Confessions about 'Hate'

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Family, For better For worse My Family means the world to me. I'd probably do anything for them. When my parents decided to migrate to US, my family was very happy and excited. I was only 9 years old back then. My parents always had the mentality, that US is better than any other country. But when we got there, we were in constant need of money. My father who had a hard time keeping a job as a aircraft mechanic would also argue and beat my mother almost every night.My mother would lock us in a room ,and my brothers and I were left listening to her horrifying screams and crashing sounds through the thin cheap apartment walls, as he pounded his fist onto her flesh ....thump...thump...thump. I experienced much discrimination in school,.... or wherever, and my brothers also felt it too. The pressure also got to my oldest brother... so he liked to molest, and eventually rape,me whenever no ones around. It started shortly after we arrived in US, meaning I was still 9 years of age. I remember not understanding the situation. As I grew older, I constantly felt disgusted of my self. But I could never push him away...Who else feed me when my mother was to tired to even bother with me...Or my father who only sits on his obnoxious ass all day drinking and smoking his life away?? Who else would help me when I don't understand something? Who else would hug me and say it was all going to be alright? So to YOU...Oh reader, I confess that I always let my brother do as he wishes with me even today... No matter how disgusting I am...As he nonchalantly f** and c* in me like a dog in heat, careless of what I feel inside... , I will always smile and tell him I love him. One day, 12-year old me, confessed what was happening within my household, it was to much, I could not take it anymore.I was so young so delicate... My Middle School's Psychiatrist promised me that it was all going to be confidential, That she was only doing this to help me feel better. But I was wrong, the next day, the police came to my front door, looking for my father. I was away during this time, and so was my father. My brother told us that they would return tomorrow. Once my mother heard of the news, She sends my father away. My father, cursed me as he left my life for 4 years. Due to US's recessive state, eventually my family and I returned to our home country. And the funny thing is...My family and I still act the same... I'm now 20 years of age. Still acting like that delicate little girl that was only trying to reach for help. I can't believe that I confessed. So If you reach this far, I thank you from the very bottom of my heart.For I have asked for none-more but for someone to hear my story, to find relief. Thank you...

Family, For better For worse My Family means the world to me. I'd probably do anything for them. Wh...

Love, Abuse, Hate

my sisters first husband wanted their son aborted then when they broke up he refused to give her custody and he was like a dualist or something like a jekkel and hyde person and their whole family abused our family as well. we don't understand this. its made me untrusting of men and that all men will abuse me, which they have and after being raped and bullied by a few men its made me feel very untrusting of white men and black or asian men, professional men. I don't trust women or therapists much due to being abused. I don't have the same trust in doctors anymore and I don't really even have the same respect for people after all the abuses that have been done to me. this country refusing to allow me my rights to a husband or child or a job has insulted me and my parents. to be honest we want to leave australia and go somewhere where we will be respected and treated better. there just feels like there is no hope here in qld to have a normal enjoyable life. my family feel this way after just too much abuse we never asked for abuse. so this last incident with yet another travel holiday company ripping me off has been the most insulting thing yet. and I have had a lot of insults thrown at me and now I do give them back to people now. I have hate in me, my parents feel the exact same way as I do. we are sick of the disrespect and no hope for better future here.

my sisters first husband wanted their son aborted then when they broke up he refused to give her cus...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

my sister hates these milkfish her filipinos make up. all that cookie n gonzo and orlardo does is insult our white english european heritage , they said things like "we laugh at cathy's perfumes, she is fat and ugly," said "all asians know white people breathe stink and they don't take mouth or general hygiene seriously, all filipino's know white women will fuck easy , baggy clothing is the sign of mental illness in the filipino culture, filipinos look down on anyone admitting to being a victim of child abuse or rape or having depression or other mental illnesses, or taking medications of any kind" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ep0ee-rPbCg ! I mean when do the insults stop! they abuse my family all the time and want our money all the time and steal men and don't want to see me with a white husband just because I am white? ! They attack and threaten to attack physically our family. they shouldn't care if I want to be with a white doctor or lawyer or accountant or whatever, its non of their business. just because my sister is devoted to her filipino husband doesn't mean I have to be around them. I owe them nothing, they done nothing to help me. my argument is that passports today are seen as golden standard for id and then if that is the case why don't they issue everyone with one, cuz these foreigners come out here expect to be treated like royalty as soon as they hit the place and don't want to do their due diligence or pay their dues to the people that made this place. They have more rights with the passports id then we do, that shows you how rich they are if they can afford a passport and get here. we can't afford a passport and go there, but would we want to more to the point in their culture. they are all ripping us australians on. australians are so stupid letting too many of the blacks and asians in and now no middle class it is all just all rich or all poor no inbetween. this is where the govt went wrong! they don't like being told their wrong our govt. but they are. they are all spastic stupid old farts in australian govt. i would spit on them I swear they are so rude to white Australians who were born here. we are the ones being discriminated against. like in america they say "when you talk about anti-racist what you are really saying is anti-white and we won't stand for it"! my parents bought me up to respect all cultures and religions and so on but there comes a point when you see so many unemployed suffering white people with no homes or husbands and no jobs and no dates to go out, no friends. no one to care or love them. we don't have to suffer for asians ! its not our problem its their own countries problem to sort out and all they do is rip off the families out here for money and they try to enslave whites to their ways when they get here. already my parents have talks with their professional advisors to place actions against that orlardo etc trying to kill me and my cats and take the house from us. they won't stand for it dead or alive. these filipinos are trying to take the pride and love and health from our family and my parents hate them. my sister loves them but its her problem she has bashed so many of her husbands so we don't come into it. we don't want to know.

my sister hates these milkfish her filipinos make up. all that cookie n gonzo and orlardo does is in...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

she is a stealer. don't trust her. she will steal everything from you. get away and be free of a user.

she is a stealer. don't trust her. she will steal everything from you. get away and be free of a use...

Pride, Hate, Violence

australia : a poop nation!

Abuse, Hate

I live in a rooming house which is kinda crazy. There's a tv room with sofas and a dining table. There's a community kitchen with our own locked cupboards, and 2 of all the appliances. We have our own bedrooms (with locks) with adjacent bathrooms. People get mad when they leave their unlabeled food on the kitchen counters and it disappears. The crazy thing is that the remote control for the TV has been stolen 3 TIMES(!) by people who eventually moved out. The landlord replaced the remote that goes with the tv 1 time. Later on we got a digital cable box and remote. That remote disappeared too! I can only think of two reasons: 1. Someone doesn't have the self restraint to NOT STEAL any old thing within their reach, even if it does them no good by itself. (But yet there are a few houseplants and magazines in the TV room). 2. Somebody p***** off the thief re: TV usage so they took the remotes to get revenge. My confession is that I hate the fact that my neighbors are so loud! They holler incessantly to each other, rather than talk. Their laughter is even worse! satanical, the dogs savagery as much as their owners and kids savagery. I don't think they are capable of taking hearing voices anymore!

I live in a rooming house which is kinda crazy. There's a tv room with sofas and a dining table. The...

Hate

dom I told you yesterday I needed some time alone and I am not making plans but there is a reason why we should be apart. I still love you but we are so looking for problems bc of parents shit. you are a year older then me. if I am pregnant now there will be problems and we need to wait til September when I am 15.

dom I told you yesterday I needed some time alone and I am not making plans but there is a reason wh...

Hate

Smart Styles Salon Smart Styles is a salon that is located inside of Walmart. The levels of ratchetness that comes through the door will drive you to drinking!!! They will hire anything off the streets to work there. If you can blink, burp or fart you could become a manager. No training or background checks required. Everyone gets a door key to the salon in 7 days or less. You're not allow to get sick and the pay sucks. If you do get sick, you're better off going to a charity hospital (if you don't die first) with the sad benefits they offer. People are constantly quiting, so you're there for 11-12 hours, 5-6 days out of a week mostly by yourself. You barely get, if any of your breaks. While you're servicing a client you have to stop, answer the phones and check out customers that are purchasing hair products. In between keeping the salon clean and efficient. On your days off you're too tired and worn out to have any kind of life outside of Smart Styles. Then you have some guest who are rude, and let their child run loose knocking over, breaking or spilling stuff. Some of the guest are plain nasty. They walk in the salon feeling a sense of entitlement with body oders, stinky breath, or greasy looking hair. Like I can't tell it's been 3wks or more since you had a shampoo. Not to mention the kids or adults that will not sit still so you won't cut their ass or yourself.

Smart Styles Salon Smart Styles is a salon that is located inside of Walmart. The levels of ratchetn...

Hate

we don't want to know brothers kids cuz his daughter is an abuser. she has stalked me and I reported her to police a year or 2 ago.

we don't want to know brothers kids cuz his daughter is an abuser. she has stalked me and I reported...

Abuse, Hate

who is he abusing now, he went to Worth.

Abuse, Hate

don't you dare say I wasn't going through all this illness. go experience and have it yourself and see how it feels.

don't you dare say I wasn't going through all this illness. go experience and have it yourself and s...

Abuse, Hate

he and they have been saying things to me today like "oh she has learnt acceptance of this now" who said? what of? who are you to declare such an insult? god is going to kill you for harming me very soon!

he and they have been saying things to me today like "oh she has learnt acceptance of this now" who ...

Abuse, Hate

I haven't been allowed to have a baby or love in my life at all and with illness men and female friends just dump on you and don't want to know you.

I haven't been allowed to have a baby or love in my life at all and with illness men and female frie...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

indural is a beta blocker but they use it with another therapy for cancer and my doctor kept torturing me saying he was worried I had a cancer tumor in the bladder when I was on indural it was awful. I had to have so many ultrasounds on my uturus and ovaries and kidneys and I had a ovary that was enlarged and I still get a lot of pain there. he was always doing urine blood counts all the time cuz I wouldn't go and have blood tests but I am traumatised over them. my veins collapse too much and they can't take blood with me, I need to be with a good blood taker who can relax me. everyone is stressing me out and money worries. I can see why some people do cause harm over financial worries it has been the story of my life, how to provide for this family, my parents as they getting old and useless and difficult. and I am all alone. I doubt that will change. I can't see any man loving me or marrying me now or having kids. its just not going to happen. I will never own a home or graduate and if I got a job I would be forever paying back hecs debt and never get ahead. that is why I won't go back to university in the old fashion. I have to go interstate soon for a talk with something with a health issue and hope to see a course college there while I am there but I doubt I can afford it all. I need more financial help. I want to work unlike most people. I have had everything valuable taken from me heartlessly. my car and licence was taken going on medications. no one cares about my needs and feelings and dreams. I am a lone ranger as always. some of us were born hateful children and I was one of them. cursed and persecuted by a molesting pedo and I have to carry the guilt and shame for it for the rest of my life ! nothing can be done. i have been suffering and i will be suffering and no one cares at all. and I care about no one either back. and I can make others suffer too! god can harm all the people who made/make me suffer.

indural is a beta blocker but they use it with another therapy for cancer and my doctor kept torturi...

Abuse, Hate, Violence

in 2007 -2009 I had this vomitting out of the blue it would hit with dizziness and I swear that carrot cake tasted better on the way up then it did on the way down. I would on the bus and have to get out at any place to vomit, or in a shop or car and have to run and vomit and it was terrible illness. awful. the doxy didn't help much either. I had 3 years of doxy. til I couldn't take it or most medications. people wonder why I will not take anti-inflamatories at all or codeine. but I just won't touch the stuff they made me too ill. and I will not take that fucking indural. its a disgusting drug. it makes you so weak and like your heart is gonna stop at any time. fuck that. and it wasn't working on me. the doctors got my records mixed up with another patient with the same name, that was when I knew it was time to leave that place! sick of other peoples incompetence. you won't last a second at tafe! with that incompetence!

in 2007 -2009 I had this vomitting out of the blue it would hit with dizziness and I swear that carr...

Abuse, Hate

i hate it when you to cafes and you ask for your order and like 3 or 5 times they got the order wrong and still brang out the wrong drink so in the end I said "look just give me the bloody green tea then I fucking drink it" to my mother after the staff got it wrong that many times! I mean really! like last year I had to remind the hair dresser to do things i paid for and it cost me over $150 for shit zero rubbish nothing. not paying that again.

i hate it when you to cafes and you ask for your order and like 3 or 5 times they got the order wron...

Abuse, Hate

we're french! breadless bastards, and we were out and the had these chicken and avocado on bloody Turkish bread and chips so as usual we only ever have half a sandwich each because I can't eat all that I only eat 1 quarter of cup of oats and berries or apple most mornings and anyway you know how much they charged us over $25.00 for this weirdo curried flavored chips and mother had a capacino and they give me dirty looks because I like my french earl grey tea with milk they always think its her for the tea and me the stupid cappicino and I say, other way around, just cuz she is old doesn't mean she has more sense then me you know! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCYU2mJJuwA

we're french! breadless bastards, and we were out and the had these chicken and avocado on bloody Tu...

Pride, Hate

YOU fucking better make sure you get me that fucking money or I will kill you do you understand fucker cunts! the pain I am in! cunts!

YOU fucking better make sure you get me that fucking money or I will kill you do you understand fuck...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

i have to use up my flight points on a course trip or i lose over $2,000 of them and no royal whore is getting the use of my money to pay for their honeymoons, it would appear to me they have enough honeymoons already! I can't afford to lose $2,000 i don't get enough money as it is. I need more money. I need zilliions to make me happy. nothing but zilllions of billions of money could make me happy!

i have to use up my flight points on a course trip or i lose over $2,000 of them and no royal whore ...

Abuse, Hate

with my bursitis i simply can't scan things without some money to help pay for the physiotherapy and i can't go out at night with rude rich people either.

with my bursitis i simply can't scan things without some money to help pay for the physiotherapy and...

Abuse, Hate