Confessions about 'Hate'

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i am serverly in poverty street. i gave up university as i couldn't even afford text books or fees and sick of handouts and feeling like a charity- bullied bludger case

i am serverly in poverty street. i gave up university as i couldn't even afford text books or fees a...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

"if dad can't get a job with all his expereince and education how the dam hell can I with all my abuse problems and no help from schools or anything?" was my attitude as a teen. I felt worthless, useless, un-needed, unvalued, hopelessness set in. it took a long time for me to see I could do a real job in the real world because I had no connections coming here to this loser town, and leaving another loser town where I grew up not one teacher ever told us girls at the catholic school "you can be something and aim for it" they just wanted us to nuns. there is more to life then that. you still have to do some study to be a nun! we were never told to have a dream and work towards it. that is what I don't like at the catholic school I went to. everything was our fault. so it must have been my fault the abuser molested me too I guessed? and not one of those silly teachers picked it up. how dumb?

"if dad can't get a job with all his expereince and education how the dam hell can I with all my abu...

Abuse, Hate

being a unpaid counsellor to my aunties problems with her drunk violent husband and my sisters problems apart from being an unpaid nanny and child minder and unpaid accountant and unpaid cleaner in someone else's house, kind of shits you off ! talk about friends with benefits alright!

being a unpaid counsellor to my aunties problems with her drunk violent husband and my sisters probl...

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the lazy crazy basket !

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you deserve to die!

Abuse, Hate, Violence

My wife and I occasionally check in upscale downtown hotels on Friday or Saturday nights to enjoy the cities nightlife. By doing so we don’t need to be concern about driving drunk. Gina loves to wear outfits that show off a very nice backside and a large “B” small “C” cup bust. This usually means tight fitting jeans and a low cut blouse or a tight fitting pull over dress. One weekend we decided to check in one of our favorite hotels to enjoy the revived downtown social scene. As we were enjoying a pre-dinner cocktail in the Hotel lounge, we began chatting with three guys Enzo, Robert, and James they appeared to be between 20 and 25 years old. (about the same age as our two sons.) Enzo told us that they were there for a bachelor party for a friend, who was getting married the very next weekend. After a few drinks another one of their friends showed up and was introduced as the “Lucky Man” Jose. He appeared to be slightly younger and a little bashful. After a few rounds Enzo interrupted the conversation Gina and I were having with Jose. He was told Jose that they really needed to leave so they could get the evening started. Enzo thanked us for the rounds and invited us up to room 2514 for drinks if we were still up after midnight. As we walked to dinner, Gina asked, “Did you notice how they were looking at me?” I replied “No why?” Gina told me she caught them staring at her cleavage. What Gina doesn’t know is I did notice and I also noticed them checking out her ass when she got up. I got to say it is nice knowing that my 40-year-old wife is still good looking enough to attract younger men. After dinner we went to a couple trendy bars for some dancing. Gina was feeling pretty good as I noticed her gently grinding on other guys on the dance floor. It was stimulating watching her do this. She even danced with a couple guys at the same time while I went to the bar for a drink. After three hours or so we headed back to the Hotel lounge for a nightcap before heading to our room for what was going to be sleazy open curtain hotel sex. When we arrived the guys with the bachelor party were in the lounge talking to a couple girls at the bar. Enzo turned to us and yelled, “IT’S MY NEW FRIENDS.” and greeted both Gina and I with warm embraced hug. Enzo introduced us to the others who joined the party after they had left us earlier that night. Altogether there were seven, including the groom-to-be. Again it looked as if Gina loved the attention other guys were showing her. With a smile I showed approval when they noticed me watching how they were admiring Gina’s tight-fitting dress. Enzo and a couple others chatted among themselves; I suspected they were sharing Cougar or MILF fantasies or talking about how lucky I was. When last call was announced at 1:45 or so, the guys insisted it was too early to call it a night, and invited us up to their room. Gina was still full of energy, so it was an easy decision to join them. The room, a normal hotel room with a king sized bed a small couch two recliners, and a kitchenette stocked with light snacks and enough alcohol for a couple hours. The atmosphere was as though we were still downstairs in the lounge. Gina sat on the edge of the bed, enjoying the guys’ attention, and I stood across the room enjoying watching. The outfit she had on clearly showed the tops of her breasts and the cleavage between. We found that the minibar stock didn’t include gin or tonic, for Gina’s favorite drink, so I decided to go to our room to get a bottle of each. When I announced I was going, a guy sitting on the bed put his arm around Gina and said, “Don’t worry, we’ll make sure your sexy wife doesn’t miss you.” It was a quick trip to our room and back, and when I rejoined the party, the first thing I noticed was that the lights had been dimmed a little. Then I saw that Sandy was now sitting in the middle of the bed with her back to the headboard and her legs stretched out in front of her. Her lipstick was smeared a little. Three of the guys were sitting on the sides of the bed near her, and two guys were rubbing her lower calves. She had pantyhose under her dress. All the alcohol she’d drunk at our various stops that night was starting to affect her, but I figured we would soon be heading back to our room. I didn’t want her to be too tired for some fun there (I expected she’d be really hot after all the attention she’d gotten that night), so I purposely mixed our drinks on the weak side. Several of the guys were asking Gina to allow the groom to enjoy a feel of her breasts in her bra. “Come on,” they were coaxing, “after next weekend he’ll never be able to enjoy any breasts other than his wife’s. Help him out.” She was smiling and obviously enjoying herself but still was able to still say no. I kept in the background, and no one in the room paid any attention to me. As I heard the guys trying to cop their pal a feel of my wife’s fabulous tits, I found the idea to be extremely exciting! In fact, my cock was rock hard. Soon the groom Jose slipped in behind Gina and the headboard and began massaging her neck. From the looks of her erect nipples pressed against her dress she was definitely enjoying it. Finally, after countless request by all of the guys, Gina agreed to let the groom slip his hand down her top and inside her bra. I wasn’t sure where this would lead, but I was pretty sure every cock in the room was as hard as mine. With his five friends looking on, Jose slid his hand inside Gina’s bra and gently massaged first one breast, then the other. Gina was smiling with her eyes closed, and Jose seemed in no hurry to stop playing with her erect nipples. Jonathan, the best man, who was sitting on the other side of Gina, asked her if he could feel them. Without saying not a word and her eyes still closed. Gina nodded her head yes. Jose slid his hand over to Gina’s other breast and Jonathan slid his in. “Nice,” he soon declared with a big smile. I noticed two guys continued to massage my wife’s leg and soon began making their way up her thighs. I noticed Gina was really beginning to enjoy all the attention when she began to gyrate her hips. Jonathan removed his hand and the other two guys asked if they could feel. Gina replied with a nod they both responded at the same time and found it difficult for both their hands to fit into the opening of her dress. Gina suddenly slid her top down over her shoulders fully exposing her shear lace bra. The room suddenly became very tense for me. Several of the guys were quietly talking among themselves while Jose and Jonathan stayed with Gina. She then asked Jose if he would assist her with removing her bra. Without any hesitation at all he responded by reaching both arms around her hugging tightly against her and clumsily tried to unhook her bra. After several attempts Jonathan assisted in unhooking it. Jose backed away from Gina allowing her brad fall in her lap. Jose leaned way back to allow everyone in the room to enjoy the sight of her breasts. All of the desires became reality when Gina’s bra tumbled into her lap. Richard still sitting beside her caressed her breast gently as he began licking her nipples. She looked fabulous sitting there topless surrounded by all those young men. Enzo asked Jonathan to help Gina up. Once Gina was standing Enzo told Richard to finish undressing her. It was apparent that Enzo was look upon as the leader of these young men. Gina was now standing completely naked since she did not wear panties on this night. “So what do you think?” Gina asked as she slid her fingers across each breast. Jonathan answered Gina by lowering his head and sucked on the nipples. Enzo walked over to Gina placing his hand on her pussy and claimed it to be his by saying “This is my pussy tonight.” Laughter by all followed. I didn’t really know how to react. I was nervous, afraid, and excited all at the same time. Gina seemed to be in her element being the center of attention of all those sexy young men. I stood by and watched as two other guys started feeling all over her. Altogether Jonathan, Jose, Enzo, and the other two all had their hands on my wife. Enzo was now massaging her pussy. “It’s shaved!” one announced. Another chimed in, “We should let Jose enjoy her first. It’s his party.” I know I should have protested, since Gina wasn’t going to! But I was enjoying the sight at least as much as the young men were, and I had the hard-on to prove it! I was shocked by what Gina said/did next. Looking directly at Jose Gina asked him “would you like to fuck me first” Jose replied “If it’s ok, yes!” Gina unbuckled his belt, unzipped his fly, and pulled at his pants until the button released. After his pants fell to the floor she tugged at his underwear saying, “you won’t be needing these.” Now I knew my wife was going to allow these men to fuck her and I desperately wanted them to. Gina asked Jose to sit on the edge of the bed, once he was in place she kneeled between his legs and began licking the build up of pre-cum off the tip of his cock. Gina lowered her head until his cock disappeared Jose let out a loud moan. Gina deep throated him several more times then began crawled onto the bed laying on her back. Jose then took the position between her legs and asked “Don’t I need a condom?” Gina replied “No, It’s ok” Gina must have already been soaking wet because Jose had no problem sliding right in her and began pumping vigorously. At that point Enzo undressed and stood next to Gina at the head of the bed. He grabbed her head pulling it towards his cock until Gina started sucking him. After five minutes or so Jose yelled out “I’M CUMMING!” Gina never looked up from Enzo’s cock she was giving him the full meal deal. Jose rolled off of her completely exhausted. Enzo tried several times to pull away from Gina’s mouth until she stopped and told him that nothing else was happening unless he cums in her mouth. Enzo repositioned Gina on the bed with her laying on her back with her head hanging off the foot of the bed. Enzo kneeled until his cock pierced her lips and started pumping in and out. Gina started gagging because of the speed and force being applied. This continued until Enzo exploded in her causing her to choke on his semen. Gina raised up gagging and hacking before saying “That was good.” Jonathan the best man was next to step up he had already removed his clothes and his nearly 8” hard-on sticking straight out, Jonathan took the missionary position and slipped right inside her. Gina wrapped her legs around him, as she had done with me thousands of times and then thrust her hips upwards forcing his cock as deep inside her as it would go. He fucked her hard, and as I looked around the room, I saw all the guys fixated on the two of them rocking the bed. Two other guys had their clothes off and cocks in their hands As hard as Jonathan was fucking Gina, he didn’t last long. He moaned out as he drained a copious amount his load in her, then collapsed on top of her until one of the others, an Asian guy the others called Curt, told him to move off so he could “enjoy that pussy.” To my surprise he had the biggest limp cock I’d ever seen . It was at least 8” and the size of a beer can in girth I was wondering if He was going to stroking it to make sure he was at full size when he was ready to take his turn. He took it in his and banged it against her chest and asked, “Can you take all of my cock in your mouth?” She never answered. Curt stood on the bed directly over Gina with his cock hanging between his legs he started stroking it bringing it to life and milking enough pre-cum to slowly stretch from the tip of his cock to about 6” from Gina’s mouth before it broke lose landing on her neck and chin. Gina wiped it with her finger tasting her reward she mumbled something then sat up and started licking the head and then took as much of his cock as possible in her mouth. (Gina loves to suck on my cock.) Stretching her mouth as wide as she was able, she only got about half of it in. Curt moved down the bed, kneeled between her legs, spit on his hand and stroked his cock up and down her slit. Slowly he eased the head in. She let out a low moan. As the head disappeared inside, he eased more of his cock in, finally managing to get it all in! I was shocked and thrilled as he began pumping slowly in and out of her. After a while be began picking up speed, until his balls were slapping up against her with each thrust. Before long the painful look on Gina’s face became pleasure as she began thrusting her hips meeting Curt’s equally forceful thrusts half way. This continued for what seemed to be a very long time. I watched as the small beads of sweat became large drops falling with each collision as both were covered in each others sweat. The last two guys still wanted in but were enjoying the show too much to interrupt. After a while they moved over and stood on either side of the bed, their hard cocks out. Gina put her hands on them but couldn’t concentrate on anything except the monster fucking her. I pulled my cock out and jacked off, cumming about the same time Curt did. All of the guys were standing beside Gina as they jacked off cumming all over her and the bed. She lay on the bed exhausted. The bachelor-party guys thanked us for an incredible time. Curt asked Gina if she would be interested in doing it again sometime. Gina replied that she’d love to. She asked him to leave his contact information. A couple of them wrote their e-mail addresses for her. Then they filed out of their party room, leaving us alone with Jose. Gina was exhausted but had a satisfied smile. Jose asked for one more favor. He wanted to experience two guys fucking her at the same time. Specifically Jose wanted to fuck her in her ass while I fucked her pussy. Gina agreed and had me lay on my back while she straddled me inserting my cock in her wet pussy. She asked Jose to lube up with his pre-cum as she lifted up off of me reaching to her pussy gathering the cum which has drained from her cunt she lubed her ass and instructed Jose slowly start inserting himself after a few minutes they both started gaining momentum until she began arching her back and screaming “OH GOD…FUCK ME…OH GOD DAMN” we fucked her until she could no longer fuck. We gathered our stuff and went to our room Gina dozed off, and when she woke, she looked at me and smiled thanking me for the wonderful time. I assure you she’s made it up to me many times since that evening. John Sex Bachelor Party Wife Fuck MFM Suck

My wife and I occasionally check in upscale downtown hotels on Friday or Saturday nights to enjoy th...

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I am male father of 40. I have a 24 year old step daughter who is very attractive weve been having sex for about 5 years now my wife knows but says just dont get her pregnant. We have really hardcore sex. I wear my wifes lingerie while fucking my daughter then she will put her mums strap on and fuck me in the arse while i cum over her knickers. Now she wants her fella to join in I've always wanted to suck and fuck a black cock. So when he came round I was in my silk thong and chemise my daughter was wanking me off he came in and got hard instantly my eyes lit up as his big fat 11 inch cock dribbled pre cum I said fuck and fuck me good 2 hours later and 4 loads of cum he was done with me and it was my daughters turn. She had both our cocks in her arse and my wifes 15 inch dildo in her pussy she came everywhere the bed was soaked and her arse was gaping weeping cum if anyone wants my number just comment x

I am male father of 40. I have a 24 year old step daughter who is very attractive weve been having s...

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Back when I had braces I was giving my bf mad head and my braces nicked the tip and he said he barely felt it but be careful. I tasted blood so I looked and sure enough there was a cut on his tip. We go and clean it up and put a band-aid on it. I next give him a hand job and had my eyes closed, next thing I know he's freaking out about blood everywhere. The band-aid had come off and because a lot of blood flows there it was coming out too. Needless to say I didn't give him another blow job till my braces came off

Back when I had braces I was giving my bf mad head and my braces nicked the tip and he said he barel...

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i did what my momma said, and grandmother said, and grandpa said - i never stunk out with guys, i studied and i liked my teachers and went out to dinners with them, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=92L6balksi8

i did what my momma said, and grandmother said, and grandpa said - i never stunk out with guys, i s...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

you are to blame for this because you never allow a congruency of order in a home to occur at the correct timing! people had no right taking jobs from my father for some crude little woman that ran away from her husband and giving jobs to hooker women! I should have been given a job early and I blame the alp for that, they know they wronged us, and that is that. they have to live with what they did to our family after all the years of hard work a person does for rich ministers i expect a little better manners and bonuses and a bloody job!

you are to blame for this because you never allow a congruency of order in a home to occur at the co...

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grandma would have been offended over the other night. karens kids were not invited without their mother. and my aunty should not have to put up with looking after other peoples kids and she couldn't even sit an eat her meal due those brats that need a good kick in the face. mongrel children. and they are insecure controlling bullying. not impressed. that child needs discipline and proper parenting. it will be into drugs next its already drinking alcohol and doing guys, no hope at all.

grandma would have been offended over the other night. karens kids were not invited without their mo...

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my father is a better man then wally will ever be, my father is a better man then joyce will ever be or ever was. I am a better man then just about anyone on this earth!

my father is a better man then wally will ever be, my father is a better man then joyce will ever be...

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look at all the trouble you caused by not giving my father a job, people disrespect him and me, and I am getting sick of it. I will not tolerate any form of disrespect and I have a go at people now when they speak out of line to me and get a tone to me. I only tell people off when my therapist or doctor or support group tell me to tell people off. I don't like doing it, but enough is enough. all because of you not giving my father a job when his whole family needed it you caused all this. its all your fault. take the blame ! cuz i decided years ago i was not blaming myself anymore. i spent 28 years blaming myself shut down by catholic hitlers and old whorey sluts shutting me down with their bellowing whoring self love and i gave the mongrels what they wanted! to shut their cunts up! that is what dad told me to do from a child but I don't always now since i didn't get a thing back for good behavor as I should have been rewarded for all my goodness and the good i did but i was not . so I did give whores what they want to shut their cunt holes and there hole on their face up ! as a result i have insane hate for women. you got no idea how much I hate bitches. and that is why my doctor told me to have a go ate ugly old bulldog mustang sally ! so I did.

look at all the trouble you caused by not giving my father a job, people disrespect him and me, and ...

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fuck off john stop bullying and abusing me, I have told my doctor about you ruthlessly insulting people and your father telling your mother and father to shut up and suck my dick all the time, the things you damaged in their house and also how you and darren were torturing a intellectually disable man with your Cindy Bardot character and I never found that funny. its low. your not in any position at all to attack me. I have told police and a court of law how abusive you have been and I am not tolerating your shit anymore. you learn the lesson the hard way. you have been spoilt and you need harsh disipline your parents don't even want to know you. your a rude person. you are a mean rude teenager that need a harsh father instead you were throwing cushions at him and telling your father to shut up. that is rude. telling your father to suck my dick is rude. abusing me yelling at me all the time and your rude behavior my doctor is not impressed at your behavior at all nor is mum and dad. don't come mr innocent with me john. you need a good kick up the ass and if joyce was half a woman that abusive nutcase of sex maniac women would have seen the truth infront of her rather then abusing me. don't even try it john. the court already know what your about. I don't even want to hear excuses or a sorry. you can go to hell. and I never want to see or speak to you and your kids ever again, your family are ashamed of you. your rudeness. your arrogance. your gonna get the come down you deserve mr and mrs ruth spoit shitbag.

fuck off john stop bullying and abusing me, I have told my doctor about you ruthlessly insulting peo...

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someone said to me, "shit catherine I wouldn't want to get on the wrong side of you" after I yelled at his train guard but I sort of shocked myself it was just impulsive acting from adreneline the fear that the doors were going to slam on me and the train go and the fact that dad fell out of the train and she failed to do her duty first and formost which is to maintain the integrity of the safety of passengers I went for her and she knew she did the wrong thing. I mean I know I lost it. but I was so angry at her. how is a passenger supposed to know "Oh the whistle was just to entertain a child of 2" like you could have made a public announcement you stupid cow! "oh sorry passengers but ignore the whistle about to go off its just to entertain a child its not a real one" like am I in the twilight fucking zone or what? its like the day the dumb dick at the shops in the rain has mats and wet floor everywhere someone was bound to fall on slipery tiles and maybe the duty of care lies with the shops to not have slippery tiles near a entrence to avoid risks. makes common sense to me. stupid idiots, so I gave them a nice little genuflect when I fell and a finger full of grace when a cab driver got abusive to me. loving moments with me !

someone said to me, "shit catherine I wouldn't want to get on the wrong side of you" after I yelled ...

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i have a low rise to anger the taoist chinese style and get people from behind and wait. i'll get you from behind. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7tuAkdlLhTE I am still the same cat with those green evil eyes, sometimes green sometimes grey eyes. yeh, I am half evil and half good! human!!!! if you got sense you will stay away. watch out! i don't have feminine ways! i have brehon justice eyes.

i have a low rise to anger the taoist chinese style and get people from behind and wait. i'll get yo...

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i told my mum on the cruise ship when they wanted to search her bag thinking she had alcohol and all it was was a shampoo, I said "mum your not incontrol here on the ship they can say and do what they like and they give an order and you take it and do as you dam well told or they can kick you off, you can get mad all you like and tell them you know there is no alcohol in their but they are just doing a job and they are going to demand you open it up to search it" they are the C's I said, the bastards that rule and dictate bark orders and you have to be gutsy enough to take a order and shut the f up and take it. i spent most of my childhood and life doing that, having law teachers barking at me, and mum had a job of management too young, whereas I know how to take orders and take it. I have had ambulance officers yelling at me, one literally screamed violently at my face inches away to move during expo 88 and i only had about 500 people behind me who wouldn't move so I don't were the whore thought i was supposed to go. I just took it and I could crumble but what is the point. I often cry alone later. you have to get over being bashed and kicked and barked at. see I know how to play the underdog so well unlike so many people around me. but i can give orders and politely and i can take control and demand an action from workers to when i feel its appropriate. i like to get people from behind.

i told my mum on the cruise ship when they wanted to search her bag thinking she had alcohol and all...

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my doctor told me to tell sally off, so I gave her all I had and ripped into her. I didn't like doing it. but it let out some pent up anger in me over old women like her shutting me down all my life and making me feel less and stopping me getting with men i like. so I gave it to her as my doctor told me to. I just did want he said to do. i don't know if it was good or helped me. i even told people to F off, i mean at 43 to be telling choir conductor i admired for her talent only not for the awful person she is, was contriversal and hard but I was about survival not about ego which all of them were about making their CD and I liked making the CD choir religious songs a lot. I just occassionally get angry. like the night the stupid railway woman blew the whistle for the child. i mean railway protocol is that the whistle be blown on when it is ment to be not for a child indulgences and besides she should have seen my father fell out of the train. so I yelled at her i had to to get her to hear me. I had to be strong and i got cranky. a rule is a rule for a reason and no other reason. that is what i was taught in law. i have some eye and hearing problems and yet my general vision pre-dervision or what ever has a wider expressive stance to her and I am ultra alert and hyper-vigilent to awareness and what is going on around me, I should have been a cop or security person cuz I can see in the corner of my eye, you learn to have eyes in the back of your head when you on alarm for danger most of your life. I had to make my point clear to someone who should not be holding down a job, you do it right or you don't do it at all. I could do the job better but I don't care to as I have never had a role in a job with power to give orders and I am a humble person basically. but don't get on the wrong side of me.

my doctor told me to tell sally off, so I gave her all I had and ripped into her. I didn't like doin...

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i do find it hard to be mean or rude to people and its hard when a therapist or support group is literally telling you to be rude to people who have wronged you but no harder then trying to forgive, which is harder and i have to work really hard on that. i don't feel comfortable forgiving people much now compared to when I was young. when I was young I forgave more because that was what we were taught with catholic nuns all the time we were punished if we didn't forgive and be nice no matter how nasty they were to us. now its like. I can't be that holy. sorry god, but i am just human and i would forgive if more good things had of come my way like jobs and social status and income and love and children etc. all those things that make us feel like we matter and that we are good people. when I was young I thought I would be rewarded for being so holy with gifts from god and I would seek revenge with success and love within my groups that never came so I am more sour now. i don't have an excuse to be polite too often, or to tolerate much. i mean only a drunk can really tolerate the company of another drunk, and I am not really a party person and learnt that young being humiliated as a child at parties made me less trusting. I only trust in selective times and not much, not often. I have forgotten what that and love is for, i have had to be mean and harsh to gain back things i lost and I don't like myself for the fact that i am harsher on people and cruel and have no problem dobbing people in and labelling people who have lied and abused me in my past and who have wronged me. I am very vocal now and my doctor says that is good. I don't have a problem calling police on people either. I can give orders and take them. i would make a good cop i think. better then most.

i do find it hard to be mean or rude to people and its hard when a therapist or support group is lit...

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