Confessions about 'Hate'

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i am angry because I can't afford to see my surgeon this week and I have had a ear infection and gastro bug and I am grumpy. my counsellor told me to take it out on others seeing they did to me so have been angry at everyone around me but a few.

i am angry because I can't afford to see my surgeon this week and I have had a ear infection and gas...

Hate

I get so upset when I see people who want to sell their cats or dogs just to move or travel its so selfish. I am so sad to see lost cats at shelters and the dogs, I would take in a cat or dog. I worry my former friend was not looking after her little black cat right and was going druggy again rather then religious. she would just dump her cat I worry its crying in the rain. how evil she is to her pets. I want to punish her or find out if they are ok? should I? sometimes when I go near where she lived near shops I look to see if her cat is left behind would she really care about her pets over cock? her world is cock or fake jesus and bs?

I get so upset when I see people who want to sell their cats or dogs just to move or travel its so s...

Abuse, Hate

if I was going to murder and kill a lot of people it wouldn't be losers in buildings in some hoochy banking shelter for tards anyway, I only would have killed for a man anyway and not many were around showing much interest and I should kill a woman I should kill anyone that gets in my way of a man. I guess I should be a killer knowing what I have been through. but you know if looks could kill. I often give people evil eye looks now for my pleasure and fun, seeing people like dirty ricky martin abused me when he is such a asshole loser anyway. he was only out to take me down and thinks it is funny to help all his mongrel south amercian fuckers who walked over me. he is not worth killing over. the spastic wanker he is. selfish user! very very selfish user liar of a person. very much a con artist. I don't want to know him. but yeh I should kill someone before long but i won't know who to kill or how. I just hate a lot of people and it makes me feel good to tell them I hate them. I told a few churches a few companies how much I hate their abusive evil corrupt ways. I can't understand people who sell out on the truth and make a living from fraud and lying and hustling like whores. I just can't understand it.

if I was going to murder and kill a lot of people it wouldn't be losers in buildings in some hoochy ...

Pride, Hate

i still think that gordon powers is a spastic vomit bucket. and that shirley well they would be a good couple together as whore spastics. she is a spastic whore shirley girl 6 and that is about her mental maturity too and of the whore weirdo practice there - its offended my mum and dad !!!!!!!!!!!! no one asked that doctor to butt in on our personal life and he is not welcome.

i still think that gordon powers is a spastic vomit bucket. and that shirley well they would be a go...

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I refuse to watch tv, I just decided, no job- no fun! full stop to life! no tv. no car etc. I only rarely watch the news or current affairs compared to years ago, I can't stand b&b soap and can't understand how my father can watch that rubbish and those whores. they are all whores even the men. I rarely watch science shows I used to love and tv is crap. I just don't have time anyway. I don't go to the cinema much and I most study or just be with my cats, go out to exhibits and shows, do my floral stuff and gardening a bit and I have lost interest in just about everything even study sometimes. I can't stand most new music and don't understand the bands and can't tolerate the old ones at all. I used to like the high teas but it lost interest after it was changed and emma went weird. everyone I had mixed with outside my family all went weird nasty vendictive selfish bitter cruel snotty backstabbing so I did a bit of it myself seeing my therapist said to so I just started dumping on a lot of people who were not living up to my standards of what I would call a "friend". I have become extreme about this mind set now, of what sort of person you have to be to be around me. I don't feel I owe anyone a thing. I am learning to be as bitter backstabbing and that wanker of a doctor bullying me acting stupid has really pissed off my mother and father and me and my sister and we just don't tolerate that shit from people anymore. same with these weirdo churches tony and margie are a pair of absolute cowards I told them have no backbone to even faceup and call they run away from confrontation and debate and like the whore on the phone last night I called her and out and out liar I knew she was lying from day one and then the way she fobbed me off she can't bare to be challenged and I knew she would cowardly drop because she is a liar. I could tell by so many things and I dobbed them as well as all the others. I will go anyone confrontation and fight and yell anyone down now, mum is the same way. I am not afraid to literally ignore kids but I did stop the baby from ending up in the road and calling out to the father, but I just don't want to be friends and I am not afraid to be rude to people and tell them off and what i think of them now. even the queen or anyone. I can't understand a queen that goes for pop music non-sense and these apes of people. so much scum around today. I told tony is he a coward. I wish he would ring so I could out and out have a argument with the useless idiot just to let out my anger and their pathetic turn out they hav there is a shocking disgrace of a druggy ego maniac farm, they are all nutters and cowards. can't even fight, and he really thinks women want him or his old bag, no way! they are full on warlock guahl.

I refuse to watch tv, I just decided, no job- no fun! full stop to life! no tv. no car etc. I only r...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I can't explain why my father was rejected from so many jobs from 1986 onwards and then the same thing happened to me I was just ignored from getting austudy for a few years even when the govt should have told my parents they could get that govt funding and then its happened in other things being denied access to health care and education in a timely reasonable fashion unlike my older sister and brother, being denied friendships and a husband and wondering why I am not good enough. I never ever felt like I was not enough for a man consciously till I met joyce who told me that was how I felt. I felt like "how can I make a guys like me and am I pretty enough? and a lot of avoidance of love and romance or just being turned off after 15 years of molestation by a dirty smelly old drunk since the age of 4 or 5. and I did feel good enough deep down, but I did wonder why I was being ignored and rejected much the same with work and courses because I would have done a lot of things but constantly in my teens and early twenties my older sister rose and my father were like "we are the important ones in this family" then it was like my younger brother was like "I am the mr bigtime of this family who deserves it all young" and he was just ruthlessly evil and misogimistic and just selfish and vulgar and he was very spoilt as the only boy. he never knew real hardship like I did. my sisters relationships with all her boyfriends were just a push you out of the way type of thing and her several husbands she is violent with hitting them with brooms and rose is like a violent sister I have tried to do so much to win her approval yet can not, all the make overs I would put on her for parties and night clubbing and making her feel good, then I just stopped doing it because she was not returning the favor. deep down I wondered as time went on why I was not getting the jobs or boyfriends when I was just as worthwhile as my sister or any relative or the next person, and she has married these filipenas man and it has made me feel like I as a white woman am not good enough to see myself in my minds eye with a white man who is educated classy and all that I have wanted in a man and I don't and have never wanted a black husband ever. I resent the way my sister has made me feel cuz she has had so many husbands and boyfriends and she is a selfish person , she was a awful mother and i don't understand why she became so controlling about who I was allowed to date and who not when she was married herself and my love life should not have mattered to her like that. its like she doesn't want me to be loved or have a husband I love and seems to want me to be inlove with her only helping her its kind of sick and I don't want that. I have wanted a husband and I did wonder why white young men were rejecting me when I was at law school and university an working I did wonder and it made me want to improve myself more in everyway til I just could not longer hold the ceiling up with out breaking down. and no one ever noticed when it was me. and i am sick of getting flowers from women just because I found there bank card in the park and called the bank to return it or flowers from slobs yet no nice men ever buy me flowers or ask me out to dinner or buy me jewerly and yet my sisters husbands have for her. and I think well, when will it be my turn, when will i be good enough for god sake?

I can't explain why my father was rejected from so many jobs from 1986 onwards and then the same thi...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

how can a reasonably thin teenager attract so many fat yobo old boring slobs? and losers? old alex of 70, some loser south american of 80 some violent pig like ron, was I that bad looking or that poorly behaved ? cuz I just won't except I was that ugly at 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21,22 , 23- even up to 37 before I started gaining weight again from these medications and illnesses. I just won't accpet I was this ugly ugly ugly red haired teen that everyone wanted me to believe! you all have to answer and be punsihed and to your penance over that! my cats are all who care about me and being on a disability pension only is not even enought to look after them properly with vet bills and insurance and I can't afford all these surgeons and doctors for back and this and that. every week theres something.and this little wanker in some business chain called me a shit magnet one day - what woman wants to be spoken to like that.

how can a reasonably thin teenager attract so many fat yobo old boring slobs? and losers? old alex o...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

suddenly everything I ever wanted has passed me by... why did you have to be a heart breaker , and you were never what I wanted you to be,... that is my song, but for a church like a touch of love ministries to do all this lies at me saying for me to be fertile and get married to a nice young man, I thought fine, young ok-- 32-40 but not 12-14 is completely upsetting and offensive, here was my heart getting so excited at the idea of finding a love at last and having a baby. I can't afford a surrogate to have my babies. I am sick of this and I am sick of ricky martin and his brother that chef wanker manu abusing me, I don't want to know them now. I don't want to know all the people who let me down, I had to see people getting married having babies and getting sex and looking great, and all I got was raped by a fat loser and I don't even know what it feels like to orgasm with a mans dick in me let alone giving birth, its supposed to be a gift from god this incredible thing that a womans body can do give birth to another human being. there is some thing sick and evil about this society that abuses someone like me like this. sorry but I never loved russell I never loved wayne, I never liked or loved ken, I never loved frank I never loved allan, I never loved peter who was older then he was making out- no 2 ways about that, he was a bald fat loud opinionated slob like all the others, wrinkled man who looked 40 pretending to be 20something.

suddenly everything I ever wanted has passed me by... why did you have to be a heart breaker , and y...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

so I defiantly went out today and bought some pink jeans and you make me fat one more time I am going to up and bloody murder a whole group of people starting with in my own house. I am sick of being everyones fat dog joke that can't find a husband when a nurse said to me the other day- from everything you have told me you been through with illness and rape and child sexual abuse for all those years and all your mother can do is expect you to sleep her bed clean her house have no friends or man, live like some pig and your father couldn't even been bothere to protect you from a pedo or these bashers, you been this pillar of strength for everyone around you and what about you? your 45 no kids, no husband, no job, no car no house never had a real boyfriend even fat shamed then thin shamed accused of being a gym junkie for 2 x a week light gentle exercise is not a ocd, and she said "you are a great person and don't like any one not any person convince you are shit and deserve to be abused or all this negative shit of joyce or rick or katy or ken or relatives, you're the one who has self sacrificed over and over watching and help people around you get dates and love and babies and when your sick who is there to help you? who is there to care for you when all your life you cared for others too dam much! your the one up worried about bills while your mother and father sleeps like a lamb" they aren't worried about who will care for them and when they are gone are they gonna care for you? you have to be selfish and make it clear to people you deserve a husband and a baby and get out of your way you mean business" and just attck them, bash them if you have to. these people abused you bashed you for no reason. they are to blame they should be made to fix the problem. " I never fucked up anyones like, I never went out of my way to ruin anyones like, sure I might have got angry and hurt and I am even more so today. my needs are not listened to and the nurse said I have to make people- so I will I will threated to murder and attack people if I have to. people did it to me so do it back!

so I defiantly went out today and bought some pink jeans and you make me fat one more time I am goin...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

how come you find it so hard to believe that two old friends could get together and decide "i'm sick of being an abused woman, i always shoulda been a boy" and the friend saying "yeh well i always wanted to be a woman so lets really do the deed then and fix everyone?" i couldn't do that but what makes you think two wealthy clever high profile people couldn't or wouldn't do that and be laughing at everyone! this whole elton john and david furnish and diana conspiracy thing? I couldn't want to be a guy but you know it always offended me the way my bitch of a older sister slut always was the one who only could wear fucking pink! and I was not allowed to for some reason, cuz she wanted to be the only girl in the family. and you know I am fucking sick of this whore doing her dirty do dog act at me when she is con, she bashes her husbands with brooms and has attacked me, just about all my family have physically bashed me at some point for no particular reason. they never care about my needs as a woman or needing a husband or children. I am always caring about them but they don't care for me, my selfish mother is gonna die in the next 20 or what years time and all this "be a good girl and nice to people like the dirty catholic church told me to be" has allowed all thepedos and abuses go on against me. when my brother and sister are completely selfish people who have no real religion in them what so ever, why do you find it so hard to believe people could say "I am done with you or your shit"?

how come you find it so hard to believe that two old friends could get together and decide "i'm sick...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

my therapist told me to be verbally abusive and angry and rude and moody to people and make them see what they have caused. he told me to attack people as much as possible to let out my pain and anger. so I do towards everyone now. he told me to do it so I.

my therapist told me to be verbally abusive and angry and rude and moody to people and make them see...

Hate

dumb dog bitch!

Hate

my neighbors wives and kids are all prostitutes ! and they all have kids to other people. dad said courtney called stephanies husband "a ugly little man" but as if she can talk when she is a rather ugly little man herself! my dad thinks she is a bitch!

my neighbors wives and kids are all prostitutes ! and they all have kids to other people. dad said c...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

you have been conned!

Hate

I COULD TELL DAVID AND PETER WERE OLDER THEN THEY WERE MAKING OUT THEY WERE, DAD OFTEN COMMENTED ON DAVID CREEPY PASTEY DEATHLY SKIN APPEARANCE THAT DIDN'T LOOK HEALTHY AND HIS WEIRD LIFESTYLE THAT MADE NO SENSE. THE POOR FAKE FAMILY ON THIS OLD BOAT AND CAMPERVAN THAT MADE NO SENSE. THE FAMILY ALL BROKEN UP AND INCESTIOUS ABUSES FROM JUDY ALL THE TIME HER COMMENTS ABOUT HER SONS SEXUAL PERFORMANCES IN BED WAS WEIRD WE NEVER UNDERSTOOD THE BLANTANT chicanery GAMER MENTAL BEHAVIOR THEY WERE ALL ABOUT.

I COULD TELL DAVID AND PETER WERE OLDER THEN THEY WERE MAKING OUT THEY WERE, DAD OFTEN COMMENTED ON ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

WHY WERE SO MANY UGLY FAT DIRTY SMELLY LOSERS SURROUNDING ME AS A THIN/FAT CHILD AND TEEN I ASK YOU?

Pride, Abuse, Hate

who gives a crap about any of you shitbag losers and druggy whore loving animals possing as royals when your con artists up for murder and sexual deviancy making out your so perfect but your not and everyone knows it. I am starting to think that this whole thing about david furnish and diana is true and more is gonna come out about other royals as well and they can come and transinvestigate everyone looks like no one is safe of being labeled a tranny now since i joked and called myself a tranny granny that david bowie and criminologist bsingwaite created, the experiement that went wrong going through an abused childs diary for satanic kirks soft drink fun is over mate! my sister is not going to tolerate you k. she will kick you off. and bash every man with a broom like she did to all her husbands.

who gives a crap about any of you shitbag losers and druggy whore loving animals possing as royals w...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

ken is a chainery girl tranny by now for what he didn to me and as for maryp for poophead. I have forgotten about you dog. you raped my cousin in 1977 or eariler that is why you named your kid by his name and you on a con job- so why did they sew up your purse what sin did yee commit to have your bankrupcy and alcoholic whore mother and I have not forgot that you and your sister abusing me? a grown woman sexually jealous of a pedophile victim child is really sick mate.

ken is a chainery girl tranny by now for what he didn to me and as for maryp for poophead. I have fo...

Abuse, Hate

take a look at all the spastic low life retarted losers these nlp dirty celeb news cia losers tried to push me with, ugly fat low life scum of the earth rusell and wayne old farts pretending to be teens and young men. I could see david was older then he was making out and so was peter goso, it was clear, so was karen and others, kelly was older then she was making out she was and look at the shame and guilt that little troll has inside her with her weight loss, true sign of a sinner is weight loss !!!! look at the fake act of these churches and people and the rsl was all rigged the whole thing was a scammed out pantamine for the royals to revenge a child that did nothing wrong to them. that is the weirdest thing, and no I don't fucking want to be your friends. go chuck up around your druggies and do your di act and gay act and save me the hassel of embarrasment of being near killers, a royal bitch truce no way. she caused me trouble that killer whore queen on her shit throne and my parents don't like the royals they hate you. they resent and hate you. they don't want to be around liars and con artist who rape and abuse women and cheat them out of a pay cheque and husband. your not welcome here whore royals so save yourself the effort sluts. royalsluts!

take a look at all the spastic low life retarted losers these nlp dirty celeb news cia losers tried ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

margaret and margies ugly face at the church and all that hoaxy act they were putting on and the pretend act of the stage warlock etc at the church. it was so sickening. they were evil sick dirty ulgy people abusing one another with "what bible character are you this week?" bs... titty valentina the fake woman who really had a baby and you can tell by her tits and that loud masculine deep "I'm a real knowall big ego opinion about myself" bs she was going on with. it was all lies. a con job if ever there was one and I would not be suprised to find that bayside born again assholes church to be linked up with the psychic channel or something. cuz margie and goth hubby looked so satanic occult like it was not funny. and these stupid idiots they are brain washing with bs. occasionally they come out with something worthwhile but most of what this wanker was going on about was death and bs. made me feel vomit in their company I knew I was not welcome there and I told police what I believed was going on there a lot of gossip and the biggest liar of them all was anna-maria and desley was "the des" who didn't know what he was doing I was told about by o'sulivan and she should know because they were all linked church, doctors and games. mental violent abusive people that is all I can describe them as evil. like the dirty refridgerator catholics. I told mum I want nothing to do with the bastards for some reason all my life I felt like I had to prove my faith to that catholic church and then spastic asian arrogant lisa whore with her saying i had just found jesus was the biggest insult out, that senile woman - why have all these asians and blacks and idiots come to australia to steal our lives and culture from us in the first place and the lies and games they make up. I have met some nice asians don't get me wrong, but lisa was crazy. she never listend to a thing I said, she seen me as bad or guilty of something in my childhood and I think asians are the worse at trying to abuse and punish white people over child sexual abuse and victims of pedophiles especially the lisa types. she was so "I'm so perfect and know all, and your shit!" you mongrel bitch! you mongrel asian unaware of the australia before you came here and what we had before you came here and took it from us. how unaware you are of things and yet I wouldn't get to get a big job in china like you did here. so its all double standard to me. I am not poking holes in the good chinese people I have met.

margaret and margies ugly face at the church and all that hoaxy act they were putting on and the pre...

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