Confessions about 'Hate'

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whatever made you think you were special or beautiful its long gone sally. you are actually a very ugly person who expects other people to look after your kids and you steal men on single nice girls who are shy and your a bully and a bitch and next time go bungy jumping and fall off completely do the world a favor cuz your a dogsfaced bitch evil old cougar who cries poor me, I have not have a fuck in years but I have all these ex husbands and lovers like a whore! and your so rude and bouncy and butch so man like and evil and mean and you are a terrible mother. no wonder your daughter will not talk to you. I don't blame her because you are an evil slut. a whore slut evil sex maniac bitch who uses people. its not about the people its about your ego and money sally. that is your problem your ugly personality!

whatever made you think you were special or beautiful its long gone sally. you are actually a very u...

Hate

now I have 12-20 rose petal soap buds I was going to use in the fashion parade for breast cancer but seeing people were dropping out and W wouldn't keep in involved and just seemed to want the clothes and not me helping to put them together on models and have the fun. and the sally made me sick and was making fun of me said everyone was laughing at me, I guess it was a stupid idea I could do a fashion show, so I just gave W all the contacts cuz she was always sick and I got chest pains from sally upsetting me and her speeding and near accidents and her bitching at me." we are laughing at you" she said

now I have 12-20 rose petal soap buds I was going to use in the fashion parade for breast cancer but...

Pride, Hate

it really should have been me who won the lotto rather then other relatives. I am a bear at the best of times and gold bug and very tight with money and occasional flamboyant moves, I like strong investment and mostly reality land and stayed and steady type investments. I am rather old fashioned in a lot of things but not everything. like I found it highly offensive for so many teachers to be making comments about "the boys usually go into criminal law and debt collection and wills and estates and the girls mostly go into conveyancing and family law where there is no money to be made" and their sexist responses about a lot of things was highly offensive!

it really should have been me who won the lotto rather then other relatives. I am a bear at the best...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

is donald trump a democratic plant, he has done everything possible to lose an election deliberately? or is he just stupid? or a victim of nlp ?

is donald trump a democratic plant, he has done everything possible to lose an election deliberately...

Hate

I have never been big on love. I have been in love or had a lot of crushes on different men, but men don't return any emotional exchanges to me even as a teen or young woman people always thought I was younger I looked younger and sounded younger in my voice even now people say you don't sound your age. I tell them well I feel a dam sight older then my age at times the pain I am always in for the last 10 years when I got some weird virus the doctors thought it was whooping cough and then I seem to get a lot of viruses for a while after a bat peed on me at night at work. I knew that was witchcraft abuse. I wouldnt know what love was. it wasn't rick and it wasn't all the weird friends of my sisters husbands either, it was not ken and it was not even frank. I think love is for the rich and lucky and selfish. love is a selfish act, it requires you to only think of yourself and be unware of anyone elses needs, which I was never taught to do. I wish I had been taught to be selfish and conceited young. it would have helped to be taught that and pushy and bitchy and bold, I was too shy to help myself.

I have never been big on love. I have been in love or had a lot of crushes on different men, but men...

Abuse, Hate

now I have all this wedding stuff I still want to get married, I wanted to get married when I was young, I actually wanted a baby when I was 16 but I knew I had to wait and go learn and work first but I never met the right men at the right time. fuck you dirty bitchy world and dirty bitch god and all the winners. yeh If I had known this was going to happen I would have told that lotto office where to stick their lotto up their assholes. it never served me much. it did nothing to help me really that life wouldn't have but made people hate me. so I can hate rich and clever people back now. I dropped out of university 3 times after each bashing over a unsuccessful relationship attempts and felt so defeated and a failure that men my own age were rejecting me and all these loser old farts I hated were getting in my way - now I just scream at the cunts and bastards to "GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY OR I WILL BASH AND KILL YOU"

now I have all this wedding stuff I still want to get married, I wanted to get married when I was yo...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

normal people get to have real boyfriends and get asked out regularly and have choices. normal people have rights. normal people get to look professional! I hate normal people so much.

normal people get to have real boyfriends and get asked out regularly and have choices. normal peopl...

Abuse, Hate

other people are allowed holidays and bankcards and snotty jobs and like they really do live up to all their resume bullshit when most of them are losers overflated egos and not much skill or talent or looks. every year they go off to their parties and weddings and new sex partners and babies and houses and cars and act like they are better then everyone else when they are not.

other people are allowed holidays and bankcards and snotty jobs and like they really do live up to a...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

other normal people have friends that care and can have get married and have a right to a wedding and a baby and home and events to look forward to but me. why? I am sick of this rubbish life. I need more money to study and for my health. I pay all this money out and I feel scammed.

other normal people have friends that care and can have get married and have a right to a wedding an...

Abuse, Hate

I bought some wedding things for my portfolio or whatever??? as if I could find a husband like normal people do anyway? as if I could work like normal people do?

I bought some wedding things for my portfolio or whatever??? as if I could find a husband like norma...

Abuse, Hate

I wish I knew what was so wrong with me why I am abused and not many people help me. like not one person really helped me about the sexual abuse or rape, yeh I go see a therapist which is all top coating nothing. we never talk deeply about real feelings I never get to talk about those things with anyone. I guess I am just not ment to have feelings. I can't help feel that god is not so great when I have been abused and evil wins over the good. I am being bullied and I am sick of their abuse.

I wish I knew what was so wrong with me why I am abused and not many people help me. like not one pe...

Abuse, Hate

makes you wonder who was it the read all the notes in 1978 and who didn't like me to play such evil games on me over cousins, teachers, bands and more. and I was just 6 turning 7and they try to make out i am to blame - i think not.

makes you wonder who was it the read all the notes in 1978 and who didn't like me to play such evil ...

Abuse, Hate

steves mother and sister abused me as a child. uncanny how they turned up after I wrote that I had a crush on my cousin steven and his mothers name was the same as my cousins steves mother and she was abusive to me as well. she told so many lies her purse was stapled abusing kids. and I am sure she raped my then teen cousin.

steves mother and sister abused me as a child. uncanny how they turned up after I wrote that I had a...

Abuse, Hate

just because i have a black chocolate part havana cat doesn't mean I love black men. I love my cat. not black men.

just because i have a black chocolate part havana cat doesn't mean I love black men. I love my cat. ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

just because I wear a blue top or eat devilled sausages or go on a cruise boat does not mean its a sign I am interested in ken, I have told you this over and over and over again. I wear what colors I have or go on a boat or eat food from a shop it does not mean I am inviting ken to me. cuz if he does he will be attacked by my whole family my mother and father and sister and I all will bash and attack him so stop thinking its making you win because it is not. just like if I wear green doesn't mean I want to see russel or just because I talk to kim does not mean I want to be blonde or not. just because I had a go at sally about her selfish sexual games of stealing men on other women all the time, doesn't mean I am interested in her dentist. etc I am sick of this bs!

just because I wear a blue top or eat devilled sausages or go on a cruise boat does not mean its a s...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I hated him. do you understand that I hated the sight the smell, the sex, I never chose to be with him like that either. if I had known he was not going to drive the car I would never have a agreed to that drive home by that dirty little navy boat. mum said leigh morris should have been punished and was promoting us girls in the quest as some sort of whores for these creepy ugly married loser deadbeat spastic men that had nothing good to offer someone like me. my mother does not like the rsl or ken or leigh. my mother and father said it was all evil what they did to me.

I hated him. do you understand that I hated the sight the smell, the sex, I never chose to be with h...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

they treat me like I am rich and I am poor. we are a poor family, we have always been poor. they treat us like "why can't you afford this or that" because we have never been rich, we were not allowed to marry young and have education and careers etc we have never had jobs that paid well, we have never won the lotto or anything actually unlike other relatives.

they treat me like I am rich and I am poor. we are a poor family, we have always been poor. they tre...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I hate this life!

Abuse, Hate

I suffer from motion sickness so and I am afraid of water so i don't think i can go on a cruise really. i barely can handle the flights or trains but I had the movement of waves so I dont know about going on cruises, I just feel like I have been ripped off by the company anyway.

I suffer from motion sickness so and I am afraid of water so i don't think i can go on a cruise real...

Hate

I paid out a wack of money on holiday package and now I am wondering if we will ever use it. we always talk about travel or doing things or fixing things in the house but it always takes 20 years to be none. we talk about improving my life and health and finding a husband but it never happens. we talk about jobs and do shit courses and get nowhere so why would it ever change? as if we could be normal? as if we could go on a holiday or fix anything or look beautiful or get married and have a child like normal people. what a waste of money my university and college education and the furniture and the holiday package has been like the car. everything I do is a waste of time and money. it never works out ! why would it now when it never has?!

I paid out a wack of money on holiday package and now I am wondering if we will ever use it. we alwa...

Pride, Abuse, Hate