Confessions about 'Abuse'

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I'm 24 year old gay bottom who lives to be taken anally. I live by the ocean in California with a state forest preserve behind my house. Last summer a group of young boys began drink behind my house in the woods. At some point they must have started watching the house and me. One night it was almost 11pm I was very depressed, as I had not been with a man for months. I drank a lot and started jerking off, but then I wanted anal. I really lubed my ass and started using my large dildo in my ass. My eyes were closed and i was fantasizing about men and I was really enjoying, then I heard laughter. I opened my eyes 9 teen boys were in the room. Some only in shorts and sneakers but all were young, lean and beautiful. I said get out of my house, but they laughed again. Suddenly, I was being held down, and I was entered. For the next 7 hours they used my ass and mouth. I was being raped, but I never felt so satisfied in my life. I came from the anal pounding 6 times. And was forced to swallow cum from all 9 of them. My ass was taken multiple times, some fucking me 3 times. By morning the bed and i were covered in cum. I was weak and in pain from my assault. Then the oldest one who was about 16 came over his cock was hard again. He said,Blow me. I was crying, "I can't anymore". He slapped me several times, grabbed my hair and forced his cock in my mouth. I was gagging badly, he kept slapping me saying suck it bitch then finally came with me swallowing. He pushed me away and i fell on the floor. He called me a dirty fag. It was to much, I was so humiliated I threw up on my self then my ass let go, dumping shit, their cum and my blood on the floor. He grabbed my the hair and said clean up this mess we want it clean when we come back tonight. I layed on the floor crying and blacked out. It was noon when I woke up. I shower, my body in agony, my poor ass burning and still dripping blood. It took me hours to clean the bedroom. I was frighten they would come back again that night, but frighten they would not. It started to rain and I was alone, I slept but had a wet dream about being anally raped. That Friday night, I left the back door open and layed naked in bed wanting them all again. They came, but this time I gave myself to them willingly. A year has passed and I am so happy with my life. 9 late teen boys come to me almost every night. They breed me anally and give my mouth the cum I need. One of them visit sometime during the day and we make gentle love. We are in love but the others don't know. He has given me head and swallowed. He is so gentle with me, kissing me softly. But in the group, he has to be rough so they don't discover our love. But the reality is that I want them all to raped me every night and force me to swallow their cum. The 9 if them give my the only true pleasure I have ever known.

I'm 24 year old gay bottom who lives to be taken anally. I live by the ocean in California with a st...

Love, Abuse, Gay, Sex

pips, pops n ships have passed!

Abuse, Hate

would someone get this leech pissass porter joyce off my head please!!!! and stop her torturing and abusing my family and me. go get your jollies somewhere else whore! and that goes for the dog rotters called the petersons who ripped off my family - she had a plan against me in 1977 that woman and don. I was only 5 would someone get these leeches off me please!

would someone get this leech pissass porter joyce off my head please!!!! and stop her torturing and ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

last year I spend dieting, nearly 1 hr a day on a vibration platform machine, hiit jumping on a rebounder over 500jumps per day, then 10mins on airwalker, 120on rower and 20mins on machine, resistance cords on arms and legs x 150 plus, 200 on twister, 5mins on stepper, weights and step for 5mins, gymball and pilates for 10mins and I didn't loose any weight at all I gained it. I only eat 1 slice of bread at lunch most times, I limit myself to only lean small meats, and only treats 1 day a week like ice-cream or a small cake slice, I eat salads and oats and I drank so much water it was brimming out of me yet my veins would still collapse in blood tests. what the hell is going on ? I am sick of this fat.

last year I spend dieting, nearly 1 hr a day on a vibration platform machine, hiit jumping on a rebo...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

things I have done alone- i made a list, go to the movies alone, go dancing alone, go out to a night club alone, travel at night alone, catch buses alone to places I have never been and get lost alone- that was a big one- I got lost walking from the train station to a job interview they it sound like "oh you just walk here and turn here and go through a side walk near a park" well I still got lost and rang my mum and still got lost and cried I felt so awful. went to the hospital alone in the middle of the night, got ambulance alone, taxis alone, walked in the dark alone, walked in isolated places alone to get to my friends place, or met friends alone. did exams in strange places alone. I am sick of being the fuck alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

things I have done alone- i made a list, go to the movies alone, go dancing alone, go out to a nigh...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

we have iron outdoor table and chair sets and beds sitting out in the rain and sun. how do I stop the destruction of her! she won't help to clean or have the house functioning. she won't socialize she only cares about crazy stuff.

we have iron outdoor table and chair sets and beds sitting out in the rain and sun. how do I stop th...

Abuse, Hate

say no to corrupt socail engineering!

Abuse

i exercise nearly everyday on weights and plantform and resistance cords and still no sign of weight loss. so sick of this.

i exercise nearly everyday on weights and plantform and resistance cords and still no sign of weight...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I really need more money. I have to buy some bridal things for my portfolio and I doubt I will ever earn money doing make up or anything I have learnt. could I even teach a thing I have learnt? I somehow doubt it! no confidence!!!

I really need more money. I have to buy some bridal things for my portfolio and I doubt I will ever ...

Pride, Abuse

I have to have biopsies again this time taken from vaginal area and I worry about cancer in the ears and back and leg from car accident and some mornings I wake up with my heart racing which I dislike and so sick of this weight. I just feel like I am being abused all over again. I am being once again punished for the sexual abuse as a child. that is all it means to me. my doctors understand how I feel and say its normal to feel that way, but its best to be done to find out once and for all what is going on there.

I have to have biopsies again this time taken from vaginal area and I worry about cancer in the ears...

Abuse

hate just hate kate not cuz I am jealous I just don't trust her and she is shifty and brash. she has proven to be untrustworthy yet most of the time I have prove to be reliable, and I think she is just a user, well they are both users. i don't love william and I just think they are not nice people. I have found them to be very very abusive and deceitful and untrustworthy abusive people.

hate just hate kate not cuz I am jealous I just don't trust her and she is shifty and brash. she has...

Pride, Abuse

"university degrees and post graduate degrees are over rated" was all a therapist would say to me when I was at university to the point it mentally has effected me.

"university degrees and post graduate degrees are over rated" was all a therapist would say to me wh...

Pride, Abuse

these network and IT courses drag on. I mean I can't see what is so cool about learning this rubbish.

these network and IT courses drag on. I mean I can't see what is so cool about learning this rubbish...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

my therapist says its normal when you been abused and spiritually abused like me you turn away from all types of religions and don't want to know about occults and it all makes you ill. you just want nothing to do with any of them.

my therapist says its normal when you been abused and spiritually abused like me you turn away from ...

Abuse, Hate

i find churches to be depressing morbid places, they promote violence, people dying and human sacrifice and all they talk about is death and suffering and they abuses each other one way or another with tones or silence and they wronged me. I know that much. the bastards wronged me. I won't wear a crucifix to me it just invites harm on yourself.

i find churches to be depressing morbid places, they promote violence, people dying and human sacrif...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

i don't love my brother or sister anymore. because of all the abuse they did to me and ruined my chances in jobs and education and relationships, I need money too to live. they get too much sex and money and friends. life has been too easy for my brother! he doesn't know hardship and struggle and neglect and how it feels to go without and be left behind and it would help him to learn those things in life cuz he has a unhealthy ego that needs bringing down. he was always getting away with things and dominant and controlling and spoilt as the boy and youngest. he was very rude and undisiplined towards his father and I don't like the way he wanted to take over the dad role over his father I think that is disrespectful when he should know his place.

i don't love my brother or sister anymore. because of all the abuse they did to me and ruined my cha...

Abuse, Hate

i never liked big titass tina from mater who went to rome, she was a complete liar whore. all tits and ass and this loud deep chesty voice saying how hot joyce was and she was always telling me how to feel like she was some know all valantina tittass tina. even boring old tina the fat slob from the art gallery who brother is jack deps copsy, she was a bossy boots in talking, she has to hold the floor and this fake friendilness, so many bitchy unhappy people at baywyhnners choc ass church. all nutters! desley is a complete control freak bitch.

i never liked big titass tina from mater who went to rome, she was a complete liar whore. all tits a...

Abuse, Hate

I want to lose weight with minimum stresses like I did before and stay healthy cuz I enjoyed the lifestyle!

I want to lose weight with minimum stresses like I did before and stay healthy cuz I enjoyed the lif...

Abuse, Hate

why is joyces clavoyancy so doom and gloom for people like me and not for others when I had a lot of high hopes and ambitions like others? why is so negative all the time?

why is joyces clavoyancy so doom and gloom for people like me and not for others when I had a lot of...

Abuse, Hate

why did education fail so many people? thanks to you ugly melanie vbottle.

Abuse, Hate