Confessions about 'Bu'

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I only trust male therapists and doctors mostly. I prefer male psychiatrists and psychologists really because I of my bad experiences with female ones I just will not trust them now.

I only trust male therapists and doctors mostly. I prefer male psychiatrists and psychologists reall...

Abuse, Hate

and I am not forgiving, we are a family that don't forgive my older sister says all the time! and I won't forgive anyone! my parents said I don't have to forgive anyone who has abused me from churches or anywhere.

and I am not forgiving, we are a family that don't forgive my older sister says all the time! and I ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

i don't like my eye specialist much especially if he is related to anna-maria. she hurt me like emma did. I am sick of abusive women undermining me when they are ugly and boring and have not much education themselves and are scum dirty women with dirty druggy crazy games I don't understand and its always over sex and men, they are cunning old mongrel women who abuse for men and I am sick of tolerating those types. I don't want to be around women like that anymore. I just wont tolerate disgusting crazy women in my life anymore who go from husband to husband and abusing better women around them, anna-maria is a nutcase and my doctor does not want me around her at all because of her and des connection with johnny depp who is a born trouble maker as well. that loser causes trouble everywhere he goes, the worst type of trouble that dirty lot. I don't want to know them. they wronged me and abused me.

i don't like my eye specialist much especially if he is related to anna-maria. she hurt me like emma...

Abuse, Hate

I told police ages ago I believed joyce to be helping ken and others abuse me, she helped in the getting people to abuse me and she must have known these people who were all in on me being raped and she certainly did nothing normal to help me, she didn't take one assault seriously or the death threats and she could have taken me to police and helped me when the pedo was alive, the problem is with joyce is she never listens and never believes people and she never helps in the right ways, she controls and takes over and doesn't know what she is doing, she abuses her own clients, having sex with female clients is abuse. there is no excuse for it at all or what she did to me. she did nothing to help me with the pedophile she did nothing to help me with anything. she just made everything worse because she is senile old bag crazy nutter who medals in other peoples business and she is worst kind of preditor to any young woman, if she can't help sexually abused women and she couldn't even shut her mouth and listen and she should never have been paid I did more of the helping her then she helped me, i paid her for her to tell me all her problems rather then the other way around. she is a born abuser. she wronged me and she should take her non-sense out on the therapist who abused her not me, I did nothing to her. I had no control over any one but I know she is a control freak nutter who would have plotted to get me raped - she was determined to see me raped, failing university and unloved , unmarried and jobless and poor and desperately lost and without a friend or man I could love. i don't understand what it could do for her but for some reason it was very important for her to abuse and spred lies about our family and she was determined to break up my sister and her first husband, she was determined to make her I dropped out of university and she did nothing at all to support me over that vile dutch dirty animal bugsy and heather bashing me. she thought it was funny, everything was one big joke and she used to smerk and geer at everything painful I said like a crazy idiot on drugs. a number of my doctors has said joyce poorter have a server personality disorder who was torturing me

I told police ages ago I believed joyce to be helping ken and others abuse me, she helped in the get...

Abuse, Hate

joyce is a born troublemaker and she will die one! the mental case can't help herself, my doctor said he is glad I reported her and I am going to keep reporting her for the wrong she did to me - that mongrel vile satanic sicko women, no normal counsellor has sex with her clients and the dirty things she was doing and saying to me where sicko evil talk. she should be put in a jail for what she did to me. dirty vile disgusting woman I never ever should have met. dirty dutch animals. like the dirty german animals. vile disgusting dirty talk evil woman of the worst kind aiding and abetting pedophiles to abuse me. vile dirty criminal woman I never want to see ever again. she has no right to be counselling anyone my therapist said, no right at all.

joyce is a born troublemaker and she will die one! the mental case can't help herself, my doctor sai...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

if people are going to call me from these things they should say a number I can ring to prove who they are I don't have to give out information about my doctors to anyone and she was a bitchy rude woman and I didn't feel like she was helping me at and I didn't like her at all, I will be talking to my therapist about it her and why she didn't leave a numebr so I can prove who she is - she could be any troublemaker around trying to poison my relationships with doctors and I just don't trust joyce, joyce would stoop to any abusive level to harm me still, I just want that woman forced to contain herself and stop abusing me with mental disease she has. joyce is a poisonous dirty vile satanic witch. she abused me in ways I can't recover from and I don't trust her or anna-maria or anyone in this dirty little town, this worn out miserable old town of hell that has done me wrong!

if people are going to call me from these things they should say a number I can ring to prove who th...

Abuse, Hate

I know police and my doctors believe me about things but I am sick of busybody snotbag women talking over the top of me and she was saying she didn't want to know certain things but she knew of my therapist and I will be talking to him about that phone call it was rude , I hate therapist dirty women who talk over the top of me, and they talk rudely as if I talk shit and her phone call was like a pfishing to get info and she should have said who she was an a numebr for me to varify who she was because I don't trust women who want information but talk over the top of you and are rude saying "that is not why I am calling " well little dog what are you calling about you ruthless whore? troublemaker, anything from logan is a born troublemaker!

I know police and my doctors believe me about things but I am sick of busybody snotbag women talking...

Abuse, Hate

this old woman from logan called talking over the top of me extracting information from me I am going to report and find out who she is all she said was we gave you some 1300 number and I have no idea who the woman was or why she rang she didn't talked so quick and over the top of me, I will be telling my doctors about her because she annoyed me getting information and she could be any bitch trying cause trouble I don't trust people so many people have tried to poison my professional relationships with my doctors and I can't trust joyce that she would still try to medal in anything to cause me harm and she never helped me take the death threats parcel to th police as a normal caring therapist would and my neighbors next door who were attacking a man have been trying to make me look crazy but I know what I heard and saw and they were abusing me and attacking D and I they were making me ill having to listen to it night after night they were attacking a man. I can't trust my nieghbors at all and I want to move from this area there is nothing good for me in this dirty old little town of the redlands, its a dirty dirty morbid abusive town of mongrels who have done me wrong.

this old woman from logan called talking over the top of me extracting information from me I am goi...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

so this lawyer who has all these nazi 3rd Reich huge books in his cabinet was interviewing and openly masturbating himself on the other side of the desk while talking to me, that was weird, I admit I for a change took advantage of my weight loss and wore a short shift dress that was beige and crepe material and I loved the dress i couldnt believe I had the confidence to wear it or i was that thin because I was so shy and sexually un-informed or just not a flirty woman, but now and then I do dress up a bit to build up my confidence but that was a shock to me, and it was un-nerving for some really fat old guy to do that and the cops had just left because he sacked the receptionist and there had been some break in so I was like "I don't think this is the right job for me anyway", I mean I am so sexually shy it more likely to me the type to have secret crushes on men and masturbate in private its not that that really offended its the whole scene it was like some dream it strange and I was shocked a professional would openly do that at a meeting and he was strange with all the nazi stuff I would sooner talk that crap down. and it was a dodgy area at springwood. bloody strange. to openly do that at an interview its my god, man, at least you could wait til I leave, and he was acting like it was just normal ???? to do that in public ? it was no compliment anyway. he was old and married and strange. I don't think I could work in that.

so this lawyer who has all these nazi 3rd Reich huge books in his cabinet was interviewing and openl...

Pride, Abuse, Sex

they stole money and courses from me. I have no idea what this game is but my doctor does not like the sound of this guys game and he has had enough of these bullies upsetting me.

they stole money and courses from me. I have no idea what this game is but my doctor does not like t...

Abuse, Hate

mindfulness is not the answer- finding a husband and feeling wanted in employment is the answer. being bullied is not the answer.

mindfulness is not the answer- finding a husband and feeling wanted in employment is the answer. bei...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I have had enough of being abused by you guys alright. I have rights and my doctors are not impressed with the people who have been and are bullying me. go and find a new hobby!

I have had enough of being abused by you guys alright. I have rights and my doctors are not impresse...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I was nieve and stupid trusting the people I did, I was dumb for trusting joyce and ken and rick and that poxy film group, I was stupid for trusting the choirs and churches. I was dumb for trusting samatha who used me and put me with wrong men who were too old for me and we had nothing in common. ken and I had nothing in common in personality and that is the same with russell and wayne we had absolutely nothing in common at all. my sisters friends - allan and peter and I had nothing in common. no one treated me like a friend who was worthy of being important or being a pretty bride, I should never have trusted leigh morris, she was not caring about my needs and should never have been allowed to do that. if I had of known ken was not going to drive I would not have got in the car, I have noticed in the past I have done things to keep the peace at all costs, and I didn't pick up on what people were engineering for me that was not what I wanted. what would make someone thing that just because a girl says oh that person seems an ok sort of person does not mean you want sex with them no questions asked, just looking at someone is not enough for me, no person has ever lived up to what they say or what I expect of them. its made me question if my values and expectations are at a much higher level then others and I am more self aware and I am more reserved and not flirty and I dont put myself out there a lot anyway. I am not really in the mood for sex and love most of the time, I feel my skills are going to waste. I want a job and husband and ken and rick and russell were never ment to be in my personal place and world, they were other peoples friends and not ment to be my freind. just like most of the jobs. i never got one job I really wanted but I had jobs I learnt to do on the job and most were not to the standards I expected and not to the wages and care I expected, like I was in a specialist office and I was really impressed with how well this asian speicalist was treating his office staff. I have never been valued anywhere. people awlays soon forget me and regret employing me . no one ever asks me out enough. no one has ever given me what I need.

I was nieve and stupid trusting the people I did, I was dumb for trusting joyce and ken and rick and...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

ken made it clear to me that because I was so ugly that I should be grateful for him bothering to rape me up because no other guy had, but a few other freaks like my uncles had sexually assaulted me and a friend of my sisters has been sexually bullying to me and I just wish I had of been smarter about things like what I know now, but no one would help properly. and I am sure joyce poorter wanted me raped and thrown on the scrap heap. she had it in my sister and father as well and she does not even know them. and the woman had a mental disorder my doctor said so. she is crazy and he is glad I reported her.

ken made it clear to me that because I was so ugly that I should be grateful for him bothering to ra...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I have never been a liked or loved person. there is nothing loveable about me even when I was thin and young no one ever liked me to the standards I was expecting and that hurt me and made me feel like why is everyone else getting thejobs and guys? why are fat slobby dogs who are rude get love and I am too nice to even matter? why? how much of a murdering mongrel do I have to be to be good enough for a job or man?

I have never been a liked or loved person. there is nothing loveable about me even when I was thin a...

Abuse, Hate

anyone who is seek doing that "shhh" thing they are satanic occult people and they are socially engineering helping scum over the good people, and they just sicken me, as soon as I see it now I am sicked by them. I just don't trust anyone who pulls these stunts of "shh" don't trust them, they are into satanic occult and they are only out to harm you and pretend to be a friend but they are not your friend at all.

anyone who is seek doing that "shhh" thing they are satanic occult people and they are socially engi...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

both my sister and i were bullied as children in school, I had teachers calling me stupid and spastic and threatening to bash us for the most minor things like if we didn't know maths tables we were told we would get the kane, and other teachers making fun of me for many things like missing school when I was ill or being molested or after a friend of the family suicided or just anything there was about 3 different years like year 2 and year 5 and year 9 I was being lied about other kids making up lies about me, and I was bashed for it by them, if I stood up for myself you would be bullied. teachers throwing things at me and enciting the class to belittle me over missing school when I was being molested and an uncle tried to rape me, or when I collapsed on the oval and they just don't care. when I was at university I was bashed walking to the bus and that really effected me badly. because I was being stalked and sexually assaulted by another uncle and no one is there to support me and my needs, my rights, my health and no boyfriend to help me and its something that is so painful never being allowed to have a boyfriend and to be loved is just bullying and discrimination. how can I meet the right men if I am excluded from the workforce and places and all I get to meet is deadbeat losers. that is still discrimination and bullying and social programming and social engineering and a lot of people are unaware of it that a lot of people are being pushed into roles or push with men that are completely unsuitable to them. I know its been happening to me since I was a child or teen, and young adult, stopped from having pride in work and body health and acheivements and stopped from having normal loving sexual relationships and I know I have been socially engineered by bullies like joyce, russos, the dutch lot who are just mercyless evil people. and they have stopped me from feeling safe and being allowed love and relationships and they only help other dutch or these nazi germanic superiority groups who used to bully us as kids- and by god did these nazi bastards know how to bully and fuck. I am not joking these lot knew how to fuck the lights out of any man, and people don't realise the bullying these germans do for all the sex they get from rich and famous people and hotties, and there is an occult like structure to it all. they get fucks for their women with hot guys everywhere and jobs with not much education. and I am sick of these people pushing me with UGLIES and IDIOTS and DEADBEATS.

both my sister and i were bullied as children in school, I had teachers calling me stupid and spasti...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

my parents even rang them at russos and said why are you bullying my daughter? she always turns up for job interviews but for a few when I was sick or the day I literally got lost walking in a new place to get to a job interview and I literally had a panic attack in this bush area and was afraid of being attacked. and they were even ignoring doctors letters, like hopsitals - I had 3 gp's letters trying to admit me into normal hospital when I had a mastoid infection and they said they would only put me in a psychiatritic section and I would have to be a compulsary patient which does not make sense and there has been a huge investigation into certain psychiatric hospitals, one doctor who interviewed me didn't even sound like a genuine doctor it (and I am sorry if that offend anyone) but it didn't look like a woman or a man, was so rude to me calling me simple and I was not passing law at university because I lacked the IQ to pass rather then all the childhood bullying and sexual abuse and all the bullying at russos and colleges and being bashed and abused by woman over men. and being raped, how can this foreign doctor say that when everybody on this planet knows that bullying does impare learning over time it can make anyones work performance or academic performance fail and suffer. no husband, always being bashed over guys, then being raped, having abusive therapists who don't know what the god dam hell they are doing. joyce said to me "no man would ever love me til I got down literaly on my hands and knees and barked like a dog" and I was acting it out she was saying I had welfare mentality getting austudy and I should be a prosititute and when Iwas working in a place where a prostitute had been murdered all she could say was I had to have sex out of anger to overcome my abuse issues as a child, every therapist I have spoken to has said that is evil talk. russos started bullying me calling me lazy and yet later said I was one of their more honest job seekers, and they kept sending me for jobs like truck driver (I don't have a licence) and hardware assistant when there were over 6 men in the room that could have done that job better then most women. they were treating me as if I had no academic ability and no skills to work, they had on woman bully me to the point I told them off and my doctor said what they were doing was bullying me not letting me exercise or stick to my diet and not allowing me personal time, I had to show over 25 jobs I applied for each week. my father used to literally have scrap books he kept all of them in and there are certain people in australia being bullied from work or having work or education and personal life or love life, only the workers are allowed sex. and if you have a more obvious disability or black you are more likely to get work then a single white women with a unseen disability. I was just bullied by other disability people, in churches, choirs, party plan nutrimetics - where this crazy sally woman drink drives and runs red lights and verbally abuses none stop and my doctor literally told me to tell her "if manish women like you on the pill for the last 30 years didn't keep getting married all the time - 3 husband and 3 kids to as many men, then maybe there would be opportunities for women like me", and sally has no ability to see the harm she did to me, she made me ill and she has no right bullying people in the nutrimetics, she is making the company look bad with her drinking and their alcoholic culture and bullying new people. sally is so manlike and nasty there is just nothing nice to say about her. she is a woman that has been on the pill for 30 years and having babies selfishly always getting married as the hotty bride when she is not a nice personal at all. she does not care, she makes out its about the people but its not. its about selling. sally caused me to have heart pain and ear infection speeding in her car with the windows down. you don't need to bully people to that point. this day after day and night after night of why haven't you got customers and parties booked, yet I had a fashion show booked and I can't help it if people won't buy from me, its because its me that they won't buy, its like my dad was black listed from work after some famous footballers spiked his drinks in the office and he was found unconscious on the floor this country works by who is the biggest bully and doctors and bosses and the navy has a rape culture that all women have experienced this rape culture if you be honest with yourself as a women you have been bullied and raped by them. its just a fact. it goes in universities, hospitals and everywhere, its getting worse infact, some are even killing people. driving people insane to either be bullies, because sooner or later if you have been bullied enough you will bully back to gain your ground, you will be forced to by the other bullies to maintain that bullying culture. and its the same with these job networks they are bullying people to the point of suicide and murder and pushing drugs to get work and its just morally so wrong. that is not what god intended for us. the churches are bullying blacks and women and men. its done in a very covert way but its going on.

my parents even rang them at russos and said why are you bullying my daughter? she always turns up f...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

there were a few of these fat mean ass bullies at russos as well, everytime they look at me with daggers from day 1 of going there and daf was just like that fat old nasty gruff one who was abusive towards me. I should have reported them. people with disabilities don't need to feel that unsafe around bullies.

there were a few of these fat mean ass bullies at russos as well, everytime they look at me with dag...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

my grandfathers sister daf abused the crap out of me, I did nothing to her she was a huge fat bully she had absolute hate spitting out of her eyes at me and I was thin at the time, I did nothing to this old rich bitch. I hate people who are nasty like her. I felt unsafe around her.

my grandfathers sister daf abused the crap out of me, I did nothing to her she was a huge fat bully ...

Abuse, Hate