Confessions about 'Bu'

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it feels like something is eating my head, someone is trying to kill me all these years because they are the crazy ones not me. its been going on for too long, they are murderers. how would you feel if you knew your neighbors killed someone? and stole men on you?

it feels like something is eating my head, someone is trying to kill me all these years because they...

Abuse, Hate

I have had a migraine all day. other people cause my illnesses. I make someone pay for it.

Abuse

I have absolute phobia to hospitals, needles, medical examinations, blood tests, death and all that stuff, I hate the sight of hospitals and most doctors because they are evil. fakers. liars, most of them over paid and over indulged and I can't stand anything that has to do with death. I don't want to know their dramas and bullshit and what their problems are anyway. why should I care?

I have absolute phobia to hospitals, needles, medical examinations, blood tests, death and all that ...

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I have absolute phobia to hospitals, needles, medical examinations, blood tests, death and all that stuff, I hate the sight of hospitals and most doctors because they are evil. fakers. liars, most of them over paid and over indulged and I can't stand anything that has to do with death. I don't want to know their dramas and bullshit and what their problems are anyway. why should I care?

I have absolute phobia to hospitals, needles, medical examinations, blood tests, death and all that ...

Abuse, Hate

and its like peoples perceptions - when dr L said to me "what would it take to for you to push me over" I thought he ment he wanted to push me over and kill me, that is how I interpreted it, mum said she took it to me like how far will you go to get tests after tests that say nothing is wrong but you won't believe it. but that is how my mind works i see everyone as a murderer and potential killer and especially men. I think they are all evil and plotting coruption and abuse against me, I feel that way about women also, but its true I thought the ambulance guys would kill me every time I didn't trust them after the 1st visit when I had this rash and had been vomitting and slightest movement of my head I was dizzy in 2010. then I got swine flu or something the doctor thought was whooping cough. the ambulance people were abusive and untrustworthy. evil like killers.

and its like peoples perceptions - when dr L said to me "what would it take to for you to push me ov...

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it can stop you from breathing in your sleep, its like a ghost its some evil omen you can wake up feeling raped up the ass even when I was a virgin and the door would open nothing is there, doors slam no one there. I literaly sat out on the veranda one day til my mum came home I was so terrified. and I know I sound crazy, so I don't talk about it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QmbpOucNVn4

it can stop you from breathing in your sleep, its like a ghost its some evil omen you can wake up fe...

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The Punisher Dion DiMucci Oh well I'm the type of girl who will wants to settle down Where the world is pretty, you know that I'm around I dump 'em and I leave 'em 'cause to me they're all the same - a punch of users scammers I dob on 'em and I squeeze 'em out and I don't even know their names They call me the punisher, yeah the punisher! I watch and dob dob dob around around around around everywhere I go. I'm…https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5m6lymJy57E

The Punisher Dion DiMucci Oh well I'm the type of girl who will wants to settle down Where the world...

Abuse, Hate

i figured out mac berk was related to nan on the 60 minutes show. they look alike. that says it all, it has to be them who abused me. it has to be they deliberately plotteed an attack on around the time of davo the dickhead and makefriends.com and it was all a scam. the whole thing now was a scam. I can see that now.

i figured out mac berk was related to nan on the 60 minutes show. they look alike. that says it all,...

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deaf ronny door matt macaroll sex events didn't listen.

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ron mac didn't listen. ron mac didn't listen. ron mac didn't listen. ron mac didn't listen. ron mac didn't listen.

ron mac didn't listen. ron mac didn't listen. ron mac didn't listen. ron mac didn't listen. ron mac ...

Abuse, Hate

I live in terror of these guys who were hanging around our yard a lot causing trouble in our street and they were on the roof and someone found them and called police and chased them away one night. but they have stalked me while I was walking to work and I have been afraid of them attacking me for the last 12 years when they started here up to no good. they are terrifying creatures who deliberately abuse women like the bitch with the fire truck rebucker! she is so ugly and she goes to parties telling men she hates them ? making a show of her poisonous ways her daughter has sex with men in our street and they are just plain crazy abusive nutters. I don't want to know. there is something evil about them and I always thought that about that lot. him and that creepy tall weird neck and blonde hair. its a nightmare.

I live in terror of these guys who were hanging around our yard a lot causing trouble in our street ...

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I am living in terror that doctors and ambulance and hospitals will abuse me if I complain and after I was attacked they just didn't care enough. I am worried they are all going to copy that dirty doc deaf bethy who gave me warts deliberately on his examiniation chair. the guy is a nutcase. he is like a crocodile tied up with that satanic nan woman. yeh, so I know that he can't be trusted and he seemed to have some revenge thing on me and I had never met the guy before, but he had hate in everything he did. I think I would rather not complain and make the bastard work like a slave to be honest! its better he slave then get in my way. my mum doesn't like him at all. there is something strange he was running away from overseas and like all those types they bring it with them.

I am living in terror that doctors and ambulance and hospitals will abuse me if I complain and after...

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in 2011 one doctor told me to go home and lay down - I thought he ment it literally 'just go home and lay down and die and stop expecting life to work for your type" so I did.

in 2011 one doctor told me to go home and lay down - I thought he ment it literally 'just go home an...

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someone was sending me all these beauty kit sales adds and victorias secret books and calls all the time for fake accidnet insurance and injury from the car accident, they were indian and pretending to be lawyers but were stupid and didn't seem to know what they were doing and grabbing the phone from each other asking stupid questions in 1998 and 2011 it mad no sense at all. then other weird people would be ringing all the time when my father was with a community radio group the weirdest of strange people, one woman was a nutcase promising jobs that were not there at a island and all these weird people calling with politics and paper deliberately getting phone numbers mixed up over selling garages and tvs and people ringing asking do we fix tvs and did we want to donate to these doctors all the time at hospitals and research but would ask stupid questions that didn't even relate to any research in 1997.

someone was sending me all these beauty kit sales adds and victorias secret books and calls all the ...

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also I am a note taking addict I have law notes from courses as far back as 1992 and 2002. I keep all my notes for some stupid reason because I never work to use them.

also I am a note taking addict I have law notes from courses as far back as 1992 and 2002. I keep al...

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I have food addictions, I am a recovering water-aholic, I was drinking up to10 x 750ml water bottles a day, so do count as in the special club yet?

I have food addictions, I am a recovering water-aholic, I was drinking up to10 x 750ml water bottle...

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do you know how it feels to be told every conceiveable thing you attempt to do or say your told "you won't be able to do that, because your too stupid" even down to sex and child birth and working in a shop or library ? have you any idea how battered that feeling is? and stalkers upsetting you stealing away your trust in every human being, bashers like katy stealing away every human faith or trust in others??? questioning everytime? "I wonder how she got him? I wonder did that woman have to bash someone to get him? who helped her? and why won't anyone ever help me?" why always these wrong weirods who are stupid, they don't know how to die because they have not faced death, they don't know how to live morally because they have not faced a scrap of their own death. and you expect me to talk to these spastics. no I won't!

do you know how it feels to be told every conceiveable thing you attempt to do or say your told "you...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I was always being told law was not a place for me and the boys do litigation and the girls do conveyancing. I didn't understand this talk then other stupid things were going on every thing I did from pharamcy to law to sports nutrition and whatever - oh you will never make it, you might pass the tests and get a degree but you will just do course after course after course and never hold down a real job. and more bullshit. talk about being jaded lack luster and alphabetazed bejesused alright the bullshit I have heard.

I was always being told law was not a place for me and the boys do litigation and the girls do conve...

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so I was obsessing over this death threat parcel for ages and took it to a few clairvoyants and showed them and they thought it was weird and creepy. the ramblings of a nutcase, then came more weird isolated emails from arabs and indian men we blocked and also other strange letters one had a cd rom with it about this whole abuse issue and some one who had coppied all these editorials or stuff about some case, then there was more and this went on as well as fake people rick had got to stalk me and buy tickets and they tried to wreck my baby shows and I had been planning on doing the quest a few years before and wrote it in a diary in a bag that went missing and they stole my birth certificate and bank accounts and law books, they broke into the house and stole things in 2000 and again in 2005 and one night I went to hospital we noticed things had been moved and shoes and jewellery stolen. someone wanting to burn a for sale sign on our fence one halloween. its more then a bit creapy and then when I was sick one dickhead with a candle holding vigile outside with a harmonica and grim reaper suit was all too much. and dad had to tell them they had to leave and they were upsetting me. dad said they were taking things just too far.

so I was obsessing over this death threat parcel for ages and took it to a few clairvoyants and show...

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