I am depressed :-(

I am never looking at a man ever again particularly a few and I am inlove with a young women who is getting married and I am a older women, what the hell should I do? I love her she is so pretty and I can't see me ever marrying or finding love or having children, so I wish I could get with this girl which it sounds crazy she is about 20 years younger then me but I just woke up and realised nothing is ever again going to work right for me and there is no point trying to make it work. I love her. and its a difficult situation to be in but life is not going to go how I want it to. my pride is too wounded and I even am considering not going on the internet ever again for anything. its a useless thing that helps no one get jobs or relationships or friends. who is the internet really helping ? no one.

I am never looking at a man ever again particularly a few and I am inlove with a young women who is ...

I am thinking about being lesbian even though it disgusts me, because I can't trust anyone. its not me to be gay but I don't have 1 man I can trust. I wish I did. my pride has been hurt too much and all the death threats and games I don't understand.

I am thinking about being lesbian even though it disgusts me, because I can't trust anyone. its not ...

do you always get what you want do you? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5hy3Ba46wEc https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gckBQ1PWjrs&t=64s https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YyJGwBJg41I https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5pdl32t4vgU "itty bitty problems or fat ass problems?" morally I couldn't do this without complete security and esurenace of cia and fbi safety and I certain don't want some user whatever they are ... I mean really go away! because I need a real man who wants to love me my way. not their way.

do you always get what you want do you? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5hy3Ba46wEc https://www.y...