourselves its just enough to say time to go. any thoughts? I believe he is having an affair and wanted to break up with me for a long time and has done this deliberately and when he gets with her he will change his whole look for her to make me feel that it was who made him feel that way! I need my workmate even if its just to make him see I can move on from him and he won't leave me old and dried out and as ugly as he is.

My Boyfriend Has Let Himself Go and Writing Strange Letters to Someone About our Child. My boyfriend...

Adultery, Hate

i have cursed all my objects so anyone takes them will be cursed for live to be doomed to my own pain and suffering. I now curse every person I meet with the same curse that they may suffer out what has been put on me by others.

i have cursed all my objects so anyone takes them will be cursed for live to be doomed to my own pai...

Abuse, Hate

i live in a pisspot and shit sticking haunted falling down old house.

Abuse, Hate

my neighbors palm tree got stuck by lightning.

Hate

this is a true story. the night the pillow cases stuffing were ripped apart across the floor. we were down stairs and mum rings up downstairs to say she seen someone in the yard hiding behind the tree looking in the window on us. we had the glass door open and were so scared but we thought the doors would bark if someone was around up to no good. so I got scared when she told us she seen some freak in the yard and so we went up stairs and later when we came back down these nice huge seat cushions we had were all ripped apart like knifed and stuffing all over the floor. to this day we don't know it the person outside came in and did it with a knife or if the dog scratched it but it looked to clean cut to be a paw scratch. anywho, that is just one of my spooky stories when first moved in. I have a heap more. like the weird phone calls this guy calls and says "I am across the road in the phone box and I can see you do you want me to come over now?" and my mum goes "well sure if you really want but it might take longer then you think to get here, cuz ? but we don't have a phone box opposite our house so I think you have the wrong number" , and parcels going missing and more like the letterbox bombers and the kids on the roof and some dude coming over for sugar and the night the halloween kids got some old fury cakes! cuz that was all we had.

this is a true story. the night the pillow cases stuffing were ripped apart across the floor. we we...

Hate

I Turned Cold on this Friendship I faked it when I said I forgave you and wanted to reconcile. I actually didn’t want to be friends with you anymore but you insisted on talking through our (your) issues and then pulled the God card on me. Good job. You’re the pushiest woman I’ve even been friends with and the most manipulative. Your passive aggression is tiring me and I’ve decided by not spending time with you anymore, I’ll save myself from more hurt. I’m done. Have a happy life. And don’t try to tell me you actually love me. When everything you do begs to show that you’re just dragging your feet in this friendship. That you have to be friends with me because you think there’s a divine purpose in it. No one’s forcing you to stay. You may leave. Let me go so I can leave too.

I Turned Cold on this Friendship I faked it when I said I forgave you and wanted to reconcile. I act...

Pride, Hate

Almost 50 and scared I’ll end up alone I’m almost thirty 30 years now. Never had a real relationship and my parents are the closest thing I have to best friends. I am scared when they are gone I will be completely alone. Emotionally and physically.

Almost 50 and scared I’ll end up alone I’m almost thirty 30 years now. Never had a real relationship...

Abuse, Hate

disability single womens pension is just not enough to live on anymore. I get no assistance with education at all or healthcare needs is barely there. and people say to me I should not worry and just see it as a early retirement and knit booties like mel who is in her 50s and that is not good enough for me, I mean she told me over and over there would a lot of personalities there I would not get on with, so why did she bother putting that abuse on me with a bunch of slutty whores anyway? I can't just retire I have never had a proper job long term to do that and i have never had a man to take care of me and I need more out of life. I own no car. no house, no children. no degree and its not enough! and I am sick and tired of criminals being idolised by the police and legal system that has wronged me!

disability single womens pension is just not enough to live on anymore. I get no assistance with edu...

Hate

she has been watching your emails and stalking your email trails isn't that creepy and pathetic? dirty little imp troll hacker stalker. she could go to jail for that.

she has been watching your emails and stalking your email trails isn't that creepy and pathetic? dir...

Hate, Hacking