I am depressed :-(

I was sick this morning with gastro and I made the mistake of going out for a few hours to sit under a tree near the water and I got burn under the tree. I just couldn't take it at home and had to get out of the house for while and see life outside. and I didn't want to eat much i just had a milk and cheese drink and my usual heaps of water but I forogot to put sunscream on, I wish I was not so forgetful. really its embarrsing, and I can't believe I am this burnt just walking 10 mins to the bus and sitting under a tree anyway, i am so sore now its shitty, I have put aloe vera on but I am still burning inside. I have just had this heat and this awful brisbane climate I can't take it anymore I have hated it for the last 25 years I hate the place so much. I hate burning you can't enjoy the outdoors its so hot and I am sick of it.

I was sick this morning with gastro and I made the mistake of going out for a few hours to sit under...

this indian bitch doctor never gave me an explaination for her bullshit games the whore bitch witch. I hate her today as much as then because she had no good professional practices at all and my therapist told me to get rid of her if she was going to harm me and not help the specialists and support their advice. the woman is a nutcase. evil vile witch I have no time for and I felt like she was using me and wronging me the whole time, no quality doctor giggles and laughs and makes fun of the specialist and she was always making me feel like I could not trust them, the same with wellpt they were doing similar abuses as well. lying on patient charts and getting things wrong mixed up with other patients deliberately and saying and doing stupid things and I knew that was don and mary abusing me. I knew they were behind the whole fraud game they had going with valentino. evil vile people. untrustworthy scum of the earth.

this indian bitch doctor never gave me an explaination for her bullshit games the whore bitch witch....

I am never looking at a man ever again particularly a few and I am inlove with a young women who is getting married and I am a older women, what the hell should I do? I love her she is so pretty and I can't see me ever marrying or finding love or having children, so I wish I could get with this girl which it sounds crazy she is about 20 years younger then me but I just woke up and realised nothing is ever again going to work right for me and there is no point trying to make it work. I love her. and its a difficult situation to be in but life is not going to go how I want it to. my pride is too wounded and I even am considering not going on the internet ever again for anything. its a useless thing that helps no one get jobs or relationships or friends. who is the internet really helping ? no one.

I am never looking at a man ever again particularly a few and I am inlove with a young women who is ...