I am depressed :-(

there is so much poverty and loss and loneliness in this world and more people unemployed each month, how are we supposed to get ahead? we are as broken as can be but not unbreakable yet ; not disposable yet.

there is so much poverty and loss and loneliness in this world and more people unemployed each month...

i don't want to share my things with others really unless i am paid for it and get something valuable back in return. I don't own a house or car and i could do with a house of my own and a career. Its too late for children and I really feel my health is too risky to bare children now. I get regular skin bleeding around the vagina area from the auto-immune disorder that i thought when i was 25 was hiv aids and herpes and syphilis or tb also of the ear and i was running round having blood tests all the time to check. its still a fear in me that ken who raped me gave me hiv aids. I never wanted a loser like him and I don't ever want to see him again and my mother and father have said they would murder him. it would ease my mind to know a lot of people who i hate who attacked me are dead like robodog and rick and ken and so i could just move on to a new life without them as part of it. they were never ment to be in my life book and i want a new chapter that is very choosi about who is welcome in my life and they are not welcome. there is a lot of people not welcome. and looking for honest respectful people they don't have to be rich. I am just sick of being forced to make do and told how to feel and expected to give when i don't want to anymore. i don't want to be nice to many people anymore. i am cynical and sarcastic now. I love being around people who make fun of the rich and uperty and fake asses out there and scammers. I done penance for being abused child now. putting up with brisbane and the people here is penance. i hate them.

i don't want to share my things with others really unless i am paid for it and get something valuabl...

I am illegal immigrant here. I used fake document until high school. I lie to all my friend. Sometimes I run away from them. I am clever enough to go to university but I can’t since I don’t have proper documents. I want to have drving licence like everyone but I can’t. There is nothing I can do here. I don’t know why my parents want us to stay here. I want to go back to my own country but I can’t. I don’t have enough money. If anyone who rich enough can give me money, I will do anything. I hate my life…. I have anxiety because of this.

I am illegal immigrant here. I used fake document until high school. I lie to all my friend. Sometim...