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Confessions about 'Bu'

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stop expecting me to live out your spastic nikki dog fantasies for you because I am not part of that. you got it. I am sick of your games and you expecting me to put my needs last all the time. when will you ever learn. she already has had kids you know. you idiot.

stop expecting me to live out your spastic nikki dog fantasies for you because I am not part of that...

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I wagged school yesterday aha so, and drove around in someones car and now not sure if I will want to go back

I wagged school yesterday aha so, and drove around in someones car and now not sure if I will want ...

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joyce and sarina russo have made me fat 3 times now, so how about you pay up sluts!

joyce and sarina russo have made me fat 3 times now, so how about you pay up sluts!

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don, the guy looked a lot like him very blonde they were trying to kill me then, can you see the witchcraft ? I can! deliberately hit me in the head with a hard cricket ball when I was 5 on my first day of school.

don, the guy looked a lot like him very blonde they were trying to kill me then, can you see the w...

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go and chase your taxiride slut joyce. chase every man I like because they will wrong you anyway. because you can't live up to my standards and who I am for them anyway. your such a user and whore. isabelle was right about that how much a liar scamming cheat whore you are. I don't know how you live with yourself. you caused a lot of my illnesses- my heart illness, the other emotional and physical illnesses and I hate you and I hope one day someone actually does teach you the lesson you need to learn for ruining young peoples lives. your disgusting person.

go and chase your taxiride slut joyce. chase every man I like because they will wrong you anyway. b...

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the contract was I paid joyce for her to help me get better, but instead it was the other way around, I was paying her to help her be better then me in all areas of my life she failed and neglected to support and help. can you see that is fraud and doesn't make sense for a true professional to do what she did!!!! can you its not normal either. she didn't help me get thin I had to go somewhere else for that. she didn't help me with child abuse I had to somewhere else for that. she didn't help my confidence in finding a man- she expected me to help her do all those things for her and delivered not much back. she genuinely helped me. she was always giggling mocking making fun of her clients problems to their faces or to other clients it is not morally or professionally the correct thing to do. I hope you can see that. she wronged me in so many ways, I never wronged her, I never caused her any problems at all. I never asked anyone to abuse her. I told bunnypoeta not to harm her because that is how she wins all the time her scamming complusive liar disorder she has and a multiple personality disorder my therapist says she has and her bullying her clients is very nasty the hospital therapist said she is accountable for that because she knew what she was doing to me. she knew she was taking money and not helping me at all. she never once listened with kindness compassion or care towards me. she took everyone elses side but her loyal long term and paying clients.

the contract was I paid joyce for her to help me get better, but instead it was the other way around...

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david keeps implying I am like his aunty marie but I am not. she was married and had a child and her husband died. I have never been married and never had a child and I don't appreciate being compared to her or anyone but myself or people I approve of which are not many anymore. stop abusing me. then it started with the heckers making out I was like their aunty igga and I am nothing like her. I don't appreciate and don't want to be compared with other people who I have not even met and don't give a dam about anyway. I am not them. and I who ever it is I am going to dob them into my doctor about this abuse.

david keeps implying I am like his aunty marie but I am not. she was married and had a child and her...

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I beleive my father, sister and brother are trying to kill me, I hate them as people, as anything.

I beleive my father, sister and brother are trying to kill me, I hate them as people, as anything.

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wondering what to wear so it looks not to cheap or wealthy. its crazy how I have to dress for others opinions of me.

wondering what to wear so it looks not to cheap or wealthy. its crazy how I have to dress for others...

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I am so tired. just so tired.

I am so tired. just so tired.

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these mongrel slut mothers on the bus I am raging jealous of going on about their mongrel kids, admittedly I would not want a mongrel shit adhd mongrel child or their fat dumb ass bodies but I am jealous of any woman who has nice men or kids things I deserved more then them because I have suffered more then them , suffering in silence with out love being subjected to these weirdo bearded construction builders and laborors who are uneducated and idiots. I don't reflect that. I am not spastic or weird druggy looking. so I don't want to be around men like that. this is abuse. I demand better I simply am sick of this!

these mongrel slut mothers on the bus I am raging jealous of going on about their mongrel kids, admi...

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LOOK MY PARENTS DON'T WANT TO GO TO ANYTHING WITH YOU, THEY NEVER LIKED YOU.

LOOK MY PARENTS DON'T WANT TO GO TO ANYTHING WITH YOU, THEY NEVER LIKED YOU.

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she has nothing good to offer a man she knows it but she keeps wanting to be bride and she has nothing to offer a man at all. but only she can't see that. everyone else can but her.

she has nothing good to offer a man she knows it but she keeps wanting to be bride and she has nothi...

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I would like to know who this bunnypoeta person is. they forced me to what they call "fight" and it was abusive to me, they made threats of assault at me. this person deserves to die for settting me up to put things up on the internet to defend my situation of being raped and abused as a child and they wronged me. this bunnypoeta has wronged me badly. they made no sense and I did what I did out of fear and duress and police said I am not to blame and therefore I didn't break the law, because bunnypoeta was forcing me to things I didn't want to do. they are a nutter and should be killed. they were not helping me they were abusing me. I want them dead for trying to kill me. he threated to kill me if I did or didn't do what he wanted. I want him to pay for it.

I would like to know who this bunnypoeta person is. they forced me to what they call "fight" and it ...

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and please not infront of the children talking that blood guts jesus talk it is disturbing to the children. really so bloody and brutal people don't want to be upset with that talk. its abusive!

and please not infront of the children talking that blood guts jesus talk it is disturbing to the ch...

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industry business side of things, and getting the finance to fund paying the book companies and their strict guidelines, I sent off 2 book concepts one was called "Pembroke the fairy possum and the sugar plum trail" and another was an activity book called "Love Love Love, then 10 other things" where children make a mobile with affirmations on it and write in the book. but companies like penguin's subsidiary called xlibris Publishing really liked the work, as did a few other companies like Dark Horse and hayhouse and a few others, they basically want you do pay about $800 per month to do a course step by step publishing and some basic and small number of illustrations and promotions and promise if you pay about $4000-$8000 they can guarantee you promotional postures and for the book to always have a copy on the shelves and distributed, but to me this is really a form of Vanity publishing where you pay and they will publish almost anything even if its garbage. so far no professional or student illustrators have been interesting in doing the drawings for me and I suggested halfing the income amount for good work, I made it clear I wanted the Pembroke possum story to look similar to "Guess how much I love you" with a small plush toy and the possibility of a series and also. I showed a few friends for their opinion and most were positive but I really don't like showing professional illustrators or friends the work as I feel they could steal it on me and seek the rewards for themselves because I have had a few people do this to me stealing story concept ideas on me and its very upsetting when they do this. because I was sexually abused as a child people literally do not want to work with me and put me down saying I am "an undesireable" and they don't want to be associated to that sort of person which was very hurtful from one illistrator and also when I approached the qld wildlife protection association for funding or promotional support they wanted money from me and were exploiting me when the aim is to help save an indangered species as well as make a story which is based on real life experience, then when I showed 2 ladies Emma Lee and Sally Griffin from Nutrimetics they were trying to take over and come up with their possum stories to out do me and their illistrator friend did not want to help me at all and I felt very betrayed because someone else did this to me with a version of "the "philosopher and his magic stone" I had started writing as a childs story after a dream about a toad and I found this toad meaning in a dream book and just thouhgt it was a great inspiration for a story. people often have stolen my basic outlines of stories I wrote a book on magic sword and fairies with powers with a character called Jeopardy and someone stole that, another story called "Not me!" and its really hard to trust, people say show your friends get their opinion and they cheat you, its not funny. I get inspiration from videos or dreams or phrases or pictures and art or personal stories hand down in the family and I have been working on a few and one with my mum for the last 20 years we did some drawings and we leave it and come back to it but we feel a bit stupid because we are novices but my mum has been with writers groups and some work locally published and I have at university and did some literature studies at university but I don't have confidence in myself anymore" my mum and I would love to put together a qld flower photo book and I did consider using photos rather then drawing or just doing basic child drawings rather then some Beatrix potter magnificence" it is the money holding people back, because my dad was asked to write a storybook for the birkdale school reunion and the cost was just too much for the committee. I honestly assumed that the publishing companies print the books at their own expense and they get a cut as well as author and artist once its promoted I didn't know you have to pay them to publish your work. what is upsetting is went you see gross books with rubbish like "why snot is green" for kids and yet I have made some lovely children's stories with some bible verse and morals to the tale and its just ignored because I don't have the money upfront or even monthly to give these rich publishing companies. and all the publishing firms are extreme hard sell with pushy controlling and rude american /Filipinos you can't understand well, they can't understand why I am on a disability pension and can't afford to give them $2,000 a month for 16 months , (penguin is a Filipino company) and I would prefer the money to stay within Australia or with a good firm. I felt ripped off a number of times over childrens stories I was working on and there are some I will never show anyone. I don't write shit like other idiots do. what annoys me the most is a lot of people don't take you seriously enough as well they just think your a kiddy doing play writing but it is a process and most people usually want to exploit you and steal from you and make out they can do better. you get afraid to ask if you can borrow ideas you are inspired by. like just a picture or that they will attack you for copyright over a freaking name of a character you choose and your friends are usally out to knock you down and destroy your dreams that is true. they will call you dumb for bothering, and I get angry because my doctor want s me to the drawing s and I just do not have confidence in my art abilities anymore compared to when I was a teen I could sit down and draw for fun now its a bother. even with computer drawing or free hand with old style which I like more but I was not a grand achiever so why would things change now anyway. even if I had a kids story half fucking sellable people won't buy the bloody thing and I won't look to do this sort of shit again. ever again. I gave them about 4 or more stories and threw them in the bin after because it might as well be someone else work because mind is never good enough anyway and why would it be?

industry business side of things, and getting the finance to fund paying the book companies and the...

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I want everyone around me punished ! everyone who has wronged me ever for anything. I was bullied by doctors and hospital staff and I want those people to be punished for what they have done.

I want everyone around me punished ! everyone who has wronged me ever for anything. I was bullied by...

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other nutters I met were at the choirs, shitbag scum scammer fraud people who were idiots and just losers the churches all idiots. scammers , charlotons and schemes and plotters and gamers. that margaret and lisa and those dirty islanders were evil bastards. creepy weirdo things going on about god calling him big daddy dirty vile talk makes me sick. disgusting people. they literally turn you off church and make you sick. I seen dirty des the other day and ran away from her, she is so spooky like katy with her stupid looks and stupid retard unhealthy cooking she calls tasty. it makes you want to vomit.

other nutters I met were at the choirs, shitbag scum scammer fraud people who were idiots and just l...

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I don't get paid to trust people, i don't get paid enough to trust anyone.

I don't get paid to trust people, i don't get paid enough to trust anyone.

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miranda at her therapist place had it right she basically said I had nothing to offer a proper man. even today I was stalked on fb by a deadbeat creep shitbag weird freak that is below my intellect, I did my bit of helping to civilize the spastic retarted men like russell who was a user. I never wanted that loser as a friend he was davids and rose friend and I never wanted to know the shitbag. we had nothhing in common. he used me. I dragged him up and he dragged me down to hell. I didn't like being with him my sister pushed him on to me and he bullied me so I went out with him till I told him to stuff off because he was offeneding me after everything I did to help him boast up his confidence. a lot of men have done this to me. and for some spastic bearded creep today I told my mother what loser creep this guy was no intellect. not a reflections of any of my values or likes and interests at all. what would make a loser like that think I would want to know him?

miranda at her therapist place had it right she basically said I had nothing to offer a proper man. ...

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