Confessions about 'Pride'

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If I could talk to my friends in reality like I could over the Internet, I think I wouldn't have as much a problem being friends with some of them. But the fact that this year alone they have let me down so much that I start to wonder if they really are my friends at all. And the ones I don't really talk to online are the ones I'm feel closest to. I wish I had better friends

If I could talk to my friends in reality like I could over the Internet, I think I wouldn't have as ...

Adultery, Pride, Hate

UGH. Freaking out in front of my boss/boss's boss. Of course. Because even though I'm just a cashier, even though this is my first real job, I still take everything too darn seriously. I wish I could tell my boss that he's a darn good boss, even if I'm always cowering and cringing because I'm scared to death of him. And I like all my coworkers too, but there's no way to tell them without looking like a kiss up. This is going to be more of a, "Everyone in my life is great, I'm just an incompetent fool when it comes to telling them" thing. How lucky am I, right? I've got a job I enjoy and great coworkers to boot. But even though I do well, I still feel hopelessly inadequate. Like I have to prove myself. My parents love me very much. They say they're proud of me. But I still feel like I'm letting them down. My grades are close to perfect. I'm making my own money, albeit they think cashiering is below their darling daughter's level. Still, it pays the bills. Where am I falling short? And then there's AM/IC. Gah. In my fiveish years of adolescence, I've done nothing but criticize kids like me falling in love. And by God, now I've gone and done it. But of course, I'd be failing him too. He's incredibly talented (at everything). He's (much, much) older. He's gotten a chance to live, and I haven't really yet. I have nothing to offer. I always told myself that I'd stay out of relationships until I was secure with myself, because I didn't want to risk going around trying to find someone to "complete" me. If I'm not whole by myself, what good am I to anyone? Worst of all, he's supremely kind. I don't think he's got a malicious bone in his body. And here I am. I'm the mean one. All my friends say I'm the first to dislike someone. It's kinda a joke now. I'm so quick to be a jerk; I've never seen him snub anyone, no matter how irritating. And I finally found a college, I think. After I finish my A.A. next semester, I think I'll be shipping off eight hours away. It's about a year away. In the back of my mind, I'm saying, "Tell him while you can." There's no friendship to destroy. At the most, the awkwardness would only last until January 2014. Then, I'm out of his life, probably for good. And run the risk that he likes me too, and then I have to go away. Rocking. Honestly wish that people would be upfront with me rather than sub me. I mean like damn why can't you just be like hey I don't like you rather than just make subs ? I don't get it. Then it be the same folks that are like I'm so honest and blah blah blah I don't get it. And to Be honest I've done nothing wrong nothing. I guess it's time to just sit back and watch rather than participate.

UGH. Freaking out in front of my boss/boss's boss. Of course. Because even though I'm just a cashie...

Pride, Hate

I am looking forward to the day I can say "well I could but?" I don't know anyone to speak to for helping others i have no friends for years and years. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=neqcXzLi1-I https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hZ9EMi70jDM

I am looking forward to the day I can say "well I could but?" I don't know anyone to speak to for he...

Pride, Love, Abuse

depression- I never left my sister behind! unlike people who left me behind! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZAPYERoX_4

depression- I never left my sister behind! unlike people who left me behind! https://www.youtube.co...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

You Wonder You wonder why I hate you so much? Look back at the last 19 years b****. I'm more than qualified to hate you.

You Wonder You wonder why I hate you so much? Look back at the last 19 years b****. I'm more than q...

Pride, Hate

i like trump and i am a woman and think all these abuse stories about trump are lies. he is a great guy! trying to make a huge change.

i like trump and i am a woman and think all these abuse stories about trump are lies. he is a great ...

Pride

Politics, society, pop culture and the human condition: I am done! I hear about certain ethnic persuasions complaining about profiling by the police and unfair treatment by the law....try this one on for size: When I was a a young business man with a reasonable level of success in LA, I decided its time to buy myself a fun car for the week ends.....so I went down to the local exotic car shop and found this un-believable Porsche Speedster....and after a couple of days of consideration, I bought the car. NOT 100 FEET OFF THE LOT ON PCH, I WAS STOPPED BY A BEACH CITY POLICE SQUATD CAR LOOKING FOR THE TAGS ON THIS CAR (ITS GOT NO PLATES CAUS I JUST BOUGHT IT) UPON REACHING INTO THE GLOVE BOX TO SHOW THE REGISTRATION, I AM CONFRONTED WITH DRAWN WEAPONS POINTED AT MY HEAD. APPARENTLY, THE POLICE THOUGHT I MAY HAVE BEEN REACHING FOR A WEAPON....now, did I immediately think that I was being profiled for being a young arrogant jerk with a cool car? No, I simply put my hands in the air and told the officers that the paperwork was in the glove box......they checked it out and I was on my way....that's it, I have not held a resentful thought for those officers ever sense, they were doing their job.....its a dangerous job. (ii) and how about this one....my wife was driving a new car that we had just purchased and was pulled over by the police to inquire about a car without tags....she does not feel offended. They are doing their jobs! The police have come to our home after neighbors have complained about our kids making noise in the back yard....are we offended? no, they are doing their jobs. K... W...st appears to be offended at the drop of a hat.....because he feels so 'special': I got news for you Ka..ye, do you think that you match up in any way with the character, the talent or the class of DJ (the NY Yankee that just retired at Yankee Stadium?.....now that's class, talent and character. Kanye, you are not even close to any one of these attributes....you are vile! I am involved in municipal politics..... you wanna see some of the most entitled people this side of the UAW? Work with city or county staff people.....give me a break! ......I could go on, but I'm tired because I half to work three times as hard ever since the bankers colluded with politicians to give everyone free homes.....and then crashed the economy. Good night!

Politics, society, pop culture and the human condition: I am done! I hear about certain ethnic persu...

Pride, Violence, Stealing

I dress up at the rennaisance faire and get seriously into rennie culture, and have done since I was a little kid. What really pisses me off is when people say "Oh, you're a cosplayer?" No! I'm not a fucking cosplayer!! I love costume because it helps create an immersive environment, where a big group of people all become part of a whole. As a socially awkward person, I can throw on some garb, get to thee faire, and drink, dance, chat, mingle with other rennies without social anxiety. It's a fellowship - a group hug - and it's a feeling of total camaraderie. Cosplayers, on the other hand, are mostly narcissists. They do whatever they can to stand out in a crowd because they think they're better than everyone else. They take selfies like it's going out of style. They charge money for others to hang out with them. They want to be treated like gods. I've also been around cosplayers, and 99% of them are backstabbing bitches who talk about each other in the worst ways, trying to one-up each other constantly. They're all about self-promotion and conceit. So please don't call rennies cosplayers. We're not. Just because cosplayers sometimes show up at the faire doesn't mean they "get it."

I dress up at the rennaisance faire and get seriously into rennie culture, and have done since I was...

Pride

i have not had a proper job in 8 years and i am sick of living like scum. other people with less education and knowledge them me are working and rich ones have 4 or 10 masters degrees and too much money, can you see where the world went wrong! not sharing the opportunities and money and resources around. its another form of culling and the have no ability to feel for others at all.

i have not had a proper job in 8 years and i am sick of living like scum. other people with less edu...

Pride, Hate

I don't want to fit in with people or others. so?!!!

Adultery, Pride, Murder, Love, Lie, Abuse, Hate, Violence, Gay, Hacking, Stealing, Marriage, Blasphemy, Sex

I thought this car said "dorking dynasty" It actually said "dunno nassty"

Pride

Well your a big man, in charge of a family, suck it up, don't show any weakness. Yeah right... fuck that shit ! What a big Humanity joke that is. us guys have been holding in so much and not allowed to appear soft around the edges. Everything inside our very being is held in so much that we explode one day or another. Who the hell invented the idea that all men need to hold in so much and be a man. Men have feelings... that's my new book. I think all menly things need revising to truly strengthen us. To hell with panty ass little men name calling. lets get this all out in the open and strengthen, not place men in catigories. need to all work together and make the country great !

Well your a big man, in charge of a family, suck it up, don't show any weakness. Yeah right... fuck ...

Pride

I got the message today with Js so I am looking for someone else. Js doesn't want me so I will find someone else to admire with my girlfriends and go out and have an all nighter soon with them and find someone else. I am glad I never told Js but its over. nothing but a little pride hurt and looking for someone new now.

I got the message today with Js so I am looking for someone else. Js doesn't want me so I will find ...

Pride, Love

I put this under waste because I've wasted my life. Here it goes. I'm bad like really bad. But looking at me you would never know. People are catching on as my life falls apart. I've been living like a quadruple life I guess. I don't even know who I am anymore. I can't think of anything I like. I hate everything and everyone. I have no friends left, the women of my life cheated lied and stole the entire time I've known them. Most of my buddies too. Just users you know. I always offer too much and people gladly accept my generosity. I always try and help but it eventually becomes them being entirely dependent on me. Then they go and I've lost so much in them. I never see the fruits of my labours. Now I'm totally alone. And financially ruined. Relying on booze and drugs to feel better about the shitty person I am. I pray to god thanking him only, not asking for more. He still rewards me a lot. Gives me great opportunity and strength to conquer challenges. But I can't conquer myself. I want to end my life. Nobody would notice except the few leeches who still cling to my generosity. Everybody I've helped is doing great. I never took time to take care of myself, or set myself up better. My friends, wife, in laws, girlfriends, and associates have all benefitted greatly from my efforts but I'm fucked mentally physically and financially. I even still protect people after they betray me. Keep their secrets, bend to their requests. I'm going to blow my brains out. I hate this world, it's ruined anyway. Goodby you fucked up people. There's a good chance that there is someone in your life going through this who helped you a lot. I bet you won't even reach out to repay what's owed. Sick fucking society world wide.

I put this under waste because I've wasted my life. Here it goes. I'm bad like really bad. But loo...

Adultery, Pride, Murder, Love, Lie, Abuse, Hate, Violence, Gay, Hacking, Stealing, Marriage, Blasphemy, Sex

Workaholism

Pride

My cheating started 3 decades ago, My husband had a prior wife, she was called the US Navy, and she dug her hooks in him for the first three and a half years of our marriage, He was never home, In fact he never saw the first apartment we had. My First long term lover did but he also had a wife called the air force, She forced him to leave after 8 months. Right after he left the first stages of Bi Polar Mania set in, I was sent back to my mother after a stint in a mental hospital, I got everything with help from the ombudsnman to get everything into storage, I gave her the key and went home. Six months later I was contacted by a Navy retention officer, He asked that when I saw my husband that I talk to him about reenlisting, He will get a nice signing bonus and after another year at sea we will make him either a basic electronics instructor at Memphis, or great lakes, I asked him when was I going to see my husband, I said I am sure you have his duty right in front of you, He told me he could arrange a five day liberty because his boat was being demagnetized 30 miles away, I asjked to talk to his XO, He called the next day, I asked why I was not told my husband was going to be so close by, his answer was we haven't told him you were in the hospital and had moved home, we don't need him to have that kind of distraction, I told him what his retention officer offered, It made him a little mad, he said we are authorizing no liberty for any weapons techs. I said then you are going to have to retain him yourself because I wont. My husband did get a rare letter to me, He thought I was still down south because it came forwarded from my last address and very heavy on the censor, over half was blacked, He knew he was not going to be allowed any leave or r and r this close to discharge, he also knew they were going to get an involuntary duty extention for six months. By the time I got this letter he was at sea on another boat, When he returned to his first command they were in refit for the last two weeks, He was not going to sign reup paper but had been notified he was being extended, he was at a very low point already, and had a new division chief, My husband was placed on ships miaitenace called tiger team, nuclear weapons security, and his new chief wanted as much time with his wife as possible that week, So my husband stood his watch and his chiefs. After 106 hours of straight duty he collapse, The base shrink after he woke up said he should not even go out on this patrol because of a condition known as exhaustion parinoia. After my husband discharged 106 days later, he arranged for every thing to be sent back to his place of employment, my mother sent me there 3 months before as soon as we knew the navy was not going to extend him. I was living with his parents, he had a good job waiting with a major auto manufacture and was UAW. he was coming back with 8 years accrued time. This caused his father and many of his friends a lot of worry, most had sons and daughters that worked in the same plant, most of them worked there, I had not mention my husband had a brother on his crew as a raidioman. He got regular leave and R and R and felt hisbrother had been unfairly treated but he had been ordered to not discuss any thing heknew about me or any family concerns because the command felt after the first year that my husband would not cause a problem if he felt no news is good news that was the best. Four days befor husband arrived his father and mother sat me down at the table for a talk about what was going to happen when his son came home. His brother already called, as well as the Navy Debrief officer. Both said my husband was ill, he suffered terrible headaches was jumpy and very irritable, his brother told us about two things that happened when he was kept awake so long the last refit, One was after my husband Finished the parts inventory for repairs he ordered tools and parts needed before return to sea several had not arrived and need to be flown in but he needed his chief s signature as well as the XO and CO, He caught up to his chief out side his quarters getting ready to go ashore and be with his wife, my husband told him what was needed and my husband had bee awake for 96hours at the time, His chief said OFW my husband hit him so hard he did a backflip in the passage, My husband was planning to tak a few weeks between his return to get everything set up and just spend time with me. His father insisted this was a bad idea, If he started out getting his way when he got home he would keep taking the things he wanted without regaurd for anyone else causing problems, then he said we will have to have a thing he wants more as a reward waiting for him, that is where I came in, He said he will want to be a man that has any thing any one else has, He said just because others have things does not give the same right to my son. with the illness he has he will take what he wants shifts jobs, vacation slots, and refuse holiday work forcing mothers and fathers with children to work, A real man looks to his community before himself, but my son wants to take an axe to it, Even if there is a person of prominace here he would tell him to take a flying leap into anything he chose and not do as asked. His father said we had to make sure that my husband was under control. I thought he knew what was best for me and my husband, He told me just watch within two days he will come back and cause trouble, and asked me to keep out of sight, I did as requested, my husband went to work the first day he was back. He worked 12 hours a day that first week we found an apartment the third day, He should have been greeted the Morning he got home by his wife but was relegated to a sofa. His father was right within two days he had put a bump in to days, The woman being bumped was the daughter of a supervisor in the plant and a single mother. She had no idea where her ex husband went. She cried on my fathers shoulder about how bad she needed day shift, how unfair it was for my husband to use his accrued time to take her job. She lived right behind his father, He turned to me and said I told you. The next morning before we went to pick the keys to our apartment up there was a horrible argument about just shutting up, being a man, showing responsibility to others, don't be such a selfish jerk. My husband said I come back home after being gone for over three years with no leave, you tell me the next morning to just let my wife get used to me being back so just go get everything settled at HR, They jut put me straight to work, I was not even out of uniform yet. You know how much I have always hated 2nd shift, She knows hat she is supposed to be subject to the same rules of senority as I am. So what is the big deal. His father turned to me, I informed my husband that there was not going to be any marital relations until he proved he would not cause trouble, I did not know anything about how a union operated. Did not know his father was manipulating things for friends. Being bi polar one thing is hard to do without, sex, But denying my husband left me without to. His father set me up with a friends son, said just because my son has to be a man does not mean you have to do without. I had more than several affairs In 2001. I saw how dangerous my husband was. Everybody was saying how nice things were until july 31 2001. A month before 9/11. My husband was very ill for some time, His father did not have to be loud except for a few seconds, before my husband agreed because he had a headache that never seemed to go away, his left foot dragged he had trouble maintaining balance eve had stopped begging me for sex several years before, Seemed he just wanted sleep after his 12 hour shift. I thought we had finally got him to the point where no one would be bothered. I was going to dress in something nice and get him what he wanted, on labor day, He had not had a day off since 1978 I found out except for the four days between the navy and here. But that day he went out of the house, every thing hurt on him, it looked like rivers running down his face, I had never seen him cry. I told his father this had to stop, he disagreed, he said he would just go back to what he called the bad old days of a belligerent son. But that evening we got a call from ER saying they were tranfering my husband to a neuro surgical unit 60 miles to the south, They took a cyst off the top of his brain stem that had blocked the fluid off in his scull causing brain swelling It was not tears I saw, but cerebral spinal fluid being forced out around his eyes. His father said just a faker wanting out of his responsibilties, Husband was back at work four days latter. Something in his personality had changed, he watched everything, he slept a lot for recovery I think, To retrieve the cyst they drilled a hole in his scull over his right eye and through the brain, 9/11 happened and he told every body who did it within a few seconds, Made his father mad, said where is your proof, My husband said its on the news, He was right. A month latter the company posted new jobs at a new plant, My husband and one other signed for a job, The other was the son of a county commissioner, the union let the much younger man have the job because of political consideration, My husband went to the National union and had the locals decision reversed, He took the job. Made his committeeman and local President mad as well as his father, who was a friend of the commisioner, They showed up at his fathers home, and I was told to be there, they asked if there was any way I could get my husband to take his name down, My husband had already told me to go to hell, I said no. They informed me that some people would talk to my husband the next morning, He Arrived at 4 AM as always, a silver van pulled up and the man that wanted the job and three others came out and surrounded my husband on the porch, My husband woke the whole area Every one was watching. When he was very insulting they jumped him. Four men went to a trauma center. None were my husband. I witnessed a savage and remorseless counter attack. My husband litteraly broke bones, faces, tore arms, at will. His father heard on the scanner there was trouble at our address and arrived expecting to see my husband was humbled, He asked his son why can't you just back down. you put four men in the hospital, My husband said if they had not acted like mafia they would not have ended like that, He said I owe nothing to your friends. And if you don't like my attitude take a flying leap, He blew straight past, I was crying, and I started yelling at him about caring about any one but himself, why did he have to start trouble after all I am your wife. He said if the state would have allowed a divorce when I filed in 87 you would not be, he said I had not been his wife in in 20 years and went to bed, His father came over the next morning and told me I had to regain control, I said I would stay to be the bait but his son would not bite, I no longer had influence. My husband went the next seven years without a holiday or day off, Then he retired after telling the govenor of our state he did not work for the state and if he wanted a load of aluminum moved to another company for remelt then come up and tell him face to face, he would get the paperwork and a trailer hitch shoved up his rear and he could tow it. That brings us to 4 years ago, my husband developed MRSA in his spine He lost most the feeling from his upper leg down, it has created other problems, Like strokes and intestinal bleeds, last year he caught me with an old bf. MY husband hurt him bad, all it took was my BF trying to humiliate my husband. My husband even crippled was without remorse and ended up in a stress center for anger management, Two weeks latter his father had asked me to accompany a friend to a political event, the passes cost 3000.00. I had just finished getting ready when I heard the door open and my husband standing there, He said you look nice and I told the truth, My husband said I hope he has three passes, I called his father, My husband repeated himself, his father told him don't be stupide an said he was coming over with my husbands mother, I said I needed to finish, I thought he would understand. He said I hope he likes stag. I was not going, He said I owed 31 years of his life, I took off running. My dress was turned to confetti and he forced me. I begged I would meet him anywhere after the event, and we would talk, He said I have been talking and working and in pain for 31 years, No more once negotiation ends there has to be action taken, After he finished he got dressed and sat down, I went to put a bathrobe on, The man I was supposed to accompany came to the door. My husband said she wont be going, and he pushed my husband. His mother and father arrived just in time to see the man slam face first into a cement driveway, his mother came in to me, his father took his friend to ER, we did not make the event. My husband was protected under the Castle doctrine, This last weekend was memorial day, I was hosting a cookout at my and my husbands home, My husband paid for the food, it was his equipment. and his house, His father asked him what he was going to do while the cookout was going on, my husband informed him he would be right there. His father said that he had not been at a holiday gathering in 32 years, we had traditions he was not included in. He informed his son he was not invited and he had to leave, this was a few minutes before the guests arrived, my mother in law knew the look on my husbands face and said this is where pigs don't fly. My husband said ok, told his father to get out. Took a new chain and padlock, and was locking the porch, I was trying to reason with him when his mother told his father that it was my husbands right, His father said just because others have rights does not mean his son did, Our next door neighbor was a metro cop and came over asking what was going on, Husbands father explained, and wanted my husband arrested, The officer was laughing and said its his house he has the right, we had the cookout, my husband stayed, his father fumed along with some other guests that did not like my husband, One of the traditions was after the get together was we went out for drinks and dancing, My husband was always at work, I can remember him even being forced to go in to work on a holiday at gun point by his father. Said one day he will understand what it is to be a man. Well when the guy I was supposed to accompany put his arm up my husband stepped up and told him to scram if he wanted to keep his arm, my father in law said are you retarded, you know what you are not invited means, my husband said yes to both and his father slapped my husband earning a backhand in return, It lifted his father off the floor and dumped him. in the kitchen, Every one walked out feeling small and dirty, his mother said she had been trying to tell everyone my husband had no more patience with control, His brother and sister said its about time someone put our father in his place. I am just totally scared what will happen next, I called his councilor who said you and his father spent three decades creating this monster now we might have to live with it but put me in touch with the VA, The got into his records and found he had never been treated for the condition he had when he got out of the navy. They said he is displaying classic symptoms of PTSD he also found the journals I kept and is delighting in ruining the family life of men I had relations with while they were married, He says if I don't like it there is the street put your feet on it and pick a direction.

My cheating started 3 decades ago, My husband had a prior wife, she was called the US Navy, and she ...

Pride, Violence

I want to get pregnant with his baby so he will always be around and I won't have to try and be close to another guy. I can't be bothered trying to trust another guy enough to even feel like this. It takes too much effort.

I want to get pregnant with his baby so he will always be around and I won't have to try and be clos...

Pride

I don't want ken carey or any royals from uk or germany to contact me ever again. I don't want want to hear from a lot of people from my past because all you did was take and use and abuse and I its so one sided and your bullying and controlling and rude. I want to have room for fun new people in my life from other parts of the world who I have missed out on meeting who will treat me better. I just am like my parents and sister now we don't want to mix with relatives who have hurt us and we don't want to see our brother and his wife and kids and we don't want to know my mums relatives much. we keep to ourselves for the last 15 years and no one invited us much who didn't take us down. so I don't know how else to put it. I just know I am worth better then all that and want to move to better loving people and the new people I am with in my life are all that matter to me right now.

I don't want ken carey or any royals from uk or germany to contact me ever again. I don't want want ...

Pride, Love

I spoke to her and she knows who I am. we spoke on the phone and I know she is part of that group and she said we will talk again. I am sure we will. one day when I can we will talk again and it will be interesting to see what the outcomes were when you left and I left after you. I seen you get so mad and run out the door and your daughter was angry at you but I can see why now that things were said. but I still want to know more. I hope one day you will tell me. I don't want to pry its not my place to be so bold but if you ever needed to talk I would be interested to know. sure.

I spoke to her and she knows who I am. we spoke on the phone and I know she is part of that group an...

Pride, Blasphemy

Holiday resolution I'm a 41 year old man who's had an erectile dysfunction for about two years. My wife Sandy has been very understanding and we've bought a number of dildo's to include on our sexual times together. On a recent trip away we didn't take them because of my wifes fear of them being discovered at the airport. So during our ten night holiday it was going to be my mouth and tongue, plus her fingers, which would bring off my 34 year attractive wife. That was until one evening when we were out eating and drinking lots of good wine, I noticed a local guy checking out my wife, who was dressed I must admit, in a very revealing low cut short black dress. What I didn't know was Sandy had gone out without any knickers on. And the local guy sat close by had a perfect view up her short dress and was deffinately becoming horny. What made it totally wierd was seeing him looking at her pussy, made me horny and had me imagining his, I guessed, long hard black cock fucking my wifes pussy and arsehole. Sandy isn't slow and had noticed the guy before I had. So when I told her what he was doing she siad "I know I've bee flashing him for over ten minutes". It not only surprised me my wife had owned upto flashing another man, it surprised me that I wanted her to do it more. In a complete of the cuff way I turned to Sandy and asked her "If I allowed you to, would you let that guy fuck you". Without missing a beat she replied looking straight into my eyes "Oh fuck yeah". Still with the nights wine flowing through my body and my "Dutch Courage" heightened, I walked over to the man and asked him if he could, would he like to enjoy my wife. In the taxi back to the hotel I explained to Sam about my/our predicament as he and Sandy began kissing. Our room wasn't a large room, so I was only four or five feet away when Sandy lay on the bed, spread her legs wide and high. I watched on as our new found black friend Sam, knelt down on the tiled floor, put his head between my wifes legs and began to lick out her pussy and arsehole as his fingers found her love hole. I know there is a conception that all black men have large cocks, but unfortunately for my wife and strangely myself, Sam doesn't fit into that stereotype. His cock was about six inches (The same as mine used to be erect). The one thing it was was though, was thick and very very erect, as I noticed when he stood up to allow Sandy to suck his cock and balls. It was then he told me to get undressed and play with my as he put it "Useless white cock". Hearing this, Sandy stopped sucking him, took out a condom Sam had bought in the hotels toilets, and unrolled it along his cock. Turning around she knelt on the bed, smiled at me, then presented Sam and my gazing eyes, her perfectly tight arsehole and pussy. It will stay with forever the first time I saw his cock enter my wifes pussy, as will after watching her cum hard on his thick black erect cock, I saw him slide it up her spit drenched arsehole. Over the next half hour I played with my flaccid cock. As they kissed, sucked and fucked one another. Only when Sam had fucked her arsehole again, making Sandy cum in a violent series of argasms, told me how useless I was, dressed and then left. Did I finally get to cum. Sandy sucking my limp dick, probably out of feeling sorry for me. Sam was the first, but he wasn't the only guy I watched Sandy fuck during our holiday. The second was over so quickly Sandy didn't cum, so I licked her oragsm. The last, her third different man, did fit every perception of what you imagin a large physically fit black man to be in the trouser department. It took place on a private boat trip I organised. One we wouldn't normally be able to afford. Talking to the person who owned it and letting him know he had my permission to get dirty with Sandy as she strolled up and down in her revealing bikini. I lay in the sunshine on the boats large seating deck a mile or so off shore. Watching my wife become his slut for over two hours. His super thick long black ten inches made Sandy a very very happy girl. As for me, I got to find out what a well fucked pussy and arsehole tastes like, after we got back to our hotel. We've spoken about the trip since we've been back home. And have agreed, twice a year we'll take a shorter break away. Each time I'll allow Sandy to fuck who and as many men as she wants. At home she's all mine and her dildo's of course.

Holiday resolution I'm a 41 year old man who's had an erectile dysfunction for about two years. My ...

Pride, Marriage