Confessions about 'Abuse'

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i need to know do you feel guilty enough yet! so guilty you can't face people and have twitches and weird mannerisms, and terrets sydrome yet like you did to me as a teenager ! i want to see it for myself that you have got back what you did to me and others! and how you always needed to go through other peoples books and bags and rubbish looking in the secrets in their minds eye what they thought was going on around then and speculating or dreams and nightmares and the way you needed to live them out I sure hope that all comes back to you all! guilt is not an easy thing to live with said irene the perfect guilt barer mother confessor bitch with all her little dirty secrets and games.

i need to know do you feel guilty enough yet! so guilty you can't face people and have twitches and ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I met a really nice man last year and it was in a business situation and I felt like I could not break protocol to flirt or ask him out. I find it hard in business situations to just change mode of character yet a lot of my friends years ago who often get dates this way and I wondered how they did it because no men ever did that with me or ask me out on dates like that. so I tend to always remain stayed and not break social protocols. maybe I should but it doesn't come easy to me.

I met a really nice man last year and it was in a business situation and I felt like I could not bre...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

the last time I saw ricky the singer he was looking so tired and he gave this other south american guy came over to me as well that was a strange night. I was so dumb and numb I wish I had not have said I had a boyfriend when I didn't, he was nice. I seen jason the signer a few times looking so sad and he would touch me on the hand and I felt embarased because I begged him to call me cuz I was so down and never did, like most of the law office guys i worked with they would promise to meet up and then go drinking with their mates instead. that was hurtful.

the last time I saw ricky the singer he was looking so tired and he gave this other south american g...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

rick loved rubbing his mates balls in nightclubs infront of everyone and doing ways out lewid acts to shock people and It all became rather stupid and boring to me. and he had the most vial cynical mouth and was fucking dozens of women in cars and all over the place. while he got katey to bash me and she sexually assaulted me as well. and he seemed to enjoy the circus he had created around him full of freaks and vulgarity I could not understand and apreciate because I wanted to settle down and get married in a church and have children. I wanted to be courted and dated like a fairytale princess, all rick wanted was stupidity i couldn't appreciate, for a chicargo businessman he was really a fop and weird and married a asian woman and went bald and creepy looking.

rick loved rubbing his mates balls in nightclubs infront of everyone and doing ways out lewid acts t...

Abuse, Hate

ricky is lucky he has two beautiful sons and kate loves flaunting her kids as if she is the only woman who can produce them and unless your exactly like her you can't have kids - they are the modern day family that looks rather awquard to me, so when do the rest of us get a fair go to have children and loving marriages and lifestyles we feel apeased in?

ricky is lucky he has two beautiful sons and kate loves flaunting her kids as if she is the only wom...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I'm a 30 year old woman my brother is 44. Our father died when I was 2 years old. When I was 4 years old my brothet bagan training me to be his sex toy. Mom started working nights and I was let with him. Soon after that we started to shower together and sleep naked in his bed. He would have me hold his cock, I was amazed how big it would get. He is 9 inches when hard. He started masterbating me alot and I would get very wet, but did not cum. Before long I was jerking himoff too and watch him cum on his stomach. He said it was a special cream that was only for good girls. I was good so I wanted to try it. He held his cock and jerked it and a drop came up I licked it off. I tasted salty but I liked it. Over the next week he would cum in a cup and I started to drink more and more. Then one day he said let me shoot the cream in your mouth. I was scared but opened my mouth and he jerkoff into it. It was a lot but I swallowed it all. Within a month I was preforming oral on him two or three times a night and swallowing. I came to love the taste and wanted more cream. On weekends we would go places were there were no people and I sucked him and got my cream. And he also was eating me at 4, by 5 I began having orgasms. He said not to tell mom or she would want the cream and then there would be none for me. I never told mom, and at 10, we became lovers as he took my virginity. When I was 18, mom died and we moved to the west coast. We started wearing our parents wedding rings, as we loved each other like husband and wife. I still feel my brother is the prefect husband. We have now been together sexually for 26 years. We love each other so much. People assume we are married. Our sex life is still amazing, with a lot of oral, anal and regular sex. I still cum the hardest when I masterbating as I give him head. I think back to when was a girl who couldn't wait for her brother's special cream!

I'm a 30 year old woman my brother is 44. Our father died when I was 2 years old. When I was 4 years...

Love, Abuse, Marriage, Sex

I've been at fat girl all my life. When I was only seven I weighed 120 pounds. Unfortunately for me a lot of it was in my tits, I could wearing a C-cup bra. Also my mother was only 14 when she had me and was very bad drunk who drank herself to death by the time I was 12. At age 4 my father and 3 half brothers from his first wife were regularly molesting me at night. And with my huge tits they had me naked most of the time. Sucking them and fingering me all the time. Dad was the worst, he finally took my virginity at 7. I had been giving them all head each night for years. My oldest brother had used me anally since age 8. When I was 11 the four of them started all fucking me bareback every night. Finally at 14 they knocked me up. As all 4 of them came in each night, I didn't know who was the father. From age 14 until 20, I was pregnant 5 times and had all girls. I never went to high school, by 22, dad and my brothers had mostly forgot about me and had started on my daughters. I would mostly grabbed by the hair and forced to give head and swallow. Then pushed away like I was a whore. The oldest girl was 8 and the youngest 2. Dad took them and my brothers the other 3. Then one day, all 4 of them attacked me at once, they gang raped me for a day. In a drunken and drug fueled attack, they used their cocks, dildos, and a baseball bat rapeing me over and over, even when i passed out. Then they dumped me on the floor, I was bleeding from my pussy and ass. By that point, they were passed out from all the drugs and booze. I knew i had only one chance. I was in agony but showered and dressed. I stole the 40k in cash dad had from selling drugs. And my late mother documents I could pass for her in fact. I took their car keys. I also stole their cell phones and computers sell. I cut the houses phone line. And took off in one car, which I dumped in another state. I cried as I drove away knowing my girls would face what I had and be cintinue to be used for sex. But I knew I would die if I stayed. 25 years have passed now. I live a Western state, with a great man and a wonderful daughter we adopted. We live off the grid and limited internet access. I'm writing this at an internet café, in a town 70 miles from our home. He thinks I'm 61, but I'm only 49. I still have nightmares of that old life and what my children had to do. I wonder did that animal of father impregnate his own grandchildren? Did my half brother do the same to their daughters. I'll never know, I covered my tracks very well. Changed my looks lost weight and dyed my hair brown. Living quietly has given me the peace and protection I needed.

I've been at fat girl all my life. When I was only seven I weighed 120 pounds. Unfortunately for me ...

Abuse, Hate, Violence, Stealing, Sex

why do people blindly live by slogans? and make out the slogan is a bible ? slogans are not life.

Abuse, Hate

i have a headache, my mother is selfish she is happy with me being her little companion running around with her photoing but does she think about what would make me feel happy? she says she does want me to find a man but then why has she ruined so many opportunties for me? she agrees with me and the therapists that ken was all wrong for me, and I deserved to be treated better and have a better man then him. she just seems to want me to be like a child forever. she didn't help me find a man when I was younger like I see other mothers do, she is so lazy as a mother like that. she is not thinking of how I will cope when she dies or how lonely and unloved I feel needing a husband all these years as if this is normal to sleep in your mothers bed at 45. I don't even have a bedroom of my own nor does my older sister who sleeps on a couch futon I bought. she won't use the bed I bought. am I in the twilight zone here? how can people think this is all normal? joyce didn't know what the fuck hell she was doing cuz if she had of my life would have worked out right. I am only a failure all due to her dumb advice and bullshit. she had no idea what the fuck hell that spastic lunitic whore was doing. she was spastic. she is spastic. she didn't have the answers to her own life! she was sucking off vulnerable people. she never consered herself with what I wanted. no one at russos asked me "and what do you want out of a career and life ?" they had made up their mind to push me off to disability after they abused me into a disabled state!

i have a headache, my mother is selfish she is happy with me being her little companion running arou...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

thankfully not all doctors asian are like him. I do not understand it, but I am sick of it.

Abuse, Hate

dr wang at wello- don't worry about study or a clean house or a marriage or a career or a car or a holiday, just keep going out shopping! was his advice! why would I want a husband if I don't have a degree only women who have degree and have slanty eyes have important assholes not white trash women who are abused ! what fucking advice is that of a stupid fucking doctor! fucking sick bastard made me ill. that bastard tried to kill me, the son of a slut. "you leave all the worry up to my clever superior asian male brain white trash woman"... ok! fix everything you fucked up on me then! kingccunt!

dr wang at wello- don't worry about study or a clean house or a marriage or a career or a car or a h...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

why is the world full of slogans and yet no one lives by most of them. life is not a slogan.

Pride, Abuse, Hate

sally from nutrijunk was saying to me, "stop trying to be interesting and be interested in others" that is all I have ever done all my life, helped others get what they want, removed myself away so other whores could get cock and glory, see others loved and happy in careers etc, whose been interested in me and helping me? no one! besides, she is the one who has been married a dozen times not me. she could give up hunting and give other women a go, as my doctor told me to tell her.

sally from nutrijunk was saying to me, "stop trying to be interesting and be interested in others" t...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I suffer from pms and I sometimes cry and get depressed and a lot of people and men just don't want to understand what I am going through. I try so hard to put on a pretence of fake jolliness but I often sit crying alone in my room just wish someone would hug me. I never live up to what people want and they just walk over me too much. I feel so down and depressed and only a doctor or a woman going through this can understand. I wish there were support groups locally. I know people think its stupid but it is a real physical and psychological thing for me, I feel almost psychotic and paranoia and like everyone hates me and I have no friends. all my friends disappoint me deliberately so I guess I should learn to do that back more to people right. stop being the one that makes things good and ok for those who don't give a shit about me, like the choirs and churches and poeple like kelly and sally who just use and walk over me because I am so nice... oh they are so needing more then me, how dare I put my feelings and needs first! well sorry but I have to bitches!.

I suffer from pms and I sometimes cry and get depressed and a lot of people and men just don't want ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I can't forgive you joyce - I am living the life you wanted for me alone and abused and neglected, it was not my choice of lifestyle. for some reason she could not seperate her life experiences from her clients and expected her clients to live out her family bullshit she couldnt face herself

I can't forgive you joyce - I am living the life you wanted for me alone and abused and neglected, i...

Abuse, Hate

my family and nephew and relatives talk about me poorly and rude and send message to me with crap like "stop raping me micheal" and that finished my mother of them completely after I told her that. and how mental my brother and sister are their spiteful vial words are of evil.

my family and nephew and relatives talk about me poorly and rude and send message to me with crap li...

Abuse, Hate

my brother has a serious mental disorder he was sexually abused by a old pedo he lives in denial about it and is living a fake life and taking out on his family and sibblings my sister has been the same. very spitefilled satanic ways. it could come back to them some day.

my brother has a serious mental disorder he was sexually abused by a old pedo he lives in denial abo...

Abuse, Hate

like mary p and don in 1977 and how they raped my cousin stephen and going through my diaries with bugsy and playing games on us kids playing emotional and mentally abusive games we didn't ask for, we were only 5 and 8 and they involved us in their evil deceptions and I wish I had of known what they were up to back then but I was just a child. I fell hook line and stinker into their games of vulgarity and abuse. she always loved giggling making fun of people at parties and treating people like they were spastic while she was clever poor woman pretending to be bankrupt and her alcoholic mother and the crap she went on with and expecting other people to look after her kids cuz she was so lazy and un-motherly and only cared about money.

like mary p and don in 1977 and how they raped my cousin stephen and going through my diaries with b...

Abuse, Hate

i don't understand why doctors and ambulance and nurses were so abusive towards me. I did nothing to them, they should take their shit out on someone their own size !!! and stop bullying patients. it was an insult and you don't expect to be abused verbally by medical ambulance it is unacceptable rudeness. I wouldn't even say those thing in a job. I have never been so insulted the way they said "stop worry about your cat if you choose to die cats look after themselves" I was offended their rudness I could have bashed that son of a whore ambulance wanker his mother his a whore for producing trash like him into this world and he was ugly too he thought he was hot but he was rather ugly and a real fob danny! dannies are the lowest of shit cuz they pounce around and live off women like giggilos

i don't understand why doctors and ambulance and nurses were so abusive towards me. I did nothing to...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

this fat bombastic abusive ugly indian whore who was bullying me with her shit, talking down at me, laughing and saying treatment the specialist gave me would not work and not explaining things and I was client. she had a duty to me and she was acting stupid. I wondered if she knew that adel from iran on make friends.com who was stalking me with bullshit saying I eat too much and need to be vegan and all this rubbish. he was an idiot.

this fat bombastic abusive ugly indian whore who was bullying me with her shit, talking down at me, ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate