Confessions about 'Hate'

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I wasn't born to help you or be abused by you. stop trying to murder me and ruin my life. russel did to me exactly what his father did to his mother and I never liked one day with him. I never liked him. he was someone elses friend and NOT MENT TO BE MY FRIEND.

I wasn't born to help you or be abused by you. stop trying to murder me and ruin my life. russel did...

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I'm not your mother! stop your fucking bullying abuse and I am sick of your bullying abuse! I am nothing like your mother and you are destroying my life and you are not making me feel good or healthy so fuck off!

I'm not your mother! stop your fucking bullying abuse and I am sick of your bullying abuse! I am not...

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i am starting hate study because I need to be out exercising and moving all day to lose weight.

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grandma melanie!

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when to stop bothering about the good things in life. when to stop wanting love and a clean home, when to stop caring. as if mel knew when to stop, she fucked up my life with her evil games that terrorist!

when to stop bothering about the good things in life. when to stop wanting love and a clean home, wh...

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i want to stop my mum and me from spending to save for holidays and emergencies and investments. they just need to learn these things. I don't know how i was supposed to get rich on the pension and my sister was on it a good 15-20 years before me and I don't think all this has been fair at all. I don't like the way I have been treated and I am offended.

i want to stop my mum and me from spending to save for holidays and emergencies and investments. the...

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I got this cheapskates 1950s handbag 2nd hand or could be 5th hand for all I know. I like to sometimes change the look with some paint or color and clean them over with vinegar or a cleaner. I admit I don't like a lot of modern handbags they are either too big and chunky or too dear. I like just a touch of vintage rather then going all raving out on it. but I have been learning to curb my addictions with my doctors and therapists and I admit I went shopping for things I didn't really need but because deep down I felt something was lacking so bad inside of me everytime I was rejected at job interviews I filled the void with speading for another job interview etc and playing "the part" which sounds crazy and also I was like a magnet going back to the same people in expensive city shops mostly buying discount items for someone to chat to because all my friends would bit by bit dump out on me at college or work and I shut down. it seems to be a re-occuring pattern. and I cant relate to the way tafe teaches courses anymore and the cost which is insane. I can remember signing up to a secondary community college and paying like $150.00 or so max with a govt rebate on top of that for like 5, 12month units that went for the full year in 1992, and back then you could do a associate diploma (AD) for over 2 years for like $20 per unit. they don't charge that now. I don't think its fair that I would like to do a course in something like floristry or other things but the prices are over the top and I would prefer to go to a private florist that just does sideline training school closer to my suburb anyway or in the city and you can choose your units and when its all added up you still get your certificate, there was one near a hospital and I think it should be everywhere now, and cake decorating and heaps of things train within the store or business. not a lot of families can afford $14,000 for a dental assist certificate. that is just outrageous and you wonder why young people are drinking? I don't drink alchol but you know it makes me angry because so many people are not getting a sense of community and socializing and work and I just think its evil. I can't see tafe at southbank changing because already they are doing degrees and I can't afford them. I can't understand marking systems and I like courses that are set out quick and less ambigiousness the better, easy to pass and easy to read or webinars and lectures online or classroom. I struggle with white paper and boring delivery of a course content.

I got this cheapskates 1950s handbag 2nd hand or could be 5th hand for all I know. I like to sometim...

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i hate some people selfish people I wish i could be selfish. mashmallow test prank at these neighbors would be a good lesson to them!

i hate some people selfish people I wish i could be selfish. mashmallow test prank at these neighbo...

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courtney is a hooker I have seen her face on a porn film when she was younger it has to be her. she is a real little old ugly manxi witch. she is not hot either and the husband is a loser. she acts so slutty common and bushy and blokey and yobo and wiggles that ass like a dog on heat and no one but a idiot would shag her. she is trouble on a dogs dick. I hate her so much and Iwish they were not here in this street. I want to move to a better place. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pT7x9XlKQAM I bet she has taken a bribe alright and I would like to find her in a bad place she is so creepy. i hate my neighbors I hate them and their halloween satanic evil... well that went well insulting people.

courtney is a hooker I have seen her face on a porn film when she was younger it has to be her. she ...

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I am very tired and very depressed lately and I want to get of the house more because since the whore next door has been bullying me with her chooks in our yard - I hate this spastic whore of a woman she loves herself and needs a good bashing up! I feel no pity at all for her. she deserves a bullet in the head to be honest the abuse she did to me over that actor. they can all go to hell as far as I am concern. they came here with the deliberate intent to cause trouble in this neighborhood like donna did and I know it. I just want to get out do new things meet new people and find a good weight loss thing and I wish we could move from these gossupy mongrel satanic neighbors, that aint no gentlemen, and that aint no real blonde, she is a bloody gossupy annoying actress I want our family to be off the hussy maniac freak of a cow. they have changed the tone of this neighborhood. it used to be a nice place til donna came here and got worse with courtney I just don't like them.

I am very tired and very depressed lately and I want to get of the house more because since the whor...

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yeh well I reckon russel was going around saying i was gay and told some other guys to stay away from me so he could have me all alone and I think ken might have done this and a few other guys, so this is why I was not getting to meet new guys openly because I always wondered why a lot of guys my own age were not more interested in me. if these assholes only knew the trouble they cause in someones life stealing the love they could have had with someone better. like lacky lee of 12 was not my ideal. and the idiot who has called me a rough diamond to be honest, at first I was offended because I was never called that by teachers and other people who knew me well infact I was told the opposite that I was very well spoken and wrote very good assignments and had a great use of the english language and articulate and teachers would tell me I was very eloquent in responses to exam assignments in such short time to deviler good arguments etc so anyway then I figured after hearing a guy talking I though ok if I am a rough diamond you want to know what I think of most of boofoon losers I have met skank class to be honest. my parents always taught me too much to be polite to rude and stupid people and tolerate them but that has no helped me much. the test of good manners is to tolerate bad my parents always used to say to me. or if you can't say something nice say nothing at all and I life by this more then not. but now I just think a rough diamond is before its prime and lusture and shine, at least if I am a rough diamond (which I don't think I am) to me a rough diamond is brash and like richard branson or trump etc, or worse, but I guess rough diamonds are in vogue in a way because we get to polish ourselves up. people are forgiving to mistakes of certain people but not others? which is strange. I don't feel like a rough diamond at all really. I am just a cranky grumpy old bitch who has been hurt, and I just tell people now when they have hurt me like somewhere forgot during all the sarina russo reprogramming depersonalization program of isolation and destruction of self worth that I even had a right to have feelings. wow what a new concept!

yeh well I reckon russel was going around saying i was gay and told some other guys to stay away fro...

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i am sick of being my own teacher at everything what ever happened to teachers anyway? lazy mongrel bastards. they are jealous and don't want to pass on new learning incase others improve their lives so how do they expect knowledge to be past down for the world to improve then? they are stupid. lazy. selfish. spoilt and lack moral autheticness.

i am sick of being my own teacher at everything what ever happened to teachers anyway? lazy mongrel ...

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you can't do anything right. you can't live up to anything good, you can't do anything! your stupid at everything. you're hopeless and never gonna be anything. give that to me you can't do that. your wasting my time. you are so lazy. you'll kill yourself you bloody idiot! the food is not good enough, the bed is not right. these clothes look tacky, this course sucks and needs improving and at least 70-88% students agree with me. you take too much milk in your tea, you expect the world to like you and it won't. you live in a fake world of hope and sickly sweet deformity and disability and the real world is hard and cruel and mean and all about money not about sweet shit! get real. grow up. stop complaining.

you can't do anything right. you can't live up to anything good, you can't do anything! your stupid ...

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no one can do any thing right or good enough around me, no one lives up to my expectations in their work, they can't please me, people around me are just losers, lets face it. and If I want to hate hate hate hate hatehate people I will !!!

no one can do any thing right or good enough around me, no one lives up to my expectations in their...

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I am just considering walking out on my family and just taking a long bus ride and not coming back. I have considered dumping the cats in a bag and drowning them or dumping them at a shelter for enuthainizing because I can't cope their their demands and stress they put on me, they pester for food all the time driving me mad how can a cat be that hungry? they wreck things. I love them deeply but sometimes I want to dump everything this ugly old haunted evil house and neighborhood full of mental people who are violent and crazy evil. dumping all courses cuz I can't concentrate for long anymore and I am hating the loneliness. I should have been getting dates and being invited out while I was unemployed some fucker should have got off their asshole do to something. other whores were getting sprong breeding whoring around like dogs fat ugly slobby losers and yet no one was showing interest in me, where they told not to help me, not to invite me, were they told to ignore me and wreck my courses and why, and who would be that mental to do that blindly and just go around abusing me for fun just because david bowie told them to? who is that low in brainspan ? I mean I am a angry hate filled person i have deep hate inside of me, the hatred has outplaced everything else.

I am just considering walking out on my family and just taking a long bus ride and not coming back. ...

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everything just feels too heavy to carry. I get overwhelmed and want to throw in accounting and health and everything sometimes I can't cope I am sick of being my own teacher, no social life. I just wish there was a normal world I used to understand years ago when courses where not as dear and were easier with more time and better teachers, I dont understand the world anymore. I am so angry that I don't have access to health and education or social life or finding a partner/husband, I am sick of the gay community ruling this world with their "pityme!" stories when victims of crime go through as much I have been highly traumatised by halloween for years since the letterbox bombings in the street and the burning of signs and drunks in the yard trying to break in and someone actually breaking in the house. sometimes I do want to move from here to a nicer up market place. cuz this place used to be nice but I out grew here a long long time ago. I don't like the evil element that is here now that has been here for the last 15 years maybe I was naive and it was here before that from the time we moved in there were break and enters here all the time I was afraid with good reason too. and that dam over the back where the grape vines are. its creepy! a death zone!

everything just feels too heavy to carry. I get overwhelmed and want to throw in accounting and heal...

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I am glad results come back but that I am obviously a candidate for skin allergy this doesn't surprise me as I right now have broken out in allergic reaction to sunscreen again and I have a very itchy scalp at the moment where something has triggered it off with a dermatitis just at the back a little and ears been itchy, I used some cider vinegar on my scalp and it eased it for a while but I can go through this with sunscreens making me itch or go blotchy red and pimples or just from products I bought this palmers facial oil cleanser and I can not use it at all, its either the seaseme oil or the wheat oil or something but I broke out in a complete rash a few weeks ago over the face and eyes running and itchy and just had to stop using it. what annoys me ages ago 1 gp wanted me to go for a allergy analysis test and she wrote it out and then later because I forgot to go while studying the other gp at the same practice said "oh you don't need that now". all the female gps there never would stay so I gave up seeing them.

I am glad results come back but that I am obviously a candidate for skin allergy this doesn't surpri...

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stop stop stop stop!

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i sick of everything. hate everyone and annoyed by young and old people.

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I can't afford to see my ent and gyno. I need to get my exercise machine fixed or replaced. I am angry because I am alone and want a relationship and can't fit in anywhere. I have come to expect abuse and conflict and I openly speak hate talk at people if they start gaming on me.

I can't afford to see my ent and gyno. I need to get my exercise machine fixed or replaced. I am ang...

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