Confessions about 'Abuse'

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went out for a walk! I like going out and hate coming home, home is a pig stye, I never wanted this house to end up like this. I never wanted to be living like this. I actually do have some pride about myself and the way I live. I know I need help because everyone has been sick with mental illness or cancer etc and I cant do all the work here. I need someone to help me clean up and fix the house. its crazy I am too afraid to open windows to let in fresh air incase a snake gets in.

went out for a walk! I like going out and hate coming home, home is a pig stye, I never wanted this ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

"is there something wrong with me that I can not relate to having sex with dogs and pigs and sheep and cows and horses etc and find that completely disgusting talk. I could not imagine doing that with an animal it sounds so vial and vomit talk. I feel like I am strange that so many people come on here and talk about their sex acts like they are so hot and its really sick, its sick to rape kids its sick or at least uninformed to be doing incest, especially adults and animal sex I could not imagine anything worse or anal etc. I feel guilty over touching myself or watching porn. I couldn't imagine wanting anal sex from any man. I don't understand people on here who talk so dirty. I avoid reading their rubbish."

"is there something wrong with me that I can not relate to having sex with dogs and pigs and sheep a...

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I have a sport and leisure agents diploma but I have never really considered taking on a client in a sport I have diplomas in sport nutrition and fitness management and pscyhology but to be honest I don't know it would ever use them.

I have a sport and leisure agents diploma but I have never really considered taking on a client in ...

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I feel like I am weird for watching old films and b grade romance movies with no sex in them at all. I must be weird.

I feel like I am weird for watching old films and b grade romance movies with no sex in them at all....

Abuse, Sex

is there something wrong with me that I can relate to having sex with dogs and pigs and sheep and cows and horses etc and find that completely disgusting talk. I could not imagine doing that with an animal it sounds so vial and vomit talk. I feel like I am strange that so many people come on here and talk about their sex acts like they are so hot and its really sick, its sick to rape kids its sick or at least uninformed to be doing incest, especially adults and animal sex I could not imagine anything worse or anal etc. I feel guilty over touching myself or watching porn. I couldn't imagine wanting anal sex from any man. I don't understand people on here who talk so dirty. I avoid reading their rubbish.

is there something wrong with me that I can relate to having sex with dogs and pigs and sheep and c...

Abuse, Hate

i have a bad habit of sending loads of update emails to people on my list and yet I know most don't care about me. a few send facebook friend invites and others just want to know gossip and I just wish I could stop sending the emails its become an addiction to email people I know actually hate me. why do I do that? its an illness its part of my illness, I often wish I never send the emails thinking- well I can't prove these things about her or him or who that was I just think it was them

i have a bad habit of sending loads of update emails to people on my list and yet I know most don't...

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rick and katy pushed this huge cow or horse syringe down my mouth full of cordial and vodka and it was vial so I spat it up and out in the bathroom and stayed in the bedroom the rest of the time while they drag, I was always like 1, 2 or 2 and half or 3 was absolute limit for me at all times. I used to say to them I can't drink alcohol the way you do. i get sick too easy and drunk quick like a 1 pot tingler!

rick and katy pushed this huge cow or horse syringe down my mouth full of cordial and vodka and it w...

Abuse, Hate

what is the point of losing weight and looking good to be raped by some fat loser again?

Abuse, Hate

these new age diet shakes dont work they are so full of sugar and taste disgusting and you will end up with bowel problems from them. lose weight at the risk of being very unhealthy

these new age diet shakes dont work they are so full of sugar and taste disgusting and you will end ...

Abuse, Hate

i don't buy into all this new wave weight loss stuff because most of the diet shakes are loaded with sugar and nutricianist are firmly against them for longer then say a week and say you still need to have solids with the shake drink and exercise, I was exercising about 3 times a week and other times I would walk a lot and eat less and fill up on carbs and I woud allow myself a small chocolate and I never gained weight. when the diet shakes really kicked in I was losing weight even eating mud cake now and then or jam on toast and now everyone has gone sugar concipracy like its some evil. yet my body responds well to certain sugars at breakfast and not all sugars however. I don't exercise as much now only because there is no weight loss exercise salons around here now. they all are diet shakes, gyms and diy and those diets and exercise patterns don't often work if you have long term weight issues. the shakes can give constipation and I loaded with sugar how can they be good for you? compared to say baked beans on toast or salad and tuna etc. i still like a sweet tooth now and then.

i don't buy into all this new wave weight loss stuff because most of the diet shakes are loaded with...

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when we first moved here the house was ok, it was almost new but older then what we were told by the drug addict real estate guy but joyce would say "oh I am glad john got out" (ie of the house, as if it was some hell hole, she kept doing this for years, while the house was modern and good) then she left the scene and the house did become a hell hole its almost like she knew what she was doing plotting ahead. she did that a lot and I want to meet other people she did that to. we have a lot to talk about and recover from together we could help each other telling our abuse stories when she got paid to abuse people and help pedos to abuse us - its all so sick.

when we first moved here the house was ok, it was almost new but older then what we were told by the...

Abuse, Hate

i am sick of living in this squaller hovel dump hole from hell. it used to be a nice house, then I met joyce, before her and while I was seeing her our house was lovely clean all the time, I cleaned it senselessly. we had shit furniture but I cleaned it and then I would go looking for friends and a boyfriend same old pattern, get bashed and give up and go back to study or work and same old patterns keep emerging. like no homeless person dumps themselves at our house to live. I could really do with some young homeless bloke to move in here and clean up this for his rent and for the company and someone to talk to. if he had a car it would be all the better. if he was nice looking would be better still. I was nice looking once and I was forced to go out and mix with lowlife scum, educating the grunts the army rejected into style and eating dinner with them when I hated them so why can't someone do that for me? I had to put up with that bloody annoying keith and russel and wayne and peter and all my sisters retards. no wonder her husband david found those tards too much to cope with, they were always hanging around them. that spastic fat eliza she was a real spaz, and alison thick as two fucking bricks slammed together. dopped out.

i am sick of living in this squaller hovel dump hole from hell. it used to be a nice house, then I m...

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i want people forced to take pets and give them homes. and get them desexed and people should be forced to take care of homeless pets. its their own countries fault and its a sign of their own mental mentality towards each other, most of them are savagers. they want to be pigs. they need punishment into learning how to look after pets. someone needs to step in and force them to look after the pets. they are all so selfish and sex horny mad dirty breeding races so selfish and need harsh controls put on these dirty breeding asians and arabs and south americans and usa, all scum of the earth. breeding scum.

i want people forced to take pets and give them homes. and get them desexed and people should be for...

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a house hold can afford at least 4 cats or a dog. force every home to take in at least 1 homeless pet ! force them by law they have to! or be they will be punished with extra rates and charges on holidays and food or force people by good old fashioned wippings of people into giving homes to pets. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KZcrmCV6SUQ whip and bash people into saving pets from the street. someone needs to get in there and bash people into giving pets homes.

a house hold can afford at least 4 cats or a dog. force every home to take in at least 1 homeless p...

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i watch a lot of homeless kitten cat and dog videos and I have to nations in usa and asia and south america and middle east are abusive to pets, they have so many homeless poor little animals on the street it is a disgrace, they are nations full of vulgar whoring and they neglect pets and someone should make them clean up their act and give the pets homes. they should be forced into helping the poor and help clean up places the rich cunts have destroyed. force people to take in pets and look after them.

i watch a lot of homeless kitten cat and dog videos and I have to nations in usa and asia and south ...

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if you were smelling shitty kitty litter boxes all day in your house you would want to go out. this house has never met our needs. we were told this is all your getting take it or the other house with the pool but the pool house won't suit your needs anyway, and more water rates, so we took this house out of the drug addict real estate agents advice who stole money from us. this pokey little dark kitten, old carpet, a dingey rumpus room, and old fitzpatrick who built the house I swear the idiots must have used beer bottles to measure things all the empty bottles in the ceiling and nothing is measured the same, each fence pannel is a different size, that makes no sense???? its like the twilight zone here. this house never met our needs, i wanted to put in a cat enclosure out the back so they had some outdoor greenery indoors seperate to the main house so no more smelly litter trays all the time. I wanted to put the kitchen down stairs and bigger to cater for our lifestyle and make the kitchen upstairs a library. the bitch sister won't let me put up nice french iron beds and I am not giving away stuff asian lisa from the church wanted me to give away, i bought them to place them where I want them or we move to a better place where I can have my furniture and I don't want to adopt other peoples kids asian terrorist lisa, I want my own kids, how about you get your freeloads out of here you have a everything I don't bitch. then you insult me telling I can adopt I have no job n on disabbility they don't allow people like me to adopt you abusive special special superior asian bitch!

if you were smelling shitty kitty litter boxes all day in your house you would want to go out. this ...

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these online courses say "learn in the comfort of your own home" its not my home no1, there is no comfort in this old broken down messy wreck of a junk yard house no2, learn is rather simplicisticly flippantly spoken when you are constantly teaching yourself... why is it older people don't want to be the teachers and impart with knowledge for the next generation more freely? why are these nationally accred courses so dear and unable to pass? tafe is so hard and stressful university is bullying I have done a degree so I know how hard it is and the bullying. why did tafe make diplomas so hard when back in 1994 they had associate diplomas you could do over 2 years or more and yet i had to do a diploma in less then 9months. i lost money a lot of times at tafe and private places. i actually now have quite a fear of assignments and examines as I used to get so stressed in law exams, teachers at senior community colleges were teaching first year law subjects better then university and tafe. the teachers were better. they wanted to teach, impart knowledge, tafe dont its too stressful now for me. I am studying at home but I want to go to a classroom to get dressed up and have a purpose in the day to feel proud todress up and look attractive and the hope of meeting friends and a man, I want certain mens attentions. ok. I wanted business men to notice me and date me. I wanted to learn. i like having a teacher to help me. I am sick of teaching myself. its lonely, I have done all kinds of study from online, correspondance, homestudy, on campus and classroom, and I sometimes need a change. I have done workshops and I like some and didn't like some. but I want to get out more. I wanted to wear my beauty therapy uniforms they cost me $400.00 and can you imagine my hurt when I was told 1 week before the course started that the govt were not going to pay the vet fee funding. i was crushed. i told all my friends at the time I was going to do this nice beauty course 3 days a week I only told a few were, and anna must have ruined it on me. it has to have been her, why would aaron my nephew do that to me ? I guess he could have, but someone debilerately ruined it. I had to buy a size 20 jacket and 2 dresses and they are so pretty. I had been wanting to do that course for about 7years and coun't afford it. I wanted to do some other courses as well so maybe it worked out for my benefit afterall.

these online courses say "learn in the comfort of your own home" its not my home no1, there is no co...

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the furniture, the courses, the losing weight, the clothing and the house all came too late to be valuable to anyone. everything in my life comes too late to be enjoyed. so i guess the men and friends will as well. I will be too old to have a baby and too sick and too old to even have a sex life, everyone has stolen everything good from me, the vultures have just left an empty shell for me of heart ache, and that fat little mongie turd bully bum kelly and her husband spastic garry and her controlling bullying and those spastic choirs and those spastic churches full of nutcases and tards and ego maniac senile old farts who are of no good to society at all were the finish for me. i am sick of spastic people having too much power who don't have a clue of what they are doing, joyce didn't have a clue of what she was doing with me. she could have done a lot more to help me. senile old crow

the furniture, the courses, the losing weight, the clothing and the house all came too late to be va...

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i want to go because I am sick of this house dragging me down, my sister dragging me down to hell with her filipena whores and nutters. I should have had a husband by now. I should have had a job, I should have had someone caring about me. not my sisters husbands dingnong male friends. I should have had my own friends, my own male friends caring about me, etc.

i want to go because I am sick of this house dragging me down, my sister dragging me down to hell wi...

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she yells and throws tentrums infront of people, she attacks men and women and people you have not seen half of it not even a quarter of her act. its like my sister rose-mary, you have no idea how mental and spastic she will act in a tantrum you just have no idea you have only seen half of it what they can do.

she yells and throws tentrums infront of people, she attacks men and women and people you have not s...

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