stop throwing your determination to be miserable onto me, when your the one with the problem.

I have never been a liked or loved person. there is nothing loveable about me even when I was thin and young no one ever liked me to the standards I was expecting and that hurt me and made me feel like why is everyone else getting thejobs and guys? why are fat slobby dogs who are rude get love and I am too nice to even matter? why? how much of a murdering mongrel do I have to be to be good enough for a job or man?

I have never been a liked or loved person. there is nothing loveable about me even when I was thin a...

ken made it clear to me that because I was so ugly that I should be grateful for him bothering to rape me up because no other guy had, but a few other freaks like my uncles had sexually assaulted me and a friend of my sisters has been sexually bullying to me and I just wish I had of been smarter about things like what I know now, but no one would help properly. and I am sure joyce poorter wanted me raped and thrown on the scrap heap. she had it in my sister and father as well and she does not even know them. and the woman had a mental disorder my doctor said so. she is crazy and he is glad I reported her.

ken made it clear to me that because I was so ugly that I should be grateful for him bothering to ra...

men didn't notice me enough at work and college and I was not being treated how I expected to be valued, no one was showing that I was valued at all. not one person was demonstrating value in me. I have never been a liked person, I was never a liked child, most places I have I have been bullied and its been boring and painful and not lived up to expectations- ken didn't live up to anything a quality men would. no man around me demonstrated to me quality inside myself or worth and not enough men showed interest in me as a teen or young woman and I dont understand why.

men didn't notice me enough at work and college and I was not being treated how I expected to be val...