Confessions about 'Bu'

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anita goes on with this rubbish about "oh we won the fight over catherine" I mean this is the bs I have to put up with like in my street with donna and next door and these churches. they had a moral victory over an abused child and raped woman, neglected woman. and I am bored by the way the rsl and navy and ken and leigh are so adimant they are didn't act dishorabley - it might be the the present era but that does not mean morals should be put down and mum is personally offended that leigh treated us quest entrants like whores on a navy ship and I didn't want to go. I was ill I told the simple woman that I can't help it if she had a chip on her shoulder about her husband leaving her I didn't want him! stupid woman! its not business like or professional the way she was allowing girls to be violated and the drinking and her stupid smurking at people like she is so clever the rest of us are stupid cuz she has a job with the rsl. they were abusive. mum and dad said "we paid to be abused!we paid to be assaulted once more" and why????

anita goes on with this rubbish about "oh we won the fight over catherine" I mean this is the bs I h...

Abuse, Hate

kelly and anita and a lot of people with disability are verbally, suggestibily, secretivitly very violent in mind and words and deeds and abusive to other people with less obvious disability. I am sure they are aware of what they are doing. they have been very used to playing two faced abusive games and go from man to man successive marriages and partners and walking over people, I seen the same thing in sally, this woman who is supposed to have had a serious accident that needs to go bungy jumping if she had such bad neck injuries like I did why does she feel the need to be so abusive and uncaring to people who have been through illness and abuse? I feel imposed apon that I have to lower myself to be abusive back - my counsellor told me to- so did the police make it clear to people you have gone without a husband and child and career and been abused and ill and you don't have to take their bullying and them trying to walk over me. that is why I rang that consultants office and said after the way you spoke to me I have been ill and I don't appreciate this, this is not businesslike and its rude and what gives a company the right to penalise people over being ill missing an appointment, its like they are robbing you and make out its some crime to be ill or have a accident or cancel an appointment. I don't always have money even to pay for the bus fair believe it or not.

kelly and anita and a lot of people with disability are verbally, suggestibily, secretivitly very vi...

Abuse

why do people get so offended by the word spastic? people used to call me spastic as a child, my relatives and other kids and I just used to make it into a joke really. it hurt sometimes but to be honest it is a real word in the dictionary to describe a illness. suddenly people put a slur on the word like gay, its a word in the dictionary to describe a feeling. what the hell is wrong with people? they used to it the spastic appeal or society, so why do people act like oh its so nasty. have you seen how abusive anita treats people who have disability ? she does not treat people equally and she is highly abusive as is her pathetic whore friend the doctors receptionist and he is just as abusive and narscistic when there are better men out there then him? there are lot of men better then him there are lots of better doctors then him.

why do people get so offended by the word spastic? people used to call me spastic as a child, my rel...

Abuse, Hate

what I don't understand with anita is why didn't she just say "thankyou for offering to help with the sausage sizzles and fundraising but just keep doing the singing and if you don't want to do a solo (cuz there was heaps of better people then me who could have that was obvious) or I will place you where you won't feel uncomfortable on stage, when I did public speaking lessons my tutor worked with me to boast up my confidence to do my speach that I thought I could never do but I did, all anita had to say was a few nice words she should not have asked me over to her house and their childish non-sense they were going on with, they had already chosen their dash sponsors so why did she lie to me as some game? why not just be honest and open, and that was what I didn't like also about mary in the psychology. I will not lie about things, I never felt comfortable with ken and that whole situation I was pushed into by leigh and my mum and dad said "don't let that ever happen to you ever again" make it clear to people your not there to be abused not by dirty doctors or dirty priests who have some hidden agendas and fake hearts fake everything but their wallets and skull duggery. yeh anita gets help to write her music she supposedity makes it all to sound deliberately sickly fake "matey" bs! that she can not live up to as a human because she is so evil. but when you have a son of slut bastard useless ill moraled doctor or some other fake man in the middle of it you have trouble. at least anita can't say I didn't help her and her illness - my family have had spine abifita but that doesn't mean she has to be such a pig! there is a way of speaking to someone. she could have just said "I am sorry you are going through this, just keep coming to choir" she went on with all these lies about "I know some of you are having terrible abuse family problems but does she know how bad it is, how violent my sister and father and mother have been to me at times. she makes out she cares infront of people but she doesn't its all about ego and money with her. but like I said she can't say I didn't help her with royalty companions and compliements to their singing birdy! who is not so nice at all. a very nasty witch around a heap of bitches. that is why I complained in that receptionist whores ear because she has everything all these poeple have everything! I wish I could be so selfish.

what I don't understand with anita is why didn't she just say "thankyou for offering to help with th...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

so I have another 12-20 rosebud chocolate stems for the breast cancer fashion show and I haven't even eatten them. or used sally's or nutrijunks shit either. I have shit from here shit from there. people think they can make up for their abuse by material things which deeply offense me.

so I have another 12-20 rosebud chocolate stems for the breast cancer fashion show and I haven't eve...

Abuse, Hate

In the same day, I had sex with a 19yo girl and a 45yo woman. The girl is in one of my college classs. The woman is a teacher of mine. This wasn't the first time. They don't know about one another. I broke it off with both of them because my conscience overcame my libido. Still, I'll never forget when I broke the condom with my nail and emptied my balls into my teacher. The 19yo girl was different; she never asked for a condom, and I enjoyed being the first and only man to cum in her young pussy. She didn't enjoy swallowing, but I made her do it anyway (her first time). I made her give her anal virginity to me. Finally, I talked her into fucking another man just to please me. I used to choke her and make her call me Daddy as I filled her with my seed. She swore she would spread her legs for me whenever I wanted, even if she got married in future. I'm considering going back to her. She used to wait in bed, naked, at the specified time; I would enter her home, undress, and fuck her without saying a word. She says she loves me; I know she does, because she fucks other men when I tell her to. (We still talk...) I know I'm a monster. I just don't care.

In the same day, I had sex with a 19yo girl and a 45yo woman. The girl is in one of my college class...

Adultery, Love, Abuse, Violence, Sex

it really should have been me who won the lotto rather then other relatives. I am a bear at the best of times and gold bug and very tight with money and occasional flamboyant moves, I like strong investment and mostly reality land and stayed and steady type investments. I am rather old fashioned in a lot of things but not everything. like I found it highly offensive for so many teachers to be making comments about "the boys usually go into criminal law and debt collection and wills and estates and the girls mostly go into conveyancing and family law where there is no money to be made" and their sexist responses about a lot of things was highly offensive!

it really should have been me who won the lotto rather then other relatives. I am a bear at the best...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

most of the men I have liked have been academic university teachers or busines men from overseas or male models I had crushes on, but I make a point of avoiding a lot of people now and I want to meet people I love meeting new people and having friends but I have never had a real friend ever.

most of the men I have liked have been academic university teachers or busines men from overseas or ...

Pride, Abuse

I have never been big on love. I have been in love or had a lot of crushes on different men, but men don't return any emotional exchanges to me even as a teen or young woman people always thought I was younger I looked younger and sounded younger in my voice even now people say you don't sound your age. I tell them well I feel a dam sight older then my age at times the pain I am always in for the last 10 years when I got some weird virus the doctors thought it was whooping cough and then I seem to get a lot of viruses for a while after a bat peed on me at night at work. I knew that was witchcraft abuse. I wouldnt know what love was. it wasn't rick and it wasn't all the weird friends of my sisters husbands either, it was not ken and it was not even frank. I think love is for the rich and lucky and selfish. love is a selfish act, it requires you to only think of yourself and be unware of anyone elses needs, which I was never taught to do. I wish I had been taught to be selfish and conceited young. it would have helped to be taught that and pushy and bitchy and bold, I was too shy to help myself.

I have never been big on love. I have been in love or had a lot of crushes on different men, but men...

Abuse, Hate

now I have all this wedding stuff I still want to get married, I wanted to get married when I was young, I actually wanted a baby when I was 16 but I knew I had to wait and go learn and work first but I never met the right men at the right time. fuck you dirty bitchy world and dirty bitch god and all the winners. yeh If I had known this was going to happen I would have told that lotto office where to stick their lotto up their assholes. it never served me much. it did nothing to help me really that life wouldn't have but made people hate me. so I can hate rich and clever people back now. I dropped out of university 3 times after each bashing over a unsuccessful relationship attempts and felt so defeated and a failure that men my own age were rejecting me and all these loser old farts I hated were getting in my way - now I just scream at the cunts and bastards to "GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY OR I WILL BASH AND KILL YOU"

now I have all this wedding stuff I still want to get married, I wanted to get married when I was yo...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

normal people get to have real boyfriends and get asked out regularly and have choices. normal people have rights. normal people get to look professional! I hate normal people so much.

normal people get to have real boyfriends and get asked out regularly and have choices. normal peopl...

Abuse, Hate

other people are allowed holidays and bankcards and snotty jobs and like they really do live up to all their resume bullshit when most of them are losers overflated egos and not much skill or talent or looks. every year they go off to their parties and weddings and new sex partners and babies and houses and cars and act like they are better then everyone else when they are not.

other people are allowed holidays and bankcards and snotty jobs and like they really do live up to a...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

other normal people have friends that care and can have get married and have a right to a wedding and a baby and home and events to look forward to but me. why? I am sick of this rubbish life. I need more money to study and for my health. I pay all this money out and I feel scammed.

other normal people have friends that care and can have get married and have a right to a wedding an...

Abuse, Hate

I bought some wedding things for my portfolio or whatever??? as if I could find a husband like normal people do anyway? as if I could work like normal people do?

I bought some wedding things for my portfolio or whatever??? as if I could find a husband like norma...

Abuse, Hate

I wish I knew what was so wrong with me why I am abused and not many people help me. like not one person really helped me about the sexual abuse or rape, yeh I go see a therapist which is all top coating nothing. we never talk deeply about real feelings I never get to talk about those things with anyone. I guess I am just not ment to have feelings. I can't help feel that god is not so great when I have been abused and evil wins over the good. I am being bullied and I am sick of their abuse.

I wish I knew what was so wrong with me why I am abused and not many people help me. like not one pe...

Abuse, Hate

makes you wonder who was it the read all the notes in 1978 and who didn't like me to play such evil games on me over cousins, teachers, bands and more. and I was just 6 turning 7and they try to make out i am to blame - i think not.

makes you wonder who was it the read all the notes in 1978 and who didn't like me to play such evil ...

Abuse, Hate

steves mother and sister abused me as a child. uncanny how they turned up after I wrote that I had a crush on my cousin steven and his mothers name was the same as my cousins steves mother and she was abusive to me as well. she told so many lies her purse was stapled abusing kids. and I am sure she raped my then teen cousin.

steves mother and sister abused me as a child. uncanny how they turned up after I wrote that I had a...

Abuse, Hate

just because i have a black chocolate part havana cat doesn't mean I love black men. I love my cat. not black men.

just because i have a black chocolate part havana cat doesn't mean I love black men. I love my cat. ...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

just because I wear a blue top or eat devilled sausages or go on a cruise boat does not mean its a sign I am interested in ken, I have told you this over and over and over again. I wear what colors I have or go on a boat or eat food from a shop it does not mean I am inviting ken to me. cuz if he does he will be attacked by my whole family my mother and father and sister and I all will bash and attack him so stop thinking its making you win because it is not. just like if I wear green doesn't mean I want to see russel or just because I talk to kim does not mean I want to be blonde or not. just because I had a go at sally about her selfish sexual games of stealing men on other women all the time, doesn't mean I am interested in her dentist. etc I am sick of this bs!

just because I wear a blue top or eat devilled sausages or go on a cruise boat does not mean its a s...

Pride, Abuse, Hate

I hated him. do you understand that I hated the sight the smell, the sex, I never chose to be with him like that either. if I had known he was not going to drive the car I would never have a agreed to that drive home by that dirty little navy boat. mum said leigh morris should have been punished and was promoting us girls in the quest as some sort of whores for these creepy ugly married loser deadbeat spastic men that had nothing good to offer someone like me. my mother does not like the rsl or ken or leigh. my mother and father said it was all evil what they did to me.

I hated him. do you understand that I hated the sight the smell, the sex, I never chose to be with h...

Pride, Abuse, Hate