I am depressed :-(

I am sick of joyce crushing my heart making me feel like I don't deserve to wear a pretty wedding dress, all women want a beautiful wedding and feel special on a wedding day and I don't care if I am accused of waitaround for some knight in shining armor or prince from god only knows where. I really thought I would meet my guy at college or law school or I would get a job and meet someone, maybe I should have gone knocking on every brothel or single male door in town but its probably not me to do that anyway, I seen a lot of young "businessy" hot guys ,but they didn't see me I just hate women who are so evil who ruin love for other women and can't bare to see someone being loved and enjoying a marriage. I have always been glad for others but if people don't want to see me find love then why should I for them? that is why I just put my foot down with family weddings after my sister was married and I said "no mum we are not going to anyones wedding they don't care about me and my feelings" we went to my brothers and that was the only other one. I just refuse to go to peoples weddings. I am glad for other people I don't know more then I am for people I know and I know they would treat me better then most other people who know me. that is the crazy thing.

I am sick of joyce crushing my heart making me feel like I don't deserve to wear a pretty wedding dr...

this old woman from logan called talking over the top of me extracting information from me I am going to report and find out who she is all she said was we gave you some 1300 number and I have no idea who the woman was or why she rang she didn't talked so quick and over the top of me, I will be telling my doctors about her because she annoyed me getting information and she could be any bitch trying cause trouble I don't trust people so many people have tried to poison my professional relationships with my doctors and I can't trust joyce that she would still try to medal in anything to cause me harm and she never helped me take the death threats parcel to th police as a normal caring therapist would and my neighbors next door who were attacking a man have been trying to make me look crazy but I know what I heard and saw and they were abusing me and attacking D and I they were making me ill having to listen to it night after night they were attacking a man. I can't trust my nieghbors at all and I want to move from this area there is nothing good for me in this dirty old little town of the redlands, its a dirty dirty morbid abusive town of mongrels who have done me wrong.

this old woman from logan called talking over the top of me extracting information from me I am goi...

joyce is a born troublemaker and she will die one! the mental case can't help herself, my doctor said he is glad I reported her and I am going to keep reporting her for the wrong she did to me - that mongrel vile satanic sicko women, no normal counsellor has sex with her clients and the dirty things she was doing and saying to me where sicko evil talk. she should be put in a jail for what she did to me. dirty vile disgusting woman I never ever should have met. dirty dutch animals. like the dirty german animals. vile disgusting dirty talk evil woman of the worst kind aiding and abetting pedophiles to abuse me. vile dirty criminal woman I never want to see ever again. she has no right to be counselling anyone my therapist said, no right at all.

joyce is a born troublemaker and she will die one! the mental case can't help herself, my doctor sai...