I hate emma at the hospital very bad performing so called doctor. I just hate her she is ugly and the worst bully. I hated her face the most and her wire mouth visious looks and words and her vexation towards me when I did nothing to her she was so rude. I forgave her but I still hate her and see her as a fraud liar scammer. not the kind of doctor I would recommend at all. she was very bullying un-necessarily bullying and so ugly!!!! I mean was she a ugly dog or what? for a doctor she lacked a lot of doctor qualities. and she was making the visit personal like I was accountable for how many nicks in her earhole she had like it was some competition. and I thought you need a few kicks up your ass if you bashed as much as me you would learn fear and learn to speak properly to patients. your rude woman. it should not be personal, your there to treat you numb ass bullying whore!

I put this under waste because I've wasted my life. Here it goes. I'm bad like really bad. But looking at me you would never know. People are catching on as my life falls apart. I've been living like a quadruple life I guess. I don't even know who I am anymore. I can't think of anything I like. I hate everything and everyone. I have no friends left, the women of my life cheated lied and stole the entire time I've known them. Most of my buddies too. Just users you know. I always offer too much and people gladly accept my generosity. I always try and help but it eventually becomes them being entirely dependent on me. Then they go and I've lost so much in them. I never see the fruits of my labours. Now I'm totally alone. And financially ruined. Relying on booze and drugs to feel better about the shitty person I am. I pray to god thanking him only, not asking for more. He still rewards me a lot. Gives me great opportunity and strength to conquer challenges. But I can't conquer myself. I want to end my life. Nobody would notice except the few leeches who still cling to my generosity. Everybody I've helped is doing great. I never took time to take care of myself, or set myself up better. My friends, wife, in laws, girlfriends, and associates have all benefitted greatly from my efforts but I'm fucked mentally physically and financially. I even still protect people after they betray me. Keep their secrets, bend to their requests. I'm going to blow my brains out. I hate this world, it's ruined anyway. Goodby you fucked up people. There's a good chance that there is someone in your life going through this who helped you a lot. I bet you won't even reach out to repay what's owed. Sick fucking society world wide.

I put this under waste because I've wasted my life. Here it goes. I'm bad like really bad. But loo...

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